Being so close to Harry as he performed in front of thousands of fans was almost too much for words. I was in awe as I watched him prance and strut around, owning every inch of the kilt and the stage for another 45 minutes. Jeff stood just over my shoulder reminding me to breath at regular intervals, because there were tines I was so entranced by the man on stage that I genuinely forgot there was more to life than the magic he was creating in front of me.
I heaved a sigh that was equal measures relief and despair when the lights dimmed at the end of his final song. There was a commotion as his band raced off stage. There was a flurry of cheek kisses and one armed hugs as the band raced by me in front of Harry who was still soaking up the crowd and throwing anything and everything that wasn't taped down, into the crowd as souvenirs. I'm sure even without them it was a night that no one in the room was likely to forget.
"You might want to find Avery and say goodnight"
I turned to see Jeff, standing casually against a speaker, his arms folded across his chest and a dirty big smirk on his face. His dark hair was poking out from underneath the ball cap he was wearing and he looked so much like your average American guy with his plaid shirt and jeans, but I knew behind that easy American guy facade was a shrewd business man and a damn good manager. I knew Harry wouldn't be where he was without Jeff.
"What do you mean? Am I not taking her back to my parents?" I frowned in confusion.
He nodded towards Harry who was slowly making his way off stage, his grin so wide it was nearly splitting his face in two. "Lover boy has other ideas" He shrugged as I felt Harry's arm wrap around my shoulder and a sloppy kiss was smacked against my cheek.
"That was fucking incredible" Harry shouted. His warm breath fanning across my cheek as he pulled my back against his chest. I held on to his forearms to reciprocate the strange hold he had on me.
"Great show, man" Jeff clapped him on the shoulder. "Time to head out, everyone's waiting backstage"
I looked over my shoulder as Harry loosened his grip on my shoulders and we started to follow Jeff off stage. "What's going on?" I asked and Harry just smiled coyly, as he pointed out all the hazards he didn't want me to fall over.
The sound of the crowd filing out of the arena slowly died down once we were through a large set of double doors. Men descended like vultures to tear the stage down and ship it off to Birmingham for Harry's next show in a couple of days.
"What's going on?" I asked again, wrapping my fingers through Harry's as we stride down the corridor towards the green rooms. I tug on his arm trying to get him to slow down.
"S'surprise" Harry mumbled over his shoulder, his pace never faltering.
"Harry stop!" I tugged on his fingers again and forced him to turn to me. His eyes were still dancing from the adrenaline clearly still coursing through his body. He'd possibly never looked sexier in that moment. He was still the rockstar I'd just witnessed on stage. He still made my heart pump faster.
"I hate surprises H. Please just tell me what's going on?" I took a step closer to him, an overwhelming urge to be as close as I could in that moment.
He pushed a stray lock of hair over my ear and I shivered as the goosebumps erupted over my skin.
"You sure you want me to ruin it?" I pulled my bottom lips through my teeth and nodded watching him through my lashes.
He sighed like he was disappointed he wasn't allowed to surprise me but he told me anyway that he had booked us an overnight at a hotel, somewhere out in the country, for just the two of us.
"Avery's staying at your parents house" His fingers ran through my own. His eyes dropped to his feet before he looked back up. Some of the sparkle had been replaced with apprehension and I didn't like that I'd dulled his brightness but I couldn't kick the anxiety that rose from my sudden lack of control.
"But my mum and dad have never watched her overnight before" my cheeks flushed at the embarrassment. I didn't like admitting that my parents might not be capable. After all they were my parents and they could do everything, right?
Harry's hand ran through his hair which was still damp from the sweat. His hand had left it sticking up in all directions. "That's why my mums staying too. Between the three of them I'm sure they've got it covered"
My eyes widened at the sudden recognition "But I haven't expressed any milk!"
"It's fine, they have formula" A small smile played across Harry's lips as he realised I was now clutching at straws.
"How do you know they have formula?" I pushed. I didn't know they had formula and despite the fact there were plenty 24 hour supermarkets between here and my parents 4 bedroom suburban home, I was hung up on the milk.
"Because I put it there"
"Why?" Still unable to wrap my head around what was going on.
"So they could feed our baby! Jesus Christ Nora stop freaking out!" Harry's hands moved up my arms to rest on my shoulders. The pressure on my shoulders was somewhat grounding. I took a deep, cleansing breath.
"But we've never done this before" I whispered letting my real fear seep out.
Harry tilted his head assessing me. I could do nothing but let him judge me and my irrational fears. Maybe he shared them. Maybe our relationship wasn't solid enough for a night away together. Maybe the foundation of our relationship was based on our daughter and without her the relationship wasn't worth anything. Maybe that's all that was keeping us together.
