Chapter 7: diamond

I woke up and decided I will not be attending that celebration I'm not a boring person I just don't have time for the childish games when I'm a child in the ghetto and the only way out is to make it out and my out is education so yes I rather stay in the house off the grimy ass streets out of a club that's probably gon get shot up anyway and in the safe and comfort of my home and if that's makes me bougie,boring, whack or dumb then to hell with it because i think its exactly what I am smart.my phone lit up saying I had a incoming call I turned down the TV of bad girls club and answered it hello.hey dime I'm sorry for getting out of pocket with you yesterday and hanging up in your face I love you meka said.I said yea hoe you was way out of line but I love you to and I'm glad you understand.no I don't understand dime.oh lord I said, no I'm serious dime yea your smart but your also beautiful and a human being live a little have fun we all deserve that.I started thinking about it in my head like should I go but my heart just would not allow me.I know what's your saying meka I do and I partly understand but Imma need you to understand something I'm 17 years old Wait let rephrase that were 17 years old and we live in Brooklyn in the GHETTO were our apartment are floors up and the hallways are litter with junkies off all sorts of stuff and the stairs smell pissy  all day every day and gun shots rang all the time and you walk outside scared out of yo living mind not knowing whether or not the air  you breathe in or out is gon be your last because life as we know it is always to damn short and ion know bout you meka but I want to live long enough to get out of the ghetto so yes I'm beautiful and I'm a human being but at the end of the day I'm also diamond unique Mitchell and imma die her smart, geek,boring,ugly whatever but know this I'm living more than anybody try to get out the ghetto now or we ain't never getting out fun can come later.okay dime i hear you well I can hear there is no changing your mind well bestfriend I have a party to get to I can die walking out my house but the least I can say I live.yea meka you just don't get it I love you though and have fun,yea I guess not and I will love.I hung up the phone and shook my head gotta love her thoe I sat and thought what am I gon do today I guess I'll walk to the library I went upstairs change into my Nike sweat suit and uggs and grabbed my books and walked out into the cold chilly nippy air of October.