Chapter 16: Chapter 16

I can’t take it, I can’t take it anymore. I want to officially be disconnected from vampires entirely. All this mess is driving me insane; I’m both scared and annoyed at the same time. This happens and I should’ve known it sooner. Its been two weeks. New Years passed but none of the troubles that I’ve been in has. Being attacked left and right but not just me. Its all over the news now, all kinds of attacks and people getting killed. I don’t know what kind of thing this is but it should stop now. I don’t want to be part of it.

And don’t get me started on Kellin. This annoying horny freak won’t leave me alone even if I beg for it. He’s been destroying my physical health all kinds of ways. I think I’m just going to have to quit life because with him around, nothing gets done, I swear. I can’t have one moment of peace without him invading my space. I can’t even do work:

Or sleep:

Or even keep my dignity:

And that’s not all. I don’t even know how it happens like this but it just does. God, what is wrong with me, I just can’t get him away from me. Is it because I almost said I love him before? I wanted to know what it would be like, I did not know he would take it so seriously. I just want some time alone! Please!

“You need to stop hanging around and go do something for once.” Toby told me.

“I’m fine here. You know I have a lot of work to do anyway so if this is a lead in to set me up for something, just stop,” I warned him. I was trying to eat my food but he was trying to get some too. There’s nothing stopping me from stabbing him with my fork. I’m sure he would still eat my food anyway.

“Set you up? Pssht, what?” he pretended to be clueless. “C’mon man, I got these two girls and they got tickets for a concert,” he said quickly.

“Take them then,” I said.

“That’s shady, I need a wing man.” he complained.

“Oh,” I said plainly. It will not be me so he should know that. I don’t have time to waste when I have all kinds of things I have to do with my life. He poked at my spaghetti which made me want to slap him.

“It’ll be awesome,” he tried to persuade me. He’s sucking at that.

“No-” something caught my attention quickly. I tried to hold in my shock as I watched Kellin sit on my couch. Toby better not turn around or we might have a problem. Maybe I should just let him touch my food then to distract him. Why the hell was Kellin here anyway?

“Dude, you have to get out at least once. The only reason you leave is to work or go take some stupid class,” he picked at the food more. I wasn’t paying attention to him. I was staring at Kellin who was messing with my stuff. He tore off a piece of paper swiftly and began writing on it. What? What is this? He held it up for me when he was finished.

, it read in perfect cursive. I shook my head at him slightly. There’s no way I’m going to just talk to him like that. Its obvious that there will be more than just talking anyway, that’s what it always is anyway. I don’t have time for that.

“...and you know, sometimes, I just want to chill. Is that so wrong or something, man, for real...” I was ignoring Toby at the fullest. Kellin had flipped the paper over and started writing again. Whatever it is, it will probably be a no again.

. I choked on air as my face became red. What the hell? I tried to cover up my falter like it was nothing but I had to deal with Kellin being a complete fuck. Why would he just write something like that? Oh I know, because he’s an idiot.

“Tell you what, I’ll go out with you tonight, is that okay? Good,” I moved hastily away into the bathroom. I heard Toby’s yelling even though I closed the door. I guess he was okay with that but kind of wasn’t. I turned on the shower water so I wouldn’t be heard when I start yelling at Kellin. I know he’s going to do something stupid.

His arm moved around me and I backed away. I don’t want him touching me when I know what he wants. Horny freak.

“What do you want?” I asked.

“Well,” he pulled me back against him. His body was cold, super cold. Is he supposed to feel like this. I frowned when he wouldn’t let me go. “For starters, I just wanted to see you,” he said.

“You see me everyday, now let go,” I tried to get him away from me but I honestly should have learned that never happens. I sighed and stopped moving.

“The second thing was to tell you that there’s other vampires around that....won’t be merciful to humans.” he questioned how he put that.

“Why?” I asked.

“They’re all distractions, something to set us all off, blah blah blah,” he rolled his eyes. This whole thing has been hurting me too. Kellin is now obligated to do what he must in order to protect me without having people know about it. This is one reason I’m against this whole thing. We could both be killed if he doesn’t stop this. “Just be careful, okay, I don’t want you to get hurt,” he said. I pursed my lips as I looked away. I’m not surprised that he cares or anything, its just overwhelming.

“You’re cold,” I said. It was getting hot in here from the steamed water. But he was still freezing cold no matter what. His arms tightened around me, holding me closer to hard body. I frowned at how tight he was holding me. His head nuzzled onto my shoulder.

“I’m hungry,” he said. Oh.

........

