The castle is quiet, most of its inhabitants sleeping or at the dog fight, so I reach the staircase leading down to the kennels undetected.
As I walk onward, the air gets colder and damper. Itâs as if I am heading into the jaws of a great beastâthe darkness below a hungry mouth waiting to swallow me.
When Iâm faced with the two guards flanking the heavy iron door at the bottom, I adjust my hood to make sure my hair is hidden. I pray to the Sun Goddess that they do not recognize me. Beneath my cloak, the weight of my satchel is heavy against my thigh. Itâs full of the items I stole from the apothecaryâfabric for bandages, alcohol, willow bark, and water. Items that reveal my intent to help the enemy.
âAlright, love?â says one of the guards. âWhat are you doing down here?â
I still my nerves. I remember what Sebastian said about how the Wolves are rewarded for their wins.
âIâve been sent from the brothel,â I say, making my voice sound as husky as I can.
The guard who spoke snickers and opens the door. He passes me a key.
âItâs silver,â he says as I take it. âBurns if it comes in contact with their skin. But if they try anything, give us a knock and weâll come put them down.â
The other guard looks at me with disgust when I slip inside. I am disgusted too. Disgusted at the thought of a woman coming down here and providing such a. . . service to these creatures. Disgusted that he believed I am one of those women.
When they lock me in, I am faced with a long corridorâa damp stone wall adorned with flickering torches on one side, and tall iron bars on the other.
The air is musky with mildew and sweat and blood, and my breath mists in front of my face. There is no one within the cell on my right, but ahead, I can hear a man snarling something under his breath, followed by whimpers.
Pulling my cloak close to me, I make my way down the corridor.
Someone growls from the shadows on my right and I hurry on to the next cell, where the wolf who won the fight that took place before the alphaâs is leaning against the bars, a grin on his bloody face. As I pass the next cell, a male with dark tangled hair walks alongside me.
âHello, sweetheart. Iâve got something in here for you.â He grabs his crotch through his green kilt. âDo you want to come see?â
I look away, quickening my pace. I reach the final two cells.
The alpha is sitting against the wall with his arms resting on his raised knees. Heâs snarling something through the bars at the shuddering form huddled on the floor in the middle of the final cell. My jaw sets. Hasnât he tormented the boy enough?
He shuts up as I approach and I feel his full attention on me as, hands shaking, I slip the key into the lock.
âYou shouldnât be here, Princess,â says the alpha as the lock clicks and I slip into the cell. His voice is as gruff as gravel and itâs thick with the accent of those north of the border.
My face is concealed by my hood, so I donât know if he has recognized me by some other means. Perhaps that is what he calls all women.
I kneel on the straw by the young wolf, then shrug off my cloak so I can access my supplies.
The male in the green kilt whistles as my nightgown is revealed. A low growl reverberates in the alphaâs throat, and he quietens.
I ignore them both as I slip off the satchel.
I am no stranger to healingâmy mother was ill for a lot of my childhood, and she often had bruises and scrapes. But this young male looks particularly bad. His face is bloody, and heâs writhing in pain.
âShh.â I push the coppery hair off his sticky forehead. âItâs okay. Whatâs hurting? Tell me whatâs wrong.â
I feel the alphaâs eyes on me. âI dislocated his arm,â he says.
âBe quiet,â I snap.
I wet a rag, and start to wipe the blood from the young maleâs face. Surprisingly, the bruising beneath it is not as bad as I expected. The cut across his eyebrow looks like it has already healed, and his nose is crooked, but barely swollen.
âBring him over here so I can deal with him.â
The boy winces.
I turn to glare at the alpha. âHavenât you done enough?â
He stands up and leans against the bars between the two cells, dangling his big arms through the gaps. Itâs cold in here, and even though he is dressed in nothing but a kilt, his body heat washes over me.
My pulse quickens. If he stretched, he could almost touch my hair. His expression gives nothing away as he watches me.
âYouâre brave to come here,â he says.
On my knees and in my nightgown, he seems even more imposing than he did when he was causing havoc in the ring. Even with the bars between us.
My jaw sets. âIâve faced worse monsters than you.â
Iâm not sure if itâs a trick of the torchlight flickering across his face, but I think the corner of his lip twitches.
âBring the lad to me,â he says. âAnd letâs see how brave you really are.â
I turn away from him, and lift my leather flask to the boyâs mouth. He takes a small sip of water before grimacing and laying his head back on the dirt. Heâs clutching one of his arms, and it looks red and swollen. I run my hand softly over his elbow and he groans. If I bandage it up tightly before it starts to heal, and create a sling, it might help. First, I pull the willow bark from my satchel.
âFor the pain,â I say.
