Chapter 64
âAre you trying to send me to Philia again? And then youâre going to hide where no one can find you? Do you think I canât find you?â
ââ¦â¦.â
âNo. I will never let you go this time. I wasnât myself back then, but my mind is very clear right now. I will never let you go in this lifetime.â
I couldnât say anything. The words he uttered were so great that I couldnât even bring myself to respond.
âSo⦠In this life, live by my side until the end. Donât leave me alone, donât go anywhere, donât act deliberately just to send me away, donât think of sending me to someone else for my sake. Letâs live together as we are now, Wife. Thatâs what I want, tooâ¦â
âYou⦠know⦠everythingâ¦?â
Now Iâm more shocked that he knew about all the things Iâd done for his sake in the past, rather than the fact that he also regained his memories like me.
How did he know? Who⦠Oh, Logan⦠The only person who knew all I had done was Logan, the doctor. So that Bleon knew meant that Logan had told him.
So, what did he mean by having brought me back? Did he die and summon my soul from another place? Was that really possible?
âMy wife did so in my arms⦠Ha, after you died⦠I tried to die too. I tried to die over and over again.â
âWhyâ¦! Why did youâ¦!â
When I died, I knew that he was going to die right after me because I saw the original story. But the novel ended there, so I donât know what happened to him after that. But when I heard from his mouth that he was about to die after me again, my emotions intensified for a moment.
âYou should have forgotten me and lived a good life. Why, why did you do that!â
âBecause a life without you means nothing to me. After you died, my world stopped forever. But Philia kept me alive⦠I asked her to let me die⦠I didnât even get the death I wanted.â
Ahâ¦
I donât know how it was this time, but according to the original story, Philia had feelings for Bleon. So she helped him, took care of him and healed him.
âThen⦠you should have lived. How would I feel⦠youâ¦â
âOne day, when I couldnât die, I received a letter.â
âA letterâ¦?â
âYes. The sender was Logan, the doctor.â
So thatâs how he found out. I said to Logan to keep the secret until the end⦠Thatâs how it happened in the end.
âI found out when I read the letter. It was then that I found out why you did it, why you had to do it, and it wasnât because you hated me, that you threw me away. Why didnât you tell me? If you got sick, you need treatment, so why did you leave me?â
âBecause there is no cure!â
When he asked me why I left him, I cried out in frustration.
âBecause it is an incurable disease! Because I have no choice but to die! If you knew how Iâd feel, you should have lived a better life! Why did you do that! Why! Why! Hiicâ¦â
Hearing about how foolish he was made me sob and cry out. I was so angry and so upset that he ruined his life for not being able to forget a single person like me.
âWifeâ¦â
As Bleon reached out and hugged me, I slapped his hand.
âDonât come close. Donât touch me. No. Hiic.â
âWife⦠Haa, pleaseâ¦â
I moved away from him and wiped away my tears. Because I had to ask the most important thing.
âBut what do you mean you brought me here? So youâre saying youâre the reason Iâm here?â
âThatâs rightâ¦â
âHo, howâ¦â
âHa⦠Iâve been looking for it like a madman for a few years after that. I had to bring you back, so I could do anything if I could see you again. So I searched the continent and frantically searched for a way to do it. And in the end⦠I found it.â
âWhat⦠How?â
âThey say that mages no longer exist in the continent, but thatâs a lie. After their genocide, the mages who barely survived hid out of sight. I found one of them whoâs said to be the strongest out of them. And I asked that mage to turn back time.â
I heard it with my own ears, but it was something that had no sense of reality at all. In a way, it wasnât such an absurd story. Philia wielded healing magic, and the existence of magic proves that there were many more different types of magic in the past.
âHe just, he just wouldnât have done itâ¦! You must have paid a price.â
âYes. But Iâll never let you find outâ¦â
âWhatâ¦â¦ ! Tell me.â
Bleon shook his head with a stiff face. It was evident that he would never say anything.
âBleonâ¦!â
âRegardless of what price I paid, we met again. Thatâs the only thing that matters to me.â
What? What did he give to the mage? There was nothing that came to my mind at all. I had to know what he had lost. So despite his stubborn attitude, I continued to push him.
âPlease tell meâ¦! Donât I have a right to know?â
âNo⦠Just donât ask me that.â
âNo. If you donât tell me, Iâll figure it out anyway. Even if I search the continent like you, I will find out.â
âWifeâ¦!â
I widened my eyes and looked at him strongly.
âIf you donât tell me, I will leave right now.â
When I said that, Bleonâs face became sharply distorted. Still, his eyes were full of pain and sorrow.
âI donât want you to be sad, Wife.â
âIt is up to me to be sad and to endure it.â
I fixed my gaze on him with a determined expression.
ââ¦I gave my soul.â
âSoulâ¦?â
âYes. At the price of my soul, I brought you back from another world and turned back time.â
âWa, waitâ¦! Different⦠world?â
My eyes widened at the word âanother worldâ that came out of Bleonâs mouth.
âThe mage said that after your death, your body was buried here, but your soul had gone elsewhere, so I had to bring it back. So I gave my soul, turned back time, and brought you back, Wife. However, it was not possible under the desired conditions. So⦠At that time, I was thirty-seven, so I said that he could just turn it back for as much as whatâs left of my life.â
âThenâ¦â
âYes. I have about 30 years left in my lifespan. And I will probably disappear without a trace after that.â
In an instant, my heart sank. Disappear? Who? Bleon?
âIf you disappear⦠What happens? What happens when the soul dies?â
I asked him, barely holding back the tears that were about to burst out.
âI donât know either. Because I didnât even ask about it. I was desperate and selling my soul didnât matter to me if I could really see you again. I was ready to do more than that.â
Unlike his usual, Bleon maintained his calmness. Seeing that made my heart ache even more.
âSo why⦠No, since when did you know? Did you know from the beginning?â
âNo. After falling off a cliff, I had a very long dream until I woke up. It seemed like a dream, but I woke up and realized that it was a memory from a long time ago.â
It was the same as me. The point in time when I regained my memory coincided with his. Perhaps it was because our souls were intertwined.
âWhyâ¦! Why did you even do thatâ¦! What can I say to you that youâ¦! Why! Why! Hiicâ¦â
In the end, my emotions collapsed and my legs loosened from the reckless and terrifying thing that he had done. I almost fell down because I couldnât stand properly, so Bleon quickly approached me and supported me.
âWife!â
I slammed my fist into his chest and cried out to him.
âWhy did you do that! Why? Forget the dead! Forget it!Hiic, hiic!â
Then, suddenly, the heart pain began as I started heaving.
âWifeâ¦!â
âMy, my breathâ¦! Huk, B-Bleon! I, ca, canât, breatheâ¦â
âIs anyone out there?! Call the doctor! Wife! Take a deep breath! Wife!â
Bleon grabbed me and laid me gently on the bed. My heart was still tight and I couldnât breathe properly.
âHic, hiic. No, not yet, hiic.â
âDonât say anything more! Wifeâ¦! Where is the doctor?â
I had goosebumps all over my body at the unfamiliar symptoms. These symptoms were very similar to when I died in front of Bleon that time.
There was still time⦠I thought I could still live⦠Am I going to die in front of him like this again? No, I shouldnât. I canât give him another irrevocable wound yet again.
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