Anger rages inside me. Itâs not at Blakley. Nothing is her fault. I shouldnât have lost control in the shower and kissed her.
Hell, I want more, and it canât happen again. Kissing leads to attachments. The last thing I need is to take my eye off whatâs important, which is taking down Hugh. So no matter how much Iâm attracted to his daughter, sheâs my secret weapon. I need to remember that at all times. And I quickly need to regain the power in this relationship.
Itâs why I had to call her pet in front of the delivery men. I knew it would embarrass her as well as distort her rose-colored view of what happened this morning between us.
Then thereâs the issue of the delivery guys. Sam gets a pass. He had the willpower not to give my pet lewd looks. On the other hand, Wayne has my wrath coming to him.
I step outside the beach house, intentionally not giving Blakely an answer she wants to hear, and head down the driveway toward the men.
Everything I felt as a child spins inside me, and the monster within me takes off his disguise. I lunge at Wayne, spinning him into the truck and restraining him to the metal with my forearm against his spine. I grab him by the hair, tugging until his face is toward the sky and heâs choking for air.
âEasy!â Sam yells.
I jerk my head toward him, feeling the chaos building and knowing Iâm at a point thereâs no calm anywhere, threatening, âDo you want to put your job in jeopardy too?â
He holds up his hands, his brown eyes widening, answering, âNo, man.â He takes a step back, freezing on the concrete.
It doesnât surprise me. I just bought a three-million-dollar piano, and with that comes the ability to turn men into cowards. Itâs a hard fact I learned early on in my career. I had just begun making money and saw how Hugh could shut people up or get them to back off by showcasing what he could buy.
L.A.âs upper echelons opened up a different world to me than I knew in Compton. In my neighborhood, street credibility came from guns or knives or fighting your way to the top of gangs. The differences in how Hughâs world worked were eye-opening yet also a hard transition. I had to learn to control my temper, not use violence, and be strategic in how I threatened others.
Most days, I have complete control over my actions. Then there are moments like these. Thereâs a loss of all discipline, fueling a fear that I might totally snap and destroy everything Iâve built.
In these situations, I can barely control myself. I mix all the lessons I learned from Hugh about how to make people hurt with the ways of my past.
Itâs a dangerous headspace for me to dwell in, and getting out of my neurotic state as quickly as possible is vital. I know this about myself. Iâm one wrong move away from ending up where most of the kids I grew up with reside.
Calling the piano store and getting this guy fired would be easy. It would keep me out of prison. But itâs not enough.
Right now, Iâm so unhinged from the lack of control I displayed earlier in the shower with Blakely and from watching this piece of shit have the balls to inappropriately check her out, and right in front of me, that I canât see straight.
Wayneâs face morphs from red to purple. I sniff hard, reminding myself not to snap his neck off. I lean into his ear, snarling, âDo you always go into other menâs houses and lust after whatâs theirs?â
He sputters some more, and saliva drips from the corners of his mouth.
I tug his head another inch, seething, âIf you ever look at whatâs mine again, youâre dead.â I lower my voice, warning, âAnd let me assure you. Sheâs mine.â
âHe wonât,â Sam vouches.
Still pissed, I shove my knee into Wayneâs back, and something between a choking sound and yelp comes out of him. I glance at Sam, threatening, âIf he goes near her, Iâm coming after you too.â
Horror fills Samâs expression.
I push Wayne into the truck harder, then step back, demanding, âNow, get off my property before I kill you.â I stroll over to my Porsche and hop inside it. I make a note to call the piano store and get Wayne fired.
My carâs already facing the road, and hence the front of the van. I always reverse into the driveway. Call it a habit from having to watch my back and speed away from trouble too often in my youth.
I watch Sam help Wayne into the vehicle. I rev the engine, and Sam hurries to the driverâs seat, sliding in and slamming the door. He backs up onto the street and takes off.
I follow the van, then wait for the wooden gates to shut and secure Blakely from any unwelcome guests. I make my way to the office, unable to get her off my mind the entire ride.
I picked it out of the wardrobe I brought home, thinking my pet would look sexy wearing it, but I underestimated her. The silk was so thin, I could see a hint of my palm mark on her ass. And the gold strip between her ass cheeks, knowing I was in there only a short while ago⦠Fuck!
And my pet isnât as naive as she wants me to believe. She wanted me to think all day about what it felt like to be inside her virgin hole. It only took one look at her during our discussion last night over the contract to know sheâd never let anyone else go there. All that knowledge did was stroke my ego more.
Today, she could have worn the flip-flops, but she chose those stilettos to tease me. I know she did, and it worked. The way her ass popped just a bit higher made my dick instantly hard again.
I sit in traffic for over forty minutes at a standstill, finding the control to not stroke myself over all the images of what I plan on doing to her over the next year. When I start moving, itâs as fast as a baby crawling, so it takes close to two hours to get to the office.
Itâs one of the curses of living in Malibu and having an L.A. office. I normally set off earlier in the morning, but I wasnât about to leave Blakely on her own with delivery men. Not that I think sheâd do anything, but there are few men I trust. No one is getting near her without me present. Now that I saw how Wayne acted with me right next to her, Iâm glad I made that decision. Who knows what the bastard would have tried if I wasnât there.
