sometimes I wonder:
did I ever love you?
because I got over you so so fast.
well maybe i didn't get over you,
but i realised that
i don't love you,
in so little time.
it took you just
to break my heart once
and instantly i stopped
loving you.
so maybe it wasn't love after all?
maybe it was lust all along.
i remember the first time
that i told you
i loved you.
i didn't know what i was
talking about, because
i didn't feel love,
i just felt complete lust.
and i knew that, because later on
i realised that i actually loved you,
but now i'm
forever questioning
even that.
i miss you,
and a year later
i will still miss you,
but i don't feel love towards you
anymore,
but to be completely honest,
i think i'd fall for you once again
if you came back into my life.
if what we had even was love.
maybe i stopped loving you
so fast,
because
the aggression,
the anger that you possessed,
was passed onto me when
you broke my heart.
or maybe,
just maybe,
it was easy for me to fall out of love
with someone
who never existed,
because when you broke my heart
i realised that
you were not
who i thought you were.
i don't love you anymore.
but i think that i did love you.
if you'd come back,
i'm sure i'd fall for you again.
it's hard to admit that.