CH 74

*Contain explicit content

After turning on the front door light, I turn on the light in the pitch-black hallway.

There was a small dusty dust, probably because I had been out of the house for a while.

“Finally, we’re here.”

“……I guess so.”

The day before the last day of winter vacation.

We had returned.

No, to be precise, I was coming back to my apartment.

I had planned to return on this day from the beginning. And tomorrow, we would relax for a day and start our high school life again.

That was the plan.

“Oh, a bath. I’ll take it first.”

“Y-yeah.”

Nagi did not put away her baggage……which is natural, since the place to put away is Nagi’s house.

She put her luggage down. No. She picked up one thing and went to the bathroom.

I also put down my luggage and went straight to the bedroom. I don’t have that much luggage, so I can clean up later.

After lightly ventilating the room, I turned on the heater and sat down on the bed.

I took a box out of my bag. I put it aside.

It was–a contraceptive.

I made her wait too long.

I made Nagi wait too long.

Today. We are finally going to do it.

I can’t think clearly. Of course I have a feeling that it’s too early.

But…..it’s not good to continue to be a wimp.

Of course, considering the risk of getting pregnant, it would be better not to.

However. I don’t think it’s unusual for high school students to do so. I don’t know if they are the majority or the minority. There must be a certain number of them.

Maybe Eiji and the others are doing it even sooner. Because sometimes they throw in a great conversation. Those two.

–Anyway, my head is all messed up.

I had to keep thinking about something or I would go crazy.

“……Calm down.”

I took a deep breath once.

I’ve made up my mind. Don’t come here and screw it up.

I decided to make Nagi happy.

I’m going to expose myself to everything–I’m going to take in everything Nagi has to offer.

This is a precious experience that comes only once in your life.

“……Calm down.”

I once wondered if I should ask Eiji what I should do to avoid making mistakes. But after Nagi told me, I reconsidered.

[It’s the first time for the two of us. Would you like to explore and find out from the beginning? …..No. I’d like to do that. I don’t care if it’s a success or a failure. I want to walk this one out together.]

Then I didn’t explore the matter. Things that may cause injury, how to use contraceptives, etc. I have done some basic research on it.

Once again, I take a deep breath.

Howeve. My heart is still racing.

And then, it seemed that a lot of time had passed.

“S-sorry to keep you waiting.”

After knocking. Nagi entered the room.

Wearing only a pure white bathrobe.

The string tied tightly around her stomach emphasized Nagi’s figure even more.

The bathrobe, by any chance, was a little small. It looked very painful around her chest. I’m sure Nagi chose the bathrobe by herself.

“H-how is it? Is it strange?”

“….It look good on you. Um. I think it’s cute.”

Nagi sat down next to me.

The scent of a mixture of shampoo, conditioner and body soap wafted through the air. The sweet scent filled the room.

“I-I’m gonna go too.”

“Y-yes. Souta kun has already turned on the heat, so the room is already warm. Please take your time.”

I was about to have an outburst if things continue as they were.

I picked up one of the bathrobes and headed for the bathroom.

“……I’m so nervous.”

While taking a shower. I muttered.

I let out a sigh to myself, because even though I was nervous, I had a reaction there.

Somehow I managed to wash my head and body. More carefully than usual.

Deciding not to soak in the bathtub, I put on a bathrobe in the changing room.

“……Okay.”

I took another deep breath and headed for the bedroom.

I put the back of my hand on its door and knocked. It was my room, but just in case.

“C-come in.”

I adjust my breathing, which is becoming shallow. I go in.

Nagi was sitting on the bed.

It was supposed to be the usual room. It was already filled with the sweet smell of Nagi’s scent.

“S-souta kun. This way, please sit down.”

“…Y-yeah.”

Nagi told me to sit cross-legged on the bed.

Nagi had also moved a little and was sitting in the center of the bed, sitting on her knees.

I was facing Nagi. Both of us were silent and there was silence in the room.

If I don’t summon courage here, when will I do it? Come on.

“Nagi.”

“Y-yes.”

“……Can I take it off?”

Somehow I managed to squeeze out my voice.

Nagi nodded with a red face.

Nagi then sat up straight and stretched out her legs. The bathrobe was made to make it easier for me to take it off.

I put my hand on the string of the bathrobe. The knot was surprisingly easy to undo.

The bottom part of the bathrobe fluttered open.

The white, slender thighs came into view. That alone was enough to make me feel like I was about to be blinded—

“……Please take everything off quickly.”

