Chapter 114
For someone of his status to not have been involved with anyone seems so unrealistic.
Heâs a man of high stature in both name and character.
He was attractive, powerful, an Alpha and ranked one in pack standings. Thereâs no way there werenât any women out there that wanted to have him for themselves. I was certain some had event been bold enough to declare it with him, so was he the one who turned them down? Had he chosen to stay single rather than allowing himself the pleasure of physical intimacy?
âWhyâ¦â
I find myself whispering. Its not even a a question at this point. Itâs a concept I canât grasp. He chuckles softly, taking my hand in his as he rubs his thumb soothingly across my skin. The pad of his fingers runs over my knuckles, dipping around the curves and then rising up to move to the other knuckle.
âProbably the same reason you strayed away. Iâm an Alpha. Alphas canât have distractions.â
âSo whatâs the difference with this?â
Raizel catches my eyes.
âEverything. Everything is.â
Taking my hand, he lifts it toward his face and kisses my wrist. He doesnât drop it, instead he moves.
my hand to cup his cheek. His own covering mine in a warm embrace.
âYouâre not a distraction. Youâre the real thing.â
I feel a cra ck.
A cr ack in my chest.
And then another.
And another.
And another.
But itâs not the kind of cr acks I felt Landon give me. Not the kind of cr acks that tore my heart into pieces. It doesnât hurt. Itâs almost exhilarating.
Itâs not my heart breaking.
Itâs my inner guards.
âHow are you so sure?â
I ask him, squeezing his cheek in my hand.
âHow are you so sure you arenât mistaking this?â
He merely shrugs, pulling my hand from his face and drags my palm over his chest. The pounding of his heart jolts down the tips of my fingers. The thin fabric isnât enough of a barrier to stop me from feeling him. The rhythmic pattern of his heart beats brings me endless tranquility. The way his body heaves as he breathes in, enthralls me.
âThis tells me so.â
It continues chipping away. The guard Iâve put up around my heart is slowly crumbling to my feet.
âI donât know much about our pace, but to me, now is good. How about you?â
His eyes hold no deceit. He genuinely cares for my response. I feel like if I asked him to wait for two
years, he would. Iâm almost certain. The strange connection I feel with him, assures me he would. I slowly nod, putting down all my cards and slide my hands around his chest so I could pull him into a hug. He wordlessly allows me to, burying his nose in the crook of my neck as the side of my face presses against his chest. My arms lift to wrap around him just as his does. The heart beats I loved feeling under my fingers, beating directly into my ear as I breathe him in.
âNow is good. Now is perfect.â
Noahâs POV
âIâm just saying, if the Alpha ends up pregnant, I should have Godfather rights.â
I fold my arms across my chest. The thick tension over all of us, suffocating. I feel all of their hostility, the envy and the burning hatred for me. These fools think they stand a chance. They all want my position. I know they do. But they canât have it. Not when I had the ultimate defense they couldnât go against or deflect.
âI called dibs.â
Seriously, no one respects the art of dibs anymore.
Weston rolls his eyes, shaking his head in defiance. The man was a villain. Heâs standing near the fireplace, curiously inspecting a few pictures at the top of the shelf above it. Which, by the way, I told him to stop doing a few times. I didnât want germs all over our precious family pictures.
But does he listen?
No.
Now I have to disinfect the frames from Westonitis.
Meredith and Chancellor Williams were sitting at the couch in the living room. Both of which, look amused and slightly desperate for Weston to shut up. I agree. The boy talks too much.
We decided to take refuge here after hearing the threat my lovely Alpha warranted. As much as we would love to eavesdrop, none of us were looking for an early death sentence. Honestly, I donât know if Iâm lucky or not to have been the one stumbling in that little scene. Sure I love me some gossip and I would die for some tea to spill, but that was justâ¦.
I donât even want to think about it.
âUhm, no. Iâm afraid that role is filled by yours truly.â
I look to Weston whose face reminds me so much of sand.
Salty.
Dry.
Andâ¦.
I hate sand.
âWhy would I want you to be mine? You donât see people wanting s hit, do you?â
I ask.
âItâs an expression, a sshole.â
âAn expression that gives anyone nightmares, dum bass.â
I hear Meredithâs faint âoh s hitâ in the background when Weston lunges at me. I dodge and just before anything can happen, the Chancellor is right in-between us with both arms raised.