Aran Alis Egan
This is fucking stupid, but I canât sleep, so Iâm going to write in this to make it clear how much I hate you.
A toxic ârelationshipâ (this is not a relationship) is whatever I have right now with you three, in case it was not obvious enough.
Youâre the worst people I have ever met in my life. Youâre unfeeling bullies who hurt others for fun. You need help.
Just thinking about the three of you makes me feel murderous. Other than that, right now I feel nothing but a mountain of nihilism with a smidgeon of self-deprecation.
Side note: Sun god, these pens have a serious truth enchantment. I couldnât have put it better if I tried.
Corvus Malum
Thank you, Arabella, for taking this seriously.
I will also share my thoughts so we can repair our relationship (youâre right, this is not a simple, pathetic ârelationship,â you are my soulmate, which means I would die and kill just to make you smile).
A toxic relationship to me means Arabella, Scorpius, and Orion are all dead. I failed them. I attend their funeral and am so overcome with grief that my flames explode around me and I murder hundreds of thousands of people.
Afterward I walk through the carnage feeling nothing, not even remorse, because my mates are gone, and that is all that matters. I am alone.
Aran Alis Egan
My name is ARAN, not Arabella, you flaming jerk.
Corvus Malum
You are not masquerading as a male anymore. Stop being childish. Arabella is a gorgeous name. You are also the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my life.
I didnât mean to say that.
Aran Alis Egan:
Youâre so obsessed with me that itâs insane (HAHA, itâs the truth). Also, remember when I stabbed you earlier with the pen?
I want to stab you every time you call me the wrong name. It fills me with joy (still the truth, take that!).
Corvus Malum
If you hurt yourself again, I will put you over my knee, Arabella. But Iâll let you hurt me any way you need to, as long as you donât hurt yourself.
That is unacceptable.
I canât stop thinking about how gorgeous and murderous you are.
Also, you missed.
Aran Alis Egan
Corvus Malum:
Donât throw your pen across the room like a brat or Iâll treat you like one. I fantasize about painting your ass red, and I need to cover you in my cum.
Orion Malum
Oooh, are we playing a game where we only talk through the journals?
This is fun.
Nice aim, baby. Donât worry, Iâll bring your pen back over to you.
Also, in a toxic relationship I canât talk to my mate or share anything with them. They donât acknowledge me when I am trying to communicate with them. They donât let me watch over them as they sleep. They donât like that I want to own them like a treasure and consume them.
I feel lonely and abandoned.
That is why my relationship with Corvus and Scorpius is not toxic. They always listen to me. That is why Iâm enraptured with you Arabella, you fit in with the three of us perfectly.
Aran Alis Egan
Thanks for the pen, Orion. Some people are chivalrous gentlemen unlike other people (MALUM), who are dramatic and misogynistic.
Also, side note, is that why Iâve been having weird dreams about a figure watching over me?
I thought Malum was the only one who did that?
Corvus Malum
I like to stand watch for everyoneâs protection. It is my job as Ignis. As my Revered, you should love it.
I noticed you didnât call me ugly like you so often do when you run that mouth. Perhaps because itâs a lie, my gorgeous girl.
Aran Alis Egan
Youâre ugsome, unkind, unruly, and unwell.
Corvus Malum
You canât write ugly while describing me, can you?
Aran Alis Egan:
Ugsome is a synonym for ugly.
Corvus Malum
Then use it in a sentence, gorgeous. Ugsome also means offensive, which is how you meant it. I like arguing with you. Intellectually you stimulate me, in every sense of the word.
Aran Alis Egan
You are utilitarian. UGH FUCK THIS SHIT. I also like arguing with you. The fact that you arenât stupid is attractive.
Corvus Malum
Iâm hard right now. Everyone, please ignore that.
Aran Alis Egan
You did not just say that.
Orion Malum
Holy sun god, I canât believe you said that Corvus.
Iâm glad your sensitive side is finally coming out for Arabella.
Also, to answer your earlier question, I donât stand watch like my Ignis. I stalk. Itâs different. I need to watch you breathe, or I canât breathe myself. Iâm obsessive compulsive about other people, but Iâve never fixated on anyone like I have you, sweetheart. Youâre much more fun to watch than Corvus and Scorpius. I also like to watch Luka.
Sometimes my fixation can turn violent, and I feel terrible for chasing you down the hall in Elite Academy. My urges overcame me, and I lost myself in obsessing over you.
I am truly so sorry.
I never want to be a source of fear for you.
I want to be your home.
Sorry guys, itâs the truth. She smells better, and is prettier, and is captivating, and vicious, and stunning, and is everything Iâve ever wanted in a mate. I want to kill for her.
So. Badly.
Corvus Malum
My feelings are slightly hurt, Orion, but I understand what youâre saying about obsessing. I canât stop thinking about our Revered. She consumes every second of my thoughts.
These journals must be broken.
Aran Alis Egan
Aw, Malum, your feelings are hurt? Poor baby girl.
Thank you, Orion, for saying sorry. It means a lot. I like that you obsess over me because sometimes I find myself obsessing over you too. Also, I think itâs so adorable that you like Luka. Um, I mean, youâre cool.
Orion Malum
Sweetheart, thatâs everything Iâve ever wanted to hear. I love that I can speak aloud to you, and you listen. I love that you arenât scared of my devotion. I will never stop apologizing for chasing you. Sun god, Iâm blushing right now. Iâm not ashamed of what Iâm saying.
Please donât tell Luka how I feel.
Corvus Malum
Seeing you two get along gets me so fucking hard. My hand is in my pants right now. I fantasize about both of you in bed. Youâre both so pretty.