“Y-yeah. I’m sorry.”

Her blue eyes stared at me.

I gulped again.

The front of the bathrobe was naturally coming off. I could see her snow-white skin little by little.

I put my hand on the bathrobe, and shifted it a little.

With a thud, the bathrobe easily fell off.

“—“

I was taken aback.

I gulp.

My heart jumps.

My breathing stops.

There are many ways to describe it. In fact, I did all of them at the same time.

But if I had to describe it in one word–

I was captivated by Nagi.

In front of me. Nagi was sitting there, looking like she did when she was born.

Without covering with her hands.

Nagi was staring at me with a bright red face.

“It’s so–“

I was so nervous that my throat was dry. Still, I was spinning words.

No, the words were spun on their own.

“—-It’s so pretty. Nagi.”

The words were not consciously spun. It just came out of my mouth.

“T-thank you very much.”

With a bright red face and a bright red neck.

From there to the bottom…it was bigger and more beautiful than I had imagined. From there on down–it was pure white.

“S-souta kun. Can I take off yours to?”

“Y-yeah.”

Nagi sat down again. She bent down a little and put her hand on the string of the bathrobe.

Soon, she finished removing the strings. Nagi startled. ……I shook there at the same time, and I couldn’t help but look at her.

“My bad. I’m already at my limit.”

“I-I see. ……I’m happy.”

Nagi put her hand on my bathrobe. She took it off easily.

And then. We both took off our bathrobes–and was completely naked.

We looked at each other. Our gazes kept going back and forth to various places.

Nagi took a deep breath once and made eye contact with me again.

“S-Souta kun.”

“……What is it?”

“Won’t you give me a hug?”

Nagi opened her hand. ……..Even though I can see everything. Nagi’s face turned red as she continued.

“I want to feel Souta kun directly. I think I can calm down a little if I do that.”

“….Yeah. I understand.”

I gently grabbed her hand. I was pulled.

I put my hand on her back. This time, it is not through clothes.

But through her skin.

Fearfully, I embrace Nagi. Nagi hugged me.

“…….I’m sorry.”

“N-no. This is acceptable.”

Of course, hugging means close contact.

It feels soft and smooth on my chest. I could feel the softness directly.

And my thing was also reacting to it. It was hitting Nagi’s stomach.

But–

“I can hear Souta kun’s heartbeat.”

“……I can hear Nagi’s heartbeat too.”

I can directly feel the heartbeat behind the softness.

Ba-dump ba-dump.

Little by little, my heart was beating fast.

Ba-dump ba-dump.

Slowly, slowly.

“Souta kun’s heartbeat. It’s starting to calm down a little bit.”

“……So is Nagi’s.”

As if they resonate with each other.

Our heartbeats overlap, as if they melted into one. Little by little, they begin to regain their composure.

Then we embraced each other for about 10 minutes.

“Nagi.” “Souta kun.”

We called each other’s names at the same time and we lifted our chins.

We look at each other and laugh.

We were so much in sync with each other.

Without giving any signal, we put our lips on each other’s.

“…..Ngh.”

It was a long kiss.

The interval between the kisses became longer and longer, with occasional breathing in between.

“……Ah.”

Nagi opened her mouth.

At the same time—I slipped my tongue into it.

I’m under the illusion that it’s sweet.

While for the first time in many ways, the happiness gradually swells.

Soon, we began to reach for each other. We wanted each other.

It wasn’t long after that.

“…..Is it okay? Nagi.”

“Yes, of course.”

Nagi put her hand on my back. I put my hand between her back and the bed.

“I love you, Nagi.” “I love you, Souta kun.”

We put our lips on each other.

We became one.

◆◆◆

I woke up to the sound of birds chirping.

I noticed that the clock had struck twelve. It was already noon.

“Good morning, Souta kun. No, it’s not morning. It’s already time to say good afternoon.”

“……Nagi.”

Nagi is in my arms.

Even just like that. I felt love inside of me.

I found myself putting my lips on hers.

Nagi quietly accepted me. She hugged me tightly.

“……Is there any pain?”

“Right. I still feel a little uncomfortable…..and my waist is a little tight.”

“I’m sorry. I made you suffer.”

“Don’t apologize, Souta kun.”

Her blue eyes have a soft light in them. Our lips overlapped again.

“I—I’m surprised.”

“…..Surprised?

“Yes, I wonder what to say.”

