Iâm not myself tonight.
The weight in my chest is heavy. The pain inside my head is the kind that has no simple cure.
When I close my eyes, I see flames racing up my motherâs legs as she stands in the kitchen of my childhood home on the outskirts of Casal di Principe. Whenever I smell gasoline, I think of that night.
Whenever I suffer a failure, I remember the screams she made.
âYou didnât need to come in.â
I blink. Ras is sitting on the other side of the desk. Weâre in my office, about a hundred meters from the main dancefloor of Revolvr, but the soundproof walls ensure no sound seeps in. How is it that I didnât hear him come in?
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âIf I wasnât here, Iâd be climbing the walls back home,â I say to my right-hand man. Itâs true. I had no distractions to keep me occupied. Which begs the questionâwhy the fuck did I let that girl walk away earlier when I had every intention of making her into my distraction tonight?
When I saw her down by the bar, I swear, I felt chills. In ancient times, kings would have waged wars over a woman like her. Exquisite face, shapely tits, tight ass, and shiny black hair that nearly reached her trim waist. I could feel the stirrings of madness inside of me. I had a strong suspicion she regularly drove men insane.
My sour mood had lifted when I saw her moving to the entrance of my balcony. Iâd been sure she wanted to fuck me right there. It wouldnât have been the first time.
Most nights, all I have to do is show up, and the women appear. Thatâs just how it works when you own half of the worldâs most famous islandâin my portfolio of clubs, hotels, and restaurants, Revolvr is just the crown jewel.
Instead, sheâd asked for a job.
That had taken me aback, which doesnât happen often. Iâm usually good at reading peopleâs intent, but even that skill of mine appeared to be compromised after my shitshow of a morning. It pissed me off. Iâd wanted her, but I could sheâd make me work for it. Normally, Iâd love the challenge, but tonight, Iâm in no fucking mood to play games.
I went off on her despite already being hard for her. When she showed a bit of backbone instead of backing down, I did something I could only attribute to my agitated state of mind.
I gave in.
Ras props his ankle on his knee. âIf youâre thinking about what happened, maybe we should talk abââ
âIâm done talking about it,â I bite out. âDid they clean up the garage?â
âYes, the bodyâs gone.â
âGood. Thereâs nothing more to do until we get more information.â Ras knows it as well as me. Hypotheses and suspicions arenât enough to make an accusation against our don.
He studies me for a moment and then narrows his eyes. âThen what the fuck is on your mind? Youâre fixated on something.â
I glare at him. Sometimes, heâs able to read me too well.
I shouldnât have let her leave. I should have leaned into the wicked thought I had when she said sheâd do anything to get the job.
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That visual sends a pulse to my groin. It feels particularly filthy, because thatâs not how I hire my employees. My morals might be loose by most standards, but I wouldnât get to where I am by doing stupid shit like that at my legitimate businesses. Reputation is everything in Ibiza.
âItâs that girl, isnât it?â Ras asks, studying my sullen expression. âIf you wanted her, why did you let her go?
âI didnât,â I say. âSheâll be here Monday.â
That throws him off. âWhat do you mean?â
âSheâs going to audition for a job. I agreed to a week-long trial.â
Ras touches his fingers to his forehead and looks up at me. âAre you fucking serious?â
âIâm really not in a joking mood.â
This earns me a frustrated groan. âWhat trial? You know I donât have time for this with everything going on.â
Ras is the only person whoâs allowed to speak to me that way. Without each other, weâd both be dead ten times over. Plus, heâs family. Still, when I give him a dark look, he straightens his back and makes a tiny nod. Itâs his way of acknowledging nowâs not the time to test my patience.
Heâs not wrong though. Why the fuck did I agree to this stupid trial? I can call it off, but I donât like breaking my word. I might as well have a bit of fun tormenting Romero the way the memory of her is tormenting me now. She wonât last more than a few days. If sheâs a hard worker, then Iâm a fucking priest.
âI donât want you to spend time on it. Give her to Inez.â
He arches a brow. âInez? If the girlâs going to be working here, we might as well make her a dancer. Sheâll do well with the VIPs.â
The thought of her dancing in front of groups of drunk men spreads a burning sensation through my chest. No way. âI said give her to Inez. If she lasts a week, I might reconsider, though I donât expect her to.â
He lets out a long breath through his lips. â
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âDid you talk to Napoletano?â
âA few hours ago,â he says. âThe construction project was greenlighted by Sal this morning.â
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â Salâs going to be pouring concrete for a factory thatâs on another clanâs territory.
