I will live as an actor Episode 134 Baek
Jang-hoon.
A master of the Korean film industry, he is the one who made the film industry bloom in Korea, which was once a wasteland. Just like the majestic height of the Taebaek Mountains, Baek Jang-Hoonâs status in Chungmuro cannot be expressed in words. He was a person whose life itself was evaluated as a movie. How dare you call him a living legend in the film industry?
The panoramic view of the city is like a dense jungle with lush greenery. Gray buildings rising up in place of old trees are rampant, and the roads between them are crowded with cars instead of countless wild animals. In this urban jungle, where you could easily get lost if you look away, there is a building with an unusual appearance.
âI feel nervous whenever I come here.â
This unique architectural style, where the exterior wall is finished with full glass and reflects sunlight and shines like crystal, makes you think you are visiting a famous foreign city. It is a sacred place and a utopia of dreams that every filmmaker in Chungmuro would like to visit at least once. This is the headquarters of Baek Jang-hoon Production.
âHow did you get here?â
The employee at the desk stands up when he sees the young man walking in.
âI came to see Director Baek Jang-hoon.â
âDid you make a reservation in advance?â
âNo, I came here unexpectedly, so I couldnât really contact you. If I tell you that England has come, you will know.â
âyes?â
After coming to Seoul, I used to come and go to this office building like it was my home until I was called a 10 million cameo. Itâs easy to get used to it, but as soon as you step into Baek Jang-hoon Productionâs headquarters, an inexplicable tension envelopes your entire body.
How much effort did you make to once set foot in this place? Eventually, the suspicious female employee grabbed the receiver and opened her eyes wide.
âHe wants you to come up now.â
âthank you.â
The female employeeâs gaze, staring at the receding back, is still full of puzzlement. However, it is not easy to recognize the face because the hat is pressed down.
This is the representative office where the grandfatherâs character is clearly revealed. The worn furniture clearly showed signs of age, and the gramophone and old vinyl records made you think you had come to Nakwon Shopping Mall. At least the posters of representative works on the wall tell us that this is a production.
âgrandfather.â
âShall I give you a drink or warm green tea? No. I have some pu-erh tea that I brought in from China a while ago. Iâll give you that. It has a great scent.â
âArenât you curious why I suddenly came?â
Grandfather says as he pours tea into a teacup.
âWhen Yonseok was young, we would go to work together every day. Iâm curious. Even when we were eating breakfast, we didnât say anything. Now, drink before it gets cold.â
âI found a script.â
âScript?â
A look of puzzlement appears in the grandfatherâs eyes. Thatâs because, without going too far, there are so many scenarios just for production alone. Of course, not all of them are filmed. Among numerous scenarios, only selected works can go on to be produced.
âItâs a complete script that was completed without a synopsis or treatment. Iâve already submitted it to film companies several times, but it looks like itâs been rejected several times.â
âI guess the author who wrote it is unknown?â
I canât deny it. Most film studios do not accept transcripts. This is because there is no time or staff allocated to read each of the numerous script writersâ scenarios in the first place. Therefore, we can only get a taste of the work with a simple synopsis and treatment.
Whatâs more, isnât he an unknown author? No matter which production company in Korea you go to, you cannot expect them to be generous enough to read an unknown script. In short, Go Gwang-taeâs approach was wrong from the start. At that time, the grandfather put down the teacup loudly and elaborated.
âBut it looks like youâre interested, right?â
âVery much.â
âIf England says that, you are immersed in the script. Is the reason you are telling Haebi that you are asking her to look at the script again?â
âYouâre half right.â
âHalf of it is right?â
âIs this script really?â
Grandfather looks puzzled. However, his eyes become curiously curved at the subsequent remark.
âI was wondering if this was a work worthy of my grandfather personally directing the megaphone.â
* * *
As you get older, your concentration tends to decline. Hasnât time passed as much as the gray hair on my head? Vision and hearing also deteriorate. I thought my memory and concentration were also diminished because I kept so many things in my head. But at this moment, it feels like I have returned to my younger days.
How many hours have passed? It was after England, who was like a grandson to him, left. It started with unfolding a page of an old script that was covered in hand stains. It was like I couldnât take my eyes off my son-in-law, as if he was in darkness and the light only came from the screenplay.
âHoo.â
I even took out my reading glasses, which I donât usually wear, and put them on. I donât mind if my cheeks twitch occasionally and the frames of my glasses slip and sting the bridge of my nose.
As a film director, I have been working in Chungmuro for a long time, but it has been a long time since I have seen a work that immerses me this much. As proof of this, he was unwavering, with only occasional exclamations and throat-clearing. It was then.
smart.
At the sound of knocking again, Director Baek Jang-hoon looks up. After briefly telling them to come in, the production staff carefully opens the door.
âDirector, itâs regular meeting time.â
âIs it already so late?â
This is a meeting held regularly every week with the production staff. Director Baek Jang-hoon, who normally would have arrived at the conference hall before anyone else, did not show up, so he ended up coming to meet him. Of course, the time has already passed. Director Baek Jang-hoon lets out a helpless laugh.
