I Will Live as an Actor Episode 126
There is a saying that the entertainment industry is a battle of fortunes. This means that corruption is as severe as in politics, and the darkness hidden behind the splendor is so deep that it cannot be fathomed. When you walk down the street drunk with vanity, you often find that there is an unbreakable chain tied to your leash.
âHave you found a weakness?â
England was able to intuit it when he saw Cha Hye-jinâs trembling pupils. After all, an actress wouldnât act like this unless her weaknesses were discovered.
I have seen many of these actresses in my past life. However, most endings were not good. Suffering from chains that cannot be broken, one day the past will suffocate oneself.
âWhy are you worrying so much?â
Do not pause.
âThere are only two ways.â
I just tell you what I want to say.
âEither you keep being dragged around like that.â
ââ¦â¦.â
âOr hit them.â
Cha Hye-jin collapses into her seat as she sees Englandâs back moving away. Her manager sees this and runs away in shock. This concludes the advice. Because it is up to her to choose.
The closing party started at the convention hall and continued to the meat restaurant. Everyone is at the peak of excitement thanks to the gold medal given by the broadcasting station president himself, so how can the fire be easily extinguished? England also appears to be raising a glass of soju because it has been ticketed as a minor.
âThis is what it tastes like.â
A sweet and bitter feeling passes over the tip of the tongue and down the throat. Author Choi Eun-sook looks at England with wide eyes.
âEngland, do you drink a lot? Have you been drinking secretly since you were a student?â
âWriter Choi. I guess you didnât know. We in the UK are good at drinking. As someone who drank with me as soon as I got a ticket, I admit it. Iâm the type of person who gets sick and gets angry, but I canât get enough of Inoma. âYou know, England is a natural drunkard!â
âWhen did the cinematographer come back? Get some sleep. If you do that, youâll get sick like Actor Cha.â
âHehe! If not on a day like today, then when would you drink like this? Letâs drink something that will make you crooked today! Are you ready, England?â
Cinematographer Kim Deuk-hyeong goes around various restaurants to liven up the drinking atmosphere. No matter how you look at it, if you werenât holding a camera, you would look like the hairy owner of Daepotjip. When director Kim Deuk-hyung disappears, writer Choi Eun-sook shakes her head and says,
âEngland, do you have anything in mind for your next project? I heard thereâs a rumor that a lot of synopses are being sent to Songwon these days.â
âAh. How long do you think itâs been since the work was finished? Are you sure that writer Choi is going to start writing his next work right away?â
âThe well in my head is running dry, so I donât even have the imagination to draw out any more. Well, if England says youâll work with me on your next project, Iâll have to do it somehow. Next time, if the circumstances allow, youâll work together with me, right?â
âItâs my honor.â
If it were like the past, it would be unthinkable. After all, there were many actors who wanted to show their faces in at least one cut of Choi Eun-sookâs work in her past life.
In extreme cases, there were famous actors who followed writer Choi Eun-sookâs schedule and asked for favors in order to be selected. Just then, a famous producer approaches holding a glass of soju.
âWhat kind of conversation were our lead actor and writer Wang having like this? Are they not secretly trying to get together without me?â
âHoho. Itâs better for me to cover a lot of production costs.â
âLook at this, Writer Choi. Is this whatâs going on between us? Iâm so sad. Iâm so sad. Weâve put together a situation where we canât even see each other anymore.â
âOh my. Why are you speaking so strangely? Are you going to ruin someoneâs marriage?â
âWhat were you imagining? I mean, we did it together. If the producer and the writer, who were both nose-dives, met each other and worked on their first work together, we wouldnât have seen it all. Donât you remember before? Writer Choi complained to me so much that his writing wasnât coming out. âI ran out to the food stall at dawn.â
âNo, a story from some time ago!â
The restaurant becomes noisy again. England looks at them with a smile on his face. Wasnât this environment, full of human scent, exactly the scenery he had never wanted?
A cinematographer chanting a tune while holding a spoon in a soju bottle. The producer and writer ruminate over memories with each other. At that moment, an actor sits across from England.
âHmm, England. Letâs have a drink with me too.â
This is actor Park Sang-cheol. He had had a dispute with England once in the past. But until now, we have been without any problems. England nodded willingly and picked up the soju bottle and poured it into his glass. The strong human scent wafts through the waves lapping over the soju glass.
* * *
Dried fish are ripening in the sea breeze with their mouths wide open, as if singing a chorus, and in the red basin that is constantly filling with water, live fish are flapping their tails, adding to the liveliness.
Old ladies wearing mombaji are sitting together in groups of twos and threes, each selling spring greens they have dug up from the mountain behind them. The amount was so large that it was difficult to carry with both hands, but it was cheap enough that a few 10,000-won pieces could be their daily wages.
âHandsome bachelor, Iâll give you more, Iâll just wait a little.â
Although you canât see her face well because her face is hidden under a hat, the old lady at the stall continues to push the remaining herbs into the black bag, as if she is grateful to the young bachelor who bought all of her herbs. At that time, a small boy sitting next to the old lady at the stall stared at the bachelor.
âAre you a grandmother or a granddaughter?â
âAida. He has a pretty face, so heâs a boy. Anyway, heâs shy, and whenever guests come, he grabs my pants and hides behind him, but today is a bad day. Jeongsu, do you like your brother?â
âThis is the older brother from TV.â
âTebi? Whatrakano yaga.â
âAh, television.â
England smiles slightly and lifts his hat towards the little boy. Then the little boyâs eyes widen to the size of a flower lantern. England put his index finger to his lips towards the kid who looked like he was going to scream at any moment. Before you even have time to feel the crowds, the market is crowded with tourists again.