With a small giggle, Nagi put her hand on my cheek.

“Geez. I’m much happier than I’ve been in the last year combined. These past few days…..no. Half a day and a bit.”

Nagi put her lips on mine again.

“I’m so happy that I’m going crazy.”

A slight film covered her eyes.

I saw a drop of water almost dripping down her cheek.

I scooped up the tear with my finger. The warm liquid ran down my fingers and down my arm.

“I’m happy. I’m so happy.”

Nagi’s voice trembled. But the words never stopped.

“Is it okay to be this happy?”

“….Yeah. Nagi. I’m happy too.”

Before I knew it, my vision had become blurry.

Nagi’s fingers caressed my eyes, wiping away my tears.

“I love you. I can’t express it in any other words than this. I love you. Souta kun.”

“……I, too, love you. I love you.”

Nagi hugged me tightly.

I hugged Nagi tightly, too.

“I’m happy, I love you…..I.”

“Yeah. I feel the same. We do everything together, Nagi. So don’t be afraid.”

All of the emotions overflowed—–

–The feeling of loving Nagi.

–And happiness.

Both of them exceeded my capacity.

“I love you.”

“Me too, I love you, Nagi.”

Hold her tightly.

So that she will not collapse in happiness.

“Absolutely. I’m going to marry you. Souta kun.”

“Yeah. Definitely.”

Even a sob is about to leak out. Tears overflowed, and they ran down Nagi’s shoulders.

Likewise, a warm feeling lingers on my own shoulder. It drips down my back.

“This happiness…I don’t want to forget it.”

“……I’ll make you happier than you are now. All the time.”

“Even I. I’ll make you happy. More.”

A battle of emotions that requires little use of the brain.

“Nagi.” “Souta kun.”

Even the exchange of words was slow and awkward. My voice was shaking and I couldn’t pronounce them well anymore.

I took my hand off Nagi’s back and……Nagi also took her hand off my back.

But our bodies remain in close contact. We hold each other’s hands.

We intertwined our fingers and never let go.

We kept our lips together.

We said that words were no longer necessary. We directly confronted each other with our feelings.

If either of our feelings are weak…..or strong. Either me or Nagi might have collapsed.

But. That was not possible.

That’s how deeply we cared for each other.

–We loved each other so deeply.

◆◆◆

“….E-erm, um, I’m sorry about everything.”

“N-no……me, too. I’m sorry.”

Everything has an end.

No matter how much emotion you have—you will run out of strength.

After causing each other to forget to breathe and nearly pass out.

Finally, we were back to normal.

However, it seemed that we were going to run out of control again, so both Nagi and I had to get dressed.

“…… I didn’t think it would go this far.”

“That’s right. I feel like it was dangerous in many ways.”

Considering the burden on Nagi’s body, I haven’t done it since then. ……Only once.

“But this. It seems that once you learn it, it will be a tremendous thing.”

“That’s right. I feel like I’m going to forget everything about studying and school.”

The sun went down. …..Yes. The day has passed.

“I-I love you too much, and it’s troubling.”

“Yeah. ….But I’m not going to restrain myself.”

“Me too. I say I like what I like.”

The time is past six o’clock.

…I was speechless. To this extent.

“I wonder if I love Nagi too much.”

“I feel exactly the same way. I love Souta kun too much.”

Even now, when I remember it, my face gets hot. When I unconsciously covered my face with my hands, Nagi nodded with a chuckle.

“If you overflow with happiness, that’s what happens.”

“…I guess so.”

“But I’m still very happy.”

I nodded slightly at Nagi’s words.

Lingering memory, I suppose. ……but.

“It’s still a little fluffy. It’s like my feet don’t touch the ground. That’s how it feels.”

“….I felt that too.”

I replied. Nagi leaned back against my chest and put her weight on me.

“…..Which do you think is better?”

“Either get used to it, or make it a special occasion.”

I said the words were missing, but Nagi could guess everything. She laughed.

Should I get used to this happiness?

Or should these things be special occasions?

……As for the former, can we really get used to it? I have a feeling that I should.

And I also wonder if I should get used to it. I’m afraid that one day ‘used to’ will turn into ‘boredom’.

The latter is…not bad. So every time it will be like before.

It’s not a bad thing either, honestly.

How dangerous It’s to the point where I feel like I won’t be able to move for a week.

“I have a suggestion.”

“What’s that?”

“Basically, I’d like to make it a special occasion. An anniversary of some kind.”

