Phillip wakes me up by rubbing my face.
âMorning,â I sigh. âAre you leaving for work now?â
When I sit up, he hands me a cup of hot chocolate. âWe got some ice last night, and itâs kinda slick, so I was thinking you could either ride to work with me or just work from home.â
âCanât you work from home today, too?â
âNormally, I would, but we have clients in town, so I have to be there. Dad was supposed to drive down this morning, but they got snow up north, and heâs not going to make it. And, since itâs predicted for them to get more, heâs going to stay up there this week.â
âOh boy! A week with the house to ourselves. Whatever will we do?â
He kisses my forehead. âHow about, tonight, we have a romantic dinner in front of the fire?â
âNaked?â I ask, but then I look down at my bloated-looking stomach. âOr not.â
Phillip puts his hand on top of my teeny bump. âNaked sounds perfect. Are you going back to sleep?â
âNo, I think Iâll lie in bed, reply to emails, and drink my hot chocolate. Thanks for making it.â
âYouâre welcome. Have a good day.â
I reply to some emails and then get up. I get dressed and head to the kitchen and make myself an omelet.
Iâm just finishing up when Lori calls me.
âJade, are you still home?â
âYeah, whatâs up?â
Her voice is shaky. âIs there any way you could drive me to the hospital?â
âThe hospital?â
âYes, Iâve been having contractions. The doctor wants me to come now.â
I throw my partially eaten omelet into the sink, grab my purse and coat, and throw on a pair of snow boots. âIâm on my way.â
âIâm scared, Jade,â she says.
âItâll be fine,â I tell her, trying to stay calm myself. We all know how I feel about hospitals. âGo down and open your garage door, so I can pull in. Itâs icy, and I donât want you to fall.â
I get in my car, crank up the heat, quickly back out of my driveway, and pull into hers. Then, I get out and help her into my car.
She clings to me with one arm while the other is clutching her abdomen.
âAre you in pain?â I ask her as I pull out of her driveway.
âNot right now, but they hurt when I have them.â
âDid you call Danny?â
âI left him a voicemail.â
Danny had meetings about endorsement deals in Los Angeles yesterday.
âBut shouldnât he be getting on a plane and coming home immediately if youâre in labor?â
âI looked it up in the pregnancy book. Thereâs something called Braxton Hicks contractions. Theyâre contractions that donât do anything. Donât cause you to dilate. Apparently, they are sort of your body practicing for the real thing. They started last night, about four in the morning. The book said to start timing them and see how far apart they are. Right now, theyâre about every ten minutesâoh, hang on.â She stops speaking, holds her stomach again, and fans her face with her other hand. âCan you turn down the heat?â
âOh, yeah.â I flick the heat off, being mindful not to take my eyes off the road.
The good news is, there isnât much traffic. The bad news is, the roads are bad, and Iâm practically crawling through the neighborhood.
I creep down a hill, putting the car in neutral, and gently apply the brakes, praying the car will stop at the intersection.
âItâs really slick, isnât it?â Lori asks. She glances at the clock. âMake that every eight minutes.â
âSo, do you think itâs the Braxton Hicks thing or real labor?â
âI thought they were just the pretend ones; thatâs why I didnât call Danny earlier. But, now, Iâm thinking itâs real. The doctor said that Braxton Hicks are usually not painful, donât happen at regular intervals, and donât get closer together like mine have. But Iâm really nervous, Jade. Iâm only thirty-four weeks. The baby isnât ready to be born yet.â
âDo you want me to call Danny?â
She seems incredibly calm, and Iâm freaking out but trying not to show it. Danny would be so upset if he missed the birth of their baby.
âI called after I talked to the doctor, but he was already on his flight home, so I had to leave him a voicemail.â
She doesnât say much after that. She seems to flip between being lost in thought to being in pain.
And I try to focus on getting us to the hospital safely.
