Olivia POV Raphael had to leave for some reason. I could see worry all over his face. I donât know if it was because of work or for leaving Mike so soon.
He is in good hands anyway.
I excuse myself and walk to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and I almost donât recognise myself. I thought pregnant women were supposed to be all glowing and beautiful. I feel bloated and my skin is horrible.
It feels like I am going back to being a teenager.
I empty my bladder and then wash my hands. I pull my hair up into a ponytail. I donât feel as glamorous as I hear a pregnant woman feel.
I start to feel bad about myself for not enjoying this pregnancy as all the other women did. I feel guilty at some point. So may woman would kill for this experience and thereâs me, not enjoying it. Donât get me wrong. I love the idea of having a baby, but my anxiety is high. I donât like how I am feeling and I donât know if I can tell Raphael. I donât know how he will react if I tell him how I am feeling right now.
I take a deep breath and walk out of the bathroom.
I walk to the nursery and both babies are asleep and Maria is sitting on the rocking chair reading a book.
She looks at me and smiles when she sees me standing at the door.
âEverything okay?â - I whisper Maria nods her head with a smile and I walk back out towards the living room where my brother is sitting with Anna and Petra. John and his boyfriend James are nowhere to be seen.
âWhere is John?â - I ask âI bet they are just looking at the view outside in the balconyâ - Anna says blinking an eye. Yeah, sightseeing. I can see that. I laugh to myself.
The conversation is flowing. Petra starts telling us about her relationship with Joseph and how they had someone else in their lifeâs. I already knew that but I can see she is not happy anymore.
John and James return and they join in the conversation. They both look flushed and I can tell they were doing more than looking at the view of New York.
âHave you told Joseph, about how you are feeling?â - I ask Petra shakes her head.
âMaybe you should, you know he loves you and he would do anything to see you happyâ
âI am pregnant she saysâ
I jump out of my seat and hug her.
âCongratulationsâ - everyone started to say.
âThank youâ
âDoes Joseph knows?â - Anna asks âNot yet, I donât know how he is going to react, kids were never on our plans, but it just happenedâ
âI bet he is gonna go insane, he loves you so much, he will love this kid with all his heart, just look at Raphaelâ - I say âIf the shark can love unconditionally I think Joseph will be able tooâ - John says and I agree.
Joseph is a caring guy, he would never do anything to hurt Petra. I know he had his indiscretions but so did she. They made it work. I donât know if I would ever be able to forgive Raphael if he cheated on me.
The conversation keeps going and I am getting tired. Raphael is not back yet and I am starting to get worried.
âAre you going to be longâ - I text him Raphael doesnât reply. A thousand things pop into my head. He is injured. He is somewhere hurt.
Where the hell is he. He is with another woman. No, no, he wouldnât do that.
My insecurities start to creep in and I decide to go to bed after everyone left. Petra offered to stay but I knew she was tired. The first trimester was disgraceful for me. I hope that Raphael is back soon, I donât like to sleep alone on that big bed. I miss his body warmth next to me.
I go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then I walk to the dressing room to change into one of Raphaelâs t-shirts. I need to go shopping for maternity clothes.
I lay down but sleep refuses to take me. I look at the time and itâs two Am and nothing of Raphael, not even a text.
Where the hell is he?
I donât want to bother Petra but I am worried now. I didnât think he was going to be this long.
I grab my phone and I message Petra.
âSorry if I woke you, is Joseph back?â
I wait for a reply but she hasnât read it. What was I thinking of texting someone at two in the morning?
I get up and walk to Mikeâs nursery and Maria is asleep on the single bed in his room.
I walk to the crib and I smile looking down at this perfect little boy.
Maria must be tired.
I put a blanket on top of her covering her body as it is a little cold today.
I walk to the living room and I sit on the sofa holding my phone while I wrap myself on a blanket and turn the tv on.
Thereâs nothing special on tv so I turn it off and I walk to the bookshelf grabbing a book about werewolves and vampires. I love this kind of supernatural romances.
I start reading and when I notice itâs around four In the morning when Raphael walks into the penthouse.
He doesnât see me. He takes a deep breath as he walks in and takes his shoes off.
Heâs got blood all over his T-shirt and I can feel my heart skipping a beat.
Shit is he hurt?
I stand up fast and walk to him.
âShit you scared meâ - he says when I hug him from behind.
I can feel the dry blood in his shirt where my hands are resting on his chest.
âAre you hurt?â - I ask afraid of hearing the answer.
âNoâ - he says turning around and scooping my face on his hands to make me look into his eyes.
âWhy arenât you in bed?â
âI was worriedâ
âI am fine, see, not even a scratch, come on letâs get you to bedâ - he says and we walk holding hands to the bedroom.
I lay down as soon as we get to the bedroom and Raphael goes have a shower. I can hear the water running and I close my eyes taking a deep breath. I donât know how long it took me but I start to feel I am drifting off to sleep. Having Raphael around is enough to make me feel calmer and sleep.
Hello everyone.
I am not going to update tomorrow.
Family day.
Another chapter on Monday.
Stay safe Love Peyton