Chapter 167
Rivenâs stomach churned, and a seed of doubt had been planted. It was both unexpected, and unwanted, and heâd forced the helicopter to turn back around only half an hour into their trip after telling Allie that heâd be later than expected.
âFuck Iâm such an idiot!â He slammed an open palm into his forehead and grit his teeth, scouring the isles of the Brightsville herbalistâs market in search of a perfect set of flowers. âGod damn it, the first time I do this and itâs on fucking drugs. She was just held hostage by some other guy and Iâm too much of an idiot to even think about staying!? FUCK me!â
Azmoth patted his shoulder comfortingly, trying to calm him down while people nearby gave him gawking stares or wary glances. âIt ok Riven. Youâll be fine, she like you.â
âYeah well I probably made her feel like shit after just up and leaving like that, I was just in too much of a hung over haze to even think straight and nowâ¦â He threw up his hands and spun around on his large armored summon, shaking his head in wonder at his own stupidity. âMan, Iâm not even sure if she would have done what she did if she wasnât high on drugs herself. She might not even like me like thatâ¦â
Doubt overshadowed him. He glanced over at the bouquet of blue flowers positioned on a nearby stall, nervously fidgeting with his hands and looking like a schoolboy whoâd made a huge mistake. âIt might have just been the intoxication.â
Azmoth let out a loud snort at that remark. âDoubtful.â
âWhat if I fuck this up Azmoth?â
âYou wonât.â
âI might. And I might look really fucking stupid when I walk in there with flowers only for her just laugh at me.â
âRiven.â Azmoth took ahold of both shoulders this time, then rapidly shook him back and forth like a rag doll. âStop. This. Now. Get flowers, go ask her. Just because succubus does not mean she want only sex. Does not mean only drugs. Need ask, and assume the best.â
Dim daylight trickled through gray clouds overhead, a common phenomenon due to his transformation zone of unholy attunement. Glancing down at his fidgeting hands, Riven took in a deep breath and let it out to calm himself. âIâve done far harder things than this. Get ahold of yourself man, grow a pair of balls.â
Turning around and stalking over to the cashier who wore a frightened, pale look - he picked up three differently colored bouquets: one blue, one white, and one purple. âHow much for all of these?â
âM-my kingâ¦â the cashier stuttered with a bow, her portly frame nearly tipping over in the act. âNo need to buy-â
He didnât have time to waste. Slamming a sack full of coins onto the counter that spilled out with gold and platinum, he leaned over with a fierce look in his eye. âTell me where the best date spot is for a first date. I'm talking an EPIC first date. Can you do that?â
The startled womanâs eyes went even wider, and she quickly nodded. âY-yes, thereâs a nice little restaurant on the river back near Bakerâs Bend⦠Do you happen to know where that is?â
***
Fay was curled up in her own room, alone. Sheâd not wanted to talk to her brother at all after whatâd happened, and Kathrine had walked back to the altar as right as rain with a skip in her step to leave Fay - unknowingly - to think rather depressed thoughts.
It wasnât that the sex had been bad. Itâd been beyond great, and itâd been fun to involve Katherine and Genua too. But Riven had just gotten up and left the next morning without saying a word, like it was no big deal⦠and to Fay, it was a very big deal. Sheâd only spent less than half a year with Riven, but during that time she was quickly starting to care for him on a much deeper level than sheâd ever expected to before the contract had been signed. He was kind, he had a good heart, and he treated her like a person with real feelings. It was a first for her, and sheâd never had this kind of connection with her previous summoner. To her previous summoner, sheâd only been a sex toy.
Maybe thatâs what she was to Riven too.
Tears welled up under her eyes. She vividly remembered the feeling sheâd had upon realizing Riven had come to save her in that underground lair where sheâd been abducted by Chalgathi cultists. Her heart had slammed in her chest so hard that she thought itâd pop out and burst. He hadnât needed to come get her, he could have easily left her for another succubus or another demon, but heâd not only come - heâd also comforted her. Heâd cared.
Yeah, heâd⦠Heâd cared.
