Chapter 51: exposed?

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„Ah ah! That's not how the game works.". I leaned back with a smirk.

„I didn't agree to this shit."

I bent down and spread some kisses on his neck, which made him grab his hands firmly around my waist. „No shit. You're really going for it, aren't you?".

„Shhh", I pressed my finger on his lips. „Just be quiet.". I adjusted myself and pushed my hair back behind my ears. „You know...I'm not wearing any underwear.", pulling back again a bit to see him going insane to my words, was hella amusing.

His hands slowly but surely found their way below my shirt but I stopped him as soon as I noticed. „Hey! Don't touch me!".

„That's not how sharing works.", he grinned and removed his hands again.

„Those are my rules.", I smirked back. „I'm on top, I'm in control. And I will let me touch you if you admit that you like it when I'm naughty.". But I noticed his bulge through the fabric of my sweatpants, which was enough of a admission for me. "Just confirm it though.". I smirked even wider.

„First, just because you're sitting on top, it doesn't mean anything. Got it? Second, have you been smoking anything or what the heck is wrong with you all of a sudden? Third, of course I get hard when you sit directly on my cock and tell me that you're fucking naked below this.", Heeseung tugged on my sleeve.

„Okay. Just one sneak peak. Because it's you.", I agreed and lifted myself a little off his lap. My hands found their way to the waistband of my sweats, slowly sliding them down my legs and keeping Heeseung in chokehold. I just knew from his strained look, and his nervous lick over his lips, that he was about to go completely crazy.

„I hate you.". He shook his head as he realized that I was messing with him and still wearing my panties underneath. I kicked the fabric off my feet, whereupon my sweats landed in the footwell.

I couldn't suppress a laugh when I sank down on him again, making him groan lowly.

„Aww sorry. I promise, I won't tease you any longer... although...maybe a tiny little bit.". My eyes dropped to his waistband. My hands began to pull them down as if by themselves, although, of course that didn't work because he was still sitting on them.

„Wait...", he lifted himself off the seat slightly and pulled down the lower part, so I could go on with the upper part. The sweatpants slid down to his knees and I stopped for a second. "Now I won't tease y...". I couldn't even finish my sentence because he interrupted me with a deep kiss. It almost felt as if his pent-up energy was being discharged all at once. Closing his eyes and moving his lips down to my neck, barely touching my skin but leaving tingles that tortured my deprived body. I couldn't help but close my own eyes, taking in a deep breath and letting it out slowly, not wanting to already moan at the very beginning of our rendezvous.

„I knew you would be the loser.", I whispered close to his ear. My hands found themselves back onto his thighs, rubbing at an urgent pace. I didn't realize my hand had reached his bulge until Heeseung let out a groan and broke his lips from my body to look down at the mess I was making of him.

„Hyeo...", his voice snapped me out of my thoughts and an eternal pause filled with heavy breaths was the only sound to be heard in the night.

It was striking how the mood changed abruptly. His deep and patient stare into my eyes made me go weak in my knees.

He was asking me.

A shaky sigh came out of my mouth. The outside world no longer existed and it was just me and Heeseung, silently enjoying the presence of each other.

I smiled and nodded my head. He let out a soft chuckle. I couldn't help but laugh as well, letting the feeling set in that we were really going to this, I was finally going to be able to feel Lee Heeseung like I wanted to.

„Shit", he cursed and rummaged through his pockets. „I don't have a condom..."

„It's okay. Just...pull it out before...I think I'm safe today.", I stammered, my ears glowing red.

He started kissing me again, softly, as if too timid to do anything else. I felt a bit awkward too, not sure what my next move was supposed to be, so I reached for the strings of my slip.

„Hold on!", his voice made me stop and at the same time my heart dropped into my stomach. Had he changed his mind? „Can you leave it on?", he asked. „It's kinda hot.".

I laughed in relief and nodded while our foreheads were resting against each other.

In the meantime, he lolls out of his seat a bit and with a quick glance at the side of his tight, I noticed that his boxers had followed the path of his sweatpants.

My breaths were shaky, but I tried not to let it show.

It wouldn't be as bad as everyone always told me, right? And also not as painful as I had already read it a hundred of times. To be honest, the thought of it didn't exactly make me relax any more.

Heeseung's hands moved down to my waist to guide me up a little from his lap before his index finger gently tapped against the inside of my tight, to make me open my legs a little wider.

I slid my knees a little further out on the seat and wrapped my arms around his neck to stabilize myself more.

My body stiffened, when I felt him tuggin my slip to the side a bit. No one has ever touched me down there before, so I flinched slightly and shuffled myself closer to him. „Are you ready?", Heeseung placed a kiss on my cheek when I nodded my head.

His hand, which had been holding me at my waist the whole time, suddenly let go of me and I felt this strange pressure from below.

I knew it was all up to me. My psyche. Heeseung couldn't do much since I was the one on top and had to let go to make it work. I exhaled softly so he wouldn't notice and tried to lower myself on him, but at some point it blocked. I didn't know if he was even a tiny bit inside me yet, since my head was completely foggy.