Fortunately, under normal circumstances, weâre only about seven minutes away. I know this because Lori timed it as part of her birthing plan.
When we finally pull into the emergency area, a stressful twenty minutes later, Lori is visibly upset. Tears stream down her face, and I canât tell if itâs because of the pain, because of Danny not being here, or because sheâs worried about the baby.
Her doctor called ahead, so they put her in a wheelchair and take her straight to the maternity ward. And all this is starting to seem very real.
The nurse gets a urine sample, gets her into bed, takes her vitals, and puts a monitor on her belly that shows her contractions. Then, she checks to see if sheâs dilated.
âWell, youâre at a one,â she says.
âSo, Iâm going to have the baby now?â
âWeâre going to monitor you and the baby for a bit. Then, weâll let your doctor know whatâs going on. Have you felt the baby kick?â
Lori starts crying. âNo. And Iâm so worried.â
âStay calm,â the nurse says. âBaby could be asleep, or it could be that youâre so worried about the contractions that you just havenât noticed. Iâll be back shortly.â
The second she leaves, Lori grabs my hand. âIâm so scared, Jade. What if the baby died?â
âIâm sure the baby is fine,â I say, trying to be reassuring.
âIf itâs born now, it will be premature. Thatâs not good. Ohââ Another contraction causes her to stop mid-sentence and squeeze my hand. âI havenât even finished our class. I donât know what to do!â
âBreathe. Like when you work out. Breathing increases your oxygen and will make it easier,â I offer, knowing full well Iâm bullshitting. I donât know what Iâm even talking about. I just want to keep her from breaking my hand off.
The nurse comes back in and points to the monitor. âSee this line? It shows that you are experiencing a contraction right now.â
Lori rolls her eyes at me because we donât need a monitor to tell us that.
âAnd this line on the bottom shows your babyâs nice strong heartbeat,â she says, causing Lori and me to sigh with relief. She taps some information into the monitoring machine and then says, âYour contractions are pretty steady at seven minutes apart. How are you tolerating the pain?â
âSheâs doing awesome!â I say, trying to be encouraging. I know her birth plan consists of no drugs.
The nurse ignores me and directly asks the question again to Lori.
She replies, âIâm hanging in there. So, whatâs next?â
âWe wait and see what the doctor has to say. Heâll be here shortly.â
As soon as sheâs out of the room, Lori says, âThank God the babyâs heartbeat is okay. Please look up what risks there are for a preterm baby.â
I do a search.
âIt says here that, from thirty-five weeks on, they are called late-preterm infants.â
âI know how you are, Jade. I need to know the good and the bad. Start with the bad.â
âUm, okay. Well, it says that they can be at a greater risk for respiratory disease because their lungs arenât fully developed. Or maybe they are developed, just not as strong as a full-term baby. Um, it says they weigh less, have less body fat, and have a hard time controlling their body temperature. But it just says they need to dress a little warmer. It says they have a higher risk of developing jaundice.â
âWant to hear a funny story?â she says. âLast night, I dreamed that my baby came out a full-sized child, who was wearing a baseball hat backward and break dancing.â
âThatâs funny.â I laugh.
âYeah, Danny showed me some video of a break-dancing three-year-old. Iâm sure thatâs what caused it.â
âHey, I just thought of something. If Danny has Wi-Fi on the plane, you should be able to message him.â
She grabs her phone off the bedside table and starts typing, but then she stops and looks at me. âDo you think I should tell him?â
âWhy wouldnât you tell him?â
âHeâs on a plane, and he canât do anything right now.â
âHeâll feel even worse if youâre in labor and you donât answer your phone when he gets off the plane.â
She shakes her head. âYou know what? Why donât you message him?â
âWhy me?â
She clutches her abdomen again. âBecause Iâm in freaking pain!â she yells as she squeezes the life out of my hand.
âIf you give me my hand back, Iâll text him.â
She lets go and whimpers, âOh, these hurt.â
I decide now is probably not the right time to mention that the baby can hear her.