Or maybe she was just being stupid.
Sniffling and drawing up the covers to cover her face, she let out a sound akin to a dying cat amidst a stifled sob. âIâm so fucking stupid! Fucking, fucking, FUCKING stupid!â
She sobbed again and punched the pillow with an angry, balled up fist, and then slapped herself three times as self punishment for believing something that obviously was a falsehood. If Riven wanted to use her like that, it was his right. He was her summoner and she was a succubus, she should expect this. Emotions werenât involved, she just had to swallow that fact and accept-
A loud knock at the door interrupted her thoughts, and she sniffled again with red-rimmed eyes to glare over her shoulder under small black horns. Her voice quivered angrily as she spoke, but despite her attempt to hide the hurt she felt - it was still obvious she was very distraught. âI s-said get lost Tupper! Iâm trying to sleep, ok!?â
To her mounting rage, the door creaked open. With the fires of anger lit under her soul, she ripped herself off the bed and stormed over to the doorway to fling it open the rest of the way. Then she began to screech. âTUPPER! I SAID-â
Fay came to an abrupt halt mid sentence, her snarl leaving her lips while tears clung to her face. In the doorway, Riven stood holding three bouquets of very pretty flowers to his chest. He looked at her with shame, face turning a shade darker as he held his breath, and his crimson eyes slunk to the floor.
âUhm⦠Fay⦠I need to talk to you. Can I come in?â
She remained speechless, still not fully dressed and only in undergarments. âArenât⦠arenât you supposed to be seeing your sister?â
Her words came out as a whisper, and she searched his face for a time before her eyes landed on the flowers again.
Shamefaced and guilty, Riven avoided her stare until he mustered up the courage to speak again. âI was supposed to, yes⦠but I think this is more important. What happened last night⦠I wanted to talk to you about it. But, if Iâm being stupid and you donât feel the same way-â
âFeel what way?â Fay cut in, her voice cracking with pent up emotions as one hand clutched at her stomach.
Hesitantly he looked back up. âIâ¦Well, these are for you.â
He pushed the flowers over to her and stepped back, unsure of how sheâd react.
Even she was unsure of how to react, and she took them in both arms while continuing to stare out at him - tears beginning to dry on her light blue skin.
âFor me?â She repeated in a whisper, lips pursing together as her face scrunched up in an attempt not to cry again.
Riven nodded, nervously clenching and unclenching his hands as he stood in the hallway. Taking in a deep breath, he settled his nerves and cleared his throat. âUhm, can I be blunt?â
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Fay slowly nodded, lips quivering.
He let out another breath. âIâm not sure if what happened last night was anything important to you, but I wasnât thinking straight when I left this morning. I was still hung over and the drugs were still somewhat in my system, and I was tired so my mind was hazy anyways. But on the chopper ride over I began to realize that I really care about you. And⦠I mean if you donât feel that way too I can back off and pretend like this never happened, butâ¦â
He met her eyes again, losing his momentum when she didnât react. She hadnât reacted at all.
She only stared. He paled beyond what was normal even for him, and his shoulders sagged. âSorry. This was a really, really stupid idea.â
Giving Fay a half-hearted smile, he nodded once and stepped back. Clearing his throat one more time, he turned to go.
And she let him go.
Fay watched him wordlessly while he slowly meandered down the hall to where the spiral staircase was located. She watched without action as he muttered about how stupid he was under his breath, and watched as he slammed a palm into his face to drag it down his cheek before exiting the hall into the stairway.
***
Riven was utterly defeated. His heart hurt, and the rejection had been so utterly brutal that he couldn't even believe it.
Jesus. Heâd really fucked this one up. Sighing and leaning against the outer wall of his manor, he lightly banged a fist against the wall and shook his head in silence. Heâd even made her cry because heâd overstepped so badly. To think that sheâd had such a terrible reaction as one to fucking cry because heâd wanted to ask her on a date was just devastating, and he turned his back to slide down the wall with a thud next under the shade of a nearby tree.
