Chapter 91 â Brutal Rights (1)
âItâs only because Iâm using to seeing you in the Academy.â
He was losing his composure because Louise wasnât wearing the uniform. Yes, that was it. Letâs just say that.
ââ¦Hmm?â
Louise peeked open her eyes, and Ian smiled and shook his head.
âItâs nothing.â
âWhat?â
âThis kind of thing is Simonâs specialty.â
Ian muttered. Of course if Simon were here instead, he would not given up on his task.
âLord Simon is very kind.â
ââ¦Heâs a good guy.â
He said it grudgingly and pulled away his handkerchief for a moment. He had something to say.
âDid Simon help you a while ago? Atâ¦at the cathedral.â
Louise noticed that Ian could not bring himself to say the word funeral. Perhaps his heart was bruised too deeply that it hurt. Louise answered as lightly as possible, hoping that he would be alright.
âYes. He helped me when I was in trouble. Where did you hear that?â
âAt a family dinner.â
âI was mentioned at such an important occasion?â
âYou are mentioned quite often. Everyone likes you.â
âAre you serious?â
âOf course. You are mine and Simonâs friend.â
âIâm interacting with some amazing people.â
She sometimes forgot her friendsâ high status when they were together.
âAt the next dinner, please tell him Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to make a scene at the cathedral.â
âMy grandmother, the former queen, knows it was not your fault. She praised Simon for it.â
âThank youâ¦â
Louise had an incredulous look on her face, and Ian gave a warming smile in return. Louise was generous and sweet always took care of Ian and Simon. There was no reason for the adults who knew her to dislike her. If they did in the first place, Ian and Simon wouldnât have been allowed to go to the greenhouse.
âWhy was that girl harassing you?â
Louise found it surprising the way he said spat out âthat girl.â Even now, events were flowing far away from the original.
ââ¦Why?â
âAh, um. Iâm sure she has a reason.â
Such as being weighed down by the threats and expectations of her fairy godmother. Such as a sense of purpose to rise higher than her crumbling family.
âNo matter what.â
Ian brushed back Louiseâs hair that had fallen past her ears.
âThere is no reason for you to hear something like that from others.â
But what about the warning from his grandfather? If a common child dared to go to a higher station, everyone would be doomed to misery.
âAnd like I said.â
He spoke in an unwavering voice.
âIf the lady I want says yes, I donât care about anything else.â
ââ¦Like Your Majesty the king?â
âYes, just like my father did.â
Louise looked at his face and gathered up the courage to say something else.
âButâ¦you care about your grandfather.â
âOf course I do.â
Ian had answered right away.
âI love him with all my heart.â
Perhaps he had thought about the answer in advance.
âAs for the only thing he said to meâ¦I donât want to make excuses and run away from the truth.â
Ianâs remarks were audacious, but he knew that if he stopped everything because of his grandfatherâs words, he may resent him in the future. Ian did not want to do anything that might make him hate his grandfather. He wanted to protect his love for him forever.
ââ¦But my grandfather would certainly hate me.â
He put on a wry smile.
âAsk him someday.â
âWell, after I die supposeâ¦but Iâm scared to hear the answer.â
âIâll stay with you.â
âThank you. When my grandfather disowns me, I want you to console me like that day.â
âIâll have to think about that.â
âIâm being so nice, canât you just comfort me a bit?â
His pouting voice made Louise laugh, and Ian picked up his handkerchief again.
âCome here. You still have a black spot on your chin.â
âYou havenât cleaned it off yet?â
Well, for a while he needed time to be patient by himself and wasnât paying attention to wiping it off. However, no words were suitable as an excuse, so he shifted them slightly.
âIâm not very skilled in this. Anyway, Iâll get better, so please come closer. â
The handkerchief now scrubbed at Louiseâs chin. Louise worried what she looked like because heâd been wiping her face for so long.
âWell, I must have been in a bad shape.â
âDonât worry, youâre still the most beautiful girl even with black dust on your face.â
âOh, thatâs a relief.â
She could faintly hear a song beginning on stage. The story seemed to be moving in a romantic direction, a warm affection weaving through the notes.
âThatâs a good song.â
Louise murmured.
âYesâ¦itâs a sad song.â
âBut itâs beautiful.â
âThereâs no reason that beauty and grief canât coexist.â
Without Louise asking, he explained the performanceâs plot to her.
âItâs an old classic. Itâs about a human man who fell in love with another being.â
âAnother being?â
âYes. The translation is different depending on the time period. Sometimes they are called agents of God, angels or goddesses.â
âDoes their love finally come true?â
ââ¦Not so hasty, now.â
Ianâs voice was scolding, and the sweet song continued. While the lyrics didnât travel clearly through the walls, the emotions certainly  did. The actorsâ feelings were not diminished in the least bit; they rang loudly in the heart for the listener.
âIâm sure youâre curious about the conclusion of the story, but why donât you concentrate on whatâs happening now?â
He now carefully swept away the glittering powder from her eyes with his fingertips.
â⦠Now?â
âItâs a scene where the hero confesses.â
ââ¦To the other being?â
âNo. To the air.â
Then it wasnât a confession. It was a monologue that wouldnât reach anyone.
âBut he means it with his whole heart.â
âYes.â
âEven if it doesnât reach.â
âIt doesnât reach, but he does mean it.â
Louise fluttered her eyes shut and thought about the story a little more.
ââ¦His love doesnât come true, does it?â
âJumping to conclusions as always. Can you concentrate on his confession a little more?â
âBut I canât hear the lyrics.â
âThereâs only one word that goes into a true confession.â
Louise frowned slightly.
âBut this long song isnât a single word.â
âIt doesnât matter.â
His fingers that were around her eyes now swept through Louiseâs face, naturally bringing them to look at each other.
âThe other words exist to speak that one word anyway.â
Those beautiful words would carry the implicit meaning of his heart. The music as well.
Louise tried to imagine his way of thinking. One by one, she peeled off the layers of words, until she realized the hardest word in it.
âTheâ¦the words are kind of embarrassing.â
âReally? I thought you would like it.â
âA-anyone would like it!â
âWhich is why Iâm worrying.â
He took his hand off Louiseâs face and looked a bit worried.
âWhat Iâm trying to say isâ¦I donât know what kind of words you like to the extent that you would accept them.â
âYou considered the possibility that I would reject you?â
Louise said something she hadnât meant to say.
âYou could say no. I remembered the time when I asked for partner and scratched your head.â
âThatâs too much to think about! Donât ask that while scratching someone elseâs head!â
âBut why do I have the urge to do it when you say that?â
âBecause the president has a bad personality.â
âYouâre the who has a bad personality. Whatâs wrong with scratching your head? I almost kissed your dusty face because I like it so much.â
Louise flung herself back, covering her mouth with both hands.
âHuh, who has a bad personality?â
Ian said, disappointed as he looked at the large distance between the two. Louise couldnât possibly answer him. Today, the two never got to circle the date on the calendar.