After telling Elija Iâm sure he should come to my place, I grab his wrist, catching myself too late to pull back again. With the intention of not making more of a fool out of myself, I keep my hand where it is and gently start tugging him away. Iâm really glad he could grab his backpack on our way to the door.
I pretty much speed walk out of the building and towards the parking lot, scared my hand will grow clammy and nasty. When we finally reach my Vespa, I hand him my helmet. Itâs cute how he tries to fight me on the topic, insisting I need it more if we fall. In the end, he doesnât stand a chance of winning the argument. Iâm my parentsâ daughter after all.
âWhy am I not surprised itâs mint-colored?â
âWhatâs wrong with it?â I ask him, trying to see what he does when he looks at my baby.
âNothingâs wrong with it. It suits you.â I decide to believe his comment is meant well judging from the genuine smile on his lips.
âGet on first. You can place your feet here,â I instruct him before sitting down in front of him. âJust hold on tight, okay?â I donât hear his response over my heart pounding in my ears but his strong arms wrap around my waist from behind. After being too distracted to move for a second, Elija speaks up.
âAny moment now,â he teases me. What he didnât anticipate was that feeling his warm breath fanning against my neck wouldnât do anything for my concentration.
I pull myself together and start driving home. As soon as I gain speed and the warm air turns to a cool wind, Iâm able to relax. Itâs always been like this. No matter how stressed I am, one minute on my scooter and I feel better.
I tilt my head back slightly, still watching the road but relishing in the feeling to drive without a helmet for once. Iâm always responsible when it comes to that but I have to admit driving like this with a cute guy at my back awakes so much adrenalin I feel like Iâm floating.
âEasy, there. If you go any faster, itâll get expensive.â Elija laughs behind me so I slow down a bit.
âSorry,â I yell back, only partly meaning it.
We arrive at my place way too soon and I lead him into my room after putting my Vespa in the garage.
âAre your parents not home?â he asks me while scanning my room. Iâm suddenly glad I always keep my room clean.
âNope, theyâre in the Bahamas. They take small vacations about once a month.â I sit down on my bed and watch him look at the ripped-out book pages on my wall. Relax, I bought second-handâs in bad conditions to do it. Iâm not a monster.
âThey just left you behind to fend for yourself, huh?â he says it so lightly I feel silly for taking it personally. Truth is, I do feel like they abandon me sometimes. Like they jump at any chance to get as far away from me as possible.
Not wanting to let Elija know he hit a soft spot, I take extra care to keep my smile in place. Iâd say heâs quite perceptive since he was the only one that could tell I hurt my shoulder a week ago.
âYes, my life is truly challenging,â I swoon dramatically and get to enjoy his soft laughter in return.
âSo no siblings?â he asks me as he moves on to check out the pictures and plants on my desk.
âNope. What about you?â
âThree. One older brother, Kai, and two younger siblings, Daniel and May.â Thereâs an easy smile resting on his face and Iâm embarrassed to admit it evokes envy inside of me. I wonder what it would have been like to grow up with siblings. Maybe my parents would have stuck around more.
âIâm sure you keep your parents on their toes,â I say lightly. Elija seems to be done examining the room and sits down on my chair. He looks comfortable in my space, almost natural even though he sticks out like a sore thumb with his black clothes and chains amongst all the green and white.
âMy brother and I help a lot with the twins. Theyâre from my momâs current marriage and just turned five,â he explains. I find myself taking in every word heâs saying, making sure I remember all the new information for later. I canât believe Iâve known so little about him and here we are, hanging out like friends.
âThatâs really nice of you.â We smile at each other for a beat.
âDo you want to watch a movie?â he suddenly asks. I consider telling him heâd miss his next bus if we did that but decide against it. Iâm fairly sure heâs aware of that.
âSure, your pick,â I tell him.
âMhh. What about Harry Potter? Judging by those pictures over there, Iâd say you like it.â He points at the small display of Harry Potter-related things on top of my desk extension and I beam at him.
âLucky guess,â I tell him before patting the bed next to me. Iâm already sitting at the far edge so I hope itâs not inappropriate. âYou can sit down if you want.â My TV is placed opposite my bed so itâs the most comfortable way to watch a movie from here.
Elija sits down where I pointed, looking a lot less flustered than I. Maybe this is a regular thing for him? Hanging out on girlsâ beds. I donât like the sound of that.
âWhich oneâs it going to be?â he asks once heâs settled, turning my way. I seriously need to get my heartrate down before it explodes.
âYouâve made the best-possible choice once, you canât go wrong from here on.â He seems to think about it.
âHow about we start with the first one?â No because this canât be good for my health. He was just suggesting weâd do this again sometime, wasnât he? My cheeks are starting to hurt because of the constant grin Iâm entertaining.
Without another word, I pick up my remote control and put on the movie. Thanks, Netflix, for taking it on. As soon as Dumbledore appears on the screen, a sweet, familiar homesickness of the best kind settles in my chest. I should probably not still be this obsessed with it considering Iâd be of age and in my last year at Hogwarts by now. It doesnât matter, apparently, since Iâm this close to squealing.
You canât see it put Iâm mentally holding two fingers really close together.
When the characters on screen start talking, I bite down on my cheek so I donât speak along. I usually watch these movies alone and have long since learned most of the dialogues by heart. That means I always act the scenes out as they play.
I wonât allow myself to do that in front of Elija. Heâd probably get sick of this whole idea before I could say âbloody hellâ and I donât want to annoy him.
âYou okay?â the guy beside me asks, capturing my attention again.
âYeah, why?â I laugh. He points at my leg, which is bouncing even more than usual. I force it to a stop as my cheeks heat up and smile at him.
âSorry.â After a lingering look on me, like he couldnât decide what to think, he goes back to watching Harry at the zoo.
Minutes of chewing on my bottom lip pass until I a sudden warmth settles just above my knee. I look down at where Elijaâs hand covers my pants in awe before turning to face him.
âBetter,â he says softly and I notice the bouncing has stopped again. âAre you going to tell me why youâre so fidgety now?â Suddenly, Harry Potter is reduced to nothing more but background noise.
âI really like the movies,â I tell him slowly. He looks at me as if that explained nothing. âYouâre going to think Iâm the biggest nerd,â I groan.
âYeah? Try me.â My mouth falls open.
âWas that just? Did you just quote Harry?â I ask, baffled. Elija simply smiles at me, a dimple appearing in his right cheek, while I compose myself. âIâm trying not to spoil the movie with my babbling,â I finally say.
âSo what youâre saying is that youâre trying not to behave like a babbling, bumbling band of baboons?â I canât help it, I burst out laughing. After softly laughing along, he adds, âWhat babbling, Florence?â
âI usually speak along,â I say silently, hoping he wonât hear. He does hear. And he chuckles.
âSpeak along all you want. In case you havenât noticed, this isnât my first time watching the movies. Besides, Iâd love nothing more than seeing you recite Hermioneâs lines.â
âWhy hers?â I ask easily. Elija simply studies me for a beat, smile still in place, before he shakes his head and looks back to the movie.
âIâm eager for the show now. Go on.â So I do.