Iâm making coffee when Riggs walks into the house, naked, except for a towel around his lower body. The tattoos on his torso glow in the morning light, and I wonder if Iâve ever seen anything so majestic.
He quickly disappears into the bedroom, forcing me to tear my eyes off his backside, which is just as toned from surfing as the rest of his body. I return to focusing on brewing the coffee. Iâm pouring my first cup when he returns to the main room.
Heâs wearing khaki shorts and a pink linen shirt with the sleeves rolled up, displaying his ink. I could look at him all day, clothed or unclothed, and when he gives me an arrogant expression, I realize Iâve been staring.
I clear my throat and ask, âWhen did you get all those?â
He glances at his forearm and shrugs. âOver the years. I got my first one when I was sixteen.â He points to the big swell on his arm.
I trace my finger over it, questioning, âDid you always surf?â
âI stole a board when I was thirteen. Been obsessed ever since,â he confesses.
I laugh. âYou stole it?â
He nods. âYep.â
âWhy didnât you just have your parents buy one for you?â I ask.
His face darkens. He answers, âThey werenât into surfing.â He turns and grabs his keys off the counter.
I point out, âYouâve never shown your tattoos when you were at my parentsâ house. Youâve always worn long sleeves, even when it was hot. Why is that?â
He grunts. âYour father looks down upon them. He believes that the people we deal with look down on tattoos. He claims they donât give off the impression we should make. When we started our business, I agreed to always keep them covered during events or business meetings.â
I mutter, âSounds like my father.â
âYou know him well,â Riggs says with disgust in his voice, making me wonder again how my father screwed him over. Riggs tosses a notepad and pen on the table, then points to the contract. âYouâre to spend all day going through this. Do you understand, Blakely?â
I roll my eyes. âYes.â
âDonât do that when I tell you to do something,â he warns.
âYouâve told me several times,â I remind him.
He ignores my statement, demanding, âSit down.â
His tone annoys me but also gives me butterflies. It happens every time he orders me around. I donât understand why I like it, but something in me does. So I oblige him and sit down.
Riggs asks, âWhat do you need to work on your music?â
Surprised heâs asking, I recover and tap the notepad. âOnly this.â
He peers at me, then asks, âThatâs it? Didnât you used to play the piano? You need an instrument or something, donât you?â
A wave of frustration passes inside me as I think of the grand piano my parents bought only for looks. It wasnât meant to be played, except at high-end parties when my father hired what he referred to as âthe talent.â I question, âHow do you know I used to play the piano?â
Riggs admits, âYour mother told me.â
I shift on my feet. âI only played it when no one was home. She caught me a few times. My father didnât like me using it. He claimed it encouraged me to keep my head in the clouds.â
Riggs stares silently for a moment with a look of disapproval on his face. He finally asks, âWhat have you been using to create your music since you left home?â
I admit, âA keyboard I bought at a resale shop. Itâs not perfect, but it works. A few of the keys are damaged, but I manage to make it work for what I need. Iâd ask you to get it for me, but I donât think you should go near my apartment. Iâm sure my fatherâs men are watching it, and if you go in, theyâll see you. So Iâm fine with just a notepad.â
Another emotion passes across Riggsâs face, but Iâm not sure what it is. Iâm about to ask him when he says, âNo music today, Blakely. Your entire focus is on this contract. Do you understand?â
I give him a tiny salute. âYouâve already made it clear, boss.â
His lips twitch. He states, âItâs Sir. But youâll see that in the contract.â He winks.
I arch my eyebrows. Last night, I didnât worry about what the thick stack of papers said. Now, Iâm getting a bit curious. Heâs making it sound detailed, which isnât something I ever thought people were, regarding sex. In my experience, you just get at it, and within a few minutes, things are over.
Not that Iâve had any mind-blowing encounters. My past boyfriends were okay. I enjoyed them, but even last night showed me Riggs is on a different level, and we havenât even had sex yet.
Not that I ever doubted he would be different. Even at eighteen, I knew it.
He asserts, âHelp yourself to anything in the kitchen. Iâll be back soon.â
Heâs almost to the door, when I call out, âWait!â
He spins, inquiring, âWhatâs wrong?â
Something about not having access to him panics me. I fret, âHow do I get ahold of you if I need to?â
He stares at me for a moment.
I add, âI also need to call work and the lounge.â
A flash of nervousness appears on his face but quickly disappears, so I think I imagined it. He goes into the bedroom. Several minutes pass, then he comes out with a throw-away phone. He reiterates, âRead the contract. If youâre good with the terms, call work and tell them you quit. My number is programmed on this. Youâre only allowed to use this to call them to quit or to contact me. Thatâs it. You donât call anyone else, Blakely. If your fatherâs men are looking for you, itâs extra important no one knows youâre here.â
I donât know who I would call, although I could tell my roommates or a couple of my friends Iâm not dead. But Riggs is right. I also donât want anybody to find out where I am. What if I told them and my fatherâs men tried to interrogate them?