âThey said you were a beauty, but I didnât know you were a redhead,â says the alpha.
âWhat has that got to do with anything?â
âNot a hair color you tend to see south of the border. Perhaps you have ancestors in the Northlands.â
âI donât.â
I put the willow bark in the boyâs mouth and he chews, looking up at me with bloodshot eyes.
âMy people say those with red hair have fire in their souls,â says the alpha.
I glare over my shoulder. My mouth dries at the intensity in his gaze, and I swallow. âI donât.â
âHm.â
I turn back to the shuddering boy.
âStop your whining,â says the alpha.
Something wild and angry grows inside me, and before I can tame it, I find myself on my feet, whirling to face him.
âHow dare you speak to him.â At my full height, my eyes align with his shoulders and I have to tilt back my head to glare up at him. âLook at him. Heâs just a boy. . . and you. . . you did that to him. Youâre a bully. And a monster. And a bloody horrible brute.â
This time, Iâm sure the corner of his lip quirks. âNo fire in your soul, huh?â
âHeâs just a child. And you were going to kill him. Are you pleased with yourself? Have you no shame?â
All the humor drains from his face and his expression darkens. âIt was your betrothed that put me in that ring.â
âSo you bear no accountability for your actions? Is that what youâre saying?â
A low growl reverberates in his throat. âI had no choice.â
âThere is always a choice,â I snarl back. âIt may not be an easy choice. But it is a choice nonetheless.â
His breathing is hard, and he swallowsâas if pushing down whatever emotion my words have provoked. âWhat would you know about choices, Princess?â
âEnough.â
He drags his teeth over his bottom lip. âI wonder if youâll be so brave when there are no bars to separate us.â
âThere will always be bars to separate us.â
âWill there?â
My heartbeat quickens at his toneâat the implication in itâand from the curl of his lips I wonder if he can hear it.
He turns his attention to the boy as though he is done with me. âGet over here,â he snarls.
âNo,â the boy whimpers.
âStop being such a bloody great wuss.â
âI told you to leave him alone,â I snap.
âAnd I told him to get over here.â The alphaâs eyes narrow on the boy. âAnd itâs the second time heâs disobeyed me in just as many days.â
âWhy on earth would he obey you?â
He sighs as though Iâve asked the most exasperating question in the world. âWhat is he wearing?â
âWhat?â
He nods at the boy, and I look down at himâat his pale slender chest, then the red tartan kilt he wears.
âAnd what am I wearing?â he asks.
I turn back to the alpha, noting his kilt, made from red tartan. My gaze inadvertently drops to his calves, which are as thick as tree trunks. I swallow hard.
âTheyâre the same, aye?â he says.
âSo?â
âSo! You destroy our lands, steal from us, do your experiments on us, kill us, imprison us, and still you donât know a damn thing about us.â He shakes his head, and sighs. âWeâre from the same clan. Heâs one of mine. The wee shiteâs called Ryan.â He glares at the boy. âAnd if he doesnât get his arse over here, then he wonât be coming with me when I leave.â
âI. . . Why would he. . .â I frown. âWhat do you mean, when you leave?â I fold my arms and look pointedly at the cell he is confined within. âI hardly think youâre going anywhere anytime soon.â
He shifts, folding his corded forearms through the bars. âNo?â
âNo.â
âWhy do you think Iâm here, Princess?â He looks pointedly around his dank cell. âFor the accommodation?â
âYouâre here because youâre an enemy of the kingdom. And youâre a prisoner. And a wolf. And,â I add, somewhat shrilly, unsure of why heâs getting under my skin so much, âbecause you killed three men and almost killed this poor boy.â
He shrugs a big shoulder. âBe that as it may, I donât plan on staying for long.â
I grit my teeth, my breathing faster than it should be. I donât know what is wrong with me. I am a master of my emotions. I have been all of my life. I have pushed them down far enough that most of the time, I forget they are even there.
Why is this prisonerâthis wolfâprovoking this wildness inside me? âSo, what? You actually think youâre going to escape?â
âAye.â
âIf youâre so certain, why on earth would you tell me? Thatâs not very smart, is it?â
âWhat are you going to do, Princess? Tell your betrothed?â He shakes his head. âI donât think so. Because that would mean telling him you came down here. And I donât think youâll want him to know about that, will you?â
My blood turns cold and the alpha smiles wickedly.
âNow you have a choice, Princess. Bring the lad to me so I can fix his arm, then you can make him a sling. Or leave him here to suffer.â
âThatâs. . . thatâs why you want him to come to you?â
âHis shoulder is dislocated.â He points at the whimpering form on the ground. His hand is close enough that I feel a waft of air at the movement. âLook at how his arm is jutting out at that angle. If I donât fix pop it back into the joint, heâll lose use of it until he can see a healer up north. And thatâll slow me down. Bring him to me so I can fix it. And be quick about it.â
He speaks like a man who is used to people doing as he tells them. Yet he is in no position to be barking orders at me.
