Chapter 12: Chapter 12

When Jayden got home with his boyfriend they immediately had sex on the couch. After about an hour of that Enoch started cooking, his belly bouncing as he walked. It was really cute. Jayden just sat at the kitchen counter staring dreamily at him and before he knew it a delicious meal had been prepared. It was a proper Italian meal with pasta, pizza, garlic bread, lasagna and risotto. Jayden took one bite and it was so delicious. "I made sure it had extra carbs handsome." Enoch said giddily. Jayden started eating and Enoch fed him too. It was so delicious he couldn't stop. He soon realised he had to leave some for his boyfriend and put a slice of pizza into Enoch's mouth. Enoch looked surprised but also looked like he liked it so Jayden fed him fork fulls of pasta, slices of pizza and loaves of garlic bread. Jayden thought again about how Enoch had called him handsome. It was an old nickname which hadn't had much use recently and Jayden was now wondering why. Did Enoch prefer him as a twink or as a chub? He thought about this, day dreaming before having to get his head pulled out of the clouds to realise he wasn't feeding Enoch any more. "Everything good?" Enoch asked. "Yeah, yeah I'm fine" Jayden said before Enoch started feeding him again. With each bite he got more and more full and eventually his belly started sticking out of his shirt. "Ughh I'm so full" Jayden said making Enoch rub his belly after taking off his shirt. His stomach was so big, his thighs were thick, he had stretch marks and love handles. "That feels so good" Jayden said moaning in satisfaction. "Enoch what type of gay would you say you are?" Jayden asked casually. "Oh I don't know. I used to be a tweak but I'd say I'm more of a bear now. Maybe a chub but I still have muscles they're just covered in fat." Enoch said. "What would you say I am?" Jayden said cutely. Jayden could swear Enoch almost said twink before correcting himself. "A chub. Definitely a chub. Which isn't a bad thing just to clarify!" Enoch said. "Ok sure" Jayden joked but then started questioning himself. What if it was a bad thing? He wanted to do everything correctly for Enoch. He was still recovering from his old mindset and he had to be careful about everything. So letting Enoch stuff him and cook for him was not the best idea. If Jayden made him do too much he could make Enoch feel like it all had to be perfect putting him back in his 'perfection' toxic mindset. But then Jayden had to think. he just had to calm down. How did he expect to help Enoch before helping himself?  "Hello? Handsome? Are you there?" Enoch joked waving his hand in front of Jayden's face. "I must of drifted off again" Jayden said. "Yeah you need to stop doing that." Enoch joked. Jayden still had an instinctual urge to lose weight. He wanted to but if he got skinny what would Enoch think? No Jayden had to stop thinking about Enoch before himself. He loved him but he couldn't let himself fall into a toxic mindset. Jayden decided he was going to lose weight. He sat down with Enoch to watch a movie for the rest of the day but before he fell asleep he promised himself to lose weight.