old habits i know are forever now
it's never leaving me
and i'm never stopping
i could wait forever and it will always come back
how trustworthy
how sad and disappointing
disgusting
gruesome?
i want it gone
i don't wanna do this anymore
i wanna be happy
i wanna look at myself and feel the radiance
i want the ability to handle a crisis in a healthy way
i wanna be in the depths of it all and still push
and still smile
i wanna feel it all, be ok and repeat it again
i don't want it to end
i don't wanna end it
i wanna see it through