âYou were going to kill him,â I say.
âAnd you stopped me. And now Iâm going to save him. But only if you do as I say.â
I furrow my brow. âIf this is a trick to. . . to try and get the key from me or something, you should know that itâs silver, and there are armed guards outside anyway.â
âAye, I figured as much. Itâs no trick. And I donât need you to get me out of the kennels.â
He says the word with the same distaste as I did earlier.
I look into his eyes, almost evergreen in the darkness. Again, I feel that strange tug on my soul. And for some strange reason I believe him.
I sigh and, as if sensing my submission to his will, he inclines his head. âBring the lad to me.â
I take a deep breath, then I crouch down. âRyan,â I say softly. âYou need to get up so we can help you.â
He groans. âI donât want to.â
âYou have a choice,â I tell him. âBut if you choose not to get up, youâll likely die.â
âI wish Iâd never come here.â He glares over my shoulder.
âAye, I wish you hadnât too,â says the alpha darkly. âBut here you are. So stop acting like an insolent pup and do as youâre told.â
Ryanâs sharp jaw sets, and he looks as if heâs about to throw a temper tantrum. But then he sits and I see the alpha is right. His shoulder is swollen, and his arm is out of place. It must hurt.
I help him up, and he drags his feet across the dirty floor as I lead him across the cell.
âGood lass,â says the alpha.
Something heats inside me. Who does he think he is, speaking to me like that? He is a prisoner, someone from the wolf clans no less, and Iâm daughter of the king. I glare at him but he has already turned his attention to Ryan.
He turns the boy around, then pulls him backwards into the bars, hooking a large arm across his chest. He grabs his good shoulder to hold him steady. Ryan whimpers, his breathing growing rapid, as the alpha takes hold of his other forearm and runs his hand down it.
The alphaâs eyes flick to mine. âWhy do the guards think youâre here?â
âI. . .â I force myself to meet his gaze, even though I feel suddenly warm. âI told them I was from the brothel.â
He smirks and my cheeks flame. âThat should work.â
He makes a sudden movement.
âFUCK!â roars Ryan.
The horrible wolf in the next cell chuckles. The alpha grins, too.
âAh, be quiet, you big wuss.â He musses Ryanâs hair as the boy mutters obscenities under his breath. He shoves him gently toward me. âYouâll need to make a sling forââ
âI know,â I snap.
I lead Ryan to the wall and sit him down, grabbing the fabric from my satchel and crouching before him. His face is bright red and his breathing is shuddery as I slide the bandage beneath his forearm, then bring the top end around the back of his neck.
âYou donât like being told what to do,â observes the alpha.
âNo one likes to be told what to do.â
âSome people like it.â I can hear the smirk in his tone and I look up at him, confused. He shakes his head. âNever mind.â
He watches me in silence as I tie the two ends of the bandage together above Ryanâs collarbone.
Iâm just finishing up when the main iron door screeches open.
I still, panic writhing inside my stomach as I imagine what Sebastian will do to me if he catches me here.
A womanâs sultry laughter seeps through the darkness and I let loose a breath.
âWhoâs been a good boy?â she coos, as if speaking to a dog, and I tense. âWhoâs a good boy and deserves his treat?â
The horrible wolf who whistled at me chuckles. âIâve been a good boy,â he leers. âYou can come in here, sweetheart.â
âOh, yes?â Her sweet rose-scented perfume permeates the dank air as her footsteps get closer. âAnd what about you? They say youâre an alpha. Is that true? Iâve always wanted to bed an alpha.â
I look over my shoulder.
A pretty woman with long blonde hair leans against the bars of the alphaâs cell. Her lips are painted bright red, and her cheeks are rosy. Her dark cloak hangs over one shoulder and reveals that sheâs not wearing anything underneath.
She flutters her eyelashes, but the alpha keeps his back to her.
âNo?â she coos. âAre you sure? How about now?â
She drops her cloak, revealing her naked body. I tense, my eyes widening. I have never seen anyone unclothed before. A muscle feathers in the alphaâs jaw and his gaze remains on me.
âVery well, pet.â She pouts. âI suppose youâll just have to watch.â
She unlocks the door to the next cell and saunters inside, hips swaying.
âThatâs it, sweetheart,â leers the horrible wolf, looking her up and down. âGet over here. Iâve got something for you.â
He pushes her to her knees and my heartbeat starts pounding too fast, too hard, as she smiles up at him. What is she doing? Why is she. . .?
