Chapter 20: Chapter 18

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Chapter 18

Daniel’s POV

She stumbled off me and collided against the wall leaving me confused. I narrowed my gaze, the only thing I had done was say his name why was she acting like this?

“No,” she whispered, sinking onto the floor with tears falling from her eyes. Each tear drop rolled down her perfectly smooth skin, and fell onto her clothes.  She looked vulnerable shaking violently; I made an effort to move forward only to cause her to move backwards.

“Don’t hurt me,” she whimpered, trying to push herself towards the door but failed miserably. My heart clenched in pain, I hated seeing her like this and I hated not knowing why.

I approached forward, grabbing her arm and pulling her towards me. Sidney struggled in my grip, my anger rose getting the better of me.

“Let go of me!” she shrieked hitting her hands against my chest; I struggled to keep her in control due to her erratic behaviour.

“Calm down,” I replied steadily holding onto her, this made her stop a little but she was shaking uncontrollably scaring me.

“P-please don’t hurt me,” she begged. I froze shocked in my position, she grasped onto my jacket and immediately my hands wrapped around her.

“Never baby girl,” I breathed into her hair, lifting her bridal style I headed out of the room. She buried her head against my chest and mumbled something; unlocking the door I jogged up the stairs being careful not to wake her.

Kicking the door open to my room, I gently lay her down onto the bed. I never noticed how beautiful Sidney naturally was, her beautiful face was flawless with tear stains which I moved forward to wipe away I looked closely at her skinny body, a bit too skinny and her long legs with cute tiny feet.

Nate and Brandon came rushing into the room, I glared at them and they quietened down. I slowly got off the bed and tucked her in; turning towards the two of them I beckoned them to follow me.

Once we were out of my room, I jogged down the stairs and into my office where I process everything that had just occurred.

“I want at least thirty men patrolling outside near the border of our town,” I ordered, “and ten men guarded around my house,” since Nate was in charge of our security he went off and got to work straight away.

Both of them sensed my anger and discomfort.

“What happened to Siddy?” Brandon asked, he plopped down onto the sofa casually as I clenched my fist remembering a few minutes ago.

“I honestly don’t know,” I sighed frustrated, “one minute it’s all fine then I say Levy and she goes all vulnerable,” flopping onto my chair I was confused as hell.

Never have I been this confused and annoyed in my whole life, I felt like I was missing something here and I knew I definitely was.

“Maybe she has history with him?” Brandon suggested.

My jaws clenched in anger, Levy wasn’t know as a good man, hell he wasn’t a man at all. He was a crazy bastard who abused anyone; he considered nobody loyal to him and considered everybody below him as his slaves.

“I need you to dig up anything and everything on Sidney Parker there is in the system,” I responded in a harsh tone,

“I don’t care what you do and how you do it, get me the information before tomorrow,” Brandon jumped off the chair and got to work.

The good thing about Nate and Brandon was that they were my best friends, as well as what kept my gang together.

Without these two I don’t know where I’d be in the world, my mind ran through possibilities of what might have happened between her and Levy causing her to fall into a traumatic shock.

All the reasons my brain came up with I chose to ignore, they were horrific and I refused to believe that my Sidney had gone through all that. No one would be mentally balanced with they managed to escape from Levy’s ground.

Swinging open my draw I pulled out a bottle of vodka, I wasn’t a lightweight so it didn’t matter I could deal with high amounts of alcohol. You learn this when you turn to it drowning your sorrows, in the sour taste of it.

I poured a glass and took a huge gulp finishing it in one go, my throat burned but I chose to ignore it. It didn’t matter before, so why should it now?

Knowing that I couldn’t change what was possibly going to be unveiled I could only drown my sorrows along with Sidney’s blocking out the worst for now.

Sidney’s POV

Pain.

Agony.

Torture.

Constant fear of suffering.

That’s what I lived with throughout my childhood. I jolted awake to be thankful that I was in a warm bed, looking around it instantly realised it was Daniel’s room and it took me back to my last conversation.

Levy Jacobs.

Levy fucking Jacob’s of a father was back. I hated him, I believed in second chances but this devil didn’t deserve anything but death.

Every single day of my childhood was filled with constant beatings; every day a new bruise and broken bone but on some lucky days it was only just a black eye.

My thoughts lingered back to when I used to go to school, I remember being bullied for wearing the same clothes twice the mean girls would push me around and say,

“You father probably wishes you were dead, no wonder nobody likes you,” her face was freshly painted in my head and never once throughout my life has it faded.

Tears leaked my eyes, first my mother and now me. I did not want to be a victim, luckily I had managed to escape from the beatings and ran away just when I turned legal but that didn’t change anything now.

All my hard work, all the years of constant running had gone down the drain. He found me, that bastard had found me and I wasn’t sure how to react because my mind was still in shock.