I grab my phone out of my bag and see a text from Phillip.
Mac Daddy Loves You: Took me forever to get to work. Roads are bad. Donât go out.
Mac Daddy Loves You: Did you go back to sleep?
Me: Lori is in labor. Iâm at the hospital with her. Babyâs heartbeat is fine. Dannyâs on a plane back from LA but doesnât know weâre here. About to try to message him.
Mac Daddy Loves You: Do you want me to come?
Me: The doctor is supposed to be here soon. Iâll let you know what he says.
I send Danny a message.
Me: Hey, itâs me. Just wondering if youâve got Wi-Fi on the plane and can talk.
Danny: Iâm here. Whatâs up?
Me: Thank God. Lori and I are at the hospital. Sheâs in labor. She was really nervous that she hadnât felt the baby kick in a while, but they just checked, and the babyâs heartbeat is perfectly normal. Weâre waiting for the doctor.
Danny: Are you messing with me?
Me: I wouldnât joke about something like this, Danny.
Danny: Why didnât she message me?
Me: She left you a voicemail earlier. I drove her to the hospital in the middle of an ice storm, and every time she squeezes my hand during a contraction, Iâm pretty sure sheâs going to break it. Donât give me a hard time right now.
âLori, Iâm texting Danny. Is it okay if I take a picture of you, so he knows youâre okay?â
âSure,â she says. âIs he freaking out?â
âHe thinks Iâm messing with him.â
âYou wouldnât joke about something like this, would you?â she asks.
âDuh.â
âOkay, take my picture.â
I forward it to him.
âMaybe you should talk to him,â I suggest. âIt might make you feel better.â
âI really donât want to talk to him,â she says, almost spitting at me. âThis is his own fault. I begged him not to travel when Iâm this far along, but he said we had plenty of time. Obviously, he was wrong, and now, Iâm probably going to have this baby all by myself.â
Sheâs mad, but there are tears in her eyes.
âAre you scared?â I ask her.
âOf course Iâm scared. I didnât intend on doing this alone.â
âYouâre not alone,â I say, giving her hand a squeeze as the doctor comes into the room.
Danny: Is she pissed at me? I told her nothing would happen. What if she has the baby without me? Iâm so dumb. She was right. Nothing is more important than being there. I land in an hour and a half. Tell her to message me.
Me: Um, she said she didnât want to talk to you. But then she started crying. Sheâs scared, Danny. And, honestly, so am I.
Danny: What did the doctor say?
Me: He just got here.
The doctor looks at Loriâs chart and then smiles at her. âSo, these arenât Braxton Hicks contractions. Youâre definitely in labor.â
Lori wipes tears from her face and nods, bracing for the worst.
The doctor sits down next to her. âWhereâs Danny?â
âHeâs on a plane home from LA,â she says. âEven though Iâm mad at him, I donât want to have the baby until he gets here.â
âIâm thinking itâs a little early to have the baby, but letâs take a look.â He examines her, studies the monitor, and consults her chart again. âYouâre having what we call preterm labor. Thereâs no bleeding, which is good. Thereâs no sugar in your urine, which is good. You donât have a urinary tract infection. Youâre dehydrated though, so I want to get you started on an IV. Weâre going to do an ultrasound, and then I suspect weâll give you a shot to stop your labor.â
âStop it?â
âYes, it will relax your uterus. We want to keep your baby inside for as long as we can.â
âWill I have to stay here, or will I get to go home?â
âI suspect youâll get to go home later today, but I canât say for sure.â
âDid I do something wrong?â she asks.
âNo, you didnât. About ten percent of women suffer from preterm labor. No one knows for sure what causes it. They suspect that dehydration, infections, stress, and gum disease are possibly related. Youâre a little dehydrated, so weâll give you the IV, just in case that triggered it.â He smiles at us. âNow, for the big question. Weâre going to do an ultrasound next. Do you want to find out the sex?â
âI donât know!â Lori exclaims.
