Phillip sets out on his typical jogging routeâdown the sidewalk, to the left, and then right onto the trail.
âLetâs go a different way today,â I suggest.
âBut I know exactly how long this route is,â he argues.
âItâs fun to go different ways, Phillip. Besides, you shouldnât be so predictable. What if a killer were stalking you and watching your habits? Predictability makes you vulnerable.â
âYouâve been reading too many spy novels,â he says with a laugh.
âMaybe, but weâre still going this way today.â I point, heading the opposite direction of where we usually go. âCome on. Who knows what weâll see?â
We take a jogging trail that ends up cutting through a portion of our neighborhood that has multimillion-dollar homes. A lot of Dannyâs teammates live here. Iâve always wanted to drive through and gawk at the houses.
Although we enjoy jogging together, we really donât talk much. We listen to our own music, Phillip playing pump-me-up rock while I play a wide assortment from rap to EDM to country. Iâm not sure what Phillip thinks about while jogging. He always says it helps clear his mind, that he doesnât want to think. Iâm the opposite. When Iâm stuck on a design or a project, a jog helps me figure it out.
Phillip turns the corner, and we end up going down a hill into a large park area. Thereâs a big, swirly slide and a bank of swings. I stop running to stare at them. Itâs been a while since Iâve been on a swing. My mind flashes back to a few days after my parentsâ funeral when Phillip took me to swing. Then, it flashes to a time in college when I was having a meltdown over failing a test. It was the beginning of my sophomore year, and Iâd never failed a test in my life. I figured Iâd go drown my sorrows at a frat party, but Phillip drove me to a park where we swung and drank vodka out of a flask. We stayed there for hours, playing like kids, until the mosquitoes started attacking us. We went back to our townhouse and watched a movie. I must have fallen asleep during it because I woke up the next morning, all tucked in my bed. Phillipâs arm was draped across me, and he was snoring softly. If I hadnât known it for sure before then, I knew in that moment that I wanted to wake up with him every day of my life.
Phillip realizes Iâm not running anymore because he jogs back to me, pulling out his earbuds and looking at the swings. âBeen a while, huh?â
âYeah, it has,â I say.
âLast one thereâs a rotten egg!â
I race after him, catching up and jumping on his back, but I sort of forget Iâm pregnant, and my belly bashes into him.
He falls to the ground, laughing about how heâs getting too old for this, and then he rolls on top of me and pins me to the ground.
âIf youâre too old and out of shape for a piggyback ride now, thereâs no hope of you whooping your daughterâs future boyfriends,â I tease.
He leans down and kisses me.
âYour body isnât exactly the same as it used to be,â he says gently, pulling me up. âDo you want to swing?â
âI donât know,â I tease. âYou think I can with a belly like this?â
âYouâre not that big,â he tells me.
âI know. I havenât really popped out yet. But Iâm glad. Chelsea was telling me that her back is really bothering her.â
âDo you think Baby Mac will like to swing?â
âI donât know. Letâs find out,â I suggest.
Pretty soon, Iâm flying high with my toes pointed toward heaven.
âI want to build our kids a big swing set in the backyard,â Phillip says as weâre swinging. âWe used to play on ours all the time.â
âHow many kids do you want?â
âI donât know. A lot. Four, maybe five. What about you?â
âI want more than one because I always wished I had brothers and sisters. Maybe we should see how we do with one first though.â
Phillip laughs. âWeâre going to do fine.â
âDo you think we will? I wasnât worried about it before, but Danny and Lori seem to be struggling. It makes me nervous.â
âI think we have a very different kind of relationship than Danny and Lori.â
âHow so?â
âWell, we get along.â
âBut what about when weâre under stress? When weâre tired and crabby?â
âWe survived four years of finals weeks together,â he offers.
âThatâs because we drank a lot in between studying to blow off steam.â I laugh.
âWell, there you have it. Weâll make sure we donât forget to blow off a little steam together.â He grabs my swing, stops it from swinging, and pulls me into his arms. âAnd, by blowing off steam, I mean, sex.â
âI read that dating is important after a baby. Not just sex. We need to remember to take time to focus on our marriage, too.â
âHappy wife, happy life,â is what my dad always says.â
âI think thatâs misleading. In trying to make Lori happy, Danny is making himself miserable. I think it has to be a balance.â
He kisses me. âI think youâre right. Iâll try to keep you happy. You try to keep me happy. And weâll be fine.â
I nod. âI love you, Phillip.â
âI love you, too. Speaking of that, I wanted to talk to you about something.â
âLike what?â
He grabs my hand. âLetâs walk home, and we can talk.â
âOkay,â I say as we head back to the path.
âSo, I was thinking about getting you a new car.â
âWhy? My car is only a few years old.â
Phillip looks up at the sky. âUm, I was just thinking a bigger car would be nice. You take the dog everywhere. Weâll have a baby seat and all that stuff soon.â
âIf youâre trying to talk me into a minivan, itâs not going to happen. Iâm only twenty-three. Iâm not ready for that.â
âI was thinking of an SUV. You seemed to like driving Mr. Dâs when you had it, didnât you?â
âAre you saying you want to buy me a Mercedes? Um, okay. But what if I got a convertible instead?â
âThat sort of defeats the purpose of a bigger car.â
âI like my car, Phillip. Maybe you should get an SUV.â
âFine. I looked up the crash ratings on your car. Itâs not as safe as it could be.â
âIs this about my dream the other night?â
âMaybe. Kind of. It just got me thinking. What if it was a premonition, Jadyn?â
His calling me Jadyn stops me in my tracks. âYou told me all my wedding-disaster dreams didnât mean anything.â
âYou werenât pregnant then.â
âYouâre being silly,â I tell him. âIâll be fine. It was just a stupid dream.â
God forbid I tell him about the river of blood. Heâd probably buy me an ark.
âPrincess, Iâd appreciate it if you didnât argue with me about this. Would you just come look at the Audi and the Mercedes? Surely, you want to keep our baby as safe as possible, donât you?â
âCan we even afford it?â
âSometimes, itâs not about the money, Jadyn.â
I guess I canât argue with that.