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Chapter 12
Never did I ever think for even a second as a child that my life would ever turn out to be like it is now. Never did I ever think for a second that my own father, my very own family member the person I shared my blood with, genes and identity wouldâve killed my own mother.
But it happened, and it sucked. It sucked real fucking bad.
I was disgusted, but not in just myself but at him, at life and at everything. I felt numb, whether it was the cold air or the ache and pain, or both I wasnât sure but tears leaked out of my eyes as I walked with my bags in the streets at night.
Get a grip Sidney, you need to find a job and go school tomorrow.
My brain was ordering me, my heart felt like it was losing its beat but my friend, I was broken and I wasnât denying it. Realisation struck me when I couldnât stop thinking about Daniel, remember no strings attached from the start oh what bullshit.
I fell for him.
Yes, I donât know why or how but I did and I canât deny it, and I wonât because it hurts too much. It wasnât like he needed me anyways in his life; he can get on with it in no time.
He was rich, had followers and could find a girl that falls for him anywhere... what made me think I was any special, I didnât understand myself. I think that if someone gave a penny for my thoughts and the amount of times that it had been about Daniel, by now I wouldâve been a billionaire.
âHey, Iâm here to apply for a job,â I smiled sweetly at the receptionist, she looked up and down at me like I was some piece of shit on her shoe before sweetly but viciously turning me down, the hint of not being wanted swept over me again.
âWhy isnât life easy?â I whispered to myself, what did I ever do to suffer these things? Was I paying the price for my fatherâs cruelty?
After walking for hours, I slowly came in front of a warehouse that seemed worn out and old. Slowly walking up the hilly road I cautiously took a step inspecting the warehouse. By the looks of it at night it seemed safe enough, so I dropped my bags around me in the corner just in case someone did come in and flopped onto the floor leaning against the wall.
My eyelids felt heavy, my skin was betraying itâs warmth to the coldness surround me and in this thin jumped I was wearing I was going numb by the second. Until I had no choice left but to fall into a blissful sleep, I wrapped my arms around my praying that no other person has to go through what I was currently experiencing. It was unfair, and not worth it.
âJust like you,â the voice whispered back, âyour useless, you wonât be wanted, youâll be kicked out of every place because just like your mother you are a curse, and waste of space on this planet!â his fist collided with my cheek, I fell onto the ground tears streaming from my eyes.
âIâm sorry,â I whispered, cowardly lying there shaking on the ground, my back started to ache at the severity of my shivering.
âYouâre sorry?â the voice bellowed, âI shouldâve killed you before you were born, just like I shouldâve done with that good for nothing bitch ages ago,â the ferocity of his words made me wince, anger pelted up inside me but I was a helpless girl lying on the ground being abused by her father, whoâd believe me anyways?
He walked away into the darkness, laughing loudly shouting at me, âyou can run child, but I will find you and finish you off like I did with your mother,â then his evil laugh dissolved into the dark as I screamed with the pain he had inflicted on me. I was pretty sure I had broken a rib or two by his hard kick.
But what was I?
A punching bag.
Who was I?
A good for nothing bitch.
What was going to happen to me?
My father is going to hunt me down and kill me.
Jerking away at the sudden cold air that rushed past me, the sun shooting was its rays at my eyes, squinting I hurried grabbing my bag and making my way back onto the road. I got to school in no time, luckily the caretaker was here before anyone and I allowed myself in. Glancing at the clock it was only six thirty in the morning on a Monday. Speed walking to my locker, I dumped my other two bags before grabbing some new clothes as I made my way to freshen up in the girlâs bathroom.
Fuck this shit.
I was tired of living like this, I was tired of being a piece of shit on someone elseâs shoe I was tired of life.
Ever dreamed of this island you call paradise?
I wanted to go there, when I closed my eyes I told myself every night that may, just maybe one day that Iâll be able to reach that island â paradise, my paradise where my mother and I could be together happily.
Quickly after composing myself I stayed in the girlâs bathroom for the next two hours, after I was fully dressed I sat in the toilet cubicle with the door closed waiting for the bell to pierce through the air.
Again, my thoughts went to Daniel. I had recently left, actually no I didnât even tell my boss that I was quitting because I had been caught up in saving Daniel that I didnât give a shit about anything else.
I kicked the door hard trying to get rid of my frustration, finally when the warning bell rang I slung my bag over my shoulder and standing in front of the mirror grazing a hand through my hair. Then I rushed off to class, at the back of my mind somewhere I knew that Nate wouldnât be in today but I would be waiting for him silently checking on his injuries with my eyes and that way no communication wouldâve been necessarily made.
Keeping my head down I pushed through the crowd of slutty girls flirting, boys rating girls and some couples kissing as I made my way to class. To be honest people needed a taste of their worst nightmare, only then would they be able to comprehend in reality that they have so much and should starting making the best out of it but hey, weâre all hypocrites.
Blowing through my nose I took the deep breath and listened intently at the teachers who taught, noises from people throwing stuff at me I ignored because I didnât have the energy my only goal left to achieve was to study and get justice for my mother.
Study.
Work.
Study.
Work.
Those were the only things left for me now, catching up with the work I missed was a shitload which was another reason I would never want to miss class again. This was my last year and I needed to make sure I got the right grades to go to university, then Iâd have the summer to work and save money to pay the fees.
My thoughts were taking over me, I couldnât take a break because for once I looked around and felt like a real outsider.
I wanted to be a girl, a normal everyday girl who went out with her friends, flirted, had a boyfriend and went to parties while living happily with my parents but the two words where far apart, I know and inside my heart knew it too.
I wonder how Daniel was holding up, that was my last thought of him before I got swarmed up in working and studying.
That was all that was left of me and nothing more.
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