Eleven years later
âJasmine! Wake up! Your breakfast will be cold if you donât hurry up!â
The frantic knocking of my maidâs knuckles against my door drags me, unwillingly, from my favorite dreamâa dream about the stunning, gorgeous, mysterious man who saved my life eleven years ago. A man who appeared once and then completely vanished from the face of the earth. A man whoâs left an ache in my chest for the past eleven years and a dream that one day we will be reunited. Then I can thank him for being the only person in my life to make me feel safe.
To make me feel like I have real worth.
âGo away,â I mumble into my pillow, tightening my arms around the cotton to revive some of the fluff it lost last night. âIâm sleeping.â
âChef made pancakes,â my maid teases.
I lift my head and glare groggily at the door. Do I want pancakes?
I always want pancakes. What a rotten trick.
âFine,â I groan loudly. âIâm up. Iâm up.â
Iâm not a morning person in the slightest. Definitely not when Iâve just spent the night dreaming of that gorgeous man wrapping his arms around me so tightly that I canât breathe. Time and time again, I fantasize about reaching up and pulling down his balaclava so I can see what he really looks like.
Given how attractively built he was, I can pretend that he looks utterly dashing with a chiseled jaw, thick lips, and perfect white teeth, but in the end, nothing feels right. Nothing will ever feel right. Iâve thought about him every single day since my rescue, and the passing years havenât dampened my desire or my determination to find him.
My parents were completely useless, of course. They spent a lot of time refusing to talk about my kidnapping and sending me to countless therapists who wanted me to evaluate my trauma and disconnect from my savior. I refused. He was like a knight in black armor, and I wanted to find him so I could thank him. They told me that I wouldnât be able to heal if I didnât move on, but they didnât understand that thinking of him was the only thing that got me through the panic attacks and night terrors.
The older I got, the ways in which I thanked him in my dreams would change, and soon I was fantasizing about what was under his clothes, not just his mask. Much to my motherâs alarm when I tried to confide in her about how I felt when seeking answers. She told me he was nothing more than a nobody, a mercenary for hire and that was all.
A man like that isnât a nobody.
But the years have ticked by, and I remain with zero answers. Only a memory.
Dragging myself from my bed takes more effort than I care to admit, but after a quick shower and a splash of makeup, I reach the dining table in time for a fresh batch of strawberry and white chocolate pancakes whipped up by our chef.
âYou have to stop sleeping in so late, dear,â my mother, Bianca, says as I take my seat next to her. âToo much sleep is as bad as too little you know.â She touches my chin with her knuckle and turns my face left, then right, and sighs softly. âYou look peaky. Are you taking your vitamins?â
âYes, Mother.â
âHm. Iâll speak to our doctor and have him change your dosage.â
âThereâs really no need.â My mother usually has the best intentions, she just doesnât always think things through. Ever since childhood, sheâs reminded me of a cloud that simply goes with the flow and often leaves part of herself behind. My grandmother used to scoff and say she was constantly away with the fairies, and as a child, it was rather endearing to have a mother who shared the same whimsical outlook on life as I did. As an adult though, itâs more challenging. Her floaty kindness can come off as rude, and she doesnât always have a clear head when it comes to important decisions. She forgot me at school when I was really little more than once, until my father organized bodyguards.
Not that they were much use when I was fifteen.
âSheâs fine, Bianca.â My father rustles the paper in his hand. âLeave her alone.â
âYour daughter looks peaky and you think sheâs fine?â
âI think itâs nine in the morning and sheâs in the process of waking up,â he replies, not looking up. âNot everyone wears a cake of makeup like you do.â
âNonsense,â Bianca replies. âItâs the middle of June. Jasmine should be glowing, not looking like weâve just stepped out of winter.â
I let their petty argument wash over me and focus on the stacked plate of pancakes in front of me, devouring the first in four bites. Chef has a knack for making sure the white chocolate chips are firm enough to satisfy but somehow gooey in the middle. I asked her about it once, and she chased me out of the kitchen with a wooden spoon.
âPlans for today, dear?â Bianca leans over me and fills my glass with fresh orange juice.
