Then I will just us away in my bedroom. The guys handle anything that comes up, and they will bring us food when we to recharge.â
I laughed so I thought I would pass out. âI dont think that will go over very well, either.â I just pictured the on the other guysâ fa Patrick told them his plan.
faces when Patrick grinned. âI donât hear you say no, though. Love.â
1 never ; I like the idea as much as you as you ,â I said.
Still smiling, Patrick took my hand and led me to the corner of the living room, where the reading chairs were. He sat down and pulled me into his lap, and we just talked, keeping everything light and playful. After a while, though, I grew quiet, and Patrick tilted my head to see my face.
âAre you doing okay, Love? Itâs been a hard week,â he said gently. He then began playing with my hair, wrapping it his finger and tugging gently.
has been,â I said.â And I still need to out what I have to do now that both my parents are gone, the guyâs dad is still missing, and all that other stuff going on. Part of me just to say fuck it focus on us and our future, you know something good and positive for a change.â I sighed, further into his chest.
âThen do it. You know we will all be there anything you want to do,â
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know you guys are, but it makes me feel like Iâm just hiding from the problems. Iâm tired of running and hiding.â
Patrick wrapped his arms around me, kissing the top of my head. âYou are one of the strangest, most selfâreliant people I have ever known. We are building our own family, and we love you as much as you love us. The history with your parents and all the other baggage that goes with it, you can let it go now; we have you, I promise.â
it I loved that he had so much faith in me, more than I could ever tell him. But stillâ¦..
âTalk to me, Love. I dont have magical knowledge to see whatâs going on in that beautiful head of yours, but Iâm here; if I can fix it, I will, but if you just need someone to listen, I can do that too.â He tugged gently on my hair again. âTell me how I can help Love.â
âI want answers to things I will probably never know,â I said, âOkay, letâs take it one question at a . What do you want to know?â
âI want to know why my mother left my father. Why did she never come back for me or try to contact me? Do I have any other relatives somewhere? How much do I take after her?â
First of all, you are nothing like your mother. She was a selfish, moneyâhungry bitch, and you dont have a single selfish greedy bone in that amazing body of yours, Patrick said, and I smiled at the firmness in his voice.
âI love âI love you too, he winked.â
âDo you want to try to find out if you have any other relatives out there?â
âI donât know; I never wanted to know before, but now⦠A headache began to pulse behind my eyes because this was one of the biggest questions 1 had been thinking about.
âDid you not want to know, or are afraid of being disappointed in what you find if you do look Love?â
I shifted in Patrickâs lap until I sat sideways and could look at him more easily.
âI have been thinking about my mom and stepfather. About the choices she made when she left me behind with my father. Why did she marry someone with children and was around them but never wanted me,â I reached out and caught fingers. I have been hating her for so long, ever since my father began hurting me. I want answers I will never get now.â He traced his free hand down my cheek before cupping my face.
âI get why you want to understand, which is why you are nothing li like your mother. Love.
have a big heart and looking something to forgive Chapter I made a face at him. âI donât think I have a big heart.â
âI do,â Patrick as his smile grew. âThat big heart of made room to love , it loves us even when we are being asses, and none of us ever want that .
My face heated with a blush, and his smile softened.
âYou showed us it was possible to love all of us. We donât need to compete for your attention. You make sure each of us has the time we need with you. You are the one who brought us together as a family.â He turned me in his lap again, kissed my nose, rested his forehead against mine.
Iâm trying to tell you not to be afraid to look for your answers. None of us want to see you hurt, so we will all be there for every step you take, and if you do find some relatives you never knew about and they ever do something to hurt you, well, you wonât have to about it we will be there.â Then he was cupping my face again and kissing me, his lips so gentle it Though Patrick could have joined the others in their game, we didnât. He kept me cuddled in his lap, and we kissed and held other. I had a feeling if we had more privacy would been riding him already, but wile Patrick didnât mind sharing me when we were all together in the bedroom. He was not into others just watching him..
I began to wonder what he would do if I surprised him by not wearing panties but just my sleep shorts one time. The idea made my core clench. I would have to find time to surprise each them.
My life was so different now. I had five guys I loved, and here I was, thinking up ways to tease and drive them wild. I didnât think it would be that hard; they loved teasing me, and Now, I was going to do the same to them.
âSo, did the twins treat you well earlier?â
I almost fell out of his lap, but Patrick caught me and pulled me close to him.
âIâm not going to tell you that,â I croaked, heat rushing across my face.
Yes can,â He whispered, âYou can tell anything, Josh has been teaching me a few things.â
Yep, just kill me now, before I die of embarrassment. I think my face was actually on fire now; I was blushing so hard.
âAnd in case you were wondering,â He continued to whisper. âI canât wait to try out it what I have learned with you.â
Oh fuck.
Iâm so paying him back for this. I would have to get right on it.
Pulling back to look into his eyes, I tilted head and gave him my sweetest smile.
âShow me.
âBelieve me, Love; I will show you everything.â He growled. Then I in his arms, passing the guys on the couch. Ignoring their teasing, he carried me to his bedroom and locked the door behind . He dropped me in the middle of his bed; then he stood above me all cavemanâlike before pulling me toward him to show me everything he learned.