âThere are so many.â
England walks away with both hands full of bamboo shoots. I originally didnât intend to buy this much. It was simply because seeing a grandmother and grandson together at a stall brought back memories of the past.
What better deed than this if you can enrich your evening with just a few 10,000 won tickets? Moreover, it is my motherâs favorite vegetable.
âuh?â
When he arrived in front of his motherâs store, England couldnât help but look puzzled. Itâs already been a few years since the store opened, so it seems like there were quite a few areas that needed fixing. Not only was the paint on the sign faded, but the tent pitched at the entrance was clearly damaged. However, the store I visited after a long time was as clean as if it were new.
âDid your mother do it?â
Did he even call someone? England walked over and opened the store door. And I could tell. The person who cleaned up the store.
âOh, Iâm sorry, customer. Weâre out of fish now, so dinner business ended early.â
âMr. Myeongjin. Who is here?â
âA guest has arrived. Iâll be back soon, so donât touch anything. If you do something wrong, youâll get hurt.â
England could not hide its bewilderment at the sudden appearance of a charcoal-stained man. But the voice coming from the back of the store was clearly my motherâs voice. At that moment, a girl who appears to be a middle school student jumps out from behind the store.
âDad, hurry! Just now, the lady turned it on for a moment, but the faucet burst and the store will be flooded if this continues!â
âOuch! Something happened. Jisoo, tell the customer again.â
âOkay! Quick! Thereâs going to be a flood!â
A man with charcoal soot on his face hurries to the back of the store. And then the girl stands in front of England.
âBrother, come a little faster. So many customers came in this morning that all the fish from the fish market was taken out. I guess you heard the rumor somewhere. The live fish at this womanâs store are famous for their large size!â
It seems that this is not the first time that he has replaced business like this once or twice with his relaxed smile and attitude towards customers.
âAnyway, I donât have much to sell because I donât have any fish left. Or should I introduce you to a good store? Thereâs a store next to here too!â
âMr. Yangâs store?â
âHow do you know that!â
She is such a confident girl that even people she meets for the first time say she is her brother. England smiles mysteriously and takes off his hat. Only then did the girl Jisooâs eyes open wide.
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Like a girl in spring, an inexplicable shame appears on her motherâs face. The same goes for the man with charcoal soot on his face. In the chaotic atmosphere, only the girl opens her eyes and looks around. England, which is worse off, smiles first and gets lucky.
âHello, this is Jang Young-guk.â
âOh, look at my mind. My name is Kim Myeong-jin, and I run a side dish store at Namhang Market. Iâve heard a lot of stories from my mother. This is my daughter, Ji-su.â
âAre you Jisoo?â
âHuh? Oppa, do you know me?â
âI know. Whenever I talk to my mom on the phone, she tells me how happy she is that she has a new friend to talk to.â
At that time, my mother saw Englandâs black bud and asked:
âKook, whatâs all this? Itâs all nonsense without any contact.â
âThe filming is over and school is canceled tomorrow, so I came down to watch the last episode of the drama with my mother. I bought this from a stall on the way to use it when making side dishes.â
âDid you buy so much chwinamul? Itâs enough for all the people in Namhang to eat.â
âYou can give it to your uncle and you can also give it to Aunt Yang. By the way, my son has come down, so you wonât even make him dinner?â
âOh my, Iâm out of my mind.â
âIâm just kidding. Itâs late and itâs been a while since I ordered a whole chicken. Are you and Jisoo going to have dinner together?â
When Mr. Kim was so shocked that he couldnât open his mouth, Jisoo, who was sitting next to him, nodded willingly and spoke.
âOppa! Then can I go watch the drama together? Iâm trying to watch it at home, but my dad always tells me to go to bed early because Iâm not tall.â
The dialect is so awkward that you can tell it comes from Seoul. When I look at the girlâs face, which has a faint smile on her face, even though it seems awkward, she looks very cute. When England immediately sees Mr. Kim from the side dish store, he nods his head briefly as if he canât win. Only then does Jisoo cheer.
âAnd can you take a picture for me? I want to show it off to the kids at school tomorrow!â
âKim Ji-su!â
âDaddy why!â
âNo, itâs okay. Whatâs so difficult about taking pictures? Donât be like that, Iâm going up tomorrow evening. Shall I pick you up after school?â
âReally!?â
âOh, England. You donât have to do that.â
âMister, please feel free to talk to me. You are similar in age to my mother, but if you keep speaking in such a respectful manner, it will make me more uncomfortable.â
Mr. Kim scratches his head with a puzzled look on his face. We all sit together and eat dinner in front of the storeâs small TV.
The motherâs face, which was full of shame, has now regained its original appearance. It would be a lie if I said I wasnât jealous of the way he looked after his uncle from time to time, but didnât he say he would do anything for his motherâs happiness?
âIs this why my mother didnât want to come to Seoul?â
I thought the reason he didnât come to Seoul was simply because of the Namhang mayorâs affection, but I guess that wasnât all. Even though it is a dinner consisting of whole chicken, it is not as enviable as any other sumptuous feast.
âIâll take a quick look around the dock before the drama starts.â
I walk along the dock to cool my head. Cats that were eating fish in a huddle under the light of street lamps run away with fish in their mouths in the shadows of England. England laughs at the fleeing cats, saying, âRun slowly because you wonât get hurt.â
âDaddy, donât hate your mother too much.â
The splashing sea waves gently sway as if answering Englandâs inner thoughts.