âThis must be the lovely Francesca,â my cousin Toni exclaimed, walking forward. He kissed both of Francescaâs cheeks âYou are every bit as beautiful as Iâve heard.â
âThank you,â she said, then looked to me for an explanation.
We had just arrived at one of the restaurants I owned in Siderno after the obstetrician appointment. I didnât like how thin she was, and the doctor had expressed concern over the amount of weight Francesca had lost. Though the baby was perfectly fine, the doctor had encouraged Francesca to eat more, whatever she could hold down. So I decided to bring her to lunch, also inviting Toni to discuss business. Heâd been pestering me for an in-person meeting for months. Two birds, one stone.
âMeet Antonio, my cousin,â I said. âHe handles many of my businesses for me.â
âCall me Toni,â my cousin said. âZio Toni, if you prefer.â
I pulled a chair out for her and she sat. âYou speak very good English,â she said to Toni.
âI was raised in the Connecticut suburbs until I was twelve. Then my mother moved us back to Siderno and I became acquainted with my Italian cousins.â
âAh, I see.â
âI was pleasantly surprised he agreed to meet in person today.â Toni gestured to me, still speaking to Francesca. âYour influence, no doubt.â
âOh, I can hardly take credit,â she said as the waiter passed out menus. âFausto always does whatever the hell he wants.â
I tried to hide my smile. âFrancesca had an appointment at her obstetrician this morning. We came here directly after.â
She bristled in her seat, no doubt furious that I had mentioned the pregnancy. But there was no use hiding it. Word of my presence at the doctorâs office would spread all over Siderno by sundown. Besides, Toni was family. He deserved to hear it from me.
âOh, this is wonderful news!â Toni exclaimed and leaned forward to slap my shoulder. âComplementi, cugino!â
Francesca rolled her eyes, then held up her hand to get the waiterâs attention. When he arrived, she said, âIâll have the tiramisu and the frangipane tart.â
âNo.â I proceeded to give the waiter a long list of things to bring to the table. She would eat actual food with vitamins and minerals first.
âYouâre impossible,â she said when the waiter left.
Putting my hand on the back of her chair, I leaned over. âYou may have whatever you wish for dessert, no? And I purposely did not order chicken.â
Her lips parted, a flush deepening her cheeks and throat. âFine.â
Satisfied, I straightened. âNow we must discuss business,â I said to her. âI hope you wonât mind.â
âYes, forgive us, Francesca,â Toni added. âHeâs been too distracted lately, though now I understand why.â
âOh, he wasnât distracted by the baby. It was because he sent me away and then I was kidnapped.â She gave me a bland stare that didnât fool me for a moment. âRight, paparino?â
Fury washed through me, even though I knew she was trying to get back at me for taking away her dessert and going to the doctorâs appointment. My lips met the shell of her ear and I whispered, âIâm glad you are feeling better, piccola monella. I was worried you would need more time to recuperate. I see thatâs no longer the case.â
Francesca didnât say anything, instead reaching for a slice of bread from the basket on the table. While she busied herself with eating, Toni and I caught up on the various matters Iâd ignored the last month.
The meal dragged on, and I was surreptitiously watching Francesca enjoy her gnocchi when Toni nudged my arm.
âAre you listening?â Toni asked. âI know sheâs beautiful but surely Iâm not that boring.â
I frowned at him, though I was annoyed at myself. I should have paid better attention. âI heard you. Thereâs a buyer for the media conglomerate and you want to sell. So, sell.â
âNo, Fausto,â Francesca said, forking up another bite of gnocchi. âHe wants to split the media conglomerate apart and form two companies. The less-profitable half would be sold.â
Toni held out his hand toward her as if to say, At least someone was paying attention. I ignored him and concentrated on my woman. âDo you think itâs a good idea?â
She lifted a shoulder. âIâd have to learn what each half of the company was responsible for.â
âThe profitable half,â Toni explained, âwould be data mining for advertisers through social media, dating apps, and online storefronts. The part Iâd like to sell is the television and print side.â
âBecause ad revenue is down,â I added to make sure she understood. âEveryone streams nowadays and gets their news on an app.â
âTrue, but if the last few years have shown us anything itâs that whoever controls the flow of information has the most power. People will believe anything.â
Toni and I exchanged a look. This was true. âSo, sell the data mining instead?â I asked.
âThat would be a mistake,â Toni said. âThe revenue potential is incredible.â
Francesca put down her fork and reached for her sparkling water. âYou should split the companies but keep them both. Rename the data mining side, though, to something no one would associate with the media side. People donât like thinking their computers are spying on them. There was a big scandal a few years ago with one of the social media sites doing that.â
âThere was?â Toni asked. âI donât remember it.â
âYep. Everyone was deleting their accounts. That site was mostly for older people, though. Like Faustoâs age.â
Without thinking, I stroked my knuckles along the soft skin of her forearm. âAncient, then.â
Freezing, she stared at where I was touching her. Yet she didnât pull away, not at first. I took advantage, caressing her gently, not bothered that Toni was across the table. Finally, she shifted and moved out of my reach. Her hands ended up in her lap, her fingers knotted together.
