The car ride was the epitome of silence. Feeling fear engulfed her by how strange things were going in the luxurious car, Alicia met her sister gaze, desperate to do something that will get Lorelei out of the sadness that seemed to have taken hold of her.
Normally after an episode that reminded her of their mother she would do everything to occupied her mind, or become impersonal. This was really something else since she was unable to hide her distress anymore. Her eyes had become so sad making her looked everywhere but the to people around her.
Her gaze firmly pointed on the SUV window, focused on nothing while looking out, she was just counting the seconds that would make her close the door of her bedroom behind her. Sometimes she felt it like a curse to love like she did, with no place for something else but what she had to do. It hurt at this moment so badly, that she clenched her fingers on the door side feeling them hurt.
Alarmed by her calm behavior when she should be normally throwing a tantrum, they waited but
They could tell she was not here but far in her thoughts. For anyone else she could be looking at the passerbys, but all of them knew her very well. She was transfixed. Sloan was driving in a not normal pace, trying to get home as soon as possible without breaking the limited speed. Tensed his gaze sometimes floating to the rearview to check on her.
The air was electrified in the car, but Lorelei seemed to not mind it. It was already two years, they were in the state after that apparition no one knew about. Since then nothing. She would have thought she had dreamed it if not about the money and the jewelry send to her.
Things were moving faster around her, growing, evolving but her. Two restaurants have been opened and was doing good, they already had stars, four for the first and three for the second to be precise which made it points everyone wanted to eat in. Those were good investments for her.
Katiandra money was easy to use as said. She had found all the safe place she talked about. Made all the arrangements with her people help but the only person she wanted with her seemed to have disappeared on her.it hurt.
The numbing pain in her heart had became something she was used too. A second nature to all her days. The only things she could remember of Kate was the videos They made from the time they lived together. Those was the only reminder of the reality of her love being real. Like it really happened. Memories was blurring, like she was plagued by something erasing her memory.
The sensation always left her floating through life most of the time. Filling the gap of everyday. Waiting. When will be the next time they would see each other? Would that even happen again? Was she mad of still hoping? Maybe kate had given up on her? All those questions could make someone go mad, she could not wish it to anyone else and understood what Brian was going through.
As for herself it was a real wonder she was still sane, as it was, maybe it was her way to lost it, the way she was coping like everything was all good? Her mind could not for once leave her alone bringing out all those thoughts her self control always hide away from her.
Frowning at her reflection on the dark glass she quivered involuntarily emitting a small but painful moan. Feeling Alicia hand immediately on her back she laid her head on the glass closing her eyes for a moment.
Angry to see her like that, Alicia cursed Michaela in all the ways possible,why she had to be stupid enough to bring that topic on, was something that baffled her. What was her agenda? If it was intentionally done to have her way in the picture she would hear about it later.
Shrugging at Alicia panicked face, Kayley leaned forward taking Lorelei hand in hers. Theirs late meeting throughout the night had made them really good friends. For the instance everyone in the car knew about those rendezvous there were nothing to hide. That is why she switched places with Alicia who felt that she could not handled it as it was.
Leaning on her back almost encircling her in her arms Kayley kissed the side of her head as she would often do with Alicia until she felt her body relaxed a bit on hers. One thing she had learned about their mother, that she was really touchy.
It used to infuriated her whenever she would see her do that with Alicia but it was really useful now. As far as they have been in this foreign country she had use that many time to calm down he said Alicia. It was not difference with Lorelei.
"It is okay. I know one who always keep their promises. We all know why it is taking so much time. We all miss home you know. Having you sad make it worse." Home that is how they had came to talk about Katiandra, each time she would said that Lorelei knew it was her mother she was talking about.
Breathing shakily at those comforting words, Lorelei kept her face towards the window, feeling tired to the highest level. She had not slept well in so long. Maybe only one hour here and there. All of it and the current situation had her at her weakest pick. A lone tear that rolled on her cheek had her wiping it away quickly.
Seeing that, Kayley arms closed on her front holding her pressed on hers. It was an uncomfortable position but she could not push her to lean on her.
Quivering on itself, Lorelei felt like everything in her body was collapsing. It felt like all the longing for her soulmate was at once falling on her like a tone of bricks, tiring her heart and soul to shreds leaving nothing but an opened wound difficult to patch.
Since that night with Kate, she has kept herself busy days and nights , restlessly, thinking she should always be alert. That maybe Kate would call or come to her again. All of it for what? Only to crash because of someone words? How stupid!
"It is okay"Â leaning over her sister, Alicia said holding a hand that first resisted her, but finally let her hold it.
Pondering on Alicia words, Lorelei shook her head slowly for the first time negatively. This was not okay. It was not Okay, she was not okay. It was not okay to see her soulmate on her daughter face everyday to remind her she existed, to wait to hear her voice that was the like of her mother to connect it with some bribes that was the results of videos.
Really not okay. Her patience had run short. She felt like her throat was gradually closing, like she was on the verge of suffocating. A somersault of her body alarmed Kayley who turned totally pulled her in her embrace firmly closing her arms around her.
"It is not okay." After uttering those words she hide her face in the princess neck silent tears running on her cheek drenching Kayley clothes.Clenching her jaws she said nothing but rested her head on the side of Lorelei's, her eyes void of emotions.
She knew what the was the reality back home could be, she had leaved in its hell part for the most of her life. Therefore she could not hold it against her mother who made a difficult decision by sending them away, but could only pray for her to make more actions happening in the future.