The alpha before me shifts to the side, partially blocking them from view. âItâs time to leave, Princess.â
His low voice doesnât cover the wet sucking sound that comes seconds later, and the horrible things the wolf is snarling under his breath in the next cell. All the warmth drains from my body and Iâm frozen.
Is she. . .? With her mouth?
âPrincess.â There is a command in the alphaâs tone.
Iâm distracted by the blur of movement in the shadows of the cell beyond as the wolf flips the woman over so sheâs on her hands and knees, and mounts her from behind.
If you wish to be taken like a common mutt, that can be arranged tomorrow night after the ceremony. Sebastianâs threat floods my mind and my heart beats faster, a trapped bird unable to escape its cage.
The man grunts, thrusting harder, his face twisted and ugly. The womanâs hair swishes in front of her face as her whole body jerks. Her hands slide through the dirt and her knees scrape against the cold hard ground. She must be in pain. And the sounds sheâs making. . .
Dots dance in front of my eyes.
Tomorrow night. Tomorrow night this will happen to me.
The shadows tighten around me, bind me. I canât move. I canât breathe. I am trapped. A prisoner. Iâm always a prisoner. I cannot escape this.
Who knows, perhaps I will throw you into the kennels afterwards.
The womanâs moans become louder, high-pitched.
âThatâs it,â snarls the wolf. âTake it, you dirty little bitch.â
âYes,â she cries back. âYes.â
Perhaps I will even let this alpha have a go with you, seeing as you have denied him his kill.
My throat tightens. I canât swallow. I canât breathe. I clutch my chest. The darkness swims around me. The air is liquid and Iâm drowning in it.
âPrincess,â the alpha barks. âLook at me.â His rough voice cuts through the swirling whirlpool that is sucking me underâstrong and demanding obedience.
Slowly, I turn my head.
âThatâs it. Keep your eyes on me.â Heâs crouching down so heâs almost at my level, big hands curling around the bars between us. I donât know when he moved. âDeep breaths.â
I do as he says, and some of the tightening of my chest loosens.
âThatâs it. Breathe in. Breathe out.â The raging waters become lapping waves as his voice washes over me. âBreathe in. Breathe out.â
Everything feels far away. Horrible sounds echo around the cells, but I keep my gaze fixed on the face in front of mine. I keep breathing. His expression is unreadable.
âThatâs it. Easy now.â His voice is surprisingly gentle. âGood lass.â I snap back into my body. âAre you okay?â
âFine,â I say, my tone clipped, my voice hoarse. Because Iâm not, and he knows it, and now I am weak. I avert my gaze, but something pulls it back again. âIâm fine.â
He studies my face, and I study his. He is younger than I first thought. Beyond the warrior physique, the layers of grime, and unkempt hair, there is brightness in his eyes and a youthful glow to his skin. I think he may be in his mid-twenties at most.
The noises behind him get louder and faster. âYouâd best be taking your leave now, Princess. The ladâs okay. You did a brave thing coming here.â
I turn to Ryan, who is watching me with a strange expression.
The horrible wolf roars.
Ryanâs nose wrinkles. âI wish Iâd never fucking come here,â he mutters again.
I take a deep breath, then stuff the spare bandages and the water flask back in my satchel. I throw on my cloak, pulling the hood over my head. It takes me two attempts to do up the fastening due to my trembling fingers.
I hurry out of the cell and lock it behind me.
The alpha stalks across his cell as I pass, his eyes dark. Iâm only a few paces away when he says something.
I halt. âWhat?â
For a moment, all I can hear is the horrible panting sound from the next cell.
âHe wonât touch you,â says the alphaâhis voice barely audible.
âWho?â
âSebastian. He wonât touch you.â His tone is so dark, so certain. I turn to face himâraising my head to meet his gaze.
âHe is to be my husband,â I say softly.
Again, I am reminded of the rugged mountains when I look at him. His stance is dominant, powerful, and his face could be carved from rock. His eyes, though. . . those eyes. . . something that looks like remorse, or regret, passes over them.
âNo,â he says, his voice equally quiet. âNo, he isnât.â
Does his plan for escape involve murdering Sebastian? Something inside tells me I should feel something about that. Sadness. Gladness. Anything.
I feel nothing.
I wonder if my body, this vessel that I trap my soul within, is slowly turning to stone. A statue for men like Sebastian to look at that has no purpose, no desire, no feeling.
And yet. . . as the alpha stares at me, something stirs.
I swallow hard. Then I look awayâaverting my eyes from the horrible wolf and the naked womanâand hurry to the main iron doors.
I feel alphaâs eyes on my back as Iâm let out of the kennels.