"I know we haven't, Sweetheart. That's why I wanted to do it now. In the past 5 months we've spent very little time just me and you"
"Because we have a daughter." I justified quietly. Either Jeff had cottoned on to my mini freak out and was keeping everyone out of this quiet corridor or everyone was slowly filling out and we were going to be locked in and we'd miss out on our night away together and my stomach suddenly plummeted at the fleeting thought.
Harry must have sensed my mood changing as he spoke "And we're allowed a little time away from her. Mummy and Daddy need a little Nora and Harry time. We're not doing anything wrong, Sunshine."
Avery had obviously woken up between me running out of the room to get to Harry till now because as Harry and I made our way into the green room she was bouncing about in Jeff's arms, Anne and my mum hovering close by like the overbearing grandmother's they were. It was past 11 o'clock and for a second I was glad someone else had the pleasure of putting her to bed because right now she looked wired to the moon. Her crazy, dark curls were making her look more and more like her daddy as she started to loose some of her baby chub. God she was beautiful.
I plucked her from Jeff's arms and said our goodbyes as I squished sloppy kisses to her cheeks and her hair that smelled of fresh strawberries.
"Enjoy your night and don't worry about her, we've got it all under control" My mum smiled her warm, comforting smile as she eventually came to take Avery from me so we could leave.
"We're planning on just staying up all night and watching her sleep" Anne smiled as she came up to stroke Avery's head who had nestled into my mum, clearly she was getting tired again.
"Oh god, don't do that. You'll both end up knackered" I laughed as my eyes never left my daughter. I pulled her little pink cardigan up from where it had slipped down her arm. Any excuse to touch her
"It's what Grannies likes to do" My mum smiled at Anne and I could feel the ball of anxious energy in my stomach slowly dissipate as he I watched them fawn over Avery.
"Ok, time for us to leave" Harry smile coming up behind me and wrapping his arm around my waist. He was still in his kilt and part of me was pretty glad. I hoped he would keep it on as long as possible.
Eventually we said goodbye to everyone as we all began filling out the venue. The cars had all been moved right outside the door and the buses and trailers had been strategically parked so we were completely closed off from the crowds that were still waiting for a glimpse of Harry leaving the venue.
"Come on Baby Mama, she's fine" He whispered as he pulled me towards the Audi.
"I know, I've just never left her for a whole night since she was in NICU. It's a big deal" I said finally as I sank into the soft leather seats.
Harry started the engine but waited for the car taking our three parents and Avery back to my mum and dads to leave before us. I was grateful because I wanted to watch her leave before us, that way it didn't feel so much like I was leaving her, more like she was leaving me to enjoy herself. Enjoy getting spoiled by her grandparents no doubt.
"I know it's a big deal Nor'. I feel it too you know, I just know that this will be good for us" I looked up at those green eyes that had darkened with lust. My throat felt suddenly very dry.
"Ok, I'm ready to go"
*
Both of us were unusually quiet as we made our way along the motorway. As we wound our way north of Glasgow, the hum of the engine and the bounce of the car lulled me into a doze until Harry woke me up outside our hotel.
"Where are we?" I asked blearily, peering around his body that was standing in my doorway blocking my view.
"The Cromlix. Come on" He extended his hand for me and pulled my out of the car.
"The where now?..." I stared in awe over Harry's shoulder as he helped pull me up. The exhaustion had finally caught up on me because my bones felt like they were made of cotton wool. Sensing this, Harry pulled me to his chest as he shut the door behind me. Once I had my balance he slowly let me go and I got a better look at the hotel.
It looked like a castle set in acres of green fields. There we're spot lights placed strategically around the exterior of the building that lit the orange brick up from below, making it look enchanted. Harry tugged on my hand as he led me up the gravel drive and into the warmth of the reception.
*
"There's a freestanding tub in front of the window" I screeched as Harry followed me from room to room, exploring the enormous suite.
He stood in the door way, his large frame leaning against the doorway. My breath caught in my throat as I turned to see him smirking. He still had his kilt on, he'd lost the jacket somewhere along the way, his waist coat was undone and his black shirt was rumbled and hanging, untucked around his waist but he still looked delicious.
"I'm not a piece of meat, you know" his eyebrow quirked as he watched my eyes roam the length of him.
I finally returned my gaze to his. "Are you sure?" I tilted my head in question. "You look pretty damn delicious, Styles"
"Come here" He demanded but I could hear the chuckle in his voice.
I did as I was told and went to him as he held his arms open to me. I wrapped my arms around his waist as he wrapped his around my shoulders, almost using me as a leaning post. I could feel the exhaustion seeping out of him.
