Ch.32 Decided to Tell on Myself - GROWING UP GROWN

I decided to tell the truth. Remember how I said at the beginning of the book how I don't always keep it 100??? welll this is one of those not keepin it 100 times I was talkin bout. idk why I lied cuz if u think about it i wasn't really doin nun wrong. the only thing was that I was a couple minutes after curfew....

I told her that it was just me and a couple girlfriends and Tory had to go to her room so we all left. My dad told the truth and since that moment, I was on my mom's radar.

sorry i haven't been updating yall. So in my story I decided to leave out the part where i was clinically diagnosed with a combination of "Atypical" and "Dysthymia" Depression. tbh I do NOT believe in stupid labels like that to describe myself. i think that they're bullshit names to give people so that those people who suffer from those names can spend money on buying special prescriptions that they do not need.

I have wasted lots of time going to pharmacies and filling prescriptions i would never use.

We had child versions of SSRIs; Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor

and OF COURSE the go-to "miracle drug"Â ANTIDEPRESSANTS

when the drugs didn't work of course they put me in therapy. i wasn't saying nothing. Not even as much as "hi", "bye", "kiss my ass". I wasted an hour a week for a couple of months.

I have wasted lots of time going to weird labs to get choked on ECTs. For those of you that don't know what that is; Electric Shock TreatmentÂ - Which is a type of Electroconvulsive therapy. SPOILER ALERT: it aiint work!

You can't treat or cure a depressed person. For me, my depression came from past experiences u wouldn't even want to imagine.

The thing that cured me was my own faith in God. When that got shaky, I didn't know what to do. I really wanna tell yall about my struggles because for some reason you all feel like I don't struggle. it feels like everyone expects me to put on my happy face and act like the past never happened. I get it - you're not supposed to dwell in the past, but some things are unforgettable.

I feel that I got closer to you all while writing this book. I think I'm ready to share my deepest secrets with you all.

So can we forget about the storyline real quick so I can speak what's been really heavy on my heart?

Don't Go Down The Ladder ððð¯

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â¬ââ¬ Hello I Just Told You Not Too

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â¬ââ¬ Stop ! Don't Go Any Further ð

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â¬ââ¬ Just Go Down Then Goofy ð

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â¬ââ¬ You Hard Headed Bro Must Be BORED ð

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â¬ââ¬Luhh Stupidð

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â¬ââ¬ Nope , I'm Done Warning Yo Dumb Self ð

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Stop ð

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â¬ââ¬ You Really Wanna Go Further ?

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â¬ââ¬ Luhh Dead? ð¤

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â¬ââ¬Oh , You Bold ð

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â¬ââ¬ ð ð ð Don't You Dare

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â¬ââ¬Last Chance Dummy ð...

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â¬ââ¬ If You Came This Far Say Hey ð

Decided to Tell on Myself

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