The Luna’s Pure Heart – Chapter 63

(Damion pov)

I tossed and turned all night, trying my hardest to sleep in this cold and empty bed. How did I ever fall asleep before Eleanor? It almost seems impossible that I ever did..I can still smell her sweet floral scent, and feel her warm body pressed against mine. The way her hands used to gently caress my body and the little snoring sounds she would make when she is in a deep sleep.

“Ugh.” I g*****d, flopping onto my back with my arms stretched out on either side of me.

There was no f*****g way I was getting any sleep tonight. I wonder if Eleanor is sleeping too?

I turned my head towards the door, trying to listen to any type of noise from my Bunny.

I guess it wouldn’t hurt to check..if I just listen at the door..it’s not like I’m really bothering her if she doesn’t know I’m there right?

‘One small peek wouldn’t hurt.’

Titus agreed, giving me all the encouragement I need to go through with it.

I slowly tiptoed my way out of the door, peeking down the hallway to make sure that jerk Lance wasn’t hanging around..whose Beta is he anyway? He is like her overprotective big brother or some s**t and treats me like I’m now the a*****e boyfriend since the moment I got back..what the hell..I guess I’m glad she has them to protect and watch over her but he needs to chill.

I walked down the hallway silently, making sure not to make a single sound as I crept through the kitchen.

“Where do you think you are going.” Lance popped out of nowhere, scaring the s**t out of me and making me almost punch him in the face.

“What the f**k Lance, why the hell are you just standing in the dark.” I whisper-yelled. How the hell did I not even notice him there? I must have been too engrossed in checking on Eleanor.

“Your one to talk, your creeping around like a wierdo..going to check on Elle I’m presuming..” he crossed his arms in front of his chest and raised an eyebrow all judgy-like.

“No..I was just going to get some water. I know she needs space.” I lied..I don’t know why I did it..maybe because I didn’t want to admit I couldn’t even last two hours without seeing her?

“Well let me get it for you them My King.” Lance quipped, walking toward the cupboard as I cursed under my breath.

“Don’t you have your own house you could be occupying right now? Seems like the other Beta realized that.” At least I hoped he did and wasn’t passed out somewhere on one of the couches. I quickly used my werewolf senses and didn’t find Lucas anywhere, only one of our usual guards that was by the elevator doors.

“You know I can’t let her be alone at a time like this.” His eyes darted to mine as he filled up a glass of water and shoved it into my hand.

“She isn’t alone, I’m right here if she needs anything.” I said between clenched teeth, getting annoyed with the way he was speaking about my mate.

“Yeah, and look at all the s**t you have put her through since the moment you met her.” He said cooly, his back straightening as he looked me dead in the eye.

I slammed the glass down, shattering it completely as I stepped towards him. Surprisingly he didn’t even flinch..Lance was never afraid of me, only Titus and he knew this anger wasn’t Titus.

“What the hell is your problem? Do you think I don’t know how f****d up I have been with her? How the first time I saw her I ordered you to kill her? I know I don’t deserve this woman, in fact, I know I don’t deserve love at all but I can’t help to be selfish with her..I can’t help but want every single second of my life to be spent with that woman even though I don’t deserve to even breathe the same air as she does..because she is my reason..without her I am nothing.” I panted, the realization of what she is to me almost too overwhelming.

Suddenly Lance stepped forward, his eyes softening as he watched me intently.

“You can’t really think that Damion..that your life is pointless. That you feel like you don’t even deserve to live..that can’t be true right?” He asked me worriedly and I looked down at my hand, not having realized it had been bleeding but was already almost fully healed.

“I used to believe it..I used to think..why them and not me? Why did they have to die when I got to live when their lives would have been so much fuller? They would have laughed more, they would have loved more..that was until I met her. Now..now I am grateful that I lived for the first time in my life. I actually am excited for a future with Eleanor and I might have just f****d that all up..” I let my head fall and Lance took another step forward, his hand reaching out and gripping my shoulder sympathetically.

“You didn’t f**k it all up..Eleanor loves you just as much as you love her. I think she just got scared that you weren’t all in like she is, like it might of all been fake. It didn’t help that you ran off for hours shutting us all out..” he squeezed my shoulder before dropping his hand and glaring at me.

I lifted my arm, rubbing the back of my neck and feeling guilty by how immature I have behaved..well how me and Titus behaved..

“Yeah, sorry about that..” That’s all I could really say..there was no excuse for what we did.

“Plus, I’m kind of pissed at you.” He said while walking to the fridge and grabbing two bottles of beer.

“Pissed about what?” What else did I do wrong?

“The fact that you told my brother about this plan but not me.” He blurted out while handing me one of the beers. I had almost forgotten about that part of it..

“I didn’t tell you because you had more loyalty to Eleanor than me since the day you met her.” It was the truth..and he wasn’t denying it. He shrugged innocently and gave me a sheepish grin.

“I can’t help it, she is my Luna and best friend. Lucas just tries to stay professional with her because of her rank but I don’t give a s**t. Same with you..no offense.” He chuckled while walking towards the study with me.

“Yeah..I didn’t notice.” The sarcasm fell from my mouth as he smiled widely. Lance has always been open and comfortable with me. Lucas can be too sometimes when we are all hanging out and drinking but he also takes his job very seriously. Even when we were all kids they were pretty much the same as they are now.

“Well, what’s your plan now?” He asked while brushing his shaggy black hair from his eyes and taking a sip of his beer.

“I guess just give her the space she needs until she is ready..” I sighed, not liking it one bit but it’s the only thing I can do.

“Well, maybe you could use this opportunity to show her that you really do care..like you know things about her and sappy s**t like that.” Lance stated, I guess that is a good idea..it would prove that I care about her and know who she is and what she likes.

“Yeah, that’s not a bad idea.” I admitted and tipped the beer bottle back, taking a long drink.

“Well, we better get some sleep, I gotta wake Eleanor up for the warrior’s training in a few hours.” Lance said quickly and went to stand. Suddenly his words finally sunk in and I did a double take.

“Wait, she asked you to wake her up for that?” I couldn’t help the jealousy that began to rise up..I wanted to do that with her..

“Yep, you are teaching the class tomorrow, right? That might be some good time to spend with her without stepping over the boundaries.” Lance said with a knowing smile and I nodded my head.

I guess he was on my side after all..okay, I will admit, my Beta is a pretty good guy. I’m grateful to have a friend like him in my life..now I just have to try and lead a training class tomorrow without getting distracted by my beautiful mate the whole..yeah, that’s not going to go well, but as long as I can see her and be by her, that is more than enough for me. I will take everything I can get right now and the thought of Eleanor learning how to defend herself puts a smile on my face. Maybe I can even help her with a few techniques, keeping it strictly professional of course. I will be good and try my hardest to think of everything Eleanor likes to do and what she is into. I am ready to win my girl back, and once I have her I vow to never let anything get between us again.