You know devils don't fly
So don't expect me not to fall
Devils don't fly
But God we almost had it all
But I got chains and you got wings,
You know that life ain't fair sometimes
Devils don't fly
But I try.
Angels were never meant to fall
And you were the loveliest of all
If I thought God could fix it
I'd pray for your forgiveness
But I've been cast down, thrown out
When I crossed to the other side-Artist:Natalia Kills Song:Devil's Dont Fly
Blazeâs Pov.
I walked in smiling ready to see Sage and have her brighten my work-filled day, but I walked in on her frowning and everyone else quiet.
âI donât think you thought this whole idea of yours through Blaze,â Mark paused and glanced at Sage. Zac was silent and this time I had no idea what was going through his head. âYou didnât think about Sageâs emotional state after this, or how weâd react to this.â He shouldnât have brought this up, I knew what I was doing, but I wanted it to last as long as it could.
"Sage knows better than to fall in love with me Mark, she' smart." I replied, and for some reason this makes Sage burst into tears. I wasnât the consoling type, and Sage was never one to cry, but in that moment I wanted to hold her, tell her that Iâm sorry for what I did.
"No I'm not smart! Obviously I'm the stupidest person you know!" She yelled at me. I was taken aback but all I could do was stare at her.
"Sage what are-" I began, I didnât want her to say it, I didnât want us to lose what we had going so soon.
"I'm an idiot and I know it. You told me that you picked me because I was smart. Smart enough not to fall in love with an arrogant, stoic, but deep down loving guy like you, but you were wrong Blaze. And at first I thought that maybe I'd be angry at you, and that you were the stupid one for being so lovable, but I realize that I'm the dumb one for doing exactly what you told me not to, for doing the most stupid thing I've ever done; which is fall in love with you. I'm so sorry."
I saw the tears run down her face, reminding me of what I just done; I just broke a girl that was perfectly fine. I didnât know how to deal with this. She ran into our room and slammed the door shut.
I knocked on the door. âWe have to talk Sage. You donât mean that. I uh have to go pick up some things but when I come back we have to discuss it.â I wanted her to take it back, I wanted her to come out and say it was just a joke. I didnât know how to handle someone other than my grandma loving me. How could she love me after all I did and said?
I left the house to go bring back her favorite ice cream and finish up some business I had with Coryâs hospital bills. When I got home, the house was unusually quiet and dark. I flipped on the light and walked towards the bedroom. I knocked and heard my Grams say âCome in.â
âGrams?â I questioned looking around the room, not seeing Sage or any trace of her. âWhatâs going on?â
I wasnât prepared for the look my grandmother gave me. She glared up at me and said âYouâre an idiot.â My mouth gapped open like a fish.
âWhat?â I asked not believing my ears.
âYou heard me. I donât care that it wasnât real at first, that girl loved you.â Then she walked out of my room and condo without another word. It was unlike my Grams to not lecture me or tell me what to do. I looked back at the bed and saw a letter, on a simple sheet of paper in Sageâs big girly handwriting. I could see some still fresh wet spots and ink smears from when she cried. It only took me that far to see that she had left, that she was finally done.
It was a simple message, not too many sentences and in wasnât even in letter format.
âBlaze, I know that what I did goes against our whole deal. In fact it was the only thing you told me not to do, and yet I did it. Though I was never the one to follow your rules, this was the only thing you actually wanted to stick by and Iâll never understand your reasoning for it. Iâm sorry that I love you, and Iâm sorry for intruding in your life. Other than for the purpose you hired me for. Thank you for all youâve done for me and my family.â Thatâs all she said and nothing on the back barely enough to cover the front.
I didnât want to leave things like this, I needed to make sure she was okay, at least hear her voice. Though I was going to leave her alone something inside me seemed to snap when I realized that she was truly gone.
Mark and Zac came back that day to check on me, but I wasnât in the mood for talking. The ice cream that I had gotten Sage was melted and I was on the couch staring at the black screen in the dark. I didnât have an appetite to eat it, and I wasnât sleepy.
"Zac she wonât answer my calls, or even see me. I've sent her over a hundred texts and called her sixty times." I buried my hands in my hair, yanking at it roughly from frustration. I needed to hear that she was okay, or that she hated me, anything was better than not knowing.
"And what have you left in her voicemail?" Zac seemed to be nonchalant about the whole situation. He was staring at his phone barely paying me any mind.
"Why are you so calm? Sage was like another sister to you" I asked, not understanding his attitude. He and Sage were close friends and I thought he cared about her leaving too.
"I mean it was your fault and the girl tells me almost everything. What did you expect Blaze? For her to always stick around, never catch feelings, and pretend that you feel the same way about her all your lives? Now what did you fucking leave on her voicemail?" I was shocked by Zacâs attitude, he was never this angry and it was never directed towards me if he was. But Sage was important.
"I told her I needed to talk to her, that itâs important that we discuss whatâs wrong. What I guess I did wrong." I replied staring down at the milky caramel ice cream.
"Blaze this isnât some damn business arrangement anymore! You know you fucking love her, and itâs about time you man up and tell her!" He yelled and I wasnât going to raise my voice and get on his level. He needed to chill out, and I needed to think.
"I donât- I- I canât," I stuttered. He didnât understand, and no one else did either. My Father would ruin her life, and I wouldnât let that happen.
"Well then you fucking lost the best thing that ever happened to you then. Congrats, she's not the stupid one here. You are." Then with a roll of his eyes he walks away and left the house. Heâd never understand and I wasnât going to be the one to make him, heâd get over it. Just like Sage would get over me, and Iâd get use to being without her.
Itâs been two weeks, two weeks since I seen Sage. She made no actions of trying to contact me, and Iâve been borderline stalking her to see if she would.
