Chapter 50: forty eight

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"Are you done dwelling in self-pity?!" A voice asks, disturbing the

calmness he was enjoying until now, Adryan doesn't take his eyes away

from the twinkling stars that were scattered throughout the sky.

The person takes a seat beside him on the cliff with legs dangling, they

were on the cliff that was situated deep in the forest, underneath it was

surrounded by water. No wolf wandered so far into the territory hence

why Adryan liked to come here and spent some alone time mostly to

think and relish in the quiet.

"You know running away from things doesn't magically present you

with a solution,” The person says, looking out at the sky as well.

“I'm not running away from anything," he says back, which makes the

person look at him in amusement, he tries to ignore her look but turns

to face her when she doesn't deter from her blatant staring at him.

"She wants to meet you, she didn't physically ask about you, it was

more of her looking up eagerly whenever the door to her room would

open, she even tried sniffing out your scent but you already know that

she couldn't scent you since you have been hiding there all the time.”

the person says.

Adryan stays quiet for a while, "Why are you telling me this Joan?!" he

"Because you need someone in your life to guide you," Joan says.

"I never asked for your help or guidance.” he retorts.

"You're right, you didn't, because you'd rather die than ask anyone for

help. Am I right?!" Joan says sarcastically, but her words were also

meant to be a jab. She was one of the few people along with Jade,

Brian, and Violet who got away with insulting him. He ignored her jab

like usual.

"Why are you here Joan? Is it because you feel the need to insult me,

everyone, in while?" Adryan asks her.

She stares at him for a few moments, "You know why I'm here, don't

you?" it wasn't a question, but a statement. They both were aware of

what she was talking about.

"You should go see her, she had been looking for you," Joan says

causing Adryan to look at her suspiciously.

"I'm not lying if that's the reason you're staring at me like that, boy.”

"I'm not hiding” Adryan bares his teeth at her, to which she just rolls her

rise.

"You know showing your teeth at me isn't going to intimidate me, boy.

I'm centuries old and have been here long enough to not be affected

by Alpha male power." Adryan hated it when she called him that, boy.

As if he wasn't a grown male capable of making his own life decisions.

It also felt like she was condescending to him by calling him immature

indirectly.

Both of them stay silent for a while, "Do you think her soul is at peace?”

he asks in a low voice after a while, his face tilted towards the sky,

looking at the twinkling stars in the sky, Joan imitating his actions.

"She is, she's more at peace up there than she was ever down here”

Joan replies, her voice light. "Also she would want you to move on, not

give up your chance at finding your happiness again” Adryan stiffens

when Joan brings her up, his fur bristling, fists clenching as claws dug

into his palms. Adryan and Joan both knew he was asking her about his

mother, not about her, he never asked about her.

Adryan turns to stare at Joan, his blue eyes turning red as his Lycan

fought to come out.

"I had told you not to talk about her ever again,” he says through

gritted teeth, his cuspids piercing his gums, causing them to bleed, he

could taste the familiar metallic taste of blood on his tongue. His

breathing uneven with the need to shift.

Joan feels anger course through her at his words, "You think I can just

forget about her so easily? She was my only family left, She was my

niece, I was responsible of looking after her after her parents died, I'd

promised my sister I would do so and I failed her" tears glisten in guilt

filled eyes.

Adryan looks away from Joan, his anger vanishing with her words.

Claws and cuspids retracting immediately. Adryan had also felt the guilt

too, he could sometimes feel them weighing his shoulders down, often

he tried to brush it off but sometimes he felt the familiar tugging in his

chest.

"Talk to her" Joan repeats her words from earlier, and with that Adryan

finds himself alone once again.