After all was settled for a video conference between the two siblings, Lorelei was completely caught off guard when her eyes finally landed on the Queen body, the moment she sat to converse with her. Her computer was launched sitting on her desk, while directed on her door.
It had been five minutes the young woman has been waiting wondering what she was doing, when she came in through the door of her condo looking breathtakingly wonderful in a red pantsuits her makeup and jewelry shining, swallowing difficultly Lorelei felt it like she had collided with something hyper hard.
Her lips had that shade of red she like so much on her, the highlight of her eyes were put with art of perfection. She was perfect. Her tone body so in shape the young woman knew she had been exercising. Her belly was upper body was really fit, she could see her defined belly hugged by her bustier when she came near removing her blazer she hung on the back of her chair, before going around the desk. Everything from her waist to her thighs was firm.
She was the definition of the real milf. All Lorelei love to see in a woman was still there, waiting for her. All hers.
Finally seating after putting on that show she knew was serving a purpose the Queen, who did not care about Arthur and his men looking concentrated on her lover. This was supposed to be personal, to hell what he would think. She could not pass this opportunity.
"Professor Kamali. I heard you are doing great in your work. I am proud that my mentorship still has its effect with you. Three years unsupervised but you showed me you were always the safest bet."
Doingt her very best to not let any form of emotions play on her well composed feature, the Queen unevenly said like she was just pointing the obvious which was the thing to do given the attention this face call had. She knew they were not only listening but had the visual too.
The fact that her words caused no reactions on the young woman but a mild prostrate face, was worse than a slap on Katiandra glorious face. She felt like yelling but used her willpower to not do so. All in once working her mind on overdrive to find what to do to erase the lost that was deeply incorporate in the now empty grey orbs she loved so much.
She could tell she was happy to see her but it was as much happiness than anyone could show she had seen it when their eyes have met. Soon enough replaced by indifference. Yes she was not faking it, she knew it was one of her lover defense mechanism when she had to deal with high level emotions.
It was like she was transparent, not the way her loving gaze usually shine in their relationship. She was feeling lukewarm about her, the Queen could almost listen to her thoughts saying " Should I trust her with my heart God? What if next time she disappear it I for four years?"
Katiandra knew who she loved. Her fear was legitimate. It was something that had amazed her in their everyday life. Without stressing she could tell what Lorelei needed and never was she wrong.
At this very moment where the minutes were going on without her opening her mouth to respond like it was required for her to do, she kept silent her gaze lost on the screen, her attention far inside of her mind wondering if this was true or the product of her imagination.
Everyone was alarmed by her attitude, some wondering if the child had not lost herself in the needs of always doing good or if she was not push too far coming to a breaking point. Arthur, who had decided to always be there to see if he could learn something new on his wife plans, shook his head seeing the lost in the young woman eyes, she was a shell of herself. Even him could tell.
To hide her despair of seeing her like that, the Queen decided to use the one thing she knew could set her right, harshness. She knew something has to be done to redeem the dormant feeling that was still present in her soulmate heart.
Even though Norman send a positive feedback of what they had done to start. She was not a fool thinking her grand gesture at the family day channel had erased the pain in her soulmate heart. That is why she decided to do what has to be done.
"Am I translucent invisible, Miss Kamali ?" The harshness was not lost on Lorelei or the fact she left out the professor title to remind her she was still the younger one between them. Looking up she was met with a dark infuriated heavy stare.
Arching her eyebrows in mocked attitude the Queen leaned back in her chair ready to put some points at their right places in the young woman brain. If she could not talk to her heart it would rain in hell if she could not do it up there. Rationality was what made her partner. Speaking to it would be more productive.
" Oh! Now you granted me the grace of acknowledgement? Even though I'm now really sure you are not still seeing me correctly. Oh! Now you can see me correctly? Thanks you my dear it is well appreciate."
The sarcasm was lost on no one . Lorelei brows knotted wondering what Katiandra was aiming for by treating her like that , but nonetheless she let her mouth which has opened, to shut, her gaze seemingly more alive even if it was by indignation. The sight made a smirk appeared on the corner of the Queen lips, that others qualified as wicked.
" I do not know what got you out of sort. But I want it to be sort within this very moment. Alicia will need all the lucid you to get through her these. Dear. Get a grip! "
Getting out of her mouth like small knifes that was jabbing on her heart, those words shook Lorelei to the core by the coldness, and venom they had. There were zero warmth in that voice. She was too cold to be the one she knew. Looking her right in the eyes hurt added to it the fact that it was only her children that counted for her was worse.