I pull into the parking garage, then briskly make my way through the building, still feeling tense. If I didnât have to close a big merger Iâve been working on all year, Iâd normally go to Club Indulgence and take it out on a sub all day. Since I have my pet now, I would have stayed home and reminded her sheâs here to submit to me.
When I get to the top floor, my assistant Connie hands me a file and announces, âCedcon arrived early. Theyâre in the conference room.â
I glance at my watch. Itâs thirty minutes before our meeting time. I snap, âLet them wait.â
Connie arches her eyebrows.
Cedcon is a tech company Hugh thought I didnât stand a chance of convincing to sell. Today would normally put me in a good moodâand I never respond to Connie in that toneâbut this is what happens when Iâm off-kilter. I canât control the tiniest of things.
Regardless of her insulted look, I saunter past her and go into my office, shutting the door.
Tossing the file on my desk, I stand in front of the window, stare down at the L.A. chaos, and take some breaths, trying to calm myself. About ten minutes later, Iâm able to glance at the folder.
I review all the merger information, go down the hall, and enter the conference room. Hughâs sitting at the head of the table, telling them how their life will change once they have our money.
Disgust fills me. I force myself to put on a happy face and say my hellos.
Hugh gives me his usual expression, which I used to take pride in. Itâs his order to close the deal once he finishes schmoozing. My gut churns now, when in the past, I looked forward to that expression.
We were a team, and he trusted me to take over. Now, I know the truth. Iâm not only better at this than he ever was, but I also canât stand the sight of him. So I muster all the self-discipline I have to appear normal as he continues his egotistical talk.
I observe him, wanting to find some clue that heâs treating me differently or a shred of uncomfortableness in his body language, but thereâs nothing. It only makes me beat myself up further for falling for his act all these years and trusting him.
I vow again to destroy every part of what he holds dear in his life. Then I decide he deserves to receive another picture of his princess tonight. I debate whether it should be my handprint on her ass cheek or her lips around my cock. Or maybe Iâll record her begging me for mercy.
When it finally comes time for me to take over, I spend an hour on final negotiations. Our attorney edits the contracts. Their attorney reviews the changes and then everyone signs.
If I hadnât known my partner was screwing me over, Iâd have the biggest hard-on in L.A. right now. This is the largest deal Iâve ever closed, and itâs also international. The merger will attract even more clientele, and we wonât be going to them. Theyâll be knocking on our door, which is something we used to only dream would someday happen.
Yet all I can wonder is how much of this deal Hughâs going to siphon off into his offshore accounts.
The clients leave, and Hugh slaps me on the back, booming, âWe did it! Give me a few minutes, and Iâll meet you at Bar Fifty-Two. I have an issue I need to handle first.â
I I shake my head. âSorry, I have to get out of here in a few.â
His face falls. I would have rather died in the past than let him down. The thing Hugh loves most about our business is the celebration scotch and boasting about it to all his cronies at Bar Fifty-Two. He orders, âJust one.â
âSorry. Weâll catch up next week. I canât get out of my engagement tonight,â I quickly add, then steer him out of the conference room and to his office. I repeat, âNext week, for sure.â
âOkay, but youâre buying,â he states.
His comment would normally not bother me. Now, I can only think about how heâs stealing from me and Iâm still buying the drinks.
âDone,â I say, then nod to two security guys, Roy and George.
âMy office,â Hugh demands in a firm voice.
The hairs on my arms rise. Why is he pissed at them?
Something tells me to stick around. I grab the door handle, motion for everyone to go inside Hughâs office, and declare, âNice work, Hugh.â
âYou too,â he replies, then orders Roy and George to sit.
I shut the door but leave it open with a slight crack.
Hugh seethes, âHow did you let her escape?â
âWe got a flat tire, boss,â Roy explains.
âShe jumped out the back of the SUV. We followed her, but damn, sheâs fast,â George adds.
Hugh bellows, âMorons! I should fire you now.â
Silence fills the room.
Hugh asks, âWhere did you lose her?â
âShe went into a club. The bouncer wouldnât let us in,â Roy declares.
Itâs like fuel pouring over my rage. Iâve heard all I need to. Itâs clear these two are the ones who kidnapped Blakely.
I leave the building and get into my Porsche. I call Chainsaw.
He answers, âRiggs. I should have some news later tonight.â
I state, âHurry up. When you get done, thereâs a deuce for you.â
He chuckles. âI see youâre making lots of friends these days.â
âYep. Speed it up,â I reiterate and hang up. Snakeâs going down, but so are Roy and George.
I leave the parking garage and head toward Malibu, anxious to get home to Blakely, but a few minutes in rush hour traffic makes me realize Iâm still too out of control. And all I can envision is the new affection she had in her eyes for me when I left her to dry her hair in the bathroom.
Every part of me craves to see more of it. Yet I need to avoid it. At least for now. Itâs time to refocus. The event at the club is right around the corner.
I mentally go through my schedule to think about what I can push out, but there are too many large deals on the table.