I don’t know how I thought about this whole situation. I don’t even know if he was implying anything with that, he probably wasn’t but still. I thought for a moment, trying to see if I could provoke any emotion from this whole situation but I couldn’t.

I opened my mouth to make a request.

“What if-”

“Don’t give me permission on that.” he cut me off.

“Why?” I asked. I’m sure he would love to do something like this and now he’s denying me. Its kind of a shocker cause he usually doesn’t show self control. I know he would have jumped at this sort of thing if he was given the opportunity to.

“Because I would have to take it if you said yes,” he murmured.

“Are you stupid, that’s the point.” I said.

“I don’t want to hurt you,” he said into my sweat shirt. Oh. I bit down on my lip, thinking. All he’s going to do is kill someone else. I could prevent that if I needed to. Its like saving someone’s life. But Kellin is right I guess, he could hurt me. I doubt he will though. Its not like he ever would. He’s trying so hard not to.

“Fine, whatever. Let go of me,” I said plainly. But he didn’t. I couldn’t even move my arms to shove him away from me. His tongue licked over my neck. I shivered. That was unexpected. Is he going to do it or not? He let go of me and pulled back. The first thing I noticed were his teeth; there were large white fangs in the midst of the rest of line of teeth. It made me a bit nervous to honestly see how sharp they were.

Never mind. I hope he never uses those teeth on me. I pushed him away from me now and he did back off. Of course he would never test himself when he’s like that. So he left like I assumed he would.

I took a shower and got dressed for a pretty boring night. It was when I noticed Toby had dressed up all nice that something was going on. Why would he do that when I look like shit. All I had on was a beanie, a black sweatshirt and jeans. That’s it. And now he looks like his hipster self.

“Okay listen, so I called my girl and she said she and her friend were going to that under ground club downtown. So we’re going.” he said. I groaned obnoxiously. “Please man, lets do this. You need some fun too.” he said. No I don’t, I’m perfectly fine here.

“There’s a dress code, I don’t want to change.” I complained.

“That’s fine, they’ll get you in.” he pushed me out. I really don’t want to go outside. Its still really cold and everything. Even though the snow had melted a long way back, its still freezing. I can see my breath when I breathe. I hated this. He had to struggle to get me out of the lobby. The cold air hit me once we were outside. I groaned and muttered how much I hated him for doing this to me. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to go to a club, I just want to stay home.

We walked, took the train, and walked some more. The club downtown is just some regular joint sketchy people go to. I know how it is. Nothing good happens there, one reason I don’t want to be there. Another reason is because everyone that goes there are people I know. Then they’ll think I’ll want to go every single night which I don’t. I hate Toby for this.

“Look, its Jesse,” he pointed. I didn’t even take a glance. I just looked forward to the longest line I’ve ever seen.

“You do know we are never getting in, right?” I asked, completely avoiding the fact that he just pointed out my ex girlfriend. I’m not surprised she’s waiting in line anyway, this is her kind of life. I’m not judging, she can do what she wants.

“I have that covered.” he said and instead of going in line, we just went off in the direction of these two blond girls.

“No,” I didn’t believe it. Toby scored the prettiest girls here. I mean they were beautiful, what are they doing in a shady place like this? I’m being serious. Its like they were classy models. No, that doesn’t just happen. He gave me a cheesy smile and waved to one of them. They seemed excited to see us here. I feel like we’re under aged; I know we’re legal and all but I still feel like we’re under aged. This night isn’t going to end so well isn’t it? Its like a disaster waiting to happen.

“I’m sorry for the last minute-”

“No its cool, we made it work,” he said to her sweetly. Made it work my ass. I stared at the two girls. Then I saw something out of the corner of my eye. It was fast movement, something I shouldn’t be able to pick up on. I looked up slightly. There were two people standing around up on the building roof, like they were patrolling. For what? I moved my eyes to the other side. And there was Kellin. I groaned in my head, wanting to bang my head against the concrete wall. What is he doing? I looked back to the girls. One of them seemed uneasy but tried to cover it up.

“Oh, my bad. Pierce this is Donna and Hannah. Girls, this is Pierce.” Toby introduced us. I just waved slightly, being awkward. I was really preoccupied at the moment. WHAT THE HELL IS KELLIN DOING? I tried to shove my curiosity in a hole but I was mad. I wanted to know what he and his friends were doing here. What makes him think I wouldn’t catch it. I guess he’s not as secretive as he thought he could be.

Toby was dragging me behind him. We were cutting the line completely, we didn’t even get in. So that’s how it works then. The only thing good about this was passing Jesse and seeing her shocked face when we walked by. She couldn’t believe it; we were in front of her. I would have fist pumped but that’s rude. The girls showed the usher their IDs and said we were with them. I guess that’s it then. We were in.