Lorelei finally in an obedient state of mind, shook her head coming out of her daydream. She frown then massaged the back of her head for a moment feeling the momentary paralysis that had took a hold of her when she heard Katiandra voice letting go of her. Shaking a little bit she straightened now focused in an autopilot mode on her mentor.
This was not a game, Norman and Sloan had warned her the video call would certainly be watched by the king people. Breathing out she summoned her rationality. She knew it had to be true, no way Katiandra could treat her like she did not count. Doing her best to reconnect all those factors in her mind to act accordingly, she nodded again, knowing for what it matter that efficiency would always be the motto. The Queen could not be more right.
" Professor Kamali. I'm sure you are not a robot. But shake whatever have you paralyze off your mind. Now is not the the time. I do not care if you feel bad about it. So what? Tell me what do you do with an open wound? Ypu let it exposed? Or You cut the member all together? Then you cause another wound. You do that all over again and again. Let me tell, you surely you will die. So what should you do?"
Looking straight in Katiandra eyes knowing what she was doing, Lorelei concentration on the matter provoke a pinch in the Queen heart. Normally she should not even make effort to respond to something this simple.
"I, take care of it until it close? To do that, huhh medicine and bandages are to be use." Mechanically Lorelei responded so concentrate her gaze moved up and down to remember what has to be done.
"Since you are not a doctor. The rationality would wants you to consult one. Did you do that?" The Queen's tone that still held coldness were a little bit down in the moment, which showed that she was just on the tough love mode.
Though that was not everyone thought, Arthur at that shook his head at the harshness, he had never understood why love had to go through soldiering, but kept silent at the startling way the young woman looked up at the Queen when she had finished. "This is bullshit" he thought knowing it was his wife second name by his dictionary.
Thinking otherwise. The queen on her side felt like moving forward with Lorelei nonverbal answer. The way she seemed completely off, her grey eyes widening, in an indignant stare that followed her response was all she needed as answer to put up her plan.
She was sure the young woman would never speak to a stranger, with what she knew, her parents had tried that when she was younger coming up with a waste of money because it took them an entire year of insisting the young woman see a doctor, she never spoke to, for them to let her be. She had it confided to her. That was why she could understand the weird way her lover was looking at her, certainly thinking she had forgotten all about that confession.
"I, no Prof-- your majesty. No. I mean it is of no use. I am fine... Completely fine, really."
Doing her best to convince her, Lorelei could only pray she would not force her to see one of those.
"Hmm, suit yourself. But then bottle it and throw it away. No need to carry burden that will slow your destiny. I have greater plans for you. Into which deception do not have a place. Ah! How do I know? I am not an old Mathusalem rag like some call me behind close doors. I lived before you, but the most important thing is that I think like you dear. I know whatever you are going through, I was a young woman too. Tell me who it is and I will make sure to set them straight."
Widening her eyes at what she just heard the young woman head shook before she could uttered a word
"No, I--"
Playing the one that was dumb while enjoying the show, the older woman was playing her part so well that if Lorelei did not know better she would have doubt it was herself the Queen was trying to bring down. What was she aiming for, she could not respond " That person is you." Just like that?
"Why no? Whomever it is that is disturbing your life, disturb my plans. So they are my businesses too. Give me a name"
"No, use..." The sad way she responded had Katiandra heart thundering inside of her chest. She could tell Lorelei did not want to play, even if she understood the reason of this conversation. Self deprecation was the only way she could crack her so she continued.
"Look. Whomever it is that has a genius like you in any way must be a lucky one. You are exceptional and deserve the best. I have always tell you that. Believe it." Looking right in Lorelei eyes all she could see was a raw hope that warm her heart.
" My dear I know you very well, I may praise myself for it. That is why I can tell with no doubt that you hide it from your parents to not cause them any pain. Then I will give you a piece of advice. Before all we are human with a heart. The says heart can wants things that are not available for them right now or ever. The results of that could be pain. That is the moment you need to understand why that happened and how to deal with it. This is a part of mentorship dear if you do not feel good down here it will mess everything up there."
Her index pointed her heart and head while her eyes had became gentle. Blinking her eyes to pushed away tears Lorelei nodded bitting her lower lip to stop it from trembling.
Straightened on her imposant leather chair behind her large office desk, whomever it was for an outside point of view could make it passed like the beginning of one of the Queen's lecture. A moment passed with any of them breaking the silence untill Katiandra touched the wristband on her hand that was a gift of Lorelei.
Taken aback by that, Lorelei felt her heart missed a beat, then focusing on the message she knew she was telling her "I love you" But deep down she wanted to hear them being said to her personally.
