(For Me or For You?)
Avalon's P.O.V
I sit up in my bed, unable to sleep with all these thoughts running around in my head.
My hands find their way to my hair and I mess with my curls, they're messy now that I've been sleeping on them.
I hear a buzz and I frown at my phone that's laying abandoned on my bed side table.
Picking it up I see its a text message from Ryder.
Ryder: Hey bby girl I need a place to stay 4 the night.
Sent: 12: 06 a.m.
I ignore the text and pull the covers over myself, attempting to catch more sleep.
My phone dings twice more.
I just want sleep.
Running my hands down my face I open the messages.
Ryder: bby. I know ur there.
Sent: 12: 06a.m.
Ryder: im standing at the door and I will wake up ur mom
Sent: 12: 07a.m.
The last message is a bit of a wake up call and I'm up instantly.
I quickly run down the stairs and open the door, only to see no one there.
This jerk.
"Hey baby, don't get your panties in a twist, I'm right here" I turn and see Ryder standing at the side of the house, out of view.
Weirdo.
I reluctantly let him in and he walks into my room as if he owns the place.
Once we're in my room I close the door, not wanting my mom to walk by and question why a random boy is in my room.
Yeah she doesn't know about Ryder.
But it's not like she's awake, it is really early.
I turn around and Ryder is laying on my bed while watching me intensely, his gaze making me squirm.
He chuckles darkly "I don't bite.... " He pats the side of the bed and I frown, knowing I can't disobey him.
He smirks and starts playing with my curls, wrapping them around his fingers.
Without any notice he violently turns me around and kisses me, roughly and painfully as he grips my face.
I shove him away and wipe my mouth in disgust.
"Ryder, I can taste the alcohol on you. Go home" My voice wavers slightly and he stands up, standing in front of me.
"No can do.... " He pushes me back onto the bed and pins my hands over my head.
I squirm out of his grip again and back into the corner of my bed, frantically trying to get away from him.
"Leave me alone Ryder. " I demand while scowling at him.
He looks at me for a moment.
"Fucking skank.... "
He scoffs and walks to my door, leaving without further word.
He's horrible like that, and I hate it.
As I close my eyes that night I feel the sadness in my chest slowly expanding.
~ ~ ~
It's Friday.
I love Fridays, most of the time I get to escape from Ryder when the weekend comes.
I hide my smile and I walk into the school with my defenses up.
And as I predicted, someone wraps their arm around my waist and pulls me towards them.
"Hey babe. " Ryder says while eyeing up the girls at the other side of the hallway.
"Hello Ryder" I plaster a fake smile on my face and flinch as his gaze goes over me in disgust.
I spot Xavier at the other end of the hallway with a girl standing in front of him, pushing her boobs out at him but he physically waves her off, looking annoyed.
He's a mysterious boy....
Ryder spots my gaze and tightens his grip on my waist, causing me to gasp and before I look away from Xavier, he looks over with a blank expression.
"Stop checking out other boys" He hisses in my ear.
I beg your pardon?
I nod and his grip loosens, making me relax slightly.
"May I use the bathroom? " I ask quietly while not looking at anyone, I need to go badly.
"Yes." He lets me go and I rush to the bathroom
Once I'm done, I sneak away from the bathroom, not wanting him to find me again.
"Got a reason as to why you're sneaking around? "
I swivel around and relax when I see Xavier in front of me looking amused.
"No reason" I shrug calmly.
"Whatever you say Goldi" He rolls his eyes and his gaze locks on someone behind me.
"Hey Xavi" I hear a girl purr, causing me to cringe.
I grin at Xavier "Xavi" I whisper and he cringes and glares at me.
"How many times do I have to tell you to not call me that.... " He sighs and pulls his hand down his face.
A girl wearing barely anything struts up close to him and places her hand on his chest.
Okay so this is a private moment..... I'll leave.
I smile and turn around, only to run straight into Ryder.
Frick my life.
"Fuck my life. Can't you just leave me alone Tracey? " Xavier sighs annoyed.
"Hey Ryder.... " I smile nervously and tug at the ends of my shirt.
"So.... The bathroom. " Ryder keeps a blank face than glances behind me at Xavier.
"Oh... Hey Tracey, looks like a slut like you can find a man" Ryder sneers while looking up at the girl.
I gasp and slap his arm in a stupid moment of courage.
Us girls have to stick up for each other.
"Don't slut shame her! Her life is none of your business" I hiss at Ryder, catching him off guard.
I look back at Tracey in sympathy "sorry for his behavior.... "
I don't get to finish because Ryder slaps me straight across the face causing me to gasp in pain but look down in shame.
I outstepped my boundaries.
"What the hell?!! " Xavier hisses before angrily shoving Ryder.
He's pushed back by one of Ryder's goons and my eyes widen, he's only making this worse.
"Come on babe, let's go" Before I can leave, Xavier grabs me by the shoulders and pulls me back, whispering in my ear, "sorry about this Goldi. " Before pushing me to Tracey and tackling Ryder.
"It's okay hunny" Tracey soothes as I tremble in fear.
I hate violence.
"YOU ASSWIPES ARE SCARING HER" Tracey yells at the two on the floor, fighting.
Xavier is on top of Ryder and is throwing blows at him non stop.
Yet it was only a slap.
I reach a trembling hand out towards Xavier "stop... " I mutter weakly and he hesitates before throwing one last punch at a beat up Ryder and getting off of him.
Xavier glances at me then walks away.