âWhy donât you think about it, and you can let me know when I get back?â
Lori turns to me. âWhat would you do?â
âI wouldnât find out.â
âBut I want to find out.â
âBut you and Danny decided you wanted to be surprised.â
âI know we did. But, if he hadnât been stupid and left me, he would have been here, finding out.â
âCould you keep it a secret, or would you tell him?â
âLots of people are doing those cool gender reveal parties and announcements. That might be fun.â
I nod.
âBut I donât think I could keep it a secret. Iâd start buying clothes. No. No. I donât want to know. We agreed.â
âI think thatâs a good decision.â
âAre you going to find out what youâre having when you can?â she asks me.
âI know finding out is more practical, but we want to be surprised.â
Phillip: Do you know anything? Danny just messaged me and asked.
Me: The doctor was just here. Heâs going to do an ultrasound and give her an IV, but it sounds like they might be able to give her something to stop the contractions. Sheâll probably be able to go home later today.
Phillip: Thatâs good news. I love you.
Me: I love you, too. They are getting ready to do the ultrasound.
Danny: What did the doctor say?
Me: Weâre getting ready to do an ultrasound. Weâll know more then, but sheâs fine, Danny. The babyâs heartbeat is good. They think they can stop the labor with some medicine. Everything is fine.
Danny: Everything is not fine because Iâm not there. Iâm an idiot.
Me: Danny, itâs well over a month before sheâs due. You couldnât have known this would happen.
Danny: Still â¦
The doctor does the ultrasound, and we get to see the baby. This ultrasound looks so different from mine. The baby is big.
âOh my gosh,â Lori says, âitâs sucking its thumb.â
âThatâs so adorable,â I say.
âDid you decide if you want to know the sex?â the doctor asks.
âI donât,â she says confidently.
And, even though she says she doesnât want to know, I do. So, Iâm scanning the screen to see if I can see any boy or girl parts. But, just when I think I might have seen a little boy part, the baby flips over, and all we can see is its butt. So much for getting an advantage in the pool that Iâm sure our friends will have to guess the sex and birthdate.
The doctor tells us everything looks good.
Lori gets an IV and a shot to stop the contractions, and a couple of hours later, Danny arrives.
Heâs got a big bouquet of flowers and a tentative look on his face. Heâs expecting her to be mad at him, but instead, she just bursts into tears.
I give them each a hug and tell them to call me when theyâre on their way home.
The roads arenât as slick as they were this morning, so I stop at the store on the way home and get the ingredients to make lasagna. I figure the least I can do is have something ready for when they come home.
When Lori and Danny get back from the hospital, I take the food over to them on a tray, and they eat dinner together in bed.
âDo you have to be on bed rest?â I ask her.
âNo. I donât have any restrictions other than to take the medicine they gave me. They expect I will carry the baby full-term now.â
I brighten. âThatâs such good news!â
âWe thought so, too,â Danny says, squeezing Loriâs hand. âBut I made her get in bed when we got home. Sheâs exhausted. And, going forward, Iâm going to make sure she stays hydrated. In fact, while youâre here, Jay, Iâm going to run to the pharmacy. We dropped off the prescription on the way home, and I just got a text saying itâs ready.â
After he leaves, I ask Lori, âAre you still going to be able to travel up to Omaha for your baby shower?â
âYeah, the doctor said it was fine.â
âAwesome. I think a girlsâ weekend is just what you need.â
âI think youâre right,â she says with a sigh.
âAre things okay with you two?â
âYeah, Danny felt really bad. And then I felt really bad for being mad at him.â
âYou were just scared,â I tell her.
âI was so afraid I was going to have the baby alone. I was equally afraid that heâd miss his babyâs birth. Thank you for being there for me, Jade. Iâm lucky to have a friend like you.â
âI think Iâm the lucky one,â I tell her.