âReally?â Ruan Xia pressed the corners of her eyes with her fingers. Although she didnât have fine lines there, she still sighed. âMaybe itâs because Iâm a mom. Li Jing feels like a little girl to me.â
She didnât feel that way in the past, but the more time she spent with Little Wang, the more she forgot her age. When she saw people her age on the street, she would sometimes look at them from the perspective of an old aunty.
These words reassured Song Tingshen to a certain extent.
Right, she was already a mom, and he was a dad. There was naturally no feeling of an age difference between them.
âYou donât have to worry about Li Jingâs matter. Itâs not a big deal. I can deal with it.â Song Tingshen added, âAlso, thereâs nothing between her and me. Donât have any wild thoughts.â
Ruan Xia was somewhat confused. âI havenât.â
âThatâs good.â
What a baffling exchange of words.
âI wonât keep you from your work. Iâm going back to my room to sleep.â Ruan Xia turned to leave.
âWait,â Song Tingshen called out to stop her. He stood up, walked over, and left half a meter between them. He was very tall and could almost block the light from reaching her. âI said I donât have the habit of indulging others. How come you didnât ask me who I view as an outsider and who isnât?ân/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
Ruan Xiaâs heartbeat suddenly sped up. Why did she feel that the mood was becoming increasingly ambiguous? And also, what did Song Tingshen mean by saying these words?
âLittle Wang and I definitely arenât outsiders.â Ruan Xia raised her head to look at him. Looking him in the eye, she said, âYour wife and child definitely arenât outsiders.â
âWife?â Song Tingshen savored that word.
Hearing that word from his mouth, it felt strange and made her ears feel itchy. Ruan Xia couldnât stand this kind of mood. Taking advantage of when Song Tingshen wasnât paying attention, she hastily slipped away. Of course, she thoughtfully closed his study door.
When she returned to her room, Little Wang was leaning back on a big pillow with his little legs crossed and watching a cartoon. He couldnât look more comfortable and content.
âLittle Wang...â Ruan Xiaâs voice sounded somewhat dangerous.
Little Wang immediately sat up in a proper position. His movements were very quick. She didnât know where he had learned such a slovenly sitting posture.
Seeing that the chubby kid was obedient, Ruan Xia didnât bother to conduct a deep educational ideology. She sat down at the bottom of the bed. She was still thinking about what happened between her and Song Tingshen. Honestly, she was a bit tempted.
Facing a man like him, if she wasnât tempted, then she had to be a god instead of a human!
If he hadnât taken the initiative to tease her, then she would still barely be able to persuade herself to see him as a roommate and have a relationship of mutual noninterference. But what was up with him?! Ah!
Little Wang crawled over to Ruan Xia and carefully looked her over. He reached out his chubby hand and poked her face. He very seriously said, âMom, your face is so red.â
Ruan Xia hastily covered her face with the back of her hand. âAm I?â
âYup.â Little Wang vigorously nodded. âAre you sick?â
Song Tingshen was still weighing heavy on her mind, but she said, âIâm not. Maybe itâs too hot.â
âItâs not hot at all.â Little Wang exposed her lie. âI even feel a bit cold.â
âIâm not the same as you. You feel cold, but I feel hot.â Ruan Xia couldnât stop herself from sighing.
âMom, is there something on your mind?â
Translator Rambling: âShe didnât feel that way in the past, but the more time she spent with Little Wang, the more she forgot her age. When she saw people her age on the street, she would sometimes look at them from the perspective of an old aunty.â
I think sheâs acting younger than her age from spending so much time with Little Wang. Sheâs more like Little Wangâs playmate than his mother. For example, she doesnât set rules for him (although she respects the rules that Song Tingshen sets). When thereâs a hard conversation to be had, she pushes it off to Song Tingshen. Raising Little Wang allows Song Tingshen to see things from the perspective of a parent, but Ruan Xia usually sees things from a childâs perspective. For example,
âLittle Wangâs behavior brought back Ruan Xiaâs childhood memories. She had been like that too as a child. Every time her parents came to see her at her grandparentsâ home, she liked to lead her mom by the hand everywhere. At that time, her mom didnât ask her why she was doing this and unlike Little Wang, she didnât share her reason. When she carefully thought about it now, she realized it had been a missed opportunity. If she could have been like Little Wang when she was a child, her mom might have been able to understand her thoughts and feelings.â â from chapter part 98
Iâm not saying sheâs a bad mother to Little Wang. Sheâs much better at empathizing with him than Song Tingshen for one and thatâs a valuable perspective to raising a happy child. Their relationship is one of two friends rather than mature adult and childish kid. I think a natural effect of spending most of your time with young children is feeling younger than before (with positions like teachers being an exception because they have to enforce discipline and have professional responsibility over their charges).
What do you guys think?