I remove myself from Tracey's arms after muttering an apology and run after him.
"Xavier wait! " I call out, hating my low metabolism.
He spins around, looking livid.
Oh..... Never mind.
Shut up brain.
"Are you okay?..."
He scoffs, rolling his eyes.
"I didn't do it for you Avalon, stop acting as if you give a damn" He clenches his fists then his eyes widen.
"I-....... I'm sorry" I say, my voice cracking slightly and transitioning into a whisper.
"Goldi.... I-" Now's my turn to cut him off.
"I'm sorry you had to witness that, he's never like this. he might still have some alcohol in him" I speak the truth and hold in my tears with a sad smile.
Tears brim my eyes but I quickly wipe them away as Xavier stands there silent.
He strides up to me and places his hands on my shoulders.
"I know somethings wrong. Hell, I witnessed him slapping you! That prick seemed to pick the most fucking innocent girl in the school to fuck over and I will get you out of this" Xavier growls out.
I smile at him.
"There's nothing to get out of. "
It'll only get worse.
"I care for him. "
I don't want people I care for getting hurt.
"Some can even say we're perfect" I smile up at him thinking I'm pulling off a believable scene when I feel something on my face.
I lift my hand to my face and feel how damp my cheeks are.
I'm crying.
Xavier looks beyond pissed and he drops his hands to his side backing away and changing his expression to neutral.
"Goodbye Goldi" He turns around and walks away, and part of me feels like he's not coming back.
~ ~ ~ ~
"And so I totally kicked him in the ass" Tracey exclaims while sitting by me at lunch.
She's explaining her ex boyfriend and how she said she could kick his ass and he didn't believe her because she's a girl.
"I was wearing some pointy ass shoes that day. And I don't regret a thing" She says in satisfaction while prodding at her salad.
"Okay I need to get off of this diet, it's killing me" I laugh at her statement and enjoy the lunch hour.
Ryder was in the nurse and Tracey really felt flattered by me standing up for her so she's eating with me.
I know I'd get a hand full from Ryder later, but I prefer to enjoy the now.
"Hun, how's your cheek? " She asks while stuffing carrots in her purse.
I grin at her kindness "much better. "
She smiles back"you going to the party? "
My smile vanishes, knowing full well that Ryder will force me to go.
"Yeah, I'm super excited" I lie.
"That's good, because I have this super cute dress you'd love to wear and blah blah blah blah blah blah" I look at her weirdly.
"What are you doing? " I laugh.
"You looked dazed out so I added a bit of humour. Your ice pack melted" She points out and sips her water.
I shake my head at her antics.
Don't get to attached Ava. I can practically hear Ryder voice telling me.
I know.
~ ~ ~ ~
I stand outside the huge house with Ryder's arm wrapped tightly me around me.
"Can we just leave? " I ask in hope as I stare up at his bruised face.
"Don't boss me around. I think you've been too free and we need to enforce some rules.... " A sick grin spreads across his face.
I nod my head hesitantly.
"You never leave my side." He states and before I can respond, he adds on to his statement.
"And you call me babe. Got it? " I cringe but nod.
He drags me in and I'm instantly hit with the smell of alcohol and sweaty teenagers.
Cheap perfume? Tracey?
I look around and spot her making out with one of the jocks.
Ew.
I'm pulled through the mess of teenagers and into the backyard.
"I have to get a drink, I'll accept a slip in the rule for this moment. I can't have you clinging onto me in such tight spaces." He waves me off and leaves for the kitchen.
I frown in shock and hug my jacket closer to myself.
"Goldi? " I hear someone slur my nickname, and I can only assume it's Xavier.
I turn around and spot him walking through the door and into the backyard, stumbling a bit.
Frowning I watch as he trips then gets up again, coming up to me.
He places his hand on my face then breaks out into a charming smile.
"It's... Yo.. u.... " He slurs while messing with my hair weirdly.
"Xavier, you're drunk" I state and stare at him in distress.
"Nooo Ooo you are! Bad Goldi" He laughs and almost falls onto me.
"Please, you wouldn't be happy talking to me if you were sober. Just leave" I plead, sadness overcoming me.
His eyes search my face and he cups my cheeks.
"Bad Goldi. Don't you know that I don't mind being near you? " His words are slightly less slurred and more sad.
He takes a bug gulp of his beer and tosses his beer can to the trash, missing.
"Yyyeeeees" He cheers quietly.
I laugh a little and turn around to walk away.
I'm spun around and Xavier pulls me to his chest.
"Xavier what-"
He leans down as if he's going to kiss me and I squeal, pulling away immediately and shoving him off, causing him to fall into the pool.
I gasp and run to the side.
"Xavier?? "
His head pops up and he looks very unamused.
I back up but I'm gently shoved into the pool by someone.
I pop back up and glare at the culprit.
Tracey?
"A drunk mans actions are what he wants to do when he's-" I don't hear the rest a I'm dunked under quickly.
I'm pulled back and held arms width.
"Ignore her. " Xavier says, still drunk as heck.
"It's cold" I whine and attempt to get out, only to be pulled into his chest.
"Ava........ " Xavier says with something in his voice.
______________________________________
Boom cliffhanger.
Someone literally just texted me asking if my name was Alan. It's not.
We're friends now.
Something you should know about me when you read the book, I enjoy making people feel very emotional, and adding huge plot twists.
Someone in the comments:Â foreshadowing????
I'll save you the question, yeah. Yeah it is.
Be prepared. ~QBWð