The longer we remained in this position, the more uncomfortable it got. This was not how I had imagined my first time to be. Not in a car, not as cramped in this little space. More like, romantic and funny and also of course a bit awkward. But at the moment the mood felt tense. I was overwhelmed about what to do. And Heeseung seemed uneasy since he was most likely trying to find the fault with himself, because he of course expected me to know what I was doing.

Suddenly I noticed how he grabbed back on my waist and carefully tried to thrust up from below.

A sharp pain jolted through the lower half of my body and a whimper inevitably escaped my mouth. I buried my head in the crook of his neck to muffle the noise as much as possible, but of course he notice it, because was dead silence.

„Did that hurt? Are you okay?" he looked at me worriedly. But I just shook my head. "I'm fine!", I lied. "It's just been a while since I last..."

„Take your time! Don't worry!", he tried to calm me and I immediately felt even more bad. Why can't I just not manage to tell the truth? I didn't want to ruin it for him. Couldn't I just go through with it? So many other girls managed to do it before me.

I squinted my eyes and tried to sink a little lower myself. But the pain this time was a lot greater, so I startled and dodged a little upwards, completely losing our progress.

Heeseung seemed confused and removed his hands from my body.

Great...I completely ruined it...

„I'm sorry. It's my fault...I don't know what's wrong with me.", my eyes almost welled up with tears.

He reached for both of my shoulders, guiding me a bit away from him, before piercing my eyes sternly. "Hyeona..."

I gulped. He seemed mad.

„Have you ever had sex before?".

I avoided his gaze, my eyes staring ahead of him, like being in a trance. But he shook me, to get my attention back.  My mouth went dry and somehow he seemed to be able to read the answer from my face.

„Fucking shit...", Heeseung shoved his hair back and dropped his head against the headrest. A bit confused, I climbed back onto my seat and noticed how he pulled up both his pants immediately. In the next second, he opened the door and stepped out without a word. But he didn't shut the door. He just leaned back against the car and stared ahead.

„Are you mad at me?", I asked him carefully.

"I'm not mad at you. It's just...why didn't you tell me?".

I opened my door as well and walked around the hood.

"If I had known, I would have been more careful. And not here in the car!" he turned his head to me. "Why did you even let that happen and didn't stop me?".

I clasped my hands behind my back and leaned against the car as well. "I don't know... I think I just wanted to finally get it over with. After all, I'm already 19 and my brother with his fuck boy image...".

"It's not a competition! There is nothing wrong with being inexperienced at 19!".

"Hey!"

Our heads turned to the side as a voice echoed through the deserted street.

"SUNGHOON? What are you doing here?!", I stumbled back a bit and bumped my back on the wing mirror.

"I could ask you two the same thing...It's in the middle of the night!". His eyes dropped to my bare tighs. "Why are you half naked? Where are your pants?". My brother bombarded us with questions.

In my head the words rolled over, except an overwhelmed stammering nothing escaped my lips.

"I picked her up completely drunk. She wanted to drive off with the car, when I could still stop her and drove her home.".

Indignantly, I looked over at Heeseung. Never in my life would I do such a shit.

"Are you fucking insane?! You've had your license for what feels like a week. You can't even drive when you're not drunk..." my brother insulted me and I would have loved to make Heeseung's head shorter.

He suddenly opened the door and handed me my joggers, still lying in the footwell. "The spare key is also gone. That is why she couldn't get in.".

"Yeah, I have it.". Sunghoon pulled it out of his pocket.", Heeseung nodded to me and addressed this best friend. "Are you sleeping at home today? Then take care of Hyeona.".

If there was one thing I couldn't do at all, it was to play the drunken crazy aunt. I slowly shuffled over to my brother, who put an arm around my shoulder. "Since when do you care how she's doing?" he laughed wryly, but Heeseung didn't smile at all.

I pretended to be tired and to fall asleep at any moment. "Can we go inside? I'm so sleepy.", I rested my head on his shoulder and he rolled his eyes.

"Thanks for taking care, bro!", Sunghoon thanked him.

"Not two weeks back and already you're letting yourself go like this.", he shook his head as we walked back to the house together.

But as soon as the door slammed shut, his demeanor changed drastically. His arm slipped from my shoulders, and he stood in my way.

"Finished lying?" his eyes poked me right in the stomach. "Or are you going to keep pretending you're drunk?".

My mouth remained open, not knowing how to save myself from this stiuation. "What do you want, Sunghoon?".

"Maybe an explanation of why you're out with Heeseung at 4 in the morning?".

I frowned angrily. "Do I seriously need an explanation when I wanna hang out with a friend of mine?".

"He's not a friend of yours. You're like acquaintances...".

"Bullshit!"

"Oh yeah? Well then tell me, how long have you been hanging out? I've never seen you guys do anything together.".

"You wanna act like our childhood never existed?".

"That's like...15 years ago.". My brother rolled his eyes as I pushed his body out of my way and walked past him.

"Hyeona, I swear to you...".

"Swear what to me?", I yelled back. " If you've been dumping your best friend for your girlfriend for weeks? And now you're gonna act like you care what he's doing."

It seemed to have taken his tongue away.

"I'm going to sleep now...".

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