"You were incredible tonight" I told him as I tucked my head under his chin and he tightened his grip around me.
I felt the shift of his cheeks as they formed a smile on top of my head and I had to move to catch a glimpse of the grin. The grin that could light up any room. I couldn't help but smile back at him.
As if suddenly remembering, a twinkle took over his eyes. "What the hell happened that made you bound on stage like a mad woman tonight? How did you even get up there?"
"I jumped a barrier, climbed a stage" I shrugged casually. "No big deal"
"No big deal? You climbed a 7ft stage, that's a pretty big deal" The way his face lit up at the mention of me climbing a stage for him made my heart swell. Little did he know I'd do much more than climb a stage for him.
"You wrote me a song" I exclaimed "Now that's a big deal"
Harry shrugged, he avoided my gaze as he looked out the window over my shoulder. "Putting words on paper is the easiest way to get my thoughts out my head. Sometimes they form poems, sometimes songs. It's just what I do"
"Would you really give up everything if I asked you to?" I asked the question before I really realised I wanted to know.
Harry brought his hand up and ran his thumb from the crinkle at my eye, down till he captured my chin between his thumb and his forefinger.
"In a heartbeat, baby girl" He bent down and placed a soft kiss against my lips, barely lifting his lips from mine he continued "but only if you asked me" He smirked. "You going to ask my to give it all up, Sunshine?"
I smiled against his smirk. "Not for a second"
His cherry red lips were soft and I could taste the mint of his chewing gum. I pushed myself on to my tip toes, wrapping my fingers through the messy curls at his neck.
"You fancy me too much when I'm on stage, don't you?" Harry grinned so wide as his large hands travelled down my back till they cupped my bum and pulled my body flush with his.
I felt the heat creep up my chest and across my cheeks but there was no point in denying it. "Just a little bit" I pouted and Harry captured my bottom lip between his teeth. The scrape of his teeth along my sensitive skin sent a shiver down my back that caused me to arch my hips into Harry's.
"God, I really want to be inside you right now" Harry groaned against my mouth. A combination of his words and his low growl sent an ache directly between my legs.
"Shame it'll take me about three hours to get out of this kilt" He pouted as he captured my lips in another heavy kiss.
"Good thing I'm Scottish and I'm not phased by a little thing like a kilt" I grinned as my hands slipped from his neck to the buckles on the side of his kilt.
It took me only a few seconds to undo the buckles and unwrap him from the layers of tartan. Harry took the kilt from me and threw it on the ottoman that sat just inside the bathroom door as I pushed the waistcoat off his shoulders and started on the buttons of his shirt.
"Not a true Scotsman, I see Styles" I commented between kisses as I noticed the tight, black Calvin Kleins he had on.
"I do a lot of spinning on stage" Harry laughed as his fingers raced over mine trying to get his shirt off quicker. Once the buttons were undone we both pushed the shirt from his shoulders.
"I didnt want it all falling out on stage" He grinned once he was down to just his boxers while I was still fully clothed.
"This ratio isn't right" He commented thinking the same as me. He took my hand in his and dragged my from the bathroom. He turned and pulled me towards the bedroom.
I'd never tire of this view of Harry. The rippling muscles of his shoulders as he walked, his small waist and the tight bum that developed into his thick, muscular thighs was enough to make me drool.
"God, you should be illegal" A memory of the first night we met flashed through my mind at my words.
"Not the first time you've said that, Nor" Harry smirked over his shoulder as he pushed open the bedroom door. The room was cool and dimly lit and it was enough to chill the heat creeping over my body.
"God, you're so beautiful" Harry whispered as he stopped in the middle of the large room. The room was simply decorated, light grey walls, an unlit fireplace sat on the wall opposite the largest bed I think I'd ever seen. I just wanted to get him on that bad. The room was just warm enough to stave off the goosebumps that had erupted all over my body.
He tugged my hands so I fell into his chest. "You're wearing far too many clothes" Harry mumbled against my lips. For once I agreed and I dutifully lifted my hands above my head. I heard Harry's sharp intake of breath as my stretch pulled the hem of my dress higher up my thighs. I shivered as the pads of Harry's fingers skated across my thighs, pulling on the edge of the skirt and slowly scraping the fabric up my body, over my stomach, over my breasts, until he was pulling the dress over my head, leaving my in my sky blue, lace pants and matching bra.
Harry's eyes darkened and his breathing became slower as he stood watching me. His eyes darting from my breasts to my lips to my legs to the one place I aches for him.
"I can't believe I get to call you mine now" He growled as he slowly took a step closer to me.