âHehe. As I read the words in the script as if savoring each sentence, I didnât even realize how much time had passed.â
âDo you have a separate script for the director to look at?â
âI came across it through Young-guk, and it felt like a bamboo rain was hit on my worn-out body. It brought me to my senses. I donât know how long itâs been since Iâve felt this way. The more I read, the more live fish jump in my palm. It feels like fun. Director Cha, can you find the writer who wrote the screenplay?â
Director Baek Jang-hoon holds up the script. The script is so old that you can tell itâs old even at a glance.
âThey say itâs writer Go Gwang-tae, and heâs in Sillim-dongâs gosi village. And Director Cha, I guess Iâll have to postpone my schedule.â
âYou mean regular meetings?â
At that moment, Director Baek Jang-hoon appears to be shaking his head. Director Baek Jang-hoon follows Chief Chaâs puzzled gaze and smiles faintly. And then I take a look at the old script.
âWhat Iâm saying is that I will have to postpone my scheduled sabbatical year.â
* * *
Acting is a series of learning. A lot of effort is required to explore the world unfolding within a single script. In that sense, England can be seen as a natural hard worker.
Didnât you already realize it in your past life? The light of talent given to you was as dim as a firefly, and in comparison, the light of Chungmuroâs famous actors was like the flickering sun.
It was said that the gap that could not be filled was overcome through hard work. When I played the role of a homeless person, there was a time when I stayed among the homeless people at Seoul Station for 15 days. Oh my gosh, my last nickname was crazy.
âadvice?â
Professor Shin Jeong-gil looks at England, who is sitting across from him, with a puzzled gaze. It was not unusual for an undergraduate student to meet his professor, but the gist of the interview was unusual. If I were an ordinary law student, most of the questions would have been related to the bar exam or the legal profession.
âItâs not about law, but advice about acting. Arenât you a more expert in that field than me?â
This is Professor Shin Jeong-gil, who has been involved in the legal field his entire life. He was a person who was literally alienated from visual media as he did not even watch television much, let alone the theater. At that time, Professor Shin Jeong-gil asks again with a strange gaze.
âMaybe your next work will be about law?â
The life of a lawyer is very similar to that of a politician, but different. Isnât this a job that you wonât miss anywhere if youâre not careful? For the rest of my life, I have to see through the lies of criminals. England raises his head and looks at Professor Shin Jeong-gil.
âProfessor, have you ever felt irritated while working as a judge?â
âItâs inflammation⦠It would be a lie if I said I didnât feel it. It was a career I chose while serving as a probationary officer at the Judicial Research and Training Institute, but there were times when I felt skeptical. Sometimes it felt like I was wearing a mask.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âOn the outside, it was clearly a profession that others looked up to and envied, but in reality, it was festering and rotten. You may not even know that thatâs why I quit being a judge and took the path of nurturing younger students. â
From the beginning, I knew that Professor Shin Jeong-gil was an unaffected person. But I had no idea that he would be this honest and honest beyond my imagination. Thatâs because most people in the legal profession are building a huge wall against your pride.
âHave you ever regretted making a decision as a judge?â
âThatâs right. First-timers are always very motivated. There was an 80-year-old man who couldnât endure hunger and ended up stealing groceries. It was his first offense and the damage was minor, so the case ended with a suspended sentence. But it turns out that the old man also committed suicide. âI stole it not to enrich my stomach, but for my grandchild. I canât forget the sight of the old man crying for his life in the courtroom, saying he didnât even have money to pay the fine.â
âIsnât that an unavoidable ruling as a judge?â
âThatâs right. The law should always be fair to everyone. But it was mind-boggling to see the chairman of a company that later embezzled tens of billions of dollars hire a large number of lawyers disguised as military officials and receive probation. Is it true that groceries âI wonder if the weight of the sins of the old man who stole his money and the chairman who embezzled tens of billions of dollars are the same.â
Professor Shin Jeong-gil wipes his dry lips.
âIt probably would have been the same even if I had chosen to be a prosecutor or lawyer instead of a judge. The legal profession itself is like that. It must protect the law more than anyone else, be fair to all, and balance the law, which is said to be the good of common sense.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âSometimes I canât keep it. The beliefs I had when I first started out werenât strong enough to climb the huge pyramid called the organization. Although itâs close to the law, in some ways, itâs the furthest from the law. Indeed. Isnât it ironic? Thatâs why you donât even know why Iâm here right now. Because I couldnât do that. To encourage the faith of the new sprouts a little more. Just recently, you asked me if I had ever made a decision and regretted it.â
Professor Shin Jeong-gilâs wrinkled eyes are closed. Reminiscences fill the half-opened eyes, as if recalling the past that had settled down.
âIt is said in the Talmud that before handing down capital punishment, a judge must feel as if his own neck is being hung. As a first-time judge, I am currently serving as a first-time judge who made an elderly man who stole groceries for his grandchildren aware of the crime and sentenced him to a fine and probation. âI feel the same way. I wonder if I may have sentenced that old man to death.â