Tick, tick , tick. The ticking of the clock skipped around the room. At the same time, the sound of bells reached my ears from the TV.
Nagi is right next to me.
Nagi was sitting on the bed, gently laying her hand on mine. Sometimes she would wrap her hands around my hand as if she was caressing it, stroking the back of my hand or tickling the palm of my hand.
Sometimes she would gently lift my hand and place it on her cheek.
I stroked her soft cheek as she asked me to. She let out a small, happy sound.
There was no conversation. But it was not awkward at all. In fact, I liked it. Such a leisurely time.
And thenâ
The alarm of the phone on the desk went off. The bell was about to ring for the last time.
The year had changed.
Nagi took her hands off me and stood up. She straightened her back and adjusted her posture.
I stood up so that I was facing Nagi.
âHappy New Year, Souta kun.â
âYeah, Happy New Year, Nagi.
We bowed to each other. When we looked at each other, Nagi smiled softly.
âLast year, thanks to Souta kun, I had the happiest year in my life.â
âMe too. Thanks to Nagi, it was the most fun and happiest year Iâve ever had.â
Nagi gently brought her face close to mine. I hugged her backâ
We kissed.
Nagiâs sweet and soothing smell filled my brain.
âLast year, I only met Souta kun in September. But even so, we were able to be so happy.â
âItâs only been three months, huh.â
âFufu. I feel like we have been together for about three years now.â
In the past three months, we have been dating and even became engaged. You never know what will happen in life.
We still have a long way to go. Iâm looking forward to the happiness that awaits us. Although there will be hardships, too.
âIâm going to make you happier this year, okay? Prepare yourself.â
ââ¦â¦Yeah. Iâll make Nagi happier too.â
Together with Nagi. We can get over it. Iâm sure.
After my words, Nagi put her cheek against my cheek.
Sticky and soft, rubbing against each otherâs cheek.
âI love you, Souta kun. Iâll never leave you no matter what.â
âYeah, I wonât leave you either. I will make Nagi happy.â
âMe too. I, not anyone else, will make Souta kun happy. I promise.â
After all, I had a record of ruining a marriage proposal.
Thereâs no way I could say that I donât have the confidence to make Nagi happyâI didnât even think about it.
âI love you, Nagi.â
âYes !â
Iâll never let this smile cloud my mind.
Nagi put her lips on mine again. She hugged me tightly.
I noticed that her lips were on my earlobe.
âI love you.â
She whispered to me. I almost shivered all over.
Nagi pulled away. She smiled as if nothing had happened.
âFufu. Shall we go greet Mother-in-law and Father-in-law for the New Year then?â
âYes, I guess so.â
Thisâ¦. is not going to end for a while longer. Thatâs what I felt.
âââ
[Happy new year, Nagi. Souta kun.]
[Happy new year, Nagi and Souta kun.]
âHappy New Year. Soichiro san, Chie san.â
âHappy New Year. Papa, Mama.â
After saying New Yearâs greetings to my parents and a few phone calls to say hello to Eiji and the others.
I decided to have a video call with Soichiro san and the others. It seems to be a suggestion from Chie san.
We sit in a row of chairs in front of the study desk. It feels a little cramped, but I donât plan on talking for very long, so I guess itâs okay.
I can see Soichiro san and Chie san from the smartphone propped up on the desk. From the angle of view, it looks like theyâre using a PC.
I bowed my head to tell Soichiro san first.
âSoichiro san. Iâm very grateful for everything youâve done behind the scenes. Thank you so much.â
[Donât worry about it. Youâre like a son to us now. â¦..You can call me father-in-law, okay?]
I almost smiled wryly at those words andâ¦..stopped.
âRight. If itâs okay with you two, Iâd like to call you father-in-law and mother-in-law.â
We have to get along from now on.
If so, the sooner we get closer, the better.
Even for me. I wanted to get to know the two of them.
Then, Soichiro san closed his eyes. He held the tops of his eyes.
[Iâm sorry. Iâve been having trouble with tears lately, probably due to my age.]
[Fufu. He was looking forward to the day when Souta kun would call him father-in-law. Of course, me too.â
âIâ¦.see.â
I should have said it sooner.
While thinking that, I bowed my head when I saw the two of them.
