Chapter 119: A Relationship Which Began In Secret

The rather stimulating time spent at the water park just moments ago.

The roommates who have left.

The slightly artificial situation with me and the weak wine.

A sudden thought crossed my mind.

I stared intently at Seo Yerin, who was curiously looking up the wine, but then stopped thinking.

No matter how I looked at it, the idea that Seo Yerin had artificially created this situation seemed a bit far-fetched.

‘……’

Yet, seeing myself suspiciously eyeing her in a corner of my mind.

It revealed a part of how I perceived the image of Seo Yerin within me.

“Woojin, this isn’t that expensive. It’s only about 50,000 won.”

“Really?”

It looked quite expensive on the outside, but it didn’t seem to be so in reality.

While answering hesitantly, I checked the group chat of the roommates on my phone.

Quite a pile of messages.

I couldn’t check while I was at the water park, but it looked like they all went into town together.

‘This.’

Looking at the chat, it seems they were out drinking, and when I called Chan-woo didn’t answer either.

“I guess everyone is drinking outside.”

As I awkwardly explained the situation, Seo Yerin, who was already seated in the living room, asked what was the problem and took out the beer and snacks she had bought at the convenience store.

“Then let’s drink. If you there are any leftovers, just put it in the fridge.”

True that.

Chii-ik!

Seo Yerin skillfully poured the beer. Suddenly, her eyes fell on the alcohol in front of the table, and Seo Yerin seemed to have read my look and pointed with her chin.

“Are you drinking that?”

“No, it’s not that.”

“It’s a bit weird to be drinking something that belongs to someone else?”

That’s true.

‘How does this girl always say the right things?’

The uneasy feeling I had while looking at the wine earlier had now somewhat subsided.

It was the same when I was with Seo Yerin for the first time, and when I was with Choi Yiseo, wine was involved, so naturally I was worried about it.

‘Embarrassingly fussy.’

Thinking I was making a fuss alone, I pushed the wine aside.

“Cheers.”

Seo Yerin handed me a beer.

I held the can out and smiled slightly.

“Cheers.”

Given the topic, it was necessary to have some alcohol in the system. Honestly, drinking beer didn’t make me drunk or let me lose my mind enough to open up completely.

Anyway, Seo Yerin had pinpointed exactly what I was worried about.

Chewing on the jerky I bought as a snack, I was soon pouring out the feelings I had in my heart to her.

“Did I really not love Yoon-ji? I had such a hard time during the vacation.”

“……”

“Sigh, I don’t know. I just know that I’m a really bad person. It would be nice if my feelings could be sorted out, but that’s not happening either.”

I know that my behavior isn’t good. I’ve slept with Seo Yerin and Choi Yiseo, and Yu Arin confessed to me.

Seo Yerin said not to put too much weight on it since we’re just sex friends, but how could that be possible?

I take another sip of my beer.

Before I knew it, I’ve already finished three cans of beer.

“I’ll be right back; I need to use the restroom.”

Leaving Seo Yerin, who had been quietly listening to my story, I head to the restroom for a moment.

I didn’t originally plan to drink this much, but as I started talking, I couldn’t endure without drinking.

Seo Yerin was sipping her beer, lost in thought. Sitting on the sofa, hugging her knees, she looked like she was posing for a photo shoot steeped in the emotions of dawn.

“Woojin.”

Had she organized her thoughts while I was in the bathroom? She continued to speak, staring at the turned-off TV screen.

“Was being with me that burdensome?”

“……”

I wanted to tell her that wasn’t what I meant.

Because it was Seo Yerin’s first experience.

Anyway, she had some affection for me, which is why she accepted the somewhat malformed relationship of being friends with benefits.

So I wanted to tell her no.

“Uh…”

My frown didn’t ease though, and I couldn’t choose a kindly lie.

Despite my harsh answer, Seo Yerin still wasn’t looking at me.

“You told me not to feel too pressured since we weren’t dating. But that’s not possible. From the beginning…”

Who could ignore a woman they had sex with?

“It’s not your fault. The problem is that I’m too indecisive.”

With Choi Yiseo, I just let it slide. I brushed it off, thinking it happened simply because she was attractive.

But my hyung’s words kept haunting me.

‘You didn’t love Oh Yoon-ji that much.’

Just that one sentence.

It felt like a denial of the very foundation of who I am.

A night with Seo Yerin and Choi Yiseo.

A relationship with Yu Arin.

All of it felt like some kind of evidence that I didn’t love Oh Yoon-ji, making it hard to accept.

“I’m sorry.”

I offer a sincere apology.

I was sorry for being rude and selfish.

Seo Yerin, who had been silently keeping her mouth shut, was now gazing at me.

What kind of emotion was she feeling?

I couldn’t read it, and I was afraid to find out.

Watching my confusion, I was terrified of what Seo Yerin might say.

“You slept with me, and you slept with Yiseo. And you even got a confession from Arin. But because of Yoon-ji, you feel guilty about all the time you spent with us.”

My emotions, precisely summarized by her.

Hearing it said out loud, I hated myself even more for being such a piece of trash.

If I was going to feel this guilty.

I should have pushed them away from the start.

I hated myself for not being able to do that.

“Woojin.”

Was I about to get slapped?

My head, which had been down looking at my feet, slowly lifted.

The moment our eyes met, she drank another can of beer and suddenly.

“I have a rather strong sex drive.”

“…Huh?”

She started with an unexpected confession.

“I watch a lot of hardcore porn too. I think SM play is okay, and I can be both S and M.”