The place was dark except for the flashing white lights; they were only on for seconds, flashing way too fast. I got that feeling I get when at a concert like that. Oh this is pretty awesome. The music was so loud, it drowned out any other noise that could be produced. People were going crazy here, just dancing and drinking. But I know I can’t drink, I have to be up tomorrow. One of the blonds took my hand like the other took Toby’s and we were pulled off to the dance floor. Cool. This place was amazingly huge. There was a second floor too, with people dancing and drinking up there. I got into something as cool as this, I might as well have fun. Everyone else is. Its a nice place, I guess I shouldn’t be so bitter and just party.

That is, IF KELLIN WAS NOT HERE. He was up, standing by the railings. With the flashes of the lights, I caught a glimpse of him. He was looking straight at me and it seemed like he was shaking his head somehow but not because of what I thought. I think its a warning. He pointed to the girl and then brought his hands to his mouth, making fangs with his fingers.

I went into a horrified state. The girls dancing next to me, this blond Toby hooked me up with, this beautiful girl is a vampire. Dammit, I should have known. Shady, shady, shady. I looked around, trying to make it seem like I wasn’t having a panic attack. She isn’t hurting me right now so I shouldn’t act on anything. Kellin would take care of it if something were to happen. God, I hope he would though. I turned away, pretending I wasn’t distracted. Just pretend because I have to now. I was scared so how the hell am I supposed to have fun. Toby picked up to vampires, is he out of his freakin mind?!

I could barely focus on one thing just because of the strobe lights. It was hard to not look around. It was like a one second motion picture. And then I was being grinded on. From all directions. Oh my god. I forgot what this was like. Shit. Wait, where the hell is Toby? He and his girl was gone. That’s not even okay now. I tried to at least move away from all these butts but.....no. I stayed put cause this was nice. So I looked around. Kellin was still in the same place, talking to someone across the whole place. They were giving signals and all kinds of things. Way to be discreet. They were gone in the next flash. There was one spot on me that wasn’t warm anymore, the friction stopped, and it felt like that body was gone. The blond girl wasn’t in front of me anymore.

I saw it all happen like it was slow motion. These lights help with that. That friend of Kellin’s, I think his name was Layne, had pinned the blond on the floor. No one noticed. They fought and fought. Its not like anyone could hear all the growling and snarling, the song was too loud for that. What allude me was how NO ONE NOTICED! A head was flown in the air and soon exploded into dust; I feel like people thought it was confetti. My eye twitched. What the hell? I looked back down at the floor. There was dust everywhere. Which one was it? Who died? One of them was gone now. I looked around hastily, looking for a way out, then someone was pulling on me. I was being dragged through the crowd by Kellin. That’s a no no but I let him pull me on with him. He took me upstairs with him. I got a clear view of everything from up here, I could see everything and everyone.

Where’s Toby?! I looked at Kellin in panic. He was scanning the place, just looking around, then he stopped. His hand let go of mine as he climbed up on the railing. What is he doing? He was gone in the next flash and I couldn’t see him again. Well this is just fucking great. I could scream at the world if I truly wanted to because no one would hear me but I better not. I was just going to wait patiently for Kellin to get back here.

I saw fast movements on the ground level. The girl got her head ripped off. I don’t know why but seeing Kellin do something like that kind of set me off. I know what he is, I know what he does, I know his strengths. But I’ve never seen something like that from him yet. And I never expected to. Should this make me scared? I was just neutral now. He could kill anyone he wanted so easily, he doesn’t have to put up one fight or anything. I should know that. But its him.

I had to leave. I was dying in here. I needed fresh air and I was not going to get that in here, there were too many people and I was suffocating. I walked down the stairs and tried to find my way; I didn’t feel any better till I did. My stomach was churning like I might be sick; it hurt worse than anything. This was not what I hoped to go through. The cold air helped with my quick sickness that I was feeling. I just want to go home.

“Are you okay?” Kellin was behind me. I looked to him slowly, trying not to trigger anything. He didn’t have Toby with him.

“Where’s Toby?” I asked.

“He’ll be fine.” he said. “You are not though,” he pressed his palm to my forehead. His hand was just as cold as this dry air. I moved it, not wanting to be touched. I know its cruel but I can’t deal with it, not at the moment.

“I’m fine.” I murmured and walked on ahead. He followed behind me quietly like he would have, I expected it anyway. I just hated how care free he was with something like this but I guess that’s his life. He does that kind of thing all the time, right? Of course.

When I got home, I ended up going to the bathroom and throwing up.