i remember the first time
he kissed me.
the way he held me to
his warm body.
the way he ran his fingers
through my hair.
i remember the first time
he said it.
the way my heart reached
to the heavens,
the way my mouth repeated
those same words.
i remember the first time
he shunned me.
the way he said he was
done with us.
the way he said he wasn't
gay anymore.
i remember the first time
he kissed me.
the way the fire of love
lit inside me.
the way i thought i had
finally found everything.