"All yours" I whispered, my voicing coming out low and breathy. The effect Harry had on me without even touching me.
"You have no idea how long I've wanted this" He reached out his hands to cup my cheek then eat his hand trail down my neck, across my collarbone, down between my breasts, down across my stomach till he trailed around my stomach and up my back then he unclipped my bra. I shrugged causing my bra to fall to the floor.
"I think I have some idea" I admitted. Thinking about just how long I'd wanted the same thing.
His green eyes rose from my breasts to meet mine.
"You're so beautiful Nor" He growled so low I'm not sure I was even supposed to hear him but his possessiveness only turned me on more.
Harry took another step forward and then another and backed me up to the bed. As my legs hit the mattress he bent in to kiss me and I felt his hand at my back as he lowered me down onto the bed.
The gesture was sweet but I wasn't in the mood for sweet. I was in the mood for now.
His lips were forceful and I took everything he would give me as his tongue wound around mine. He teeth nipped at my lip as he kissed and nipped me into oblivion but his hands didn't match his mouth. One hand cupped my neck while the other traced small circles around my chest and my arms. I arched myself off the bed, willing him to move his hands lower.
"Patience, Sunshine" He murmured against my lips.
"I don't want to wait" I panted. His kissing was stealing my breath, I only wanted his body to take it away completely. "I've waited too long for this. I don't want to wait any longer"
I opened my eyes to see his bright eyes watching me intently. "You sure Nora? I can do slow and sexy" He teased as his thumb trailed down my stomach.
"I just want you inside me, Harry. Please" I begged
"I like it when you beg. Ask again" He ordered
"Harry. Please" I answered immediately
"Ok, you asked for it" He smiled against my lips and suddenly he tugged and my panties were around my knees. He tugged again and they were off.
"Jesus, Nora. You're already so wet" I sighed in pleasure as his fingers found my heat. Exactly where I needed him but they didn't spend long teasing me before he leaned away to find a condom in his wallet. I perched up on my elbows as I watched him as he knelt between my legs, pulling his boxers down freeing his uncomfortably hard erection he slipped the condom on.
He crawled back over me and positioned himself at my opening. His lips found mine again as my hands found his dick, using the tip to tease me.
We both groaned as I positioned him at my opening and for so long he didn't move, till I think he's not going to, and then suddenly he did. One excruciating inch at a time. I take him, and then I take some more. He sinks into me with a groan and I wrap my legs around him, securing my ankles at his back just so he can't go anywhere. He's squashing me against the bed, and I'm keeping him there. I've never been filled quite this way before. I feel more emotions bubbling up inside of me, but then Harry started to move and I couldn't focus on a single thing outside of what we're doing. He had me pinned under the weight of his body and it leaves me nothing to do. Nothing to distract me from the feel of him inside me and my building orgasm.
"Harry... shit" I closed my eyes and pushed my head back further into the pillow.
"Look at me, Nora" Harry growled as he kept up the intense rhythm.
My eyes shot to him. His forehead was slick with sweat, the same sweat that coated his shoulders and his back as he pushed and pushed me closer to orgasm.
I panted struggling to keep myself grounded. I was getting lost in the sensations he was creating inside me. My limbs tingled like the my were on fire, I almost felt like I couldn't take him anymore. It was too intense, his green eyes fixed on my brown ones. He lowered his lips to mine and said so much with his kiss. Despite his now frantic rhythm his kiss was deep and slow, sometimes messy, but there was so much love behind it I didn't know how much I could take.
And the answer wasn't much as I felt the tightening that started in my toes. Then suddenly his fingers found my clit and I lost it.
"Harry... I'm going to..." But before I could finish my words I was rendered speechless as the orgasm took a hold. Three more thrusts and Harry followed me over the edge, growling my name as he collapsed on top of me. His chest was heaving as he tried to catch his breath. I was thankful his body was still covering mine because I wanted to wrap myself in him.
His hands tangled in to my hair that was wild against the pillow.
"Jesus Nora" he lifted his head slightly and held his weight on his forearms on either side of my head. I wrapped my arms around his back and pulled his body as close to mine as I could. I needed to feel his heat. This connection.
"That was phenomenal" He sighed, his breathing slowly returning to normal. He rested his forehead against mine. He smelled divine. His usual smell mixed with sweat and sex.
"I love you" I whispered against his lips that were almost touching mine.
"God, I love you too" He sighed sleepily. His forearm moved as he tipped himself to the side to grab the condom as he pulled himself out of me. I winced from the friction of him leaving me and the ache in my thighs. I was going to hurt in the morning. Hell, I'd probably have bruises from where his fingers were pressed into my waist. But it was worth it. Anything was worth it for him.