âSo we have a decision, then, yes?â Toni asked.
âYes, and Francesca will choose a name for the new company.â
She blinked at me. âI will?â
âYou helped to make the decision, so itâs only fair.â
Her mouth stretched into a wide grin before she could stop herself. The sight of her pleasure hit me like a punch to the solar plexus, and I had to restrain myself from leaning over and kissing her. I wanted to taste her joy, drown in her happiness. I missed losing myself in her, the only woman who dared to antagonize and fight me at every turn.
The moment passed and she retreated, her mask firmly back in place for the rest of the meal. Toni and I moved onto the hedge fund he operated, as well as the real estate. I enjoyed the legitimate side of the Ravazzani empire, the strategizing over numbers and data. If I wasnât so suited to blood and violence, I could have been happy as an investment banker or CEO.
Toni cleared his throat and leaned in. âRav, your former friend has made a request about the house.â
I was distracted, watching Francesca lick tiramisu off a spoon. âFriend?â
âKatarzyna,â he said reluctantly, referring to my previous mantenuta.
Francesca paused, spoon halfway to her mouth. âWhat about her?â
No way to hide it now. I waved my hand, indicating Toni should explain. My cousin shot me an apologetic look before saying, âSheâd like to sell the house in Portofino.â
I snorted. âHave we even finalized the paperwork? She doesnât even own it yet and sheâs trying to make a quick Euro.â
âThis is why she needs ourâmyâhelp. I wanted to check with you first.â
âIs there a reason not to let her sell it?â Francesca asked, her attention on me.
I shrugged, annoyed that our day had been tainted by this unpleasant conversation. I didnât want Francesca reminded of the women in my past. âOther than her appalling sense of greed? No.â
âYou cannot blame her, Fausto,â she said, her voice calm. âBoth of you went into that arrangement with your eyes wide open. Do not penalize her for using it to her advantage now that sheâs on her own.â
My soft-hearted dolcezza. This was the side of her I had missed the most, the one who looked out for her sisters. Who insisted on saving the baby lambs. The woman who stood up for my son, even when it had cost her everything.
Dio cane, I worshiped her.
Lifting her hand to my mouth, I pressed a kiss to the inside of her wrist. âLet Katarzyna sell the house,â I told Toni, keeping my gaze on Francesca.
Her breath hitched and she licked her lips. I couldnât tell what she was thinking, but her hooded lids gave me a good idea. If Toni wasnât here, I would ask her if her panties were wet. Perhaps Iâd even check for myself.
Without warning, she jerked away from me and pushed away from the table. âExcuse me. I must use the restroom.â
Toni and I stood as Francesca hurried from the room. I had rattled her, which was very good. Glancing at Benito, who stood in the corner, I flicked my hand to indicate he should follow her. Because I owned the restaurant, I wasnât worried that someone would hurt her. They wouldnât dare.
But I was worried she might try to escape.
Francesca
I was weak.
I could feel my resolve crumbling like day-old bread. Those dark eyes of his, that sexy voice. It was like Fausto had a direct line to my hormones and he could pluck those strings at will, flooding my system with lust so strong I couldnât breathe.
Between my legs was a needy mess. My traitorous body had clearly forgotten all Fausto had done wrong, and no amount of reminders was keeping me immune to him.
I pushed into the ladies toilet and entered the empty stall. After I relieved myself, I came out to wash my hands and splash water on my face. I had to pull it together. I could not forgive him or start sleeping with him again. Both were terrible ideas.
God, but the look on his face when he saw our eleven-week old baby during the ultrasound. It was like heâd been the emotional one, his eyes turning glassy as he stared at the computer screen. Iâd almost grabbed his hand, needing to share the joy and excitement for a moment, but somehow thought better of it.
You were very much my whoreâand a good one at that.
Those words still hurt. Heâd been so cruel, so cold. What was to say that wouldnât happen again when I did something he didnât like? I couldnât risk it, not when I had a child to think of. I could not be at Fausto Ravazzaniâs mercy ever again.
The door to the ladies room opened and an older woman walked in. I gave her a polite smile and finished drying my hands. As I went to go past her, she put a hand up. âFrancesca Mancini?â
How did she know my name? âWho are you?â
She pulled a card out from her coat pocket. âI am Mia Rinaldo.â
I glanced down at the card. Guardia di Finanza. Holy shit. Even I knew they were the police force in charge of smuggling and financial crimes. Basically everything Fausto did.
That they were approaching me, here in the ladiesâ room, couldnât be a good thing.
