After I received my boarding pass, I began to tremble. I had no idea that things would progress so quickly. Last night, I was still playing around with Suyang. Less than 24 hours had gone by, but I was about to part with him permanently.
I wasnât concerned about Suyangâs safety. Anson did all this because he really loved him. He probably loves him even more than I do? I was satisfied as long as he was safe and happy.
It was rather strange. When did I become so sacrificial? In the past, I was never a high-level thinker? I was unwilling to let go especially when it came to Suyang. If anything, I wanted to stick to him for the rest of my life. Yet, I was so at peace with letting go now....
Suddenly, I recalled the photoshoot scene in Japan. Anson must have purposely played that song when the curtain dropped. It was probably an advanced farewell notice; I just didnât realize it.
Loneliness surrounded me as I sat on the bench and hummed the song. âLala....lala....humhum....â I forgot the tune and the lyrics. I was just randomly making up tunes.
Beside me, I could hear a coupleâs interaction. âBabe, look! Itâs snowing outside!â
âWhatâs so odd about that? Itâs almost Winter.â
âThatâs true. But tonight, the snow looks better than usual. Letâs go out so you can help me take some pics!â
âNo.... the plane is going to leave soon.â The guy did not want to get up from his seat.
âWe still have more than an hour before departure! Thereâs enough time. Come on!â The girlfriend whined.
The boyfriend shook his head. He looked very unwilling. His expression read âDamn this snow! Why must it snow tonight out of all days? What if the flight is delayed because of it?!â
His girlfriend forcefully dragged him and they both left the airport. I also couldnât hold it in and decided to take some pictures of the snowy scenery as a souvenir to look back upon.
It wasnât a huge snowfall, but it wasnât weak either. It kind of reminded me of the springtime when cotton wadding would be blowing in the air.
I watched the heavy traffic of the airport entrance. There were so many people walking in and out. It was actually quite depressing. It wasnât until I was about to leave that I realized how sad an airport was. Each day, it had to witness so many farewells...
On this snowy night, the weather was low. I blew into my frozen hands as I tried to warm them up.
The couple from earlier were nearby making memories. I also wanted to participate so I took out my cell phone and began to snap countless of shots.
âThat guy is so hot!â
âOh Heavens! I found a stud....!â
âThe way he holds the camera is so manly! Wah!â
I could hear many ladies praising me. Was this the first time Iâve ever heard people praise me on my looks? Too bad it wasnât my actual face.
âExcuse me, could you take a picture with me?â A girl shyly came up to me.
The girl was quite young. Wow. These days, girls are so bold! How could I be cruel enough to reject?
Since my arm was longer, I directly took her cell phone and took a selfie with her.
âHot guy, letâs turn this angle!â The young girl suggested. âLetâs not use the airport as the background. The snowy scenery is much better.â
âAlright.â I made an 180 degree turn and now I was facing the airport while the background was the snow.
âI will press it on the count of three. One...two...â While I was about to take the picture, I noticed a tall and blurry figure heading towards us. The personâs facial features looked very familiar. He was walking at a very quick pace.
âThree!â Just as I was about to press the button, a strong force pulled me away. I turned but before I could react, the person with the same height as mines pressed his lips against mines.
âAh!!!!!â The young lady yelped.
âY- you...! You!â My eyes were wide and I was in shock. What the heck was going on?
When Suyang kissed me, I felt as if my soul nearly flew out of my body.
The man that was wearing the slim-fit windbreaker was the love of my life. Right now, he had his hands in his pockets as he observed me.
âYou think you could secretly leave me like this? You think I wouldnât figure it out?â Suyang put his arm around my waist and pulled me closer.
The girls around me began to shriek!
Then, there was a moment of silence and the applause began.
âYou two are so compatible!â
âCongratulations! I wish you two all the best!â
âI hope you guys will live happily forever after!â
Then, they all left as they discussed amongst each other.
As expected, this was a fujoshi society! When I was Lin Yixin, no one ever told me I was compatible with Suyang. But now that I am Anson.... No! Iâm not going to think of that now!
âDo you know what you are doing?â I was the same height as Suyang now. It felt really weird to meet him eye to eye.
âI know. I was confirming whether youâre the person I think you are.â Suyang kindly smiled, âNo matter what you turn into, I will recognize you.â
Suyangâs words....