I pick up the phone and call one of my former subs, Aria. I broke her in years ago. Sheâs helped me with a few of my subs in the past.
The phone rings twice, and she coos, âRiggs. Long time.â
âAria, howâve you been?â I question.
âI canât complain. You?â
âGood. I need your assistance.â
She laughs. âOf course you do. Why else would you call.â
âGuess Iâm predictable,â I claim.
Aria takes a deep breath, which makes me smile. Sheâs like an open book to me after our time together. Every ounce of air she takes displays a different emotion, and this one has pure adrenaline in it. She inquires, âThe woman you bid on?â
âYes.â
âWhen do you want to meet?â she asks.
Calmness enters me. Getting some assistance to train Blakely while Iâm at work is the best idea Iâve had all day. Aria is the best at what she does. Sheâs never let me down with any previous subs.
Since I bought Blakely at the auction, I have to prove sheâs fully submitted to me at the two-week mark, or the club will revoke our contract. Theyâll give an apartment to her in the city. Itâll be in a discreet location the club chooses for the remainder of the contract period.
The fine print of the clubâs paperwork states that Club Indulgence has the final say over everything. Itâs in the membersâ contracts and the subs who go up on the auction block. Since Blakely didnât even bother to look at my contract until I forced her to, I doubt she paid attention to the details, not that itâs clear what it means.
Itâs why rule fourteen is in my contract. The one Blakely was fretting over. Every Dom must have it in his contract, as well as rule five stating a safe word, and rule twelve about basic needs being provided for by the Dom. The rest of the rules the club allows the Dom to create. And while I added language to rule five, it was approved by the board when they reviewed my contract.
The mandatory rules ensure subs are being taken care of properly and sever the relationships that arenât working.
So while I told Blakely not to worry about rule fourteen because itâs off the table, I was telling a half-truth. It wonât be due to my boredom if it gets enacted, but if she doesnât fully submit when itâs time to present her to the club, I wonât have a choice.
And Iâll be damned if I allow that to happen.
I ask Aria, âCan you meet tonight?â
She chirps, âSorry. I have a date.â
âCancel it. Iâm on a timeline. And I need you to stay until sheâs ready. Please,â I add.
Another moment of silence passes.
âAriaââ
âWell, donât beg me. Itâs not becoming of you, Riggs,â she teases.
âYou know what the rules are, Flower,â I remind her.
âOh, not fair! You know I still get weak-kneed when you call me that,â she scolds.
I chuckle. Flower was the nickname I gave Aria. I assert, âThen say yes to tonight, and youâll hear more of it.â
âUgh. Riggs, I like this guy,â she whines.
âBring him. Iâll train him for you,â I offer.
Another moment passes, and she lowers her voice, confessing, âHeâs not in the lifestyle.â
My pulse pounds quicker. Aria and I are good friends. Thereâs nothing between us except that, and I care about her well-being. I claim, âYou know thatâll never work.â
She groans. âThings change. People can change.â
âNo. Thatâs not how our lifestyle works. Youâll get bored.â
âI wonât. Heâs a really great guy!â
I reprimand, âAria, you canât go backward.â
The line turns silent again.
She says, âRiggs, heâs different.â
âThen you have to convert him,â I declare.
âHe says he isnât into it.â
âThen dump him,â I order.
âNo.â
âFlower, Iâm trying to look out for you,â I state, then veer left to avoid a semi.
Horns blare, and I give the driver my middle finger. And Iâm frustrated with this entire conversation. I canât risk losing my pet, and Aria will realize after tonight thereâs no backtracking into old lifestyles once youâre in ours. So I use my most commanding voice, demanding, âLoverboy will wait. Tonight, Flower.â
She sharply inhales, then stays quiet.
I can imagine her squeezing her thighs together and lightly scratching her neck. And this is exactly why she canât be with a vanilla-sex guy. She needs a Dom. One firm order, and I know I have her, but I still question, âIs that a yes?â
She sighs. âOkay, but you owe me.â
âBut you love reminiscing so much,â I remind her.
She snorts. âDonât push it. Apartment Thirteen?â
I grin. âAlways. And bring your stud. Let him learn.â
âHard pass,â she says.
âSuit yourself. I need blueish-purple highlights put in your hair, and call Isabella. Tell her to rush over the gold heels and lingerie I bought the other day. Wear it tonight. Iâll send a driver around six.â I hang up and continue to deal with the traffic. I crack my window but within seconds shut it when the smog seeps into my Porsche.
I almost call Blakely but stop myself. Itâs too soon for her to hear from me. She needs to wonder what Iâm doing and when Iâm returning.
When I get to Malibu, I roll the windows down and turn the volume up. I get to my driveway, open the gate, and reverse in.
For several moments, I sit in the car, fighting the adrenaline pooling in my cells over the thought of seeing my pet. I remind myself of several things.
I must retain full control over Blakely at all times.
Real submission can only be achieved after one has been broken into pieces and put back together.
Everything must be earned. Iâm not entitled to anyone, including Blakely. It all has to be her choice, but sheâll have to demonstrate it, or our journey will end before it begins.