Chapter 165
Sophia quietly met his gaze, staying silent.
She had no clue how much heâd heard or which words had set him off.
âWhy donât you speak up when they treat you like that?â
After what felt like forever, Brandon finally broke the silence, his voice cool as ice.
âDo you really not know, or is it because you never cared?â Sophia softly retorted, locking eyes with him, âThat time you and your dad were talking about Yolanda in the study, he said you screwed up by drinking too much and shouldâve never gone to that damn reunion. You let that woman take advantage of the situation.â
Sophiaâs voice briefly faltered, as she looked at him, âThat âwomanâ he mentioned was me. A woman he wouldnât even bother to call by name, do you think heâd ever give me the respect I deserve?â
Brandon frowned, about to speak, but Sophia cut him off, âEven if that was the first time he showed that attitude towards me in front of you, did you ever give me a chance to speak up?â
âYouâre always busy, at work or otherwise,â Sophia continued, her tone still calm and measured, âEvery time I psych myself up and muster the courage to talk to you, youâre either on a call or buried in emails. Then off you go, back to work. Youâve always got endless work and calls to take. Do you have any idea how long it takes for me to gear myself up, the courage I need to find just to talk to you?â
Brandonâs brow furrowed deeper, seemingly puzzled as to why she needed to prep herself to talk to him.
âBrandon.â Sophia looked into his eyes, âItâs not just your employees who are afraid of you, I am too. Youâre always composed, calm, meticulous, restrained. You have so many good qualities, they make you unbeatable, but itâs this same you that I canât feel a hint of normal human warmth from.â
âIâm just like the rest of them, always tense and unsure around you, terrified of saying or doing the wrong thing. I donât know how to get close to you, and youâve never signaled that I can.â
âOur relationship has never felt like husband and wife, not even close friends. Weâre more like boss and subordinate than anything else.â
âThey say the one who falls in love first, loses. I married you because I liked you, but Iâve never felt an ounce of that from you.â âI thought affection would grow over time, so until you learned to care about me, I couldnât help but tread lightly, carefully considering my words and actions. Iâd agonize over whether youâd dislike it if I mentioned your parents, if youâd think I was gossiping, if it would make you hate me. Should I just keep out of it, since itâs not a big deal anyway?â
âEvery time I finally convinced myself to talk to you about it, youâd be either taking a call or checking emails. You never hung up the phone or shut down your computer to let me finish. Your work always came first, even while waiting for food at a restaurant, youâd still be glued to your work laptop.â
âI get tired too. After it happened over and over, I thought, forget it, Iâve got no energy left to fuss over it because, by then, I was ready to leave. I didnât want you anymore, do you get that, Brandon?â
Towards the end, Sophiaâs emotions started to unravel, her voice losing its usual calm and her eyes reddening.
This side of Sophia reminded Brandon of the time at Donâs gathering when she found out he was the client behind the project, her breakdown.
His gaze on her was complex, watching the tears slide down her cheeks. He reached out to wipe them away, but Sophia pushed his hand aside.
âStop it, Brandon, I just donât want you anymore. Do you understand?â Sophia choked out, pushing him away, âEveryone says youâre good to me, gentle, considerate, thoughtful, that Iâm ungrateful. But all your kindness feels programmed, without warmth.â
âAnd your family, I canât feel a bit of warmth from them either. They always act so high and mighty, like Iâm so lucky to have married into your family.â
âI was wrong. I shouldnât have been so greedy to want to marry you. But Iâve paid the price already. Canât you and your family just let me be, stop haunting me? I can take good care of myself; Ihave no emotional needs from you anymore. Can we just be strangers, just strangers, okay? uh.â
Brandon kissed her, silencing her sobs and breakdown.
Sophia pushed and hit him, letting out her frustration.
Brandon let her hit him, his hand firmly cradling the back of her head, pinning her against the car seat, kissing her more intensely.
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Sophiaâs fierce resistance gradually melted away under the heat of his deepening kiss.
Finally, she stopped pushing him away, but she didnât kiss back, just letting her tears fall.
Brandonâs kissing slowed down.
He didnât let her go, still holding her tightly, forehead resting against hers, their breath mingling together.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered, his voice low and hoarse.
âI donât want your apology.â Sophia gently pushed him, âBrandon, you canât keep being so fickle.â
âJust think of me as the bad guy.â
Brandon said hoarsely, looking at the wetness in the corners of her eyes, lifting a hand to tenderly wipe her tears away. Sophia looked up at him.
His expression was serious and focused, his eyes filled with an unprecedented softness and a trace of remorse.
Sophia didnât want Brandonâs apologies.
She wasnât trying to make him feel sorry for her.
Their marriage wasnât just Brandonâs fault. She had her share of responsibility.
She simply wanted to move forward.
She shifted her head slightly, avoiding Brandonâs hand.
Brandon looked at her.