A few days later at the store, Iâm standing behind the front counter making a list of the pros and cons of marrying an arrogant, rich stranger who not only doesnât love me but whose idea of a compelling compliment is saying Iâm nonrepulsive when Viv walks through the door. Sheâs followed by Harper and Taylor, all of whom look like they spent the night crawling through a prison sewer frantically in search of the exit while dodging bullets and being chased by a pack of wolves.
âHoly shit. What happened to you guys?â
Taylor climbs up onto the counter, stretches out on her back, and closes her eyes. She has dark circles under her eyes and a deathly pallor that her all-black ensemble does nothing to improve.
âGirlsâ night. We hit it a little hard.â
I wave the pad of paper over her head, fanning away fumes. âYeah, I can tell. You smell like you slept in a tequila factory.â
Harper says, âWe havenât slept. We went from clubbing to an after-hours joint to Mickey Ds for breakfast to here.â
Groaning, she collapses into the overstuffed chair near the front window and reclines with her bare legs splayed out and her head hanging over the back. In a miniskirt and flip-flops, her dark hair tangled and her lips chapped, she could be a shipwreck survivor who just washed ashore.
Vivienne, ever the ladylike one in a flowered summer dress that would be pretty if it wasnât so wrinkled and didnât have that big red wine stain down the front, burps politely behind her hand, then grimaces. She leans her elbows on Taylorâs thighs and props her chin in her hands.
âRemind me never to mix red wine and fireball shots.â
I snort. âAnd remind me never to go drinking with three amateurs.â
From her chair, Harper says weakly, âNot everybody has an iron-clad liver.â
âOr a death wish. Why would you girls be mixing alcohol like that? You know better.â
Thereâs a pause that feels heavy, then Taylor cracks open her bloodshot eyes and gazes up at me. âIâll tell you, but you have to promise not to freak out.â
âGreat. Now I have to freak out.â
She sighs and sits up, crossing her ankles together and cradling her knees. âMy mom and stepdad are getting a divorce.â
Examining her unhappy expression, I say, âI wouldâve thought that would be good news.â
âIt is. Except theyâre selling the house.â
âOkay. And?â
âAnd my momâs moving to Florida.â
âFlorida? Why?â
She runs a hand through her choppy black hair and sighs again. âMy grandparents. Sheâs moving in with them to get back on her feet. And Iâd rather die than relocate to Sunnyside Retirement Village in Tampa, which means Iâm out of a place to live, effective immediately.â
Harper chimes in, âWhich wouldnât be such a biggie, but now that sheâs also out of a jobââ
âHarper!â snaps Viv. âBe quiet!â
She listlessly waves a hand in the air. âSorry, Em. Iâm not trying to make you feel guilty.â
Trying or not, I do. I feel awful that Taylorâs in this position because of me. Setting aside the pad of paper, I say, âDonât you have any friends you can stay with while you look for work?â
All three of them stare at me like Iâve eaten an entire bag of THC gummies.
Taylor isnât exactly Ms. Popularity. In fact, sheâs probably the most antisocial person I know. The only reason she was so good at her job at Lit Happens is because she loves books so much and can talk to strangers about them. Pretty much all other topics are nonstarters.
Harper says, âIâd have her move in with me, except we donât have an extra bedroom. Even if we did, Codyâs sick so muchâ¦â
âAnd Iâm allergic to kids,â Taylor finishes flatly.
Seeing my dismay, Viv says, âI told her she can stay with me if she wants, but she said no.â
âWhy would I want to stay with you? Iâd be safer living on the streets!â
When Viv sends Taylor an exasperated look, Taylor turns sheepish. âFuck. Sorry.â
I demand, âWhat does that mean, Viv? Youâre having problems at your place?â
She scrubs her hands over her face, then drops them to her sides and nods. âVandalism and stuff.â She glances away, lowering her voice. âSomebody keeps throwing rocks through my windows and breaking into the garage. Iâve already filed a bunch of police reports, but they wonât do anything.â
Taylor says bitterly, âYou have to be dead before the cops do anything. My mom stopped calling them when my stepdad would smack her around, because it would take them forever to show up. When they did, it was always the same pair of sexist douchebags who acted like maybe she had it coming.â
I say, âThatâs awful!â
Taylor shrugs, as if injustice is the way of the world.
I sometimes canât believe that poor girl is only twenty-one years old. She has the air of someone whoâs been dealing with heavy shit for centuries.
Viv says, âSo I need to find a new place. Only the place Iâm in now is under rent control, so itâs super cheapâ¦â
When she bites her lip, I realize she didnât intend to reveal that. She didnât want to make me feel worse than I already do.
But of course I feel worse, considering I know that first and last monthâs rent plus a security deposit on a new apartment anywhere in LA that isnât rent controlled will run her at the very least ten grand.
Which I know she doesnât have.
And canât save up for because sheâs out of a job.
Because her boss is a fucking loser.
