I was in a tight spot right now.
âH-hey. Itâs heavy, you know? Legs might go numb.â
ââ¦â¦Was I it that heavy?
âNo, itâs not that. Iâm just saying that my head is probably bigger than yours.
Thatâs what I told Nagi, who was a little disappointed. I turned my head around to see if there was a way to avoid it somehow.
âHurry up and lie down.â
âBut, you knowâ¦â¦â
âEven so, Iâm reluctantâ¦she grabbed the hem of my clothes.
âOrâ¦..you didnât like it?â
Nagi quietly said so and looked down.
â¦â¦Thatâs. Thatâs not fair.
âOkay, I get it. â¦â¦Um, I didnât hate it, I was just embarrassed.â
When I say so. Nagi looked up.
She was smiling and had a very nice smile on her face.
âFufu, I know.â
âY-youâve done it.â
Nagi giggled. She Tapped her own knee.
âCome on, please come quickly.â
ââ¦â¦I get it.â
I couldnât resist Nagiâs smile andâ¦â¦put my head there.
I turned my back to Nagi.
âSouta kun?â
ââ¦â¦What is it?â
âI canât see your face.â
Nagi turned me over and laid me on my back. When our eyes met, Nagi smiled.
âOr. Would you like to lie down on this side?â
âIâd rather not.â
Itâs too stimulating for a lot of reasons. â¦â¦no. Lying on my back is also stimulating in various ways.
I turned away while being careful not to look there. A hand was gently placed on my head⦠and shook it.
âWhen you look at it like this, Souta kun, youâre cute.â
ââ¦â¦Donât tell guys theyâre cute too often.â
ââ¦â¦? I also like the cute Souta kun, you know?â
âMy heart made an unpleasant noise at those words. I was already quite overwhelmed by the sweet smell and the softness I felt on the back of my head.
âWell, letâs talk about the cool Souta kun, shall we? I want to praise Souta kun a lot too.â
ââ¦â¦Donât tease me too much.â
âI mean it, all of it.â
My face still gets even hotter with those words. Once I looked at Nagiâs face,â¦â¦she kept smiling and looking at me.
âFirst of all. â¦â¦That time when you helped me. You were very, very cool.â
ââ¦â¦That was a clumsy way of doing it.â
âIt was cool. You helped me by thinking of me first. If you had called the police back then. I wouldnât have been able to get along with Souta kun like this.â
I didnât understand the meaning of those words,â¦â¦Nagi explained to me.
âBecause of my fatherâs tendency to worry. If he had found out, he would have had to drive me to and from school. â¦..I couldnât even thank Souta kun. No. Iâm sure Iâll be able to tell you someday. Itâll be a long time before we become friends like we are now.â
Nagiâs index finger stroked my forehead. It tickled a little.
âAfter that, Souta kun was also very gentlemanly andâ¦â¦came to the door every time and picked me up. It must have been difficult, but every morning and evening, without complaining at all⦠Thank you very much.â
ââ¦â¦Nothing. It wasnât that much trouble.
I was more embarrassed than I thought and looked away. Nagiâs hand slips. She stroked my cheek.
âIf itâs only for one day, it might be so. But do it twice a day. A normal person would want to complain about it. But Souta kun never said a word about it. You didnât even show it in your attitude.â
As it was, my face moved just a little. and my eyes met Nagi.
âIâm so glad that it was Souta kun who saved me.â
She was smiling with a slight blush on her cheeks. She was smiling with her eyes narrowed. The expression on her face was full of joy and I could feel her happiness just by looking at her.
âSo, thank you very much. Souta kun.â
âYouâre welcome.â
Oh, no. Iâm so happy. My cheeks loosened sloppily.
But Nagi was looking at me like that with a smile on her face. Her white, thin hand caresses my head, gently, but firmly. She holds my hand firmly.
She stared at my face as if she would not let me hide my face, so I could not avert my gaze.
As it is, our gazes are intertwined. â¦..Time passes.
I canât hear the clock that should be ticking. â¦â¦Because the sound of my heart beating faster was louder than that.