THESE JOURNALS ARE BROKEN.
Scorpius Malum
I was wondering why my journal kept vibrating. Did you guys know it was enchanted to include braille?
Of course that deranged therapist wouldnât let me get out of this shit show.
Since I fucking have to, a relationship is toxic if they donât like pain and theyâre a fucking pussy and only want pleasure. I would feel nothing but embarrassment for them because they were a weak, mindless sheep.
Corvus, I am slightly embarrassed to call you my Ignis right now. Control yourself, youâre coming across as a pervert. I love the idea of hurting, or being hurt, by all three of you during sex. It makes my toes curl.
Also, I wouldnât mind stabbing John.
Aran Alis Egan
Wait, are all of you named Malum? Iâm confused. I thought Mitch was the only one named Malum.
Also, Iâm laughing so hard right now I canât breathe. John is going to hate that.
Orion Malum
Scorpius and I are members of the noble House of Malum through matehood. Mitch is the only heir of the noble House of Malum. Any other questions, sweetheart? I love talking to you and would rather stay up all night writing in these journals than go to sleep if it means I get to communicate with you.
My love language is obsession.
What is yours, sweetheart?
Corvus Malum
My love language is touch. Thanks for asking, Orion. Itâs part of the reason my abilities drive me insane. I also love words of affirmation.
Iâm moving to a different realm.
Scorpius Malum
Mitch. Iâm cackling. Iâll cuddle you more, you little flaming softie. You just had to ask. Also, my love language is pain. Obviously.
Aran Alis Egan
My love language is quality time.
That is why I love the twins so much. They are always there to support me in big and small ways. It is healthy and fills me with comfort when everything else inside me feels very dark.
Also, we know youâre cackling, Scorpius. Everyone can hear you, and Vegar just told you to shut up. Listen to him or weâre all going to have nightmares.
Iâm going to stick with Mitch from now on, for accuracy.
Orion Malum
It hurts me to hear you say that about the twins. It makes me realize how much weâve failed you. Whatever you need, baby, we will give it to you going forward. We support you. Just to be clear, we will never hurt you for fun, never ever again.
Pinky promise.
Also, Iâll scalp Vegar if he gives you more nightmares, sweetheart. No one hurts my woman and lives. I promise. Donât worry about anything.
Weâll protect you.
Scorpius Malum
I canât agree to not hurting her for fun. Pain can be very pleasurable if done right. I want to tie you up and stick aâ¦no, Iâm not saying that.
Also, Arabella tell Vegar that if he tells me to shut up one more time, heâs getting stabbed.
Aran Alis Egan
Tell him yourself, coward. Or just make Mitch do it, since heâs the scariest with his fire and is supposed to be a leader. Sometimes I find myself attracted to how ferocious he is.
These books are broken.
Corvus Malum
Scorpius, how did you stop yourself from writing?
Iâm fisting my dick and squeezing thinking about all three of you beneath me.
Please donât read that.
Aran Alis Egan
Youâre so obsessed with us. It turns me on, the thought of you being turned on.
Orion Malum
Iâm also turned on right now, but Iâm glad I have more self-control than Mitch. I am also slightly embarrassed for him right now.
Mitch, tell Vegar to stop telling Scorpius to stop laughing. Our Revered is scared of him giving us all nightmares, and it infuriates me. Do something before I kill him.
Aran Alis Egan
Oh my sun god, Mitch, I canât believe you actually said something!
Vegarâs just brandished an ink dagger, and I think heâs going to throw it at Mitch for talking back.
Scorpius Malum
Their swords arenât made of ink. Theyâre made of nightmares.
Orion, leave the killing to me if it comes to that. I want someone writhing in pain beneath me, although no amount of pain has truly satisfied me lately because I want Arabella beneath me.
Unlike Mitch, I am not ashamed of the truth.
Aran Alis Egan
Damn. Vegar threw the dagger. No one is hurting anyone on my behalf. It stresses me out. Please donât.
Orion Malum
Mitch, are you okay? Thatâs the second time youâve been stabbed today. Also, of course, sweetheart, I will kill them secretly so you do not worry.
Anything so my girl doesnât stress.
Scorpius Malum:
Fuck, Iâm jealous. Whatâs your secret, Mitch? Arabella, will you stab me?
Aran Alis Egan:
No. No one is killing anyone on my behalf, with my knowledge OR in secret.
I might stab you. It sounds fun.
Scorpius Malum
Youâre perfect.
Corvus Malum
Too late. I hate when you call me Mitch.
Aran Alis Egan
What does too late mean? Were you referring to hurting people in secret??????? Also, donât be sad, baby girl. (hahaha)
Orion Malum
Poor Mitchy needs a kissy. I do love you so much, Mitch, and I hope this name does not hurt your feelings too bad.
Scorpius Malum
His love language is touch. Iâm going to crawl down and cover him in kisses.
Corvus Malum
Please come touch me, Scorpius. I am so hard just thinking about it. Sun god, please make it stop.
Aran Alis Egan
AWWWWWWWWW. A part of me loves that you are being vulnerable. I like this side to you. LIES.
Orion Malum
Itâs okay, Mitch, Iâd come sleep on top of you tonight, but I need to watch Arabella, so I canât. Try to take some deep breaths.
Scorpius Malum
Do you need me to hurt you, Mitchy? Iâll give you love bites.
Corvus Malum
You have five seconds to get down here or Iâm crawling up the bunks.
Orion Malum
Listening to you two make out right now is driving me insane.
Aran Alis Egan
Same.