Ch. 158 Terrible, Perfect Proposal (3)
Ianâs description of âscaryâ probably wasnât referring to Dean. As Claire and Dean sat across from each other inside the moving carriage, only an awkward silence reigned. That was what Ian probably feared.
ââ¦What do I do?â
There was a rustling sound as Claire clutched the skirt of her dress. Ian had briefly told her what Dean had been up toâhow he noticed that she hadnât come back, tracking her whereabouts from the dress shop, then leaking the information to Count Iris. But he left Ian to do the confrontation.
âItâs more efficient that way.â
Her brother was a man who is easily swayed by power and money, and Dean knew that.
âI should say thank you.â
Or should she say sorry before that? But for some reason, Deanâs face looked uneasy, so it was hard to find the words. What was he thinking?
âAchoo!â
A sneeze caught her by surprise. Due to the tension in the air she had forgotten about the chill and the goose flesh on her skin. Dean looked at Claire with a startled expression, and she felt like jumping out of the carriage. Why did she have to sneeze at this time?
âAhâ¦â
Dean stared at Claire for a moment, then hurriedly opened the box next he was holding.
âI-I-Iâm sorry. I forgot to give you thisâ¦!â
He opened the box and hurriedly pulled out Claireâs coat. He seemed to have retrieved it from the store where she left it.
ââ¦Thank you.â
Claire accepted the coat. She swept away her hair and made to put her arms in the sleeves, when suddenly Dean caught her wrist.
âWhat the hell is this?â
His eyes flickered over her bruised arm. Until now, it had been hidden by the darkness and her hair.
âO-oh, put on the coat first. We canât let you catch a cold againâ¦â
He released her wrist, and Claire slipped on the coat while he began to push the buttons in one by one.
âHe did that to you?â
His eyes burned, as if he wanted to turn the carriage and go grab her fiancé by the throat.
âWell? Who else would it be but that crazy bastard?â
âKugâ¦â
Claire started laughing at the term âcrazy bastard.â
âWhy are you laughing?â
Claire shook her head, but she found it so funny that she couldnât help herself.
âAs a matter of fact, Iâve been thinking âThat crazy bastard!â all day. Because thatâs what Iâve been calling him.â
Claire swept the tears from her eyes, and a few drops slid between her fingers.
ââ¦I think Iâm very happy.â
Claire touched his hand when he reached for the last button.
âI feel like youâre on my side.â
He turned away and answered curtly.
âI am on your side, you idiot.â
Then he continued.
âUnconditionally.â
He was a bit regretful. He wished he had something better to sayâ¦likeâ¦like what a poet could say. But Claire replied kindly to his rough words.
âYes. I know.â
Her words were just as simple as his.
âAnd thank you for today, though somehow Iâve upset you.â
âIâm not upset.â
Dean furtively withdrew his hand away from Claireâs.
âYou look upsetâ¦â
Claire looked back at their two hands, which had drifted apart.
âIâm not!â
âBut you havenât looked me properly in the eyeâ¦.â
âTh-thatâs not itâ¦!â
Finally, he pulled his stare from outside the window and turned towards Claire. His face was a brilliant red.
âYou arenât wearing clothes thatâs right for season! Are you stupid? Why does the dress expose you so much when youâre going to get married in winter? Is that crazy bastardâs family so poor that he canât afford a proper dress?! Youâre going to get sick!â
âThatâs because the wedding is held inside the church and itâs very warm in there.â
âWhy would that crazy pervert choose a dress like thatâ¦!â
âI chose it. Is it that so strange?â
Claire frowned, even though the dress was now hidden from view with the coat.
âI-itâs not strange.â
Dean covered his face with one hand and sighed deeply.
âIâm going crazy.â
After mumbling imperceptibly to himself, he turned his eyes back out the window again. Before they knew it, the carriage was nearing the Academy.
ââ¦Pretty.â
âSo thatâs why youâre in a bad mood? Because the dress is pretty?â
âYouâre pretty, not the dress! Do I have to say it for you to understand? And that dress is awful!â
âDidnât you just say it was strange that I picked it?â
âIâ¦!â
The pure white dress was like the only light in this darkness. It was true that he was a little upset because the dress matched her image. It looked so good on her that he was a little annoyed.
ââ¦If you donât like it that much, do you want me to take it off?â
âAre you crazy?â
He leapt up from his seat, forgetting that the carriage was in motion. As soon as his head crashed into the ceiling, he sat down again.
âG-go to your room to change. Your room! Louise Sweeney is waiting for you there.â
âThatâs a relief. I canât take the dress off by myself.â
âCanât you stop talking about undressing?â
âThen what do you want me to say instead?â
âOh, really! Why did I reallyâ¦â
He swept aside his hair and slid his forehead against the window.
At that moment the carriage stopped. Dean opened the door wide and then jumped out onto the ground. Outside the carriage, he turned back to Claire with a complicated expression.
âHow long are you going to stay in there? Arenât you getting off?â
Claire rose slowly from her seat, her body heavy with exhaustion. She climbed carefully down on the steps of the carriage.
ââ¦You.â
Dean frowned at her.
âWhere did you leave your shoes?â
One was abandoned and the other she had taken off. It was too complicated to explain.
âSomehow I just ended up with no shoesâ¦.â
âYouâre really all over the place, arenât you?â
Dean kept on complaining, but he turned around and offered his back to her.
Was heâ?
âHurry up! Louise Sweeney is procrastinating in your room!â
At his urging, Claire quickly hugged Deanâs neck. As she leaned perfectly against his broad back, and he tipped over a little. She thought he was having trouble because of her dress, but she soon realized that he was simply adjusting her on his back.
ââ¦Itâs a little embarrassing.â
Claire spoke in a small voice, but Dean didnât answer and started walking.
âThank you.â
âTodayâs work isnât mine, but the Presidentâsâ¦â
âNot just for today.â
Claire comfortably leaned her weight against him.
âEverything from the beginning until now. Youâve always been there for me.â
âYou donât have to thank me for that. Itâs natural.â
âThank you for saying itâs natural.â
ââ¦Really. You.â
âThank you for saying that I am pretty. The truth isâ¦â
Claire had a delusion in the dress shop. She had wanted Dean to come, not her fiancé. She wished she could have seen his surprised reaction.
âYour reaction in the carriage was quite funny, so I was really happy.â
âReally!â
He turned around and shouted at her, but their faces were so close that he hurriedly turned back again. Claire smiled, but then suddenly got worried.
âWell, but that means I wonât see an enthusiastic reaction next time I wear a wedding dress.â
She didnât think she liked that.
ââ¦Iâll react.â
He returned a vague reply. His cheeks, which were against her arms, somehow felt hot.
âEnthusiastically?â
âYes, with great enthusiasm! Youâll be so astonished that youâll lose your shoes.â
âThatâs difficult.â
She didnât walk into a wedding like this.
âSo, Claire Iris.â
She could feel the solidness of his arms that supported her.
âNext time, go pick the dress with me.â
ââ¦â
âYou donât like the idea?â
âNot thatâ¦just a little surprised.â
âThen do it, alright?â
Claire thought for a while. What a terrible, perfect proposal. She squeezed her arms a little more firmly around him. Who said it was winter now? It didnât feel windy or cold at all. Maybe it would be that way as long as the two of them were together.
ââ¦Yes, I will. â
At that moment, the terrible winter of Claireâs heart melted away.