Chapter 14: You don't get it

After getting multiple death threats from his very angry wife on the phone, Axel left.

"Well this was fun and all but I am a very busy woman so I think I'll just...go." I say as I got ready to bolt out the kitcken.

But Killian quickly noticed and grabbed me by the shoulders and turned me around.

"Oh no you don't. You're gonna sit right there and tell us how you know Axel." He said as he pulled me down onto the chair as the rest of my brothers stared at me expectantly.

I groaned and rolled my eyes.

"We were on the same plane, he told me about his daughter and then we talked for the rest of the plane ride. Can I go now?" I said as I stood up again.

"Watch the attitude." Blake warned as he glared at me.

"WaTcH tHe aTtiTuDe, because I'm Bleach and I look like an overgrown chipmunk when I'm mad." I say in a mocking tone as I cross my eyes.

One thing you should know about Blake is that he doesn't really like being mocked.

Before Blake could rip my face off, I was already out the kitchen with him right behind me.

Juju had heard that something was going on and when he saw Blake chasing me he had joined in the game of tag.

"Ahh! No please, I'm too young and beautiful to die!" I screamed as we ran in circles around the living room.

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After Blake gave up on catching me, he cursed (like he always does) then went back to his room.

Now Juju and I are watching a Barbie marathon. I am currently watching Barbie In A Mermaid Tale.

(Where all my Barbie fans at 💅)

"Maybe I should get some pink highlights. What do you think Ju?"

He just barks in answer whilst he lies on his back with his tail wagging.

A maid then walks in and notifies me that dinner's ready.

Yes, they have maids. I don't even question it anymore.

It looked like we were having Chicken Alfredo with goats cheese.

I didn't even know goats had cheese.

"So Leo what did you do to help you get by?" Killian asked suddenly.

"Oh...uhh?" Come on Leonessa think!

"I did small jobs like mowing lawns and delivering newspapers. When I had enough money I bought the first ticket to Budapest and you know the rest Dominic." I said as I played with the ring around my neck.

I thought we would move on and eat peacefully but someone just had to open their big mouth.

"If you can look after yourself so well, why did we have to take you in?" Blake asked loud enough for everyone to hear.

( LET ME AT HIM! LET ME AT HIM)

"Alright, that's it." I say as I drop my fork and knife.

I rise up from my seat to go stand next to Blake. He looks up at me with irritation.

"What do you wan- OW!" He started to say but was cut off when I grabbed one of his ears and forced him to stand up.

Dominic doesn't say anything but I think he knows what I'm going to do, Killian only spares us a glance with a smirk and continues eating and Hayden gives me a thumbs up whilst watching us with amusement. Flynn was full out cackling as he held his phone out to take a video.

I was leading us down the hall whilst Blake kept cursing as he tried to pry my hand off of his ear but I held my grip.

I opened the door to the gym and shoved him inside.

He looked at me confused as I stood in front of him

"What are you doing?" He asked as I was getting into my fighting stance.

"We're gonna fight Bleach, since you wanna act like a child and insult me every chance you get, why not hurt me physically too."

"I'm not doing that." He said coldly as he turned around and headed towards the door.

"Aw why not? Too scared to fight a girl Bleachy." I said mockingly which angered him instantly.

"I'm not." He said madly as he stopped dead in his tracks.

"Then do it, hit me."

"Stop it Leonessa." He threatened as I could sense his anger rising. Good.

"Come on Bleach, you can throw insults so easily, why not punches"

"Because you don't get it Leo, I don't want to fucking hurt you!" He suddenly blew up and I notice that it's the first time he used that nickname.

"Do you think it's easy looking at you without having that night flash before my eyes and not feel the pain!"

What night? I thought as I lowered my hands and looked at him confused.

His chest rises and falls as he takes in a few breaths before he continues. " I don't want to feel that pain again because I know I wouldn't be able to handle it! I was there when they took you, you didn't disappear Leo, you were kidnapped. I was in the same fucking room when they dragged you out the window and I couldn't do anything about it because I was only a weak and helpless 6 year old. I was the one who watched how our mother took her last breaths from being shot in the chest whilst she was saying how much she loved us!" He yells and I notice his eyes turning glassy.

His hands were shaking by now and his body was trembling from the sobs that kept escaping his mouth.

He hung his head low before he whispered. "So I figured if I ignored you or got you to at least hate me, I wouldn't have to suffer again like I did that night or every other night."

I stood there shocked as my brain tried to process everything he was saying.

Kidnapped?

Shot? My mother was killed?

Welp, that's quite a bit to take in.

I stared at him for a moment before snapping out of my daze and speaking again. "Well that's just fucking selfish Blake."

He snapped his head back up to me, taken aback, but I continue.

"So just because you don't want to feel pain, you think it's ok to cause it for other people? How do you think I felt when you glared at me or directed insults at me? It made me feel like I did something wrong, like it was my fault you acted that way towards me, but no, it was because you only wanted to protect yourself and let other people suffer instead.

You had your time to grieve Blake, you had enough time to feel sad, angry and guilty but you never accepted it. You never accepted the fact that mom's gone and you can't do anything but cherish the memory of her, and you're not accepting that I'm here now, right infront of you, but you have to.

You have an anchor that's weighing you down Blake, but you're gonna have to let that anchor go if you want float and swim again.

You're going to experience pain, more times than you can count, no matter the form because you are human and you have to embrace it, just like every other emotion you're ever gonna feel in your life. And if you keep pushing these emotions away, it's only going to hurt the people around you and eat you up until you're a shell of the person you used to be."

I finish off as I walk towards his trembling figure. Tears started to build up in his eyes until tear after tear started rolling down his cheeks.

He looked so vulnerable.

I brought him into a hug and pulled us down to the floor as I felt his legs give in. He cried into my shoulder and I felt his arms tighten around my waist as I rubbed his back soothingly.

It must've been a long time since he last cried.

Doesn't give him the right to get his snot and tears on my shoulder though, his nasty ass is gonna have to owe me for that one.

I pull away after a while when I hear his sobs softening and his trembeling stop. I look into his red eyes and say. "And even if I were to be taken away from you again, I'd always find my way back to you and our brothers, no matter what."

I wipe away the remaining tears as he gives me a nod and a sincere smile I've never seen before.

I notice something on the side of his lower arm as I help him up from the floor and point at it. "What's that?"

He looks to where my finger is pointing and chuckles.

It was a tattoo in cursive that said 'To The Sun And Back' with a small bumblebee next to it.

"When you were 2 years old I once told you that I loved you and you replied with 'I love you to the sun and back'. I asked why the sun and not the moon and you said 'Because the moon isn't far enough for my love to go.' "

He said as I traced the ink on his arm. It was hazy but I do remember telling someone that when I was younger.

"And the bumblebee?" I question with a grin.

He scoffed."You were as annoying as a little bumblebee that just buzzed in everyone's ears all day. You still are." He states.

I was ready to give him a snarky reply but then he suddenly wrapped his arm around my shoulder and softly hugs me against his side.

"But you're my bumblebee." He whispers softly.

It was sweet, it really was but I was always one to ruin the mood.

"Yeah and you're my annoying Bleach." I teased before punching him in the arm as hard as I could, he still deserved it anyways.

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Aww so Blake is just a misunderstood chipmunk.

But I still want to punch him, just to get it out of my system👨🤛

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