âWell then, once again. Please take care of me, father-in-law, mother-in-law.â
[Yeah. Of course, Souta kun.â
[Fufu. Thank you for your words. Letâs get along from now on.]
â¦â¦Chie san. No, my mother-in-law. I feel like sheâs smiling more.
No, not just my mother-in-law. The air seems to have softened somewhat for my father-in-law as well. I felt like that.
[Well, itâs late at night, and I donât want to talk too long.]
[If we continue as usual, Nagi will be getting sleepy.]
As my mother-in-law said, Nagiâs eyes were starting to glaze over a little. She said she would try her best to stay awake at the end of the year until the beginning of the new year, but it seems she has reached her limit.
[Iâm looking forward to seeing you here.]
âYes. I will visit you soon.â
[You donât have to be in such awe.]
âY-yes.â
â¦..Little by little. I have to be able to respond to them in a normal way.
Because we are family now.
[Well, good night, both of you.
Good night.]
[Good night.]
âYes. Good night.â
ââ¦Good night.â
Nagi seemed to be getting sleepy. She was not speaking well.
I greeted them and hung up the phone. Then, Nagi leaned on me like a doll with broken strings.
âNagi. Shall we go to bed?â
ââ¦â¦Hm.â
Nagi shook her head loosely. Her figure is like a small child.
âSince itâs like this. Iâll stay up yet.â
ââ¦â¦Ss that so?â
âYes.â
The first thing to do is to make sure that you have a good time with your family and friends.
I smiled and held her body in my arms.
Even if she said that, her eyes were half closed.
I smiled wryly and hugged her body.
âShrine visit. Should we do it today?â
âLetâs do itâ¦..â
â¦â¦This is. She might not even remember the reply by the time she woke up.
I put my hands behind her knees and on her back. The bed is just around the corner, so it should be fine.
âIâm going to lift you up. Just hold on to it.â
âYes.â
Nagiâs hand was gently placed on my clothes. The force of her hand is quite weak, butâ¦..well. I think Iâll be fine.
I almost lost my balance when I lifted her from the chair, but I managed to finish carrying Nagi to the bed.
I turned off the light and lay down next to her. Nagi was half asleep, but she opened her hand to me.
ââ¦â¦Gyuu.â
Her voice was sleepy and sweet. But there is no mockery in the tone of her voice.
Sheâs like a spoiled childâ¦â¦but a little different.
At the same time as being spoiled, it seems to say that she wants to be spoiled. There was a faint light of compassion in her eyes.
In response, I put my arm around Nagiâs back. I put my other arm under her shoulder and around the back of her head, stroking her hair as if combing it.
There was no tugging on that silky hair, and Nagiâs cheeks loosened at the same time as I stroked it.
âIt smells good.â
Nagi chuckled as she let out a satisfied sound. I hugged her thin but soft body.
I could hear the sound of Nagiâs heartbeat. I can feel its warmth and feel relieved.
When I hug Nagi, I feel at peace. â¦..Itâs strange because this stimulates something that in some cases is positioned as the exact opposite.
I pulled my body slightly away from Nagiâs body.
There was a beautiful face right in front of me and Nagi had a small pout of her lips. It was really small.
I stroked her cheek and put my lips on hers.
I was surprised at the softness of it every time.
I want to do it forever.
It was so full of happiness.
However, I couldnât let Nagi, who was looking sleepy, stay with me that long.
I was filled with more than enough happiness in my heart, even though it was only for one second.
âGood night, Nagi.â
ââ¦.Good night, Souta kun.â
And so we were able to greet the New Year.
We were happy and joyful. It was a happy beginning.
âââ
âThere are so many people here.â
âItâs the first day. I expected it, but do you want toâ¦.change the day?â
âNo, itâs fine. If itâs with Souta kun.â
That word suddenly struck me. I had a thought.
Itâs too late to think about it.
âAh, I forgot to ask you this for a long time. Nagi. Can I ask you something?â
âYes, what is it?â
Nagi was about to walk, but stopped and turned around. At the same time, her hair, which was braided into a ponytail, swung around. Todayâs hairstyle is a little different from usual.
To Nagi, who looked puzzled. I opened my mouth.
âAre you okay with man now?â
âAh. About that.â
Nagi hugged my arm lightly and laughed a little.