I even drove to her house. It was the longest car ride of my life and ironicly stupid heartbreaking sonds kept playing on the radio. As if I wasnât nervous enough to see her. âLoving him was red.â I cut Taylor Swift off before she could keep going. If I had to hear one more sappy song I would die.
Losing her was an unknown emotion but it was filled with angst and anger. I hated myself for letting her go, but then I hate myself for thinking I could keep her with me. Even though in my soul I knew thatâs where she belonged. When I pulled up, her motherâs car wasnât there, but it was the weekend so I was sure that someone was home. I knocked on the door and Cory opened it.
âIs your sister here Cor?âI asked, and I could tell he was staring at my face. Even though he was a kid he could see the dark bags under my eyes and the tiredness of my face. I wasnât in the best health since Sage left. I wasnât eating as much or sleeping, work had become a top priority and I needed something to do when I had insomnia. Sage always made me balance the two and without her it wasnât as easy. Before her I had Zac and the others, but Zac was still angry and the others were mad that Iâm not trying to find her to reconcile.
âNo, sheâs not here.â His answer was simple and in fact he was glaring at me, something tells me his sister didnât come home happy.
âCould you give this to her for me?â I handed him the letter and he shrugged and closed the door. I guess he was the biggest fan of me anymore. Iâm sure his sister didnât tell him the full details but he was a smart kid, he probably caught along.
A couple days later I got a call from the hospital that Cory was check in, and the only reason they called is because I asked them to notify me if he ever did. I came the third day he was there and went to his room to see him.
âHey Cory how are you doing?â My voice was a bit raspy since I havenât talked much in weeks.
âYou lied to me.â
I had no idea what he was talking about, âWhat?â
âYou told me that you loved my sister and you wouldnât let her be sad anymore.â Well if I wasnât already feeling like the worse person in the world that just made it worse.
âIâm sorry for that. I didnât mean to Cory, but one day sheâll get over me and you will too. I just came to see if you were okay.â I gave a small smile and backed out the room and he just watched me.
I was hoping to see Sage and force her into talking to me, but I asked the nurse and she told me that she was gone and would be coming back later. I went back home to wallow in guilt and self pity; it was what I deserved.
The next couple of days were rough. I was jolting my eyes every five seconds from lack of sleep, Iâve been trying to force myself but the most Iâve gotten is 30 minutes a day.
Zac came into my room abruptly and I wasnât expecting him here. He rolled his eyes at me pulled at the covers."Blaze get the fuck up and into the shower, we got somewhere to be in a couple hours."
"Why canât you just let me wallow in self pity for a while?" I told him my head buried in my pillow, I was exhausted.
"Because we are about to see the source of your heart in a couple hours," This cause me to actually lift up my head and look at Zac.
"What are you talking about Zac?" I questioned, Sage wanted nothing to do with me, and though when we were still okay I told her Iâd be the first to eat there, we werenât on the same terms.
"Bro, you look like shit." He stated bluntly, sometime him and Aubrey were too much alike.
"Then she'll never want to see me like this." I sighed, laying my head on my pillow once again.
"Yes she will. Trust me. I just went to go see her yesterday. You remember her shop opens today?" That made me smile. "See bro thatâs the look she'll be happy to see. You werenât going to go?â
"She would be happy if I wasnât there. I want to do what will make her happy." I replied and he glared at me.
"What makes you think that would make her happy?"
"I told her what I felt and she didnât make any attempts to accept it." I sighed once again.
"But did you tell her that you loved her?"
"What? Yeah I told her I felt what she felt."
âBut did you write the words?"
"No."
"Then you didnât tell her! She just wants the words. All she wants is the words Blaze." He sighed and walked into the closet throwing clothes out for me. "Now I'll be back in an hour to pick you up with everyone else so be ready. You're going to get your girl." And with those words Zac walked out of the room and the condo.
I took a shower my head leaning against the wall, I was so tired and the heat from the water felt great, but even that wasnât enough to bring me to slumber. I needed to see Sage, I knew I would feel better. I was going to tell her, and no matter what I wouldnât let my Father get in the way of us being together. The business was mine as of yesterday, and though my dad had power, I was younger and smarter and I would never let him do anything to Sage or her family.
When we finally got to the shop people were lined up outside celebrities were walking in and I smiled inwardly, those connections came in handy for my girl's shop.
âOkay so weâre going to go in, and I will call you when sheâs ready for you. Iâm sure sheâll be busy and we donât want her crying or anything in front of her customers.â Zac directed me. All the others just stared at me with small smiles on their faces.
âIm proud of you Blaze, youâre finally doing something for yourself.â Lana smiled and kissed me on my cheek before getting out the car.
âYeah and make sure when we bring Sage home you two take a nap together. And only a nap, because youâre too tired for anything else, she might put you into a coma, haha.â Aubrey winked and I blushed a bit. Aubrey never ceased to be raunchy
I stayed in the car till further notice till Zac called which I hoped would be soon, since I was already starting to perspire at the thought of seeing my little beauty again. I loved her, and I was going to tell her. I never knew I could miss someone like this. Girls usually come and go; I wasnât the one to hold on. But I needed her more than she needed me. And tonight I was going to tell her how much I needed her.
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I'm standing outside on your mama's lawn
And it's 5 A.M got your curtains drawn
Been 25 times that I called
But I know that you love me
And out of all the stupid boys I knew
I had to fall for you
And out of all the pretty lies you told
Can one of them be true?
When you wake up
I'll still believe you're mine, oh
I'm watching you sleep all night
If I can't have you
Then no one can
When you wake up
I'll still be here outside
I'm watching you-Artist: Natalia Kills Song:Watching You