Yet my stomach flips at the thought of quitting. I argue, âIt was hard to find work and earn a recurring spot to sing. Can I keep my gig at the lounge? I promise it wonât interfere with whatever you want me to do here.â
Riggs shakes his head. âNo. You canât. But I promise you that youâll be ahead in your career by the time this year is up.â
He makes it sound so easy, but I know how much competition there is in L.A. Itâs nearly impossible to make it. I claim, âI need exposure. How can you promise me that?â
âPet, you need to trust me. If you canât trust me completely, the dealâs off between us,â he threatens.
My eyes widen from shock. Riggs is so all in or all out. Itâs pretty extreme, and Iâm still trying to wrap my head around this entire situation. But then again, Riggs has always been blunt and straightforward. Itâs no secret heâs a control freak. Itâs a miracle my father and he got along as well as they did for almost two decades, not that I knew the ins and outs of their business.
I start to argue, âButââ
He cuts me off. âThe only way this works is if you fully trust me, Blakely. Thereâs no room to be wishy-washy. And not just with your body. You need to always trust me to make the right decisions for you. Do you understand?â
Iâve always been independent, which is why my parents and I never saw eye to eye. So giving the power to Riggs to make decisions for me isnât easy.
He steps closer, lowering his voice. âIâm not them, pet. I want whatâs best for you and for your career. I promise you.â
I take a deep breath and slowly nod. âOkay. Iâll trust you.â
He briefly studies me, then says, âGood girl.â
I hesitate, not wanting to sound needy, but ask, âWill you be gone long?â
âYouâre going to miss me, arenât you?â he teases.
Fire flames on my cheeks. âI just want to know.â
He smirks. âItâs okay to admit it. But to answer your question, Iâll be back by dinner. Iâll bring something home for us to eat. Read the contract, and write down your questions.â He gives me a chaste kiss on my forehead, then leaves.
I take a sip of my coffee, move the contract in front of me, and start reading.
Something about that statement hurts, but I take a deep breath. I guess itâs better to know I have an expiration date than not, so I can prepare myself.
I scan more of the contract, bypassing the legal jargon and focusing on the section titled I write on the pad to get clarification.
Memories of Riggs giving me multiple orgasms while restrained to his towel rack flood me.
I reread it, then write on the pad, My mouth turns dry. I stare out the window, having never done anal and unsure how I feel about it. I always thought it was a no-go zone, but since itâs on Riggsâs list, something makes me rethink my hesitation. I watch the waves crash on the sand but barely see them. All I can think about is Riggsâs size. I write, , then stare at the waves some more, wondering if I could do it.
I add to the list I figure Riggs wants to use a vibrator or something on me, which isnât too crazy. And I didnât dislike being handcuffed last night.
I add that to the list. I also add, , not sure how I feel about that possibility.
I roll my eyes, not understanding what that rule is all about. I would have thought if heâs as attracted to me as he claims, that heâd want me to touch him.
My chest tightens. I write on the pad, Rule 9:
Thoughts of being burned horrify me. I add to my list, My stomach dives.
I write all of it down, flip through the contract to Appendix A, and review the extensive STD lab work. According to the reports, Riggs is clean as a whistle, and itâs only a week old. I wonât have any issues passing the same tests, and it makes me more comfortable to know Riggs doesnât have anything I could get. Iâve always been a stickler for condoms after my friend in high school contracted a few STDs. They were curable, but it was horrible for her.
I return to the contract.
My heart pounds harder.
A new fear of rejection takes hold of me.
I read the rest of the contract, which is a lot of legal mumbo jumbo. My stomach growls, and I realize I havenât eaten since lunch the previous day. I go into the kitchen and make a turkey sandwich, eat half of it, and stare at my list of questions.
For several hours, I reread the contract, adding to my list as new concerns pop up. The legal jargon makes my head spin, but there are a few things Iâm not sure what they mean, so I write those down as well.
Itâs late afternoon when I finally push the contract away and forbid myself to read it anymore. My stomach is a frenzied mix of anxiety and anticipation. Iâve never been so unsure of what Iâm getting myself into.
The rational part of me tells me to run. Yet deep down, I already know that however Riggs answers my questions, thereâs no way I wonât agree to what we already signed.
I tell myself itâs for his protection from my father, but itâs another lie.
Iâve wanted Riggs since before I was eighteen. That year, I saw the flames burning in his eyes when he looked at me. It was as if he finally saw me as more than a kid.
Everything about that moment is etched on my mind, just like our encounter on my twenty-first birthday. Iâve never forgotten how it felt when he pinned his seductive gaze on me or tugged my hair, cornering me against the wall.
Back then, my father stood in our way. Now, itâs like the universe wants us together. And Iâm not looking to tempt fate. Thereâs no other person in the world I would do this with and feel safe. If anyone else had bid on me in that auction, I would have left last night. So whatever this is between us must be something meant to be, even if only for a year.
Besides, itâs Riggs. Whatâs the worst that could happen?