Silence was deafening in the car only disturb by the soft sniffing that would came from the distressed woman. Alicia was petrified not knowing what to do, even the iron grip Lorelei had on her hand could not hurt her more than her sob was already doing it.
Right there she was angry at her mother for disappearing on them like that. She could have call ? do something! Anything! Sometimes even herself wondered if she was still alive. She had asked it to Norman who had responded with the affirmative and nothing else.
"It is better that way." He said was what her mother commanded. She may be her mother but sometimes she had come to wish Lorelei would be great without her, loving someone that was there for real. Someone who could talk with her, which centuries was this? People can call, some long distance relationships work. Shaking her head she inhaled closing her eyes.
The two brothers in the front seats sat silently doing their best to not show emotions. They all knew this was bad, really bad. Sloan fingers tightened on the steering wheel, he had asked for something to be done for this situation to not arise but his brother thought money was the answer. "She will be fine and forget about it"
Pfff! Where were they now!? To square zero!
Looking at his side Norman could read on his brother behavior that he had warned him. It was just saying the " I told you so" He would never voice by respect of his position of authority in their family. Rolling his tongue on his right cheek the older brother and Chef of the security sat there deflected wondering what could be done, because he knew things at Porys were degrading.
Covering her mouth with trembling fingers, Alicia shook her head to push back the tears that threatened to spill out. Her left hand still clinging on Lorelei's.
Kayley head leaned on Lorelei head kissing it repeatedly.
"It is okay. You know it is okay. You are filthy rich remember. It is only growing. How many people have that? There are poor and sad people out there. So do me a favor, cheer! Stop this self pity thing, you know I am right. I know it hurts, maybe more than I can understand, but love, you know better. Hmmm? You are rich, you can change the world for all those who cannot cry for love."
Speaking those true words was what Kayley knew her mother would do to address this situation. Pointing the true and showing its weak points. Lorelei knew that she was right. That there were less fortunate people out there that could never indulged in crying for love. That is why she came to a stop just breathing in the woman perfume which she knew was the same as her mother.
Seeing her words had touched her, Kayley embrace tightened to show her they were there for her.
"Mom may not be here Lo, but she made sure you would lack nothing to keep you in movement. She knows you. That is why you my dear are now filthy rich. I know if it was me I would be wrecking shops by how much I would love to buy all that catch my eyes.."
Instantly laughing as much as it was possible with everyone at those words, Lorelei whose face was still hidden, had at least stopped crying. Her pragmatism kicking in. She kept thinking she was fortunate to have things in her life which allowed her to create beauty, while some was dying in worst conditions or hunger They were all relieved to see her nodding her head after a while at what was said showing them she was alright. Then minutes later she was passed out on Kayley shoulder.
"She will be fine Ali. This is just tiredness speaking through her actions. You Know she doesn't sleep well. Her breaking point was coming we all know that. But what is good is we are here for her."
Nodding at her big sister words, Ali wiped her eyes breathing out with relief. She knew she was right.
"You are right Kay. Yeah. Morgan pass the message please. What in the actual thing! Seriously! What is mom doing? SHE IS THE QUEEN. I know what you have been telling me... I know but Kay-- A small, sign, will be wonderful. All that genius mind of our great mother can find a way. Seriously! There are people who have rare chance in life. Some would kill to have what she has in Lorelei. Three bloody years of waiting! And you make no effort to show up. Two without a single call? A normal human being would have snapped earlier. We do not want this situation to be similar to the one of Micheala brother. Because trust me it is i what is coming it would be short before we are not enough anymore. "
Breathing out slowly knowing it was true what Alicia was saying Kayley met Norman eyes on the rearview looking straight in his eyes. She knew she respected him and her mother more than ever but it was escalating.
" I know mother is doing her best, but tell her it is NOT THE BEST. This is important Morgan. God knows I will not last longer if I have another six months of sleepless nights. I hardly work anymore, Most of the time I feel like a zomby. Do you know how jetlagged one can feel for not sleeping throughout the night? I'm used to it now. It is almost normal but it is not what should be. It is not normal."
Leaning his head on the head rest, already thinking on how to make it happen he glanced back at the sleepy Lorelei remembering with his brother that first day she had a panick attack.
"I will do Miss Fendrik. Though it will be tricky by how difficult things are there. Your fat-- the king is going harder, you know he suspected for a long time she could want to come here. To make it impossible he restricted her movements. She is on a total scrutiny. Communication around the kingdom are restricted or openly violated. They listen to everyone. She would have called of she could Miss Alicia. She is fighting everyday to make this possible without harming anyone on the process, remember your brother is the next in line. Consequences are still possible. You may be her but they could be damages if he use them to harm her. There will be a way, for that I know. May God help."
Falling back on her back, Alicia massaged her forehead she could not believe what was being said about her father. In fact there was no contact with him since they came here which she knew could not go without consequences on their mother. This is when she started remembering all the time he will appeared wherever her and her mother was back in the palace. The woman would always be quick to shield her from him. She felt nauseated to think it was her father their thread in this life.
At first she did not understand why, but after Kayley had been send away she soon learned it was because of him. Not directly but bribes of what was said lead to that conclusion. Though it was difficult to understand everything that was not voiced for her to understand it all, she was doing her best to be positive. Because of the way Kayley spoke so greatly of their mother since they started living together.
It was like she has become her hero. She always has a pre-made excuse for her. That led her to understand that whatever that was disturbing her back in Porys was arranged by their mother. That said if she was abled to go from hatred to unflattering trust for their mother, she could keep doing it too.
looking up to the sky sending a prayer to see things change positively for her family was all she could do as the car kept racing in the limited speed to bring them in the safety of their home.