Chapter 76: Chapter 75 - The bad news

Raphael POV I grab my jacket, keys and phone and walked out of my office.

“Cancel all my meetings and get Tim to call me” - I telly secretary while I walk out. Once I reach my car I take a seat on the driver side and connect my phone to the car.

I start calling Maria “Hello?”

“Maria, did you get the phone call too?”

“Yes I did, I am on a cab as we speak”

“Okay I’ll see you there” - I say.

What the fuck is happening?

I drive as fast as I can and I park in the visitation area. I get out of the car and as I am walking through the door I see Maria. She is crying.

When Maria sees me she hugs me and I feel my heart skipping a beat.

“What happened?” - I ask while I caress her back.

“It was just too much”

“What?”

“Mr Lockwood” - the doctor says appearing from behind Maria.

“Doctor, what happened?”

“I am so sorry to inform you that Tammy passed away last night”

“What? How did that happen?” - I ask with shock in my voice.

“She used her sheet to hang herself in the bathroom “

“How did you let this happen?” - I ask facing the doctor and letting go of Maria.

Tammy was a bitch but she is the mother of my son. I wanted to kill her sometimes but our baby needs her. Even after she signed all their parental rights to me I was gonna let her be a part of our baby. How could she do this to him? How could she do this to her mother?

“She was doing a lot better sir, so we thought we could give her privileges”

“So you killed her” - I say now getting too close to the doctor.

“Sir, I am sorry for your loss” - he says “I will destroy this place for what you’ve done” - I say with my face covered in rage.

“Raphael. Stop” - Maria says placing her hands on my arm.

I look at her not understanding what she is on about.

“She wanted this, at least we have the baby to remind me of her”

I face Maria and I can see her tears running through her face.

“Are you sure?”

“Please let’s go home” - Maria says I nod my head and I look at the doctor.

“I will send someone to deal with the paperwork” - I say “Yes sir” - he says and shakes my hand. I hug Maria and we walk out of the recovery centre. I thought I was doing the right thing to have Tammy committed here, she needed help, she was unstable.

I know that Maria is blaming me, but I thought I was doing the right thing for her and our son.

I open the door for Maria to get in. She looks me in the eyes and as if she knew what I am thinking she says - “it wasn’t your fault, it was the no-ones fault “

Maria sits in the car and I close the door. I can see the paparazzi taking photos and rage takes over.

“Why don’t you all piss off?” - I say when I get into the car.

I start the car and drive away. I drive slower than I usually do. I don’t want Maria telling me off.

The drive was silent. Tim starts ringing me and I answer.

“Tim?”

“Raphael, the meeting with the bank went sideways “

“Fuck, what happened?”

“They want to increase the insurance “

“Are you shitting me?”

“I’ll deal with it, just thought you would like to know”

“Thanks, if you can’t handle it today I’ll do it tomorrow, they won’t even know what hit them”

“Yeah, is Olivia okay?”

“Yeah, I’m going home now, I’ll talk to you later on”

“Sure”

We end the call and I can see Maria is distracted looking out of the window. When we arrive at our building she waits for me to open the door for her and that’s what I do. When she gets out of the car we walk to the lift. I press her floor and we both exit. She opens the door to her flat and we both get inside.

“Coffee?” - she asks “Something stronger if you have” - I say and she nods walking to a little trolley where she has her booze.

“Whiskey okay?”

“Perfect” - I say while I open my jacket and sit on the sofa.

Maria brings the glass and sits next to me sipping on her own.

“Maria I am so sorry” - I say looking at her “She was tired” - she says “I don’t know what I should’ve done, but I thought “ - Maria interrupts me.

“She loved you, and not having you was killing her slowly “

I look at the floor while I fiddle with the glass on my hands.

“I am grateful for my son” - I say looking at her face.

“I know, I love that little boy”

“So do I “ - I say “I will pay for everything Maria”

“What do you mean?”

“The funeral” - I say “Thank you son” - she says with tears rolling down her face.

I get closer to her after I put my glass down on the table next to me. I hug Maria close and tight. I can feel her shaking while she cries the loss of her daughter. I can’t even imagine what she is feeling.

I can’t imagine my life without my baby boy already.

I let go of Maria when she stopped crying and I notice she fell asleep.

I stand up from the sofa and I lay her down. I go looking for a blanket. I walk to the bedrooms and I open one door and I find myself in Tammy’s room.

My eyes go wide looking at the walls. There were hundreds of photos of me. Photos from newspapers, magazines, photos os me walking on the street.

What the fuck is this?

I take a step inside and I start looking at the walls. She had everything that came out on the press about me. If I didn’t know any better I would’ve been worried. She was obsessed with me. This was not healthy.

I look around and I find an envelope on her desk. It has my name.

I grab it and I take it with me while I sit on the end of her bed.

I tear the envelope and I start reading the handwritten letter.

*LETTER*

Raphael, If you are reading this letter it means that you have our baby, and I am dead. I am writing this letter when I am 20 weeks pregnant. I just found out we are having a baby boy. I don’t know what the future holds but if you are seeing this is because I don’t have a future anymore.

Please look after him, look after our baby, make him the happiest baby boy in the world. I don’t know if you named him already but I would like you to call him Michael. I know how important Michael was for you.

I am sorry about everything that I put you through. I only had you a couple of times. But that was enough for me. I need you to know that I loved you and that I don’t blame you for anything. I don’t blame you for my death.

I hope you can raise Michael, I hope you tell him about me. I wrote a letter to him. For when he turns 18, I hope you can give it to him.

Raphael, you were the love of my life. Believe when I say that you were my last thought before I went to sleep and the first before I wake up.

Help mamma. She will need you now more than ever.

I love you Tammy”

I take a deep breath and I get the blanket that is next to me and I walk to the living room. I put the blanket on top of Maria and I leave the letter on the table so she can read it.

I don’t know if will make her feel worse or better. But I don’t think it would be right for me to keep it from her.

I place a soft kiss on her forehead and I walk out of her flat. When I open the door of the penthouse I see Olivia dancing in the middle of the living room. She had her EarPods on.

She looks so happy and I am about to burst her bubble. I stand there near the door with my arms crossed on my chest. Just taking her in. She is so beautiful. My girl.

Hi everyone.

So Tammy is dead.

I will update another chapter tomorrow Stay safe Love Peyton