“……”

“Saying I want to have sex isn’t just because of stress, but also to release my sexual desire.”

“……”

“I watch non-consensual stuff, both giving and receiving. I like cosplay, but I don’t really like overly flashy stuff like hentai or magical girl themes.”

What am I listening to right now?

“Do you know about gender-reversal genres? Surprisingly, I liked it. I don’t really like the situations in NTR, but it did turn me on.”

“……”

“Sometimes, I watch beast genres too. But furry stuff isn’t really my thing. Tentacles are strangely unrealistic, so I didn’t like them much.”

Is she drunk?

I had such thoughts, but Seo Yerin’s gaze was more intelligent and piercing than ever as she watched me.

“I’ve seen a few famous BLs, but they were less impressive than I thought, and with GL, maybe because I’m a girl, I couldn’t quite empathize with them.”

“……”

“Rather than reverse harem, I actually preferred harem. And honestly, more than harem…I like pure love.”

“Wait a minute, what are you talking about right now?”

I was definitely trying to sort out my feelings and relationships.

Suddenly, before I knew it.

This situation had turned into a presentation of Seo Yerin’s sexual preferences, which I couldn’t wrap around in my head.

“How is it?”

As she stared at me, Seo Yerin smiled brightly.

“I’ve told you everything, even the preferences I can’t tell others.”

“……”

“Woojin, that’s the kind of relationship we have.”

Seo Yerin slowly stood up and approached me.

I was standing idly, strangely welcoming her approach.

“Through the anonymity of the Bamboo Forest, our relationship began with the deepest hidden secret.”

Seo Yerin’s true nature and the Anonymous69 that could not be divulged to anyone were the start of our relationship.

“Do you want me to tell you why you’re suffering? Should I make it clear?”

Seo Yerin approached swiftly.

Her hands wrapped around my neck, forcibly pulling me in for a kiss.

Our tongues intertwined forcefully, and saliva was exchanged.

Despite having drunk beer, Seo Yerin exuded an unusually sweet scent.

“Wh-what are you doing!”

When I urgently pushed her away, she wiped the saliva from her lips and laughed.

“That’s right! You’re a bad guy, Woojin.”

“……”

“Why are you troubled? Why are you confused? There is only one reason. It’s because you like them. Oh Yoon-ji too, Choi Yiseo, Yu Arin too…and me too.”

I was at a loss for words.

In fact, it was an obvious statement.

The reason for the agony.

It was because I ultimately couldn’t choose just one.

The reason I, who thought I liked Oh Yoon-ji too, was not choosing, was because I was drawn to all of them.

“Woojin.”

Seo Yerin grabbed my collar.

Then she pushed me as if leaning on me, and I, whose strength left my body, ended up lying under her.

“After hearing my secret, will you hate me?”

Seo Yerin, who had revealed all her secrets, already had a smile on her lips as if she knew the answer.

Of course.

“…No.”

I didn’t dislike people just because they had slightly liberal sexual preferences.

To my answer.

“I do too.”

Seo Yerin gives an endlessly bright smile, as usual.

“I do too, I will still love you even if you’re a bad person.”

“……”

“Thank goodness, Woojin. Really, thank goodness. It’s really good that you’re suffering because of me.”

“Good, you say?”

Why?

“Of course. It means you care about me enough to worry like everyone else.”

I was at a loss for words.

Not just figuratively, but Seo Yerin’s lips literally shut me up as I tried to respond.

“Mmph!”

Her tongue intertwined with mine fiercely once again. Seo Yerin’s cheeks flushed red as she was genuinely delighted in devouring me.

“Pfft! At first, I was worried. Knowing that you slept with Yiseo. I thought there would be no place for me anymore. Sex is my identity, right?”

“Wa-wait a second…!”

Slowly, Seo Yerin took her top off. The chest that had been rubbing against my arm all day came into full view.

“But I decided to think the opposite.”

“D-don’t take your bra off!”

Whether she listened to me or not, Seo Yerin, still on top of me without taking her bra off, wriggled her hips slightly and whispered.

“Instead, I just need to give you pleasure that no one else can.”

Choi Yiseo doesn’t know how.

Oh Yoon-ji couldn’t offer that.

Seo Yerin, who knows countless sexual knowledge, confidently declared.

Once again, Seo Yerin lowered her body and kissed me.

“W-wait a moment!”

I urgently grabbed her shoulders and pushed her away. Seo Yerin, who frowned at me as if asking why I was stopping her when things were going so well, glared at me.

“What? The mood was good.”

Was it a good mood?

More than that, I wanted to clearly sort out the thoughts that were lingering.

“Did you plan all this today? The wine suddenly in the room, and the guys going out to play?”

Since Chan-woo’s contact information was available, it seemed plausible that some manipulation of the lodging could be arranged.

Hearing my words, Seo Yerin put on a confident smirk instead.

“Is that necessary?”

There was no need to ponder the meaning of that answer.

It meant that she had absolute confidence in herself, so there was no need to go to such lengths.

“Are you done talking?”

Seo Yerin pushed my hand away and her lips overlapped with mine again.

Her soft kiss and the playful movement of her tongue seemed to melt my stiffened self.

Before I knew it, I closed my eyes.

The wine that I had put away earlier touched the tip of my foot.

I hadn’t taken a single sip of the wine.

I had drunk a lot of beer, but I couldn’t say I was drunk.

However.

I was gradually becoming completely intoxicated by this woman by the name of Seo Yerin.