I pushed him away, but my face was already all red, âIâm a man. Who wouldâve thought that the famous author Su is a GAY? What a pity. Iâm not!â
Logically speaking, Suyang shouldnât have recognized me. I never said or hinted a thing. In my opinion, I didnât do anything to give it away.
âDonât you remember what I said at the television station? I said if youâre fat, I would like fat. If youâre skinny, I would like skinny. If youâre tall, I would like tall. If youâre short, I would like short.â Suyang placed his two hands on my shoulders and made me face him. âBut I never thought you would make it so hard for me and become a man.â
Suyang lowered his head and chuckled. Then, he held my hand and said, âI guess I can only like a man now.â
His hand was so warm. He made it hard for me to pull away. âYou have the wrong person.â I had to lie. If I admitted I was Yixin, Suyang will definitely not allow me to leave. If I donât leave, how could I save Grandmother Meng?
âIf I recognized the wrong person, then why is your face so red? Your blush confirms that youâre the person Iâm searching for.â
âB-bullshit! If you were randomly kissed by someone of the same sex, would you not turn red?â
âI wouldnât turn red!â Suyang responded confidently. As expected, he was the overlord of thick skin....
âAnyway, Iâm not the person you are trying to find. I have to go catch a flight. Bye!â I shoved Suyang and turned to head back to the airport.
âWait!â Suyang grabbed onto my hand again.
âYou!â I was pretending to be furious but I saw his depressed face. He looked like a child who did something bad and was asking me not to abandon him.
Suyang hauled me around. His voice was much lighter than before, âYou are really leaving?â
âI have to leave.â
âI know you didnât voluntarily become like this. But you still want to leave despite the fact I recognize you?â
âUm, Iâve already decided early on...â I avoided Suyangâs eyes; I was scared to get burn. I didnât want additional chains to my feet.
âIs that your final answer? Is that the answer you decided on after a night?â Suyang sounded like he was trying to suppress his anger. His breathing was erratic.n/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
I decided to be truthful with Suyang.
âRight now, Grandmother Meng is under Lin Yixinâs hands. I made a deal with her. After confirming my departure, she will release Grandmother Meng. So I have to go, understand?â
âSo youâre leaving because of granny... it doesnât have to do with me?â
âPartly. To be honest, I already decided to leave you yesterday. Grandmother Meng is correct. If you stay by my side, bad things will happen to you. I donât have the ability to protect you. So by leaving, it is for everyoneâs benefit.â
âAm I just an item to you? I donât have a choice to decide on anything? You were planning to give me to someone else without my consent. At least tell me the truth so we could face it together! If I hadnât sensed it was you, you would have made me into a fool my whole life!â Suyang roared.
âSadly, youâre not a fool. If so, you would be much happier.â
âLin Yixin!â Suyang grabbed onto my collar and yelled, âWhat gives you the right to determine my happiness? I guess you donât know me after all!â
Then, Suyang released me. Deep down, I assumed he must hate me to death by now.
âAlright, weâre done talking. Iâm going to board now.â I couldnât bare to look at his face again. I lowered my head and turned my back against him as I walked away with difficulty.
âAnson! Anson! Ah! No! Lin Yixin! Stay right there! Donât go!â
I felt like Xialing was calling me. She should be back from buying the items now. I didnât dare to turn around, so I slowed down and waited for her to catch up to me.
Surprisingly, Xialing ran over and grabbed my hand. She was out of breath, âYou canât go!â
âWhat?â
âI just received Yuxiangâs call. Anson never had any intentions of letting Grandmother Meng go. H-heâs lying to you!â Xialing had her hands around her waist; panting. âYou canât leave!â
âAre you positive?â
âOf course! I just got off the phone with Yuxiang. She told me directly. Aiya! There is no time to explain now. We must get in the car and hurry!â Xialing dragged me with her.
Along the way, she noticed the stunned Suyang. She glanced at him, âOh! Isnât it Suyang brother?! Letâs go! I have something to discuss with you too!â
So Suyang and I were stuffed in the car while we were both somewhat confused.
âWait, so why is Anson backing out on the deal?â
âI donât know the specifics. But thatâs the truth. So we need to figure out how to save Grandmother Meng now!â
âDo you know where my granny is?â
âI donât know. But I know who does.â
âWho?â
âYuxiang!â