She stands tall and puts her mouth close to my ear.
âI was so surprised that I didnât want to give you to anyone else that I had to take the train alone to pick you up. Itâs all right now.â
âââ
Hearing those words.
I was reminded of two memories in my mind.
When she came to pick me up last time. I remember when she told people around her that I was my fiancée at school.
And the other wasâ
That rainy day. When I forgot my umbrella, Nagi came to pick me up.
âNagiââ
I was about to ask, but. I kept my mouth shut, thinking that it was uncivilized to ask that.
But Nagi seemed to have noticed. She lifted the edge of her mouth, laughed and put one of her index fingers in front of her lips.
âItâs a secret.â
And with a wink.
â¦â¦Ah, geez.
Why are you so cute?
I cover my face with my hands to hide the heat.
Nagi was looking at me like she was enjoying it.
âââ
I closed my eyes and said a prayer.
âLast year was the biggest life-changing year Iâve ever had.
âPlease, may this year be free of trouble and misfortune. May I live in peace with Nagi and with my friends and family.
With this wish, I released my prayer.
I looked to the side and saw that Nagi was still closing her eyes.
Her eyelashes are long, and itâs more noticeable when her eyes are closed.
Of course, I like her usual expression in which her emotions are revealed.
But the way she was praying with her eyes closed like thisâ
âBeautiful. Very beautiful.
At that moment, Nagiâs eyelids opened. Blue eyes peeked out.
Those eyes, as blue as the sea, found me, and a pale, gentle light was shining in them.
âThere are a lot of people waiting. Shall we leave for now?â
âI guess so.â
I held hands with Nagi so as not to get separated from her, and left the place.
âI thanked god. I told him thank you for letting me ride the same train with Souta kun.â
Nagiâs murmur was small, but it was clearly audible even in this crowded crowd.
âSouta kun had the courage to help me. That is where I thank Souta kun, not God.â
âRight.â
I should also thank God for letting me meet Nagi.
âOf course I prayed.â
I looked back at Nagiâs words and wondered what they were.
Nagi put her other hand on her chest and made a small movement with her mouth.
âI prayed for my family and friends, of course, but especially for Souta kunâs health.â
ââ¦â¦Well, thereâs nothing better than not getting hurt or sick, right?â
âThat is one thing, but the most important thing is.â
Nagiâs eyes shot through me. The soft, pale light warms my heart with a thump.
âItâs not God who makes Souta kun happy, itâs me.â
She said these words in a somewhat proud manner.
My cheeks relaxed at the very Nagi-like words.
âIf Souta kun is healthy. I will support you and make you happy, I promise.â
ââ¦â¦Ah. Youâre right.â
From the bottom of my heart, I strongly think.
âIâm glad Nagi is my lover andâ¦..my fiancée.â
âFufu. Iâm also glad Souta kun is my fiancee.â
Once again. I have to thank Eiji and others for pushing me.
Nagi shuddered slightly.
âItâs cold because the number of people is suddenly decreasing.â
âYeah. Nagi.â
Itâs a road that people pass, so Iâll stop by the corner and call Nagi. Then I took out the muffler from my bag.
ââ¦â¦! You kept it !â
âEven though itâs something I got from Nagi, I have to use it properly. I carry it every day.â
I have a pair of gloves, too. But.
âThatâs because wearing gloves makes it hard to feel Nagiâs body temperatureâ¦sorry. Iâm aware that I said something really disgusting.â
âFufu. Itâs not bad at all, and Iâm happy.â
Nagiâs hands wrap around mine. Those blue eyes were soft and stared at me.
âI also feel a little lonely when I cannot feel Souta kunâs body warmth.â
I almost let out a strange voice at those words. I coughed one more time to cover it up.
âIâm glad to hear that. Then Iâm going to roll it up. Please come a little closer to me.â
âYes !â
Nagi nodded with a smile and approached next to me. We both wrapped the scarf together. Iâll wear gloves when Iâm outside alone.
âItâs warm.â
âYeah, me too.â
I looked next to me and saw Nagiâs face right there. Iâm not going to kiss her here, as I thought.
Even if I donât kiss her, Nagi is right next to me. That was enough to fill my heart.
The winter vacation was about to end.