I slowly got up, deciding to move even though it was a lie in Sunday if I layed in bed any more it felt as if I was going to be sick. I was tired of being weak; grabbing one of Daniel’s shirts and an odd pair of leggings I limped towards the bathroom.

Stripping off my clothes I stood in front of the mirror looking at the bruises, the scars left behind that haven’t yet faded. Considering the last time I had been beaten, a few of my scars had vanished but the very severe ones still remain. Each scar had a story, whenever I touched any one of them memories of how I got them flooded back, tears slid down my face.

People say you cry too much, you can never cry too much. I cry every single day, I cried myself to sleep when I was a child and I remember seeing my mother cry.

Never have I ever in my life experience happiness for a long time, if I did get even the slightest bit of happiness he would get jealous and beat me. When I wore a grin, he stripped it off my face and replaced it with a quivering lip in constant fear.

Fear, I lived in fear all my life and perhaps I still am now. Truth being told, Daniel scares me every little second of the day I have to be careful what I was going to or have said.

The hot water poured down my body, I scrubbed myself clean from all the bad thoughts. Scrubbing harder to make the scars disappear but they wouldn’t go, only the skin turned red but the scar remained the same. My eyes had hardened, my ears had not heard a laugh in ages and I forgot the last time I properly smile because of happiness.

Turning off the water, I dried myself and pulled on my clothes. Standing in front of the mirror, my hair soaking wet dropped water droplets everywhere, I looked at my reflection at what I had become.

My mother wouldn’t be very proud, I vowed to get a good degree and put him behind bars not to mention that tape record that I had used to record every single word he had uttered to my mother especially when he confessed that he was going to kill her. I gave a copy of it to Luke, I knew I could trust him now but the last time I had spoken to him was when he told me to leave.

He didn’t know the whole story but knew that I had been abused, he was caring and nice but people change every second.

My body began shaking violently as I made my way out of the bathroom; there on the bed lay Daniel with his head buried in the pillow. I was about to turn back into the bathroom when I heard his voice,

“Come here,” I gulped and slowly walked over to him standing near the side of the bed, with a good amount of distance between us.

He patted the spot on the bed next to him motioning for me to lie down, I hesitated but a part of me trusted him so I did it anyways. Still I was a good distance away from him; he turned to face me with his eyes staring intently at me with a soft gaze this time.

Looking away I shifted away from him, but his arms went around my waist and pulled me closer to him. Our bodies were touching, he wrapped his arms securely around me, keeping me in a fixated position awkwardly I stayed still with my breathing hitched high.

“I’m not going to hurt you baby girl,” he whispered reassuring me. I fitted nicely next to his body, he was a tall, strong built guy whereas I was short and skinny. His one hand making circle motions on my waist while he played with my hair using his other hand.

I closed my eyes and sniffed him, shaking my head I tried to push him away and that was when he held on tighter.

“Sidney,” he spoke, the way my name rolled off his tongue sent shivers down my spine.

“Yes?” I asked nervously, fidgeting with his shirt I wore I dropped my gaze so I was looking at his very defined stomach.

He leaned forward and my heartbeat sped up, “You look hot in my clothes but we need to get you some, tomorrow you’re going to school remember?” he told me.

I chuckled a little at the stupidity of my nervousness; he raised a brow at me in confusion.

We lay in silence for the next few minutes before he spoke up again, every time he was about ot say something my heart sped up no matter what he did or said.

“Sidney you can trust me,” Daniel started, “ Whatever I did before I really do regret it but now I want to start fresh with you, I want you to truly be my wife and I want to love you,” he paused, I closed my eyes waiting for what was coming next.

“But I need you to tell me everything, yesterday what was it? I need to know, you might not believe me now but I can’t stand seeing you like that and I don’t want to,” he lifted my chin up so we were eye level and once more said, “please tell me.”

My eyes widened at what he was asking, I wasn’t ready to tell anyone yet let alone him. I didn’t want to go through it all over again especially the pain I didn’t think I could handle it this time.

I sighed and looked down breaking out eye contact, Daniel let out a deep breath in annoyance which made me a little angry.

“I can help you,” he tried but I ignored him, he couldn’t fix me because I could not be fixed. He could not help me in any way, shape or form.

“I can’t,” shaking my head I replied, he flipped me over so that I was on top of him and he leaned forward brushing his lips against my saying,

“I want to start over with you,” staring deep into his eyes I could trace any lie, “so Sidney, please trust me.”

I kept his gaze for a second seeing if he was telling the truth, his eyes seemed of pure honest because they do say your eyes are the windows to your soul.

I could sense that he was regretting what he did; he was trying to make up for it and didn’t know how until he knew why I was afraid.

Sighing again I told him, “Okay, but you have to promise to listen to all of it and then speak or act okay?” he nodded in reply.

“So where shall I start?” I questioned looking anywhere but his eyes because I felt disgusted telling him my life, Daniel saw this and kissed my lips reassuring me.

“From the beginning cupcake,” and I started my story.

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