Chapter 32: Chapter 31 - I can't

Olivia POV I can hear the double door opening and I look, kind of afraid of who it might be, but it was him. It was Raphael. It was MY Raphael.

I started running towards him as if it was a scene from a film and I jump at him making our bodies collide and I wrap my arms around his neck. As if it was an instinct Raphael lifts my body and I wrap my legs around his waist. There was no sexual tension at this point. Just relief, for both of us. Is like I can breathe again.

My head falls into space between his neck and shoulder and I can smell his aftershave. I absolutely love it. Davidoff Champion. That’s his smell and I am sniffing him when I hear him talking.

“Olivia look at me”

I lift my head looking deeply into his blue-sky eyes and my heart skipped a beat. I smile looking at him.

His voice comes out almost as in a whisper “Kiss me woman” – he didn’t need to say it again. My lips collapse on his lips and I feel a soft taste of Vodka. He parts his lips and our tongues met and explore each other. My heart is beating so fast that I think I am going to die.

We stop kissing and he puts me down. I look up at him as his eyes are dark, he is looking at me as if examining my body to see if I am hurt “Hey. Look at me” – I say holding his chin pointing his face towards mine “I am okay, no-one touched me, I am okay”

With that, he pulls me into a bear hug and he is hugging me as if his life was depending on it “I need air” – I say and he let me go.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the lift pressing the Ground floor button and hugged me again. He wasn’t saying anything so I allowed ourselves to go down in silence.

We walk out of the hotel and he opens the car door for me to get in. When I do he walks to the other side and takes the driver seat.

“Is everyone ok?” – I ask All he does is nod his head. I don’t know what is happening in that head of his but I know he is scared.

And he doesn’t want to talk.

Raphael starts driving and I recognize the way we are going, we are going back to our penthouse. I allow myself to relax, no harm had come to me, but I know that Raphael is worried something happened.

We arrive at the penthouse garage and Raphael jus stays sitting, he’s not moving, he’s not even looking at me.

I open the door to get out and that is the first time for the last 35 min that he looks at me.

“We need to talk” – he says and my heart skips a beat. That is the most dreaded sentence someone can say to their girlfriend.

I look at him and his face is not giving anything. He is emotionless.

“Okay” – I say fiddling with my fingers to contain my nervous breakdown.

“I can’t do this”

“What?” - I ask not believing my ears, he can’t be breaking up with me, not after all of this.

“Us, I can’t Olivia” – he says looking deadly serious.

“You have to be kidding me right now” – I say “No, I can’t be worried about you all the time, I live a dangerous life and I can’t afford to have someone that can be used against me” – I can’t believe he just said that to me.

I just nod my head feeling the tears burn in my eyes. I clean my eyes with the sleeve from his jumper that I am wearing.

“You can stay tonight in the guest room, I will have everything taken to your flat on the upper west side”

I don’t even care he is saying stupid things like I will be moving to the upper west side. He is breaking up with me, I don’t want anything from him.

I get out of the car and I can hear his door closing after I closed mine. I walk towards the lift and I feel my body numb.

I get inside and he follows me keeping his distance. I avoid looking at him, smelling him is torture enough. My arms are fallen to the side of my body and I feel like I am going to die. I can’t breathe. I just need to scream.

Once the lift stops we both get out and I walk straight into the guest room locking the door behind me and I allow myself to cry.

After what felt like hours I stopped crying and I look out of the window and the sun is coming out. So I decide to walk into Raphael’s room and pack my bags, I saw 2 of my luggage’s on the corner of his dressing room.

I decide not to knock and I walk in to find Tammy wrapped up in bed with Raphael. My heart hurts, tears form again o my eyes but I walk straight past them into the dressing room opening both my luggage’s on the floor and I start throwing the clothes inside, I walk towards the bathroom and grab all of my toiletries and throw it in the bags. After I finish grabbing as much as I can I walk out of the dressing room to find Tammy awake and smiling at me.

I ignore her and walk out f the bedroom. I decide it is best if I don’t say goodbye to anyone. I just want to get out.

Once I am outside I make a signal for a taxi to stop and I throw my bags I the trunk and I give my address. My Brooklyn address.

Once inside my flat, I walk around looking at my stuff that was all there.

I sit on my sofa turning the tv on.

I grab my phone from my pocket and I call John. He Instantly answers it “Hey girl” – he says and I can’t hold it and I start crying.

“Fuck, Liv, what happened? Where are you?” – he asks I manage to answer him telling where I was.

He instantly said he was coming over and hung up.

Not 30 min later I can hear him opening my door, the perks of him having the extra key.

“Love, what happened?” – he asks hugging me while he sits next to me I cry until I have no more tears left.

“Raphael, he” – I say “He what? Did he hurt you?”

“He broke up with me” – I say “Why?”

I realize I can’t say the real reason. No-one knows about his double life.

“He doesn't want me” – I say.

“It’s his loss baby, you will be fine, we will find you a new job, and a new boyfriend”

“Can we skip the boyfriend?” – I say “Sure” – he says still hugging me.

We spend the day watching tv and eating junk food. Nothing better than some chocolate, Ice Cream, cookies to heal my heart.

Around dinner time John goes open the door and Anna comes in.

“Oh baby, I heard, are you okay?” – I nod my head not wanting to say anything.

We were watching the news on E! Channel and Raphael is the topic.

“Multi-millionaire Raphael Lockwood single again”

I feel like my heart is going to stop, and I can feel both Anna’s and John’s eyes on me. I ignore them and keep watching.

Anna grabs the remote to change the channel and I stop her.

“A reliable source has confirmed that Raphael Lockwood is single again. The relationship ended due to unknown reasons. Mr. Lockwood asked for understanding and respect for their privacy at this difficult times” – the woman on tv says.

“Unknown reasons my ass” – I say – “Difficult times, what a Joke” – I let out.