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I felt myself slowly losing my mind. I must have been drugged or something. I stood up from the couch.
"I'm feeling a little dizzy. I think I'm going to take a bath and go to bed" I said as I slowly started stepping away from Arthur.
"If you're feeling faint, you shouldn't bathe.Do you need something to eat?" Arthur said as he stood up with me. "Sometimes I forget you need food." How do you forget something like that?
"Oh I'm fine. really. I just need some me time. You know process everything" I gave him my most convincing smile before I turned without his argument. I walked upstairs and tried my best to remember which door was mine. I had a bathroom attached to my bedroom luckily. I found a towel and some comfortable clothes in my bags.
The bathroom was almost as big as my room and that's where I was at the moment taking a bath hoping to wash off the feeling of being uncomfortable. The large tub stood in middle of the room, but centered across from the sink. I sat in the silence mostly and let the warm water wrap around me as I sank deeper down. I wanted to drown really. I wanted it all to go away. This feeling of sadness, anxiety, and panic. Â I wiped my face that contained the small tears that I let escape the corners of my eyes.
"So this is my life then" I said to myself. I looked up from the wrinkles in my hands to see the sink that looked like a big bowl, above it was a mirror that was dusty and old. I stood up and got out of the tub wrapping myself in the soft white towel that still smelt like the laundry my mother did. I wiped the mirror with the palm of my hand and looked myself in the mirror. My hair was in still knots down to my shoulders. "This is it" I lightly touched the mirror as if I was touching my face. "This is my life" I repeated I let a couple more tears hit the floor and mix into the water that fell from the tips of my hair. "My never ending hell" I said then I felt sobs start to escape my lips that were swollen because I constantly bit them to keep myself from crying.
I didn't bite my lips now, I cried and I didn't hold it in. I let my wet naked body hit the hard floor as the hard sobs took over my body. I was shaking and screaming I pounded my fists on the floor and then I wrapped my hurt arms around my bare legs. I didn't care if they heard. I was grieving, I was letting all my worries go. Because In truth I didn't care if I died tomorrow, or tonight.
I picked up my towel from the ground and re-wrapped myself before  walking out of my bathroom and into my room just as I heard a small knock on my door.
"Hazel, hunny? You okay?" I heard Katerina's sweet voice through my door.
"Yeah" I said my voice horse and in a whisper. The door to my room then opened and there was Katerina with four towels folded nicely in her arms.
"Here I got you some towels to use. Oh I see you have one." She said. She set them on the bed. I gave her a slight smile. "Thanks anyway"
"Have you been crying?" She asked. I smiled again. "How bad do I look?"
"You look beautiful of course, but you also look like a hopeless girl who just lost the two most important people in her life." Katerina said. She sat on my bed and patted a spot next to her signaling me to sit next to her. I sat and waited for her to try and comfort me.
"Do you want a hug?" She asked.
"I just want to be alone" I said honestly. She pulled me into a hug anyways lightly rubbing my back.
"I'm so sorry that this had to happen to you" She said. I felt like crying again but I bit my lip and held in the tears that I wanted badly to just go away. I hugged her back being polite, but she let go of me when she found out that I wasn't going to cry.
"Thanks for taking me in, but may I ask why?" I asked. She tilted her head in confusion.
"Didn't we already tell you?" She questioned. I nodded. "Yeah but you were already up to adopt me before my parents even died.
"Okay, you got me" Katerina said shrugging.
"Excuse me?" My heart dropped.
"We were old friends of your parents and when they heard my daughter died they offered to let me adopt you if anything were to happen to them, of course they didn't think that anything would happen it was just a kind gesture, but well...here you are"
"Oh"
"I think I'll let you sleep now" Katerina said. "Oh and can you please not bring up the subject again, I would like you to think of me as your mother and it's hard to do that when you ask about the other one."Â I was offended by what she was asking me to do, did she really just want me to forget about the woman who gave birth to me?
"Are you asking me to forget about my birth parents?"
"Of course not I just wish you would start thinking of me Arthur as your parents. For now is what I mean." Katerina said. I was still a little puzzled and I just sat with a scowl looking down at my hands.
"Just think about it" She recovered. "Goodnight" She said then closed my bedroom door behind her. I sat in my bed confused, but let it pass and tucked myself in and let my eyes close for the first time in a while.
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I woke up curled up in bed with the covers wrapped around my body as if I was a fly in a web. I never imagined sleeping as well as I did last night which was amazing, all the tension I felt in my shoulders gone. I stretched and sighed. I looked back at the feather pillow and tempted to lay my head down one more time, but then I saw it. It was amazing and beautiful. The elegance and beauty was so....i don't know the words. My heart was pounding as I pulled the covers off me and almost ran to the dress that was on a stand. It was black and had lace sleeves with an open back. It was frilly and probably go down past my ankles. It was amazing. There were small beads above the place wear my breast would go. There was a note hooked on to it and I read it.
Hazel, My darling
Put it on and then come down stairs so we can eat and i can see how it fits you. Then i can put some adjustments to it before tonight. I hope you like it my little Hazel.
I threw the note behind me and then I started to pull my clothes off and I pulled the gown over my arms and body. I went to the full length mirror. The dresses top was low cut and had lace sleeves all the way down. The torso was very fitting almost like a corset. It went out and small lace wrapped around the black fabric underneath. It also had a small train It was a perfect fit. It made my waist look smaller and fit and it had a big skirt and it made me look like a princess. Â I hurried down stairs a little excited and almost tripping over. When i got in there I saw Katerina and Arthur siting there at the dining table.
"Hello " I said a little awkward. I saw Katerina look up and she went silent as she looked at me. She looked like she was going to cry. Â "Ina, what is this?" Arthur asked, seeming almost frustrated which confused me a bit.
"I wanted her to wear this dress tonight for the dinner" She said. Arthur didn't relax, he stood up in anger.
"Is she dying?" Arthur hissed under his breath loud enough for me to hear. Katerina just glared at him and shook her head clearly annoyed.
"Of course not I just wanted her to fit in with everyone tonight" Katerina said starting to stand up and threw her nap kin on the table and glaring him. I saw she was wearing a slender dress the fabric was silk and it was a dark, dark red.
"I want YOU to change out of that now!" Arthur yelled at me giving me a mean look and pointing a thin bony finger at me
"No, Hazel you don't have to do that. You look amazing. "Katerina said flattering.
"Don't listen to her. She....ugh" Arthur said getting up and leaving out the back door to the kitchen in disgust. I just stood there feeling dumb, embarrassed, and mostly confused. My heart was pounding hard in my chest and it was starting to puff out. Katerina sighed and then went over to me and grabbed my hand and we both went upstairs to my room. "Don't listen to the old bat. He just gets Emotional when he sees this dress" Katerina said adjusting my sleeves and slip.
"Why?" I asked with a lump in my throat. I stood in front of her as she sat on my bed.
"Something happened the night my daughter wore it. It changed our whole families' life" Katerina said. "Let's just leave it at that" she added. I already knew that was all I was going to get out of her. I nodded and then I looked back at the dress. "Should I take it off?"
"Oh don't you dare, he was just being a bloody Bastard" She said smoothing out my cheek with her thumb. She smiled at me and I bit my lip.
"You will wear this tonight. I don't care what he says about it" Then she lightly kissed my forehead with her cold hard lips.
"What going on tonight?"
"Oh just a little of family is coming" She said. "They'll be staying with us for a few weeks." Oh great..more weirdo's
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