I slide out from under the car Iâm doing an oil filter change on and look over at Yasmin and Arden. They look deep in conversation; she looks a little off though. Something isnât right.
I will hurt Arden if he upset her.
Itâs her first day for fuckâs sake. Give the girl some space.
I couldnât argue with him when he walked off with her. Not until I can figure out what this is and what it means. I watch Yasmin swipe a tear off her cheek when she thinks Arden isnât looking at her.
I see it.
It seems I see everything. Including the slight shake of her shoulders as she tries to hold back her tears.
I decide Iâve had enough of shop class. Thereâs only fifteen minutes left anyway.
I let Mr Williams know that Iâm getting changed and will walk Yasmin back to get changed before the bell rings and the bathroom fills with people.
Neither Yasmin or Arden see me approach. I place my hand on her shoulder and she jumps up and away, startled. Her eyes furiously take in her surroundings and when she realises it was me, I see her try and calm herself down.
âSorry. I didnât mean to startle you,â I say approaching her with caution. Holding my palms up so she can see them. She doesnât talk.
Itâs almost like she canât.
âCan I walk you to the bathroom to get changed?â
She looks around the room again. She nods ever so slightly. I almost miss it.
I can see Arden take in what is happening.
âWhy donât you guys meet us at our table? Iâll grab us lunch.â Arden says. Yasmin just nods again.
âSounds good. Iâll see you soon.â I close the distance between us and touch her arm carefully, so I donât startle her again.
When she doesnât jump, I quickly grab her bag from the ground and then lead her out of the room.
Once weâre outside, I stop and turn to face her.
âAre you okay?â I can see the wall she had up this morning firmly in place. I want her to let me in again. I want to see her pain and so I can help take it away.
It takes a moment, but after a few calming breaths she finally responds. âYeah, sorry about that.â Her voice is soft and scared.
âI didnât mean to scare you.â I tell her honestly.
âI know, itâs not your fault. Iâm just a little jumpy,â she says finally meeting my gaze.
In that moment I can feel everything she is. She hasnât always been this way. Something has happened.
I want to help her.
âDo you want to sit with us at lunch?â I ask. Hoping sheâll say yes.
I watch as she pulls her phone out of her pocket to check something before she responds.
âI donât do well in crowds. I might just eat in my car.â Her voice is still soft and timid.
âWe donât sit inside. We have a table outside that we sat at away from everyone. Itâll just be Ally, Arden and Rhys.â I say trying to both calm and convince her. I want to spend time with her.
Preferably alone so she can let her guard down, but Iâll take just spending time with her as a group at this point.
âUhm, I guess. I donât want to intrude.â She kicks at a clump of grass, no longer making eye contact, the uncertainty is loud and clear.
âYou arenât intruding. I want you there.â This gets her attention; she slowly lifts her head but still avoids my gaze.
âYou do?â
I take a chance. I gently place my finger under her chin, encouraging her to look at me. I want her to see that I mean what I say.
âI do.â I let her both see and hear my honesty. The sharp intake of her breath lets me know that she heard me.
âOkay.â She holds my gaze, but I know weâre short on time and I want to get her out of the main building before itâs flooded with kids. I get the feeling, that a large group of people is the last thing that she needs right now.
âCome on. Letâs go.â I lead her back into the building and send a message to our group chat while I wait for her.
Chase: Yasmin is sitting with us for lunch. Sheâs still a little spooked.
Ally: Spooked? Arden what the hell did you do???
Arden: Fuck off Ally. Wasnât me that spooked her.
Ally: Arden!!! What did you?
Arden: It really wasnât me. We were chatting, you know getting to know each other. Everything
was fineâ¦
Ally: â¦
Arden: Until Chase touched her shoulder. She freaked out.
How did Arden not see that sheâd been crying? Sheâd ducked her head to try to hide it, but I could see it clear as day from across the room.
Chase: It wasnât intentional. At least I didnât make her cry
Ally: ARDEN! YOU MADE HER CRY!!! SO HELP ME, IMMA KICK YOUR ASS
Arden: Calm your farm. I didnât make her cry
Arden: Wait? Did I?
Chase: Sometimes I wonder about you. Yes she was crying. Which is why I came over.
Arden: Oh⦠I didnât mean to make her cry
I believe him. I donât think heâd intentionally make her cry and if he knew, he wouldâve offered some sort of comfort.
Chase: What were you talking about?
Arden: Nothing
Chase: I call bullshit
Ally: I second that
Iâm interrupted by Yasmin clearing her throat. I look up from my phone and canât help but smile at her. She gives me a small smile of her own.
âOne sec.â I say holding up my finger.
Chase: Weâre on our way to the table. See you soon.
Arden: Roger that. Mushuâs are delivering.
I shake my head and pocket my phone.
