I TREMBLED as that delicious warmth of Calebâs fingers marked me. They branded me as theirs with every touch and every kiss, with every lookâ¦God, even with their scent. The tang of sweat and sex was heavy in the air, staining every inch of my memory.
The crack of the small refrigerator in Nickâs room came before footsteps. âDrink, Ryth,â Tobias directed as he cracked open a bottle of electrolytes. âYou need to stay hydrated.â
I slowly pushed up, my body feeling battered as I reached for the bottle in Tobiasâ hand and took a swallow. Tobias dressed, yanking on his jeans, boots, and shirt. Nick followed, but it was Caleb who grabbed my clothes from the floor. âYouâre going to feel a bit sensitive for a while, until your body gets used to it.â He lifted my panties, letting me slip my feet through the openings.
He did his best not to touch me, letting me slide my underwear up before he handed me my bra. âAnd I know you have that assignment due tomorrow,â he continued. âSo weâre setting your desk up in here.â
Nick was already moving to his desk, making roomâ¦
I hooked my bra, then took my jeans from Caleb and slid them on. âOkay, why?â I wasnât sure about this.
âJust in case you need something,â Tobias murmured, watching me.
âIn case need something, huh?â I rose from the bed on shaking legs. Caleb was right, my body trembled, even with the weight of my shirt as I slid it over my head.
âLet us take care of you, Ryth,â Tobias added as Nick moved to the door, crackled it open, and stepped out. âAfter all, thatâs what big brothers do, right?â
the words collided with what weâd just done. I tracked the thud of Nickâs footsteps to my room, then he returned moments later, carrying my laptop and notepad.
âYou were having a little trouble, referencing.â Caleb met my gaze. âYou know I could help you with that?â
âIâm getting us food,â Tobias muttered and strode toward the door.
In a heartbeat, the room was filled with movement. A space was made for me, sitting next to Nick. I drank the drink they gave me and stepped forward, sitting as Caleb motioned. It felt awkward, being in their room, and yet part of me wanted it. Part of me ached for it, no longer on the outside.
Noâ¦now I I opened up my laptop and found my assignment. Caleb was right, the referencing was a hot mess. It was one of my most hated parts. Caleb left, then returned moments later with his own laptop. He sank to the floor at the bottom of Nickâs bed, barefoot, sleeves rolled up, then opened a screen. âSend me the links and Iâll reference for you.â
âIsnât that cheating?â I gave a sigh, glancing over my shoulder.
His cocky smile was instant. âI wonât tell if you donât, little sister.â
My cheeks flushed at the wicked wink, making my chest flutter.
I smiled, pulled up the email draft Iâd had the forethought to copy, and pasted the details. âWhatâs your email?â
I sent it to him as Tobias strode in, placing a plate in front of me with a ham, cheese, and mayo sandwich. My stomach howled, even though Iâd only just had breakfast. I glanced at the clock and stiffened. âItâs two in the afternoon?â
Caleb chuckled.
âYeah, it is.â Tobias looked down at me, those coal eyes glittering with pride. âTime flies when youâre having fun, right, little mouse?â
âWhereâs mine?â Nick muttered.
âKitchen,â Tobias growled as he strode past. âIâm not your fucking maid.â
Caleb roared with laughter behind me as Nick turned and gave Tobias a shove, then the next minute, Tobiasâ sandwich went flying as they wrestled right behind me.
Grunts and growls, strength against training. Neither of them won. But by the time they were finished, Nick had taken a huge bite out of half of Tâs sandwich, earning him a threatening snarl. âBrothers,â Caleb warned, his focus on the screen in front of him. Nick sank to his chair as I broke my half in two, handing one piece over.
âThanks, sis,â Nick said, and gave me a wink.
Jesus, I couldnât keep up with this. One minute Nick had his head between my legs, his tongue deep inside me, and the next he was calling me Heat flushed in my cheeks as I forced myself back to my laptop. Caleb was right, I had only a few hours to finish this damn assignment and make sure it was compelling.
We lost track of time. I re-wrote chunks based on Calebâs input. Nick worked on his laptop on some kind of Bitcoin trade site, and Tobias just lay back on Nickâs bed with his EarPods in, as he played a game on his phone. It all feltâ¦
We worked until the sun dimmed outside and night closed in.
âFood?â Tobias muttered.
âI swear, youâre like a bottomless stomach, T.â Caleb muttered.
âIâm fucking starving, too,â Nick announced as he tossed his headphones aside and rose, stretching cramped muscles.
I lifted my head, but all I saw were passages I needed to rewrite before morning. But my body ached and my head felt fuzzy. âI think I need a break, too.â
âFood it is then.â Tobias shoved up from the bed. âThis time someone else is cooking.â
âYou didnât cook last time,â Nick glared. âA sandwich isnât cooking.â
Tobias gave a shrug. âBite me.â He strode from the room, heading for his bedroom.