Further into the garden, he saw Joseâs tombstone. Giving it a thumbs up and a halfhearted laugh, he caught the lump in his throat and covered his face with one hand. âGod damn it Jose. Iâve always been terrible with girls. I wish you were here man. I wish you were here to give me that dumbass advice you always used to give, and even though it never worked it always was such a fucking self esteem boost!â
He let out true laugh this time, still feeling the pit in his stomach like a thousand pounds of weight settling in to curl like a massive ball of anxiety. âDamn. She might not even want to be contracted to me after this. Fuck man I didnât realize just how much I liked her⦠and Athela is going to kill me when she gets back and realizes her friend doesnât want to be with us anymore because Iâm a creep. God damn it.â
The sounds of birds continued to chirp overhead, just like they had earlier that morning. No doubt some sparrows had built a nest in the tree above, and from underneath the hand he was using to hide his face in shame - he felt bird shit land on his boot.
Looking down at the liquid white dung, he felt it an appropriate punishment for his stupidity. Fay was way too pretty to be with someone like him anyways. Wherever he went people lusted after her, so why the fuck would someone like that want to be with someone like him?
A light breeze rustled his hair, and a moment later he felt the light touch of soft fingers on his hand alongside a nearby heartbeat. âRiven?â
Startled slightly, he looked up - coming face to face with Fay.
âOh! Heyâ¦â Riven awkwardly, nervously grinned back up at her before avoiding her gaze. âI-Iâm sorry, for bothering you like that. It was completely out of line. I shouldnât have⦠I mean⦠I was going to ask you on a date after I gave you the flowers and⦠Iâ¦â
âStop.â Fay held up one finger to his lips, shushing him when he began to protest, and she slid down the wall to sit next to him with a quivering, uncertain smile. Her wings retracted into her body, and her thin black tail flipped nervously from side to side. âJust⦠be quiet for a moment. Ok?â
Riven promptly shut up, and his gaze faltered again.
The two of them sat there, looking out over the garden in the shade of the trees and the manor under a slight breeze. He could still feel deep regret and shame flooding his mind, could still feel the bitter bite of that shocked look she had - and the utter lack of response on her part after heâd very stupidly confessed heâd had a crush. All those times sheâd played around with him, theyâd just been teasing. Itâd all just been fun and games with the little comments sheâd made here or there. She was a succubus, he should have expected as much, and now heâd made things very awkward between the two of them. She only wanted the sex, and nothing more.
âRiven, what do you see when you look at me?â
Riven's eyes narrowed, and he turned his gaze fully on the woman beside him who stared back at him with big, black, doe eyes. âWhat do I see when I look at you?â
He repeated the question again in a half whisper, uncertain of what she was getting at, but she stayed silent. âI see one of my good friends, and I see a girl way out of my league.â
He gave an apologetic smile, this one being genuine. âFay⦠I truly am sorry about earlier. I didnât ever mean to make things awkward. I had a stupid thought enter my head when we had sex last night and I just jumped the gun, but I promise it wonât happen again. Please donât leave because of this⦠Athela would kill me if you did.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
Fay wordlessly continued to stare, mouth slightly opening - only to close again as she took in air and pushed her long white hair over one ear. Arms wrapped around her knees, she slowly turned to look at the ground in front of her feet, and tears began to trickle down her face again before she squinted her eyes shut hard.
The ball of anxiety quickly returned to Rivenâs throat and gut. âHey⦠I can go if you want me to. I can give you space, I just really-â
Fayâs hand whipped around and slapped him full across the face, leaving a hard red handprint laid out across his pale white skin. She was fuming, tears continuing to stream down while her hands shook at her sides. Getting up into a kneeling position, she glared daggers at him like he was something she had nothing but hate for - and her breathing became loud and ragged within seconds.
Shock, despair, and humiliation. Those were the three emotions that quickly crossed his mind, and all he could do was slowly nod without any words. Holding one hand to his bruised cheek, he began to climb to his feet - only to be yanked back down by the scruff of his shirt with one of Fayâs slender hands.