Nagiâs fingers played with my hair, and the fingers of her other hand traced the shape of my hand as if checking it.
ââ¦â¦Souta kunâs hands are firm. They are big and dependable.â
Each of those words caressed my heart and my brain went blank as if it were boiling.
âIn this way, Souta kun is very masculine. â¦.Your shoulders are broad, and your hands and face are totally different from mine.â
I couldnât help but. I let out a small breath.
ââ¦â¦Youâre not afraid?â
âIâm still a little bit afraid of men. â¦â¦.But I have never been afraid of Souta kun. And I never will be.â
Nagiâs hand brushed my bangs. He gently stroked my forehead with the pad of her finger.
âEven if Souta kun became fat or skinny, or even if he suddenly became two meters tall, I would not be afraid of him. Nothing would change from what it is now. â¦â¦Iâve been making meals for him, so I donât think it will be a problem.â
In those eyes. â¦..There was no teasing, she seemed to mean it.
â¦..I was already at my limit.
ââ¦â¦Souta kun?â
I hid my face with my free hand. â¦â¦It was disheveled, because it was supposed to be a face that was not to be seen.
âMuuâ¦â¦please donât hide your face.â
âEven you hide your face when you canât stand it, Nagi.â
âThatâs true, butâ¦..fufu, it canât be helped.â
I was listening to Nagiâs laughing voice. I kept covering my face with my hands until it returned to normal.
âââ
âItâs delicious. Every time I think about it, the seasoning is exquisite. Itâs neither too thin nor too thick. Itâs my favorite flavor.â
âFufu, thank you very much. â¦â¦Actually, I was gradually trying to find the flavor that Souta kun would like.â
I was eating stir-fried vegetables. I couldnât help but look at Nagi.
Nagi was watching me with a smiling face as I was munching and chewing.
I swallowed firmly and opened my mouth.
âIâve never heard of that.â
âI said it for the first time. Souta kun always eats deliciously, but I heard that your pace is faster than usual. I have noticed that you eat with a good appetite. Ah, I just realized that you like this seasoning.â
Iâve often wondered how she usually sees me eating. So thatâs what it was.
ââ¦â¦Really. I canât get my head around Nagi.â
âIâm just doing it because I like Souta kun when he eats deliciously.â
She stared at me eating again and smiles. Sheâs really happy.
While watching me eat again, she smiled. The timing to finish eating is the same, she watched me thoroughly.
âThank you for the food.â
âApologies for the crude food.â
After finishing the meal, I put away the plates. All that was left was to take Nagi home.
ââ¦â¦Thank you very much, really.â
As I was getting ready to leave, Nagi said that to me.
âYouâre welcome. â¦..I like it too, so donât worry about it too much.â
Those words were not a concern, but sincere. Becauseâ¦..
âMe too. Iâm happy that I can spend more time with Nagi.â
When I said that, Nagiâs cheeks turned red. But she smiled happily.
â⦠Iâm happy too. Shall we go then?â
âYeah.â
We left the house and headed for the station. Itâs so cold that you could almost say it is already winter.
But I like walking to the station. Because I can walk side by side with Nagi.
âWe both have final exams soon, donât we?â
âIâm not able to do much today, but Iâll study again tomorrow.â
âYes ! I want you to teach me English, too !â
âOf course.â
While having such a conversationâ¦.. I held my chests, which were beating uncomfortably.
âSouta kun?â
I took a deep breathâ¦â¦when I saw Nagi looking at me worriedly.
âNext time, when the test is overâ¦.why donât we reward each other like before?â
I felt my face burning as I said it myself. While looking at me like that, Nagi nodded cheerfully.
âYes ! Of course !â
The words came back to me and my body relaxed a little.
â¦.Iâm glad. I wondered what I would do if she refused.
Then, Nagi looked at me intently.
âI was going to say it myself, but⦠Souta kun, is there anything you want me to do for you?â
âHmm? â¦.Right. I want you to do it, or rather, I want to do it with you. Well, wait until then.â
Iâm so slightly misleading. I started walking and Nagi was right next to me.
I have to do my best for the test.