When my eyes well with moisture, Viv runs around to my side of the counter and seizes my hands. Sounding dismayed, she cries, âNo! Donât be upset! None of this is your fault, Em!â
âGood fucking going, Viv,â says Taylor in disgust. âYou made her cry.â
âYouâre the one who started it!â
Harper rises from the dead to shuffle toward us at the counter. âNobodyâs crying without me. If anybody here has a good reason to cry, itâs this girl. My cheap son-of-a-bitch ex-husband is taking me back to court to reduce his already miniscule childcare payments! What does he think Iâm supposed to take care of my son with, my good looks?â
When Viv and Taylor glare at her in outrage, she stops where she is, makes a face, and pulls her shoulders up around her ears. âOops.â
So thatâs why they all had to go on a drinking binge.
Iâve ruined their lives.
Sabine and Murph have probably already carried out the suicide pact I imagine they made after that depressing dinner at Jamesonâs.
Iâm about to cover my face with my hands and burst into tears, but at that exact moment, Callum McCord walks through the front door.
He stops in the entry, looks at the one emotional and three bedraggled women staring at him, and produces a smile so blindingly gorgeous, we all suck in a collective breath.
âGood morning, ladies. Please pardon the interruption.â
Vivienne looks him up and down, her eyes wide and her lips parted. Harper stares at him with obvious lust, as if heâs a new Birkin bag. Even Taylor looks dazzled, blinking like a vampire in daylight.
Accustomed to stunning females into silence, Callum smiles wider. âI have some paperwork to drop off for Emery.â
In no particular hurry, he swaggers toward us.
Today, heâs in a deep blue suit that was probably handmade in Italy by a group of virgin monks and flown across the Atlantic on the back of a unicorn. His hair is perfectly combed. His beard is perfectly trimmed. His aura of sexual magnetism is perfectly devastating.
He stops on the other side of the counter and looks at Taylor sitting there. Noticing the tattoo on her exposed shoulder, he reads it aloud. âWhatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.â
He looks into her eyes, then says softly, âBronteâs a favorite of mine too. Not that anyone could love a monster like Heathcliff in real life, but whatâs a good book if not an escape from that very thing?â
Taylorâs tattoo doesnât include the name of the author who wrote that quote.
Which means that Callum not only knows one of the greatest works of classical literatureâa novel written by a feminist before there was such a thing and considered by many to be the greatest love story of all timeâhe knows it by heart.
If the sound of ovaries screaming was audible, weâd all be deafened.
Two spots of pink appear on Taylorâs pale cheeks. Her voice hoarse, she says, âYeah.â
Satisfied heâs seared her frontal cortex so badly, sheâll never be able to produce more than grunts ever again, Callum turns his attention to me.
âHello, darling.â He holds up the manila envelope in his hand. âThe contract. I look forward to your feedback.â
He sets the envelope on the counter, turns on his heel, and walks out.
When the door has closed behind him and the cloud of testosterone clears, my three friends turn to stare at me.
âOh, stop gaping at me like that,â I say, having gone from weepy to irritated by witnessing yet another Callum McCord slay-the-ladies performance.
Viv breathes, âWho. Was. That?â
âA super-hot super baller,â says Harper. She lifts a hand to her cheek. âMy face is tingling.â
âMy cooch is tingling,â says Taylor, staring after him in wonder. âThat dude knows Wuthering Heights?â She shakes her head in disbelief. âMaybe thereâs hope for humanity after all.â
I snatch up the envelope and tear it open. âEverybody calm down. Heâs not that great.â
They look at me as if Iâve lost my mind.
âYou guys, seriously. Just because heâs rich, attractive, dresses well, and has read Wuthering Heights doesnât mean heâs all that.â
Taylor says drily, âPretty sure thatâs exactly what it means, dumbass.â
âNo, it doesnât, because heâs also arrogant.â
I get no response. Everyone continues to look at me like Iâm speaking a foreign language. Obviously, they require more evidence.
âAnd impatient.â
Nothing. Nada. Crickets.
I say louder, âAnd inflexible. Plus, he always thinks heâs right!â
âDuh,â says Taylor, laughing. âHeâs a man. Heâs still a fine piece of ass, though.â
âWait, donât tell me you like him? You donât like anyone!â
âI like him enough to peg him on the kitchen floor.â
âWhat does âpegâ mean? Have sex with?â
Her smile is condescending.
âForget it. I donât want to know.â
âWhatâs that contract he was talking about?â asks Viv, edging closer and eyeing the paperwork in my hands.
âYeah,â says Harper. âAnd why did he call you âdarlingâ if you hate him so much?â
âI didnât say I hated him. I just think heâs a lunatic, thatâs all. As for the contractâ¦â
I slide the sheaf of papers out of the envelope and look at the top page. âItâs for our marriage.â
Silence.
After a moment, Viv says tentatively, âYouâre getting married?â
Taylor says disbelievingly, âYouâre getting married?â
And Harper says loudly, âYouâre getting married? To him?â
âI havenât decided yet. He is offering me ten million dollars, though. And you should see the ring! Itâs bigger than my first car.â
Three pairs of eyes bulge as they stare at me.