He let her pull him back, hitting the ground with his knees to stare in confusion back at her. No words were spoken while she fumed, continuing to shake and cry, only for her to gently reach up and touch his bruised face with a quivering hand.
âSorry.â She muttered under her breath with a croak, using a voice that sounded like itâd been crying too hard and too much for her to properly speak. âI just needed to get that out.â
Then she cupped his cheeks in both hands, drew herself into his embrace, and locked lips while softly pushing him into a sitting position.
The warm touch of her skin on his as she kissed him was like a tidal wave of mixed emotions. First there was shock again, then confusion, and then finally a deep-set warmth and happiness that spread up through his abdomen and into his chest. His arms wrapped around her scantily clad body, pulling her in more closely as she pushed herself towards him to straddle him.
Gasping for breath seconds later, she pulled back a few inches to stare into his eyes - searching for something in his returned gaze. âYou were really going to take me on a date?â
Snapping himself out of his dumbstruck stance, he blinked a couple times and nodded. âYeah⦠I was. Fay, please donât do this if youâre just trying to appease me. Ok?â
He tilted his head and gave her the most sincere, but also hesitant look heâd ever given anybody. âYou donât have to do this just because Iâm your contracted warlock. Thatâs⦠not what Iâd want.â
*WHAM*
She hit him full across the face again, leaving a bruised handprint on the other side of his face to match the first.
âYouâre a fucking idiot!â Fay said, voice quivering as she reached down to his shirt and yanked. The fabric ripped, then it ripped again and then it finally tore. Pushing Riven violently to the ground, fayâs tail whipped about her back and forth as she aggressively pressed her lips against his again - this time sticking her tongue into his mouth while her hands traveled across his toned chest and abdomen.
When her own clothes started to come off and the moaning started, thatâs when the four onlookers from around the corner of the manor all started to snicker.
Well, at least they gave their own versions of a snicker. Jackalâs ears just flapped up and down in its shadowy dog form, Azmoth gave the childish âTeheheâ laugh he used to do in earlier days back during his travels in Negrada, Luke just slowly clapped with a grin.
Jackal quickly followed, and Azmoth came next. But Azmoth had to come back and yank the old elf thrall away, before the sounds became even more passionate only ten seconds later.
***
Riven yet again lay naked with Fay on his chest, only this time he was outside and underneath the shade of the garden's largest tree. Running his fingers in and out of Fay's silky white hair, she hummed in contentment while her own fingers traced his left bicep.
âSo⦠Are you still wanting to go?â Riven asked after a long time of relaxation, turning his head to kiss her as she snuggled up into his arms. âOn the date I mean?â
âOf course I do silly! Just let me know when youâve got it planned.â Fay grinned widely back at him, then furrowed her brows before jolting upright. âWait, do you mean today!?â
He let out a loud laugh, nodding and sweeping the hair out of her face while tracing her cheek with one hand. âThatâs what I meant, yes.â
âWELL OF COURSE I WANT TO GO! WHAT ARE WE STILL DOING HERE!?â
Shooting to her feet, Fay almost fell over as she attempted to put on her panties and bra again. Cursing to herself under her breath, she swatted at him with her tail and glared at him over her shoulder while he continued to laugh. âYou OWE ME for making me cry! So where are we going!?â
Sighing with a smile, he let her pull him up and took her into a hug again while she jumped up repeatedly on her tiptoes like a little kid at a candy shop. âIâve reserved a place⦠Itâs waiting for us now. Perks of being a king, or a prince, I guess. I donât want to ruin the surprise until we get there, and Iâm kind of bad at this dating thing⦠but I think youâll like it. If this works out⦠do I get to call you my girlfriend?â
Riven wiggled his eyebrows enticingly her way, and she snorted a laugh before pinching him and shoving him back. âFirst you have to get on something presentable, then you can try to woo me again afterwards. Go on! I expect only the fanciest outfits! And you BETTER NOT wear that ghastly armor of yours, itâs scary. Even for me.â
She lifted herself up on her tiptoes one more time, kissed him for the millionth time in the past hour, and winked. âHURRY UP! Weâve gotta go, and I'm super excited!!!â
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