âNone currently, why?â
âWell.â She sets the jug down and places her hand over mine, her eyes sparkling with excitement as she looks at me. âYou know the Mancinis are hosting their annual summer party in just a few days, and they finally sent out invitations! I swear they make us wait so long because that woman gets a rush at seeing us all scramble for the best dresses in such a short time.â
My heart sinks slightly. The Mancini family is one of the biggest and most powerful Italian families in the country. If they are sharks in the ocean, weâre nothing but crabs at the bottom. Our family is powerful; thereâs no denying that. But thereâs always someone bigger.
âIf I had my way, we wouldnât be attending,â my father Enzo mutters while still being engrossed in his papers.
âDonât be silly dear,â Bianca smiles, their earlier disagreement forgotten. âEveryone has to show face at these things, you know this.â
Ah, yes. One of the invisible rules of the Mafia that is never spoken aloud, but God forbid you break it and snub the biggest family.
âI have more important things to be dealing with,â Enzo replies.
Oh? I glance past my mother to my father as he grumbles into a hearty gulp of coffee. âMore problems?â
My fatherâs work and this familyâs foundation have always interested me from a young age. Learning where our money comes from and how our name can carry so much weight because of certain decisions fascinates me. My mother begs me to focus on more ladylike things rather than how the family is run, and each time I tell her that I can do both. Besides, this family is my inheritance, and I want to lead it to greatness one day. I want it to be our parties that people are mandated to attend and my approval that people seek with just a glance.
Such a prospect is so exciting.
âThereâs always more problems,â Enzo replies.
âIs it the Gattis again?â
Saying their name aloud turns my fatherâs face to thunder. âFuck those cunts.â
âEnzo!â Bianca clutches at her napkin. âThereâs no need for such talk at the table!â
âI donât care,â he replies sharply. âWe know what they are. Snakes. Fucking poisonous snakes.â
In this ever-churning world of organized crime, we have one major competitor. The Gatti family. They werenât much of a threat when I was growing up, and there was a point when our two families could be considered friends. The Gattis were so loyal, in fact, that they were the ones who rescued me when I was fifteen.
My father parted with a large chunk of his weapons business as a thank you.
Something we regretted immensely when it came out five years later that it was actually Santino Gatti, the head of the Gatti family, who kidnapped me in the first place. He simply used the Yakuza as a pawn for a drug deal.
As a result, my father is waging a war against the Yakuza as revenge for their hand in my kidnapping and a way against the Gattis. He seeks to wipe both families out, and we would be winning if we werenât fighting on two fronts. Time and time again, I approach my father with solutions to end the conflict with the Yakuza so we can focus on the Gattis, but he refuses. Too much bad blood.
But I need peace with the Yakuza. Without it, I canât get what I want.
âWhatâs happened?â I ask around a mouthful of pancakes.
Enzo finally puts his papers down and looks up at me. âWe lost several trucks last night. Burned to a fucking crisp. Itâs not even the guns Iâm pissed off about. Ten of those trucks carried the new ammo I promised the Russians. Millions up in smoke because of that fucker. I swear to fuck, when I get my hands on him it wonât just be my weapons routes Iâll be taking back. Iâll drain him dry of every fucking firearm.â
âEnzo!â Bianca slams her palm down on the table. âYou know I donât like it when you talk like that.â
Enzoâs glare holds no warmth as he looks at my mother, then he sighs deeply and returns to his coffee.
âAnyway.â She turns to me with a bright smile. âYou donât need to focus on any of that. Neither of you should because weâll see the Gattis at the party, and I donât need either of you ruining this for me. These parties are the highlight of my year!â
âMom,â I say with a smile. âArenât you even a little bit angry at them?â
âAnger gives you wrinkles, dear.â She pats the back of my hand. âAnd youâre already getting too many of those.â
âIâm only twenty-six!â
âExactly. Youâre not getting any younger.â
âOh, speaking of.â Enzo looks up once more and passes an envelope to Bianca. âYou forgot to give her this.â
âOh yes!â Motherâs cheeks flush red with excitement as she presses the envelope into my hand. âThis is yours.â
âWhat is it?â Something about her excitement immediately sets me on edge as I slide the flap open.
âItâs what youâve been waiting for, dear,â she grins. âItâs a marriage proposal!â