Our don is a fucking idiot. I know it, Ras knows it, everyone fucking knows it. And yet no one speaks up. âWeâre going to have a war on our hands.â
Ras shakes his head. âYou already made your opinion known last month. Leave it.â
I donât like his tone. âYou think I should have stayed silent at the meeting?â
Ras sighs. âYou know Sal will never listen to you, even if youâre one hundred percent right and heâs one hundred percent wrong. Speaking up will only make things worse. You pissed him off by questioning his judgement in front of all the other capos at the meeting, and now we have Nelo and Vito here, sticking their ugly noses into our business. Who knows how far heâs willing to go to bring you in line?â
Our eyes meet. Yesâ¦how far?
I lean back into my chair and look at the picture hanging on my wall. Ras, his parents, Martina, and I. It would have been a different photo if Sal hadnât killed my father and taken his place as the don of the Casalesi clan, one of the most powerful in the Camorra .
My mother would still be alive.
My family would be intact.
I would be next in line.
âHeâs going to turn our clan to dust,â I mutter.
âTheyâll turn on him before it comes to that.â
I flex my hand. âThey need to turn on him faster.â We might have a way to turn the tide, but only if we get the proof we need.
Ras knows what Iâm thinking. âIâm on it.â
âPut extra protection on your parents,â I say as I rise to leave. âJust in case.â If it wasnât for Rasâs fatherâUncle JulioâSal would have killed me the same day my parents died. I was eleven years old, still a kid whose balls hadnât dropped, but even back then Sal saw me as a threat. Killing me would put his worries to rest, but it wouldnât be well received by the capos. Clan children were generally off-limits, something Uncle Julio made sure to remind to everyone in Salâs vicinity.
I was spared.
But the first chance he got, Sal sent me away. To Ibiza.
Itâs always been one of the clanâs foreign strongholdsâthere is no Ibiza without the drugs we provide. Being capo here sounds fine on paper, until one realizes itâs the equivalent of being in exile. Clan business doesnât happen over the phone or the Internet. It happens in person, in Casal di Principe.
And Sal really doesnât like it when I go back home.
I bid goodbye to Ras and make my way to the parking lot.
âTake me to the house,â I tell the driver as I climb into the car. Beyond the window, the sky is still dark but soon it will begin to lighten. We pass by the long line of green taxis outside Revolvr, and I catch myself looking for Romero in the queue. Sheâs not there.
When we drive past the bus stop, I scoff. No way sheâd take one of those to wherever sheâs staying. What the fuck is she doing looking for a job in Ibiza? A part of me is curious. Iâm ninety-five percent convinced sheâs just a hot rich girl who decided to rebel and prove something to her family. Grass is always greener. Once she sees what I have planned for her, sheâll run right back to Daddy with her tail between her legs.
But thereâs one thing that makes me pause. Inside her eyes, I thought I saw a glimpse of real desperation. Maybe even fear.
What could she be scared of?
I twist one of my rings. When someoneâs never been truly desperate, it doesnât take much to bring that feeling on. That must be it. Sheâs probably just scared of getting her ego bruised.
With a sigh, I run my hand over my lips. Why the fuck am I analyzing her? Enough. I canât remember the last time I spent this much time thinking about a woman my dick hasnât even met.
The closer we get to home, the darker my thoughts turn. I donât know for sure whoâs behind what happened last night, but itâs got Salâs paranoia spelled all over it. If we can prove our don is the culprit, he wonât have long to live.
A made man outside of the sitting donâs bloodline can take over the position by strangling the sitting don to death with his bare hands. Itâs barbaric, but thatâs how itâs always been with the Casalese. It takes intelligence and strategy to get into the same room as the donâthereâs no one better protected. Iâll have to turn some of his closest friends to my side first, and if I donât do it right, theyâll run straight to him. I need to show them definitively that Sal is no longer fit to rule.
I flex my hands. Itâs a high bar.
But if I want to protect the person most important to me, itâs what I have to do.
People have always told me my level headedness is my biggest strength. I donât make rash decisions. I donât act out without thinking the consequences through.
A weaker man would have gone after Sal by now, but I know better. Iâll wait until the perfect moment.
And then Iâll take back everything he stole.