âDo you like Chinese food?â I ask Yasmin while we walk back through the halls. Just as we exit the building, the halls fill with kids and she looks around uncomfortably. Itâs warmed up now. Once weâre safely outside, I take off my blazer and catch her watching me. I give her a wink and continue to walk towards our table, which is as far away from the main building as we could get, right near the car park.
âYeah. Why?â She replies hesitantly.
âArdenâs got our favourite restaurant delivering lunch.â Mushuâs never delivers lunch. Usually we just get sandwiches or burgers and the occasional pizza if Martha doesnât bring us lunch. Not sure how Arden managed that.
âRestaurant food for lunch? Iâm a little out of my league here. I planned to just get something from the cafeteria.â Sheâs still a little on edge.
âDonât worry about it. Itâs just something Arden does. We stopped eating at the cafeteria years ago. Arden got food poisoning and as funny as it was for us, he then demanded that we never eat there again and has been providing lunch ever since.â I offer a little explanation, secretly hoping itâll relax her a little.
âOh wow. Thatâs a little over the top.â
âYeah, but thatâs Arden. Usually his housekeeper brings us lunch.â
âA housekeeper? Jesus I canât even begin to wonder what this restaurant is going to be like, itâs not going to be something weird and fancy like goatâs head soup or chicken feet? Because there is no way in hell Iâm eating that,â she says and I canât help but chuckle. Itâs the most sheâs said to me since she left my house this morning.
She glances at me curiously. âYou find this funny?â
âItâs not what youâre thinking. Trust me?â I donât expect a reply from her, but Iâm pretty sure I hear her whisper âokayâ.
As we near the table, she begins to tense again.
âItâll be okay. You can leave anytime,â I reassure her again.
Ally sees us approaching and rushes to us. She throws her arm around Yasminâs shoulders and walks her away from me while throwing a scary ass glare in my direction.
I head to the table while Ally and Yasmin sit on the grass a little bit away from us and talk.
I turn my stare to Arden. âWhat happened?â Arden makes the motion of zipping his lips and throwing away the key.
âItâs pointless. I already tried to get him to spill.â Rhys says looking up from his phone.
âYou were awfully quiet, during that exchange.â I say to Rhys.
âDoesnât mean I wasnât following the convo. It was hard not to, when you were blowing up the chat,â Rhys says abruptly.
âWho pissed in your cereal this morning?â Arden snarks. This isnât unusual for Rhys, but he hasnât been like this in a while.
âFuck off Arden.â He snaps. I catch him looking over at the girls and then back at us. It was quick and I probably wasnât meant to see it.
âWhatâs going on?â I ask as I sit opposite him, choosing to ignore his attitude.
âNothing.â
âWe know you better than that.â I donât buy into his nothing crap.
âWe donât even know her and what, weâre just letting her hang out with us?â I had a feeling this mightâve been what Rhysâ problem was. I didnât think it was Yasmin herself, but more so what she represents.
âAt one stage, we didnât know you,â I reply. Rhys only joined us in 8th grade when he and his family moved to Canary Bay from Acre Woods.
A beep from the car park distracts us and Arden heads over to pick up our food. The girls approach and Yasmin slides in beside me. Her leg touches mine when she sits down and I hold my breath, waiting to see what she does.
To my surprise she doesnât move it. She just turns to Ally and continues her conversation.
At first look she seems a little more relaxed, but I donât know if itâs because sheâs calmed down or if sheâs putting on a front.
Arden unloads the bags on the table and we all help open the containers. Heâs gotten all the usual favourites. Dumplings, noodles, honey chicken and fried rice. We each take an empty container and dig in.
âWow. This wasnât what I was expecting at all.â Yasmin says as she places a little of everything in her container.
âWhat were you expecting?â Arden asks with a mouthful of food.
âWhen Chase said restaurant, I expected chicken feet and goats head soup. You know some of that fancy stuff that no one ever wants to eat.â Ardenâs unable to contain his laughter.
âFuck no. Mushuâs is the best hole-in-the-wall Chinese restaurant in town. Itâs small, run down and the food is amazeballs,â Arden replies when he finally manages to control his laughter.
âAmazeballs?â Yasmin asks with a chuckle.
Oh god.
Iâm screwed. Her laugh does things to me. Without thinking, I place my hand on my thigh and softly touch hers. She doesnât jump this time. Just turns and smiles.
I may have only met her this morning, but I know for a fact Iâd do anything I can to make her smile like that again.
âTrust me. Amazeballs,â Arden says while nodding at her container and shovelling a dumpling in his mouth.
I watch as Yasmin picks up a dumpling, closes her eyes and hesitantly takes a bite. She lets out an audible moan, and it takes everything in me to not react. She opens her eyes and looks at me, slowly licking the remaining dumpling juice from her lips.
âAmazeballs.â She says a little breathily.
Yep. Screwed.