âCome on,â Caleb said as he pushed up from the floor and moaned, stretching. âLooks like itâs you and me, kid.â
I glanced at Nick, who grinned and urged me onwards. I followed Caleb down to the kitchen, moving to the panty. âRight, what can you cook?â
âWhatever you feel like.â He yanked open the refrigerator door and peered inside. âI make a mean omelet, how about that?â
âSounds delicious,â I said, my mouth watering. âIt just so happens, I make a mean buttered toast.â
He shot me a grin over his shoulder, his face brightened by the refrigerator lights. âSounds like a match made in heaven.â
That fluttering in my chest came once again as he pulled out cartons of eggs and butter, placing them on the counter. We worked silently. He plundered the fridge while I pulled out a bowl and whisk and started cracking eggs. One careful look toward the stairs, and Caleb grabbed my hips as he moved around me, kissing me on the shoulder.
I froze at the brush of his lips, my pulse stuttering and fear punching high as I jerked my own gaze to the stairs. âYou still feel my cum on your skin, princess?â came the low murmur at my back.
Shivers tore along my spine as my body responded. âYes,â I answered.
âGood.â
He moved away, grabbing one of the heavy pans and setting it on the stove.
Thatâs it? I swallowed hard and tried to control the shake in my hand. He lit the burner, shifting the pan, and I was drawn to those hands, thick fingers clenched around the handle. I knew what was under that shirt, knew what lay under all his clothes, and knew what he tasted like.
âYouâre staring into space again,â he murmured, and then turned.
Faint amusement shone like stars in his eyes, and the tight curl of his lips told me he liked the attention. âI forgot what we were doing,â I answered.
He crossed the space toward me.
âCooking dinner, by the looks of it,â Mom groaned from the doorway, the faint of her steps finally registering. âReally, Ryth, youâd forget your head most days if it wasnât attached.â
I flinched at the bite in her tone, watching her come toward us. She looked like hell, barely glancing at Caleb. No, instead, her bleary glare seemed to be fixed on me. âWhere have you been?â
âHere,â I answered, my tone cold.
âAll day?â She yanked out a seat at the island and slumped down hard.
âAll day.â Caleb turned, sliding butter in the bottom of the pan before he grabbed the bowl of cracked eggs. âRyth has been working hard on her assignment.â
âWorking,â mom gave a huff and closed her eyes. âJust like her damn father, no doubt.â
I froze, pain cutting through me at the words. Anger darkened Calebâs eyes as he turned on her, striding forward to brace his arms on the island in front of her. âYou know, if you paid a little more attention, youâd actually see her for who she was, and not just an extension of you or her father.â
She opened her eyes, finding Caleb right there, and gave a ghost of a smile. She seemed to notice him then, noticed his open shirt and the rolled-up sleeves, noticed the way he exuded seductive control. Her breaths deepened and a look of molten desire seemed to melt the ice she had for me. âI didnât meanâ¦â she started.
âDidnât mean what?â Tobias growled, striding into the kitchen.
He rounded the corner, peered into the pan on the stove, and headed my way, reaching over my shoulder to snag a piece of cheese and plop it into his mouth, then turned toward her, standing at my back.
âElle was just saying that Rythââ
âThat Ryth Nick strode toward us as he, too, entered the kitchen, and headed to the fridge, grabbing out a beer before he cracked it open and took a step closer to me, peering at Mom.
The moves couldnât have been more deliberate, Caleb on one side, Nick on the other, and Tobiasâ¦Tobias standing at my back. She glanced from one to the other, and gave a small smile. âNothing.â She turned that smile to me. âNothing, honey. Donât mind me, Iâm just tired.â
âThen maybe you should take your pissy attitude back to bed?â Tobias growled.
Mom flinched, glancing at Caleb. Did she see Creed in him? Did she think heâd turn on his own brother to take her side?
âYou look tired, Elle,â Caleb murmured.
âThose sleeping pills are hell,â Nick added.
I glanced away, this was all my fault, if I hadnâtâ¦Tobias reached over me once more, grasping a piece of ham, his arm brushing mine with the movement. His chest was warm pressed against my back.
âI think youâre right,â Mom muttered, sliding from the chair. âI canât seem to shake this damn throbbing.â
âNight,â Caleb finished as the slow hiss of the butter melting filled the air.
Nick turned toward the stove. âIâm fucking starving, donât burn it, brother.â
Dismissed, just like that. She never even looked at me before she slowly made her way back to the stairs and climbed. I tried to find a fragment of the mom Iâd once known in the curve of her back and the slump of her shoulders.
But the truth was, she was as much a stranger to me now as sheâd been then. I never really knew her, had never known her love. It was so hard, trying to find the feeling when it had never really existed at all. Mom gave only what she wanted, like a leaky faucet, and Iâd clung to every drop, waiting for it with a ravenous thirst.
Pain coursed through me as her steps faded. Scrape, whisk, mumble, even the low brotherly jabs from Nick didnât invade the fog of my memories.
âYou wait for her, and youâll be waiting a lifetime,â Tobias said at my back. âBelieve meâ¦I should know.â
He was right, I knew that. Still, it didnât ease the sting, nothing did. But as the scents and the sounds of my brothers closed in, they soothed the wound, pulling me away, until the ache of her was replaced by something else.
Something Iâd never had in my entire lifeâ¦a sense of belonging.