I sigh, flipping through the pages. âItâs a long story.â
âFuck yes!â says Taylor, swinging her legs around so they dangle off the edge of the counter. âItâs story time, girls.â
I can tell by the way theyâre all salivating that I wonât be getting off the hook until I give them something, so I grudgingly relent. âFine. Iâll give you the CliffsNotes version.â I briefly sum up my encounters and conversations with Callum so far, then roll my eyes at the expressions on their faces.
âI know. Itâs totally weird, right?â
âWeird?â repeats Harper with a dry laugh. âNo, Em. Itâs not weird. Itâs amazing.â
âSo youâd say yes?â
âAre you kidding me? Iâd say yes, then climb that man like he was a tree and fuck him silly!â
âSame,â says Taylor, nodding.
I look at Vivienne. Appearing disturbed, she thinks for a moment. âI admit itâs tempting. But what about love?â
âWhat about it?â demands Harper, whoâs now draped over the countertop on the other side of Taylor. âLove is overrated, in my opinion, and an unreliable basis for something as serious as marriage. I was madly in love with Chad, and look where that got me.â
Taylor nods. âMy mom was madly in love with my stepdad too. All it got her was a broken heart and some broken bones to go along with it. The only love that works is in books.â
Vivienne says, âYou guys are wrong. Not all relationships end up like that. Love is the only thing that really matters.â
Harper sighs. âSays the girl whoâs never been in love before. Call me in a few years after youâve had your heart broken several times, and weâll have a good laugh about how naïve you were.â
Vivienne crosses her arms and leans back against the counter. âWell, I still believe in love. And I wouldnât marry someone for his money.â
I say, âSo two votes for, one against.â
âWhat does Dani think about all this?â Harper asks.
âSheâs on team Marry for Money.â
Vivienne insists, âItâs a bad idea. What happens if you marry this guy, then in a year you meet the love of your life?â
I look at the paperwork in my hands. âI donât know, but Iâm sure thereâs something in here about that. Callumâs nothing if not thorough.â
Harper says, âThe more likely scenario is that theyâll get married, then sheâll fall in love with him.â She sends me a meaningful look. âAnd I think we can all agree that a guy that rich and good-looking could never be faithful. He has too many options.â
Iâm disturbed by the thought of being emotionally attached to Callum. That would be like being in love with some exotic zoo animal that was always trying to escape from its cage and eat me.
âIâm not falling in love with anybody. And after what I went through with my last few relationships, I honestly hope I never will.â
Harperâs expression darkens. âThat reminds me. We saw Ben last night.â
Stunned, I stare at her. My heart starts pounding. âMy Ben? Mr. Disappearing Act?â
âYeah.â
âWhere?â
âAt the club we went to, this new place in the Valley. He was there with a couple of his buddies.â
Iâm so shocked by this news, I canât form a coherent response.
After a serious year-long relationship, Ben broke up with me without a word of explanation, blocked my phone number, moved without telling me where he was going, and left me reeling in hurt and confusion, thinking maybe he was entering the witness protection program because that was the only logical explanation for his actions. And the whole time heâs been living in the San Fernando Valley, not even an hour away?
âDid he see you?â
âYeah, though it looked like he wished he hadnât. I could tell he didnât want to talk to me.â
âYou talked to him?â
âI wasnât about to let the opportunity pass to tell him what an ass he was for the way he left you! So yeah, I talked to him.â
My heart pounds so hard, I have to press my hand over my chest to catch my breath. âWhat did he say?â
Harper straightens and runs her hands through her disheveled hair. âAfter I gave him a piece of my mind, he just stood there all weird and nervy for a minute. Then he said he was sorry, but he had to go.â
I can tell thereâs more by the way she and Taylor exchange a fleeting glance. âWhat are you leaving out?â
She hesitates, but then says, âHe turned around and walked away, but after a few steps, he turned back. And he said, âTell her to watch out.â Then he walked away again. I didnât see him after that. I think he left the club.â
Iâm flabbergasted. âHe threatened me?â
Taylor says, âIt doesnât mean anything. Heâs a lying piece of shit. He was playing games, thatâs all.â
Vivienne nods in agreement. âPlus, he was probably drunk.â
But Ben never drinks enough to get drunk. At least he didnât when we were together. And why would he choose to say that, of all things?
I think I might ask Callum if heâd let me borrow his private detective. I want to find out where Benâs living and go knock on his door.
No, I donât. What am I thinking? He left me! He broke my heart!
âUh-oh,â says Viv, watching me. âThe gears are turning.â
âI told you we shouldnât say anything about it,â grouses Harper, whoâs also watching me worriedly.
They start to bicker, but I tune them out, my mind consumed with thoughts of Ben. I canât believe that after all this time, he was just a short drive away. And now heâs warning me to watch out? What does that even mean?
I try to be angry, reminding myself that he was a jerk for leaving me without any explanation. If nothing else, he shouldâve at least had the courtesy of giving me closure. The way he broke things off was cruel.
Despite all that, a feeling of unease settles in my stomach. For all his shortcomings, Ben wasnât a liar. And no matter what Taylor thinks of him, he also wasnât one for playing games.
Iâm not sure what Iâm going to do, but I know I need to do something. Sighing, I look down at the paperwork in my hands.
First, I have to decide whether or not Iâm going to marry Callum McCord.