She knew the lecture and harsh words was to shake her out of her daze even if it hurt, but her trust issue were getting the worse out of her which even herself know was a dangerous thing to let grow.
"The why is simple, the heart want what it wants but what make you different from the others humans is you got a high way to analyse thing. Use it! How to deal with it? First get rid of that scum, that is playing your mind. They either do not deserve you, in that case you already are in a relationship with them. Or it is not the right time if they are serious with you. Which one is the truth, you are the one who knows. But do not waste the gift the universe put in you. That will be a calamity and clearly a case that show you do not love yourself. Self-love is important. You know it because all you do show it. "
Clenching her jaws at the truth that was being spoken to her, Lorelei could only shake her head from time to time, her eyes that were already losing the whiteness around the grey, were not bloodshot, but everyone could tell she was on the verge of tears.
Leaning forward still death serious, Katiandra serious gaze met Lorelei's trouble one, which she did her best to not fall for when she was not there to hold her. She needed her to be strong on this, that was the only way they could work this all to the end.
" I swear on everything that I have that I will never lost my time on unproductivity. You are the most productive person I ever met, that is why I will not let something like what I am seeing right now keep continue. Not under my watch! Think of it for God sake! Live your life, create, inspire, but not mop around. If you do you will destroy yourself, taking away all humanity in you. Lorelei! I NEED YOU! You will use that pain you are feeling to create, but do me a favor, do not let it use you. Do you hear what I am saying?"
While all she could hear was " Lorelei I need you." part, the young woman nodded her head, feeling better. It was not her saying "I love you" but it resemble it. She had touch her wristband while saying them.
"Yes, you majesty. I will tr- do my best."
" Good, now remove that frown that has me wanting to cut this call short. Weakness Ms Kamali is not what I taught you. It is not what granted you the tittle of professor, I am so proud you have. Toughen up and make me proud to know I am investing my time on you, a precious moments of my life in you, for some valuable results. Okay?"
Nodding at her words Lorelei never letting go of her stare.
"Okay dear, but I want you to really do. Not only try. That was a the minutes of the psychologist in me. Now..."
Smiling despite the sadness still visible , Lorelei shook her head thankful.
"I will do. Your majesty."
"Now now, trust me whomever it is certainly is a scumbass as I previously said. To have you down like that it is a... "
A clear laugh ran after those light words of the Queen making her succeed in her purpose. It was like fireworks explosion in the sky, the light it brought back on her lover face was mesmerizing. There was the usual glow in her orbs. It was life brightening.
Katiandra drank it like, a well deserved cup of water in the desert. For so long she had starved for it. Not letting it shows on her perfect blank face that hide a storm if emotions, the older woman waited still but happy the not so good joke had accomplished her task.
"No, there is no scumbass. It is okay. It is just life. Thanks for the pep talk. I needed it. But I did not want to have mum attached to my hip if I had called her."
Intertwining her fingers on the desk, the older woman just nodded before shrugging then like it was nothing.
"Hmm, I really am sorry if you take it so hard. But as soon as we are off. You call her. Shhhh. It is not a request dear. Close that mouth of yours. Flee may get in. Better. This is an order. Better do it before I call them tomorrow. I will do it , it is not a joke. We already had this conversation dear. You own your well-being to the universe. Telling me I will be better will not better you. So use all that you get at your disposal, to accomplish all you have to do at the best of you condition. Your parents are that."
"I, yes your majesty."
"Good. Dear if it is true love you will be reunite. In the time appointed! Now back to business."
Feeling reassurance filled her heart at those closing words. Lorelei smile widened with a nod. Breathing out easily.
"I have an appointment in thirty minutes Love, we will have to set another time to speak the matter concerning Alicia. But for now you know what to do with her, she told me you already started working on some of the hypothesis with her."
Amazed at how she had played it of to call her love, Lorelei could only nodded not trusting her voice to be of use. Aware of the emotions going her soulmate head, the Queen looked up seeing Raphaelli entering in her office. Looking back Athens screen she curtly nod before shutting it off without goodbye she refused herself to say.
" There will never be a goodbye"
She thought in her heart, while nodding at Raphaelli to acknowledge him. Standing to follow the man who already carried her suitcase and the files she had placed on her desk, she took a deep breath in then out to enter in her work mode.
The day was one of those where, meetings seemed to never end. It was on purpose she placed the conversation with Lorelei today, to not have time for self pity or longing as soon as they were over. The only thing she firmly believe was that they would reunited one day, by fire by force, for her there was no other way.