My anger at Fausto aside, I could never side with the police. That had been ingrained in me since birth. I thrust the card back at her and retreated a step. âNo.â
âYou havenât even heard what I have to say.â
I tried to move around her. âIt doesnât matter,â I hissed. âI donât want to hear it.â
She blocked my exit. âYou are in a very precarious situation, Miss Mancini. And I suspect you arenât as happy as Fausto Ravazzaniâs mistress as you let on. Especially after Enzo DâAgostino kidnapped you.â
Jesus Christ. How did she know all this? Did she know I was pregnant, too? âStop spying on me.â
The agent laughed. âIf you are in Ravazzaniâs orbit, you are being watched. Only a stupid woman would assume otherwise and one thing I suspect you are not, Miss Mancini, is stupid.â
âYou know nothing about me.â
âI know you were raised in the life, albeit in Toronto. That makes you an asset to him, whereas the other women were just arm candy. Heâs paid more attention to you. Even went as far as to impregnate you.â
I couldnât hide the shock from my face. Yes, they did know everything.
She moved in as I stood there, reeling, and slipped the card in my purse. âIs this what you want for your child? A lifetime of wondering when their father will be arrested? Blood and murder and drugs? Think, Miss Mancini. We can help you if you help us. We can work to keep you and your baby safe. We can put Fausto Ravazzani away where he can never get to you.â
Did she honestly think that would work? I stood taller and pushed my shoulders back. âYou know Iâm smart, yet you try this line of bullshit on me. We both know there is no safety, even if I wanted to cooperate with youâwhich I donât. Fuck off, Agent Rinaldo.â
I shoved on her shoulder to get her out of the way and slammed open the door. Benito was on his phone in the corridor, waiting for me while not paying a lick of attention. I rolled my eyes at his ineptitude. A GDF agent had just tried to get me to turn on Fausto and Benito was probably searching for a date on Tinder.
I strode past him and went down the hall. When I entered our private dining room, Fausto glanced up and raked my body with a hot gaze, as if making sure I was all right. My entire body tingled and the enormity of what Iâd done hit me in that moment.
I had chosen Fausto.
Oh my fucking god. I had chosen this man, the one who had hurt me and tossed me away. The one whoâd said terrible things and forced his son to pretend to be straight. The chance to escape had presented itself through the Italian government a few moments ago and I had thrown it away.
What was wrong with me?
A sweat broke out on the nape of my neck as I sat. I ignored the quirk of Faustoâs brow and finished my tiramisu, all the while contemplating my decision in the bathroom. Did I truly wish to get away from Fausto or was I kidding myself? What did I want?
Because if I really wanted to leave him, thenâhatred of the police or notâI should have jumped at that opportunity.
Yet I hadnât. Why?
At my core, I was a mafia princess. Iâd been raised in this world and I understood it. Even being sheltered from my fatherâs day-to-day business, I knew how the organization worked and the men who ran it. Fausto had accused me many times of liking the danger, calling me bloodthirsty.
Do not ever try to tell me you werenât made for this life, that you werenât born to rule as a queen.
While I doubted that, I also would never stoop to working with the police. Doing so would get me killed faster than anything else. Fausto could never let that betrayal slide, regardless of the pregnancy, and his reach extended throughout the globe. There wasnât anywhere I could go that he couldnât find me, Guardia or not.
I put down my spoon, sick at the realization. There was no escape from this, unless he willingly let me go. And, considering he nearly cried at the sight of the baby this morning, it was safe to say he wouldnât, at least not until the baby was born. But I certainly wasnât leaving my child alone in Italy under Faustoâs care, so I was stuck here.
There was also the problem of my libido. I was strugglingâand failingâto resist him. What did that mean? Was I fooling myself in trying to keep my distance? More than anything, I needed him to suffer, to regret his treatment of me so that it never happened again.
Which meant I was already intending to forgive him.
Shit.
I rubbed my forehead, beyond exhausted by the mess of my life.
Fausto moved his chair and stood. âWeâll finish later, Toni. I need to get Francesca back to the castello to rest.â
I considered contradicting him, but I was tired. So I didnât protest when he led me out of the restaurant and helped me into the Range Rover. He settled beside me, his leg resting against mine. I didnât bother pushing him away. My head was too fuzzy. I just closed my eyes and let myself drift.
He placed something on my lap.
Looking down, I saw a to-go bag from the restaurant. âWhatâs this?â
âI had them box up two orders of their tiramisu, since you seemed to like it. Donât tell Zia, though. She will think you donât like hers.â
I loved Ziaâs tiramisu, so there was no chance of that, but his thoughtfulness touched me all the same. âYouâre impossible, you know that?â
The side of his mouth hitched, making him appear even more gorgeous. âDoes this mean you are no longer mad at me, dolcezza?â
I sighed and decided not to answer. Instead I opened my purse, dug around, and held out Agent Rinaldoâs card. âWhile I was in the washroom, I had a visit from the Guardia di Finanza.â