I was about to interject, but decided to be mature and hear her out. I kept my mouth shut.

“However, at this level it’s going to interfere with my daily life. I don’t think Souta kun wants that either.”

“I guess so. It’s not good to go over that line.”

“Yes. So let’s strengthen the former a little.”

Nagi looked up and peeked into my face. It feels fresh to be peered in from below.

“So that means?”

“……Each of us. Let’s not hold back when the desire seems to swell up. I don’t think it’s likely to happen now, though. I’m very afraid of getting ‘bored’.”

I nodded at Nagi’s words. That is what I fear the most.

That’s why I have to make sure that I don’t get bored of it.

“We have to find the best frequency and method of doing things through a variety of trial and error. I want to keep happiness within the limit, not to love each other beyond the limit.”

“I see. …… So you’re saying that we should think carefully and respond flexibly, right?”

“I think so. Carefully repeat the number of times so that happiness doesn’t overflow.”

“Isn’t that too close to the edge?”

Whatever the case may be, this may indeed be the most dangerous time of the year.

They said that love is blind.

They also said that love that easily heats up easily cools down.

“I love Souta kun. I don’t intend to forget this feeling for the rest of my life.”

“I love you too, Nagi. And I want to keep loving you. I don’t want to forget it….until I die.”

“……When you say such cute things, I feel like kissing you.”

The words of Nagi made my heart swell and choke.

But it’s not good. I shook my head when I went back to the way I was before.

“Fufu. I’ll leave it at that. I thought I should take precautions for that. I don’t want to become a temporary adolescent due to an overdose of happiness–I absolutely don’t want that. For me to become a lifelong companion. For Souta kun to become one. Let’s explore it together.”

Although Nagi is emotional, she is also skilled in this kind of analysis.

“I have no objection. I don’t want to think….that I’ll end up in a temporary relationship with Nagi, too. We’re engaged now. I can’t be that casual about it, and I don’t want to be.”

“Fufu. I’m relieved to hear you say that.”

After all the experiences.

I’m not going to change my mind about liking Nagi, and it’s only going to get stronger.

Still. I feel that my perspective has broadened considerably.

“Souta kun.”

“Wait, Nagi. Let me tell you that.”

“……I understand.”

Nagi moved away from me and straightened her posture. I also straightened my back and looked at Nagi.

“I just want to say it again. I love you. Nagi.”

“I love you, too. Souta kun.”

Gazed by her blue eyes, I laughed. Only for a moment.

After that moment. I called out Nagi’s name.

“Nagi.”

“Yes.”

I looked into Nagi’s eyes.

Her blue eyes are always so beautiful that I feel like I’m being dragged into them.

Even so, I—I won’t be dragged down.

It is not a temporary feverish excitement.

This feeling could still be there tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now. …..No matter if a year passes, or a decade.

It never weakens. I will not weaken it. This is a vow.

“When we graduate from high school. I want you to marry me.”

Nagi closed her eyes on those words once.

She smiled.

“Yes. I may be incompetent, but please take care of me.”

Then she brought her face close to mine and kissed me briefly.

It’s different than before. It’s not something that exposes everything while remaining emotional.

Including feelings, thinking about the future.

I asked her questions. Nagi once again gave me the answer.

This answer will never waver. I will not let it waver.

I know. We have only been together for three months.

It’s only been three months.

It’s only a short relationship, three months. …….The period of being a lover is even shorter than that.

There will be conflicts in the future. We might even get into fights.

But—this feeling of love for Nagi. I will never forget this happy feeling.

Only three months. So what?

From now on. I just have to accumulate more days.

One month, one year, ten years from now.

I will prove that we will be together from now on.

“I love you, Nagi.” “I love you, Souta kun.”

The words that spilled out were not uttered to tell each other.

They were just words of “I love you” that overflowed and appeared as words.

“Thank you, Nagi. Thank you for thinking about me.”

Thank you, Souta kun. Thank you for thinking about me.”

Even those long words were uttered at the same time.

We laugh.

“You’re welcome, Nagi.” “You’re welcome, Souta kun.”

We said to each other. We put our lips on each other.

I felt a gentle happiness spreading in my heart.

It was my first time, so I exploded with happiness.

If I support each other with Nagi. Not only now, but also in the distant future—

–Surrounded by many children. I thought I would live happily ever after.

I was convinced from the bottom of my heart